I use all kinds of drugs
To minimize the pain 
when you took my autonomy away

I know just the right dose 
To help me feel alright
Even if it’s just for a day


Pre-chorus
Cause there’s no taking back what you did
There’s no getting past this

Chorus
You want to play the nice guy
I know you’re not
The righteous court of public opinion
Will take its shot
if I’m going down
Yeah if I’m going down
You’re coming with me
   
Numb is not a feeling
Just a sensation	                                   
To cover up all that’s going on

Kinda like how you wanted
To keep it a secret
Cause you always knew it was wrong

Pre-chorus
Cause there’s no taking back what you did
There’s no getting past this

Chorus
You want to play the nice guy
I know you’re not
The righteous court of public opinion
Will take its shot
if I’m going down
Yeah if I’m going down
You’re coming with me

Bridge
PTSD is a friend of mine
long hours spent idling by
Forgetful and worried all the time
Would you even know what that’s like

Chorus
You want to play the nice guy
I know you’re not
The righteous court of public opinion
Will take its shot
if I’m going down
Yeah if I’m going down
You’re coming with me

Nice Guy

The first time I saw you, you had your back turned
Should’ve known then you’d be a lesson to learn
The two of us in the arcade room
You said I’m leaving I said me too
               
chorus
Shall we call it fate or mistake, we fell in love    
again,   again,                      again
A disappointment, a clairvoyant
Tried to warn me against, against, against 
We can’t be friends 

A safety pin kept me a liar
Your humility was just a quagmire
You saw my heart on my sleeve
You kept yours so out of reach
                   
chorus

BRIDGE
Turns out I like you 
Though it’s not a case of serendipity
Times of cohesion just too few and far between
Don’t act surprised you and I were never meant to be
I don’t know why we thought this would end happily
   
chorus

Clarity

Verse 1            
I use my last quarters
To make a payphone call
The sound of your voice so far away
You are so confident you do not hesitate
You tell me this was all a big mistake 

chorus
Im so angry at you 
I don’t say your name
Baby is how I would call you
Now nothing is the same 

Verse 2
Crystal blue waters 
Gray and muddied now 
Every stone is slightly overturned 
I’m a lonely traveler
Weary in this state
Trying to find ground that isn’t burned 

chorus

Bridge         
Why’d you have to go and mess this up
I was happy with you
This power play injured my trust
Checkmate you lose
I do too

chorus

Nothing is the same

Hes got a nice smile 
he sees only light
When the house is fire 
I’d like to try
To have his piece of mind
But I know I’m not a liar 

CHORUS
You’ll say I’m melodramatic 
Cuz I hate
always acting
Like it’s fine to feel like I’m
Drowning 
For one more day 

flames dance around
A carousel of fear
Come alive in my head
I’m paralyzed
Standing in a field
Of roses left for dead

CHORUS
You’ll say 
You wish i was different
Well play pretend in the kitchen 
I’ll cook and tell you you’re perfect 
For one more day

I dress revenge 
And get just what i asked for
All these fond memories
I’m coming back into my person
Why does it feel heavy 

CHORUS
I’ll say I wish you were different
But you’ll stay selfish and hidden
Away from all of your problems 
For one more day

Play pretend

fog rolled in
Covering all of my windows
so surreal 
Why does a good thing
Have to go away 

Chorus
I saw the whole year
I saw the potential
I just wanted to feel like a person again 

all quiet
The price to pay for happy pills 
I submit
I’m not entitled to happiness

Alt chorus 
Kiss me for the last time
I know you’ve got to go
I just wanted to feel like a person again 

Bridge
Am I just wanting what I can’t have??
Maybe it’s not forever
But is that so bad

Chorus
I saw the whole year
I saw the potential
I just wanted to feel
Like a person again

Like a person

A mile away

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