https://open.spotify.com/track/1GYNdqEToqomnyh2EaZDqQ

produced by @splashgvng
mixed by me & @seejayxo

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
and now i wish i never woke up
and i dont wanna get your hopes up

so i won't tell you that its okay when its not
you don't even wanna know babe, what i got-
going on inside of my brain, its a lot
kill me, it'll be a cold case and i'll rot
somewhere nobody can find me
won't you kill me so kindly?
rot where nobody can find me
won't you kill me so kindly?

[@seejayxo]
baby you know how to kill me softly
fucked up now you barely want me
how i fall in love so easily?
you don't wanna know where they'll find me
dropped a pill in my hi-c, im feelin it now
i just want your love but its never around
i don't need you now, i don't need you

pull up in a range yeah, hear what i say when im talking
you a bitch and i hate you and i love you and i tell you that often
no shame i don't even know her name but im fuckin'
and i still feel the pain, probably never be the same but it's nothin'

[@lottaheart]
so i won't tell you that its okay when its not
you don't even wanna know babe, what i got-
going on inside of my brain, its a lot
kill me, it'll be a cold case and i'll rot
somewhere nobody can find me
won't you kill me so kindly?
rot where nobody can find me
won't you kill me so kindly?
[x2]

kill me w/ seejayxo [splashgvng]

Lyrics:

i could kill a fucking heart expressing how i felt
solitary with these thoughts is an existential hell
i'm only visiting i won't be here for long
preach good decisions while i rip another hit out of this bong
i can see right past ur face into ur mind 
if i send this fucking message i swear it's suicide  
i'll ask you every single option that i have
to make it right
and then in desperation complete the cycle and the questline

so what i'm just a monster with a mop
earning 12.50 an hour 9-5 upon the dot
it's me the janitor you know so very well
i just vented every thought of mine through songs to break my shell
and i
haven't made those in a week
and i'm getting so scared that this could be the end of my
career and it worsens my fear 
so i contemplate
all of the things that i'll never find
days turn to weeks
then to months then to years
could this project ever get done in time
pushed it back twice 
and the rush is a lie
n i'm sitting here stuck on a fucking line
i was a sight seer
i spent the night here
hang on a lease
while i ruin my teeth
and make sense of some things that should never rhyme

and i

and i hide my fucking feelings 
from my friends
and raise my walls
they can see a couple cracks
but they've not seen a thing at all
cement breaks
it's tempting
to breakdown
and lay waste

janitor pt. II

Lyrics:

oh i hope you're sleeping good now
i'd like 2 try again somehow
it's just been a really long time
your touch could save this really bad night
i been digging deep to see if i could find my powers
i know there's people backin me but it feels less so by the hour
"that's jus bout as forward as i can take"
there's a billion other ppl who move like her jus the same

when you run out of questions you don't just run out of answers
you run out of hope

-

i couldn't save him
he's our family too
you can't save everyone like that
but you can try

superman

Find My Way

Find My Way w/ Hero.

lyrics

it feels smooth like it’s streamline 
i’m heading for the top and when i’m done take a steep dive
u wanna come with, i’ll cradle u in the mean time
i’ll act like i got it all together for 
just for u

just for u x 8

hold me like theres no other way
don’t stare at my tusks i was spawned in the grey
i’m like a creature too aware too hide in its cave
so i crawled out think but think that i’ve made a mistake

but i want to experience the life it would take 
coz i’ve always wondered what its like to be great
it’s tied like our souls it is sealed in our fate
i wanna love so fucking hard but i think its too late
girl i think its too late

trip me i wont fall
tip me just like a seesaw
feel i’m on the edge but i’m right against the wall
hurt me, i want more

standing at the top of a glacier
it’s all fog, im so cold, i think i’m lost
snow prints from the ground show a mannequin
at what cost, the wind blows, i’m so lost

hold me like theres no other way
don’t stare at my tusks i was spawned in the grey
i’m like a creature too aware too hide in its cave
so i crawled out think but think that i’ve made a mistake

made a mistake, tied too many souls with this fate
need to escape to somewhere that can hold peace, like a lake
i can explain but these thoughts just travel off like it’s bait
you gave it time of day, thats what they call wrong time wrong place

hold me like theres no other way
don’t stare at my tusks i was spawned in the grey
i’m like a creature too aware too hide in its cave
so i crawled out think but think that i’ve made a mistake

but i want to experience the life it would take 
coz i’ve always wondered what its like to be great
it’s tied like our souls it is sealed in our fate
i wanna love so fucking hard but i think its too late
girl i think its too late

no other way

no other way (jacob vallen)

The university avenue sessions - A big stack

Step into the serene and introspective world of Starlight Express - Night Falls. A mellow lofi chill beat that evokes the calm of night, quiet thoughts, and subtle nostalgia. Perfect for studying, relaxing, or simply drifting through evening reflections.

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WELCOME TO MY LONELY WORLD U LIL LONELY GIRL 
.
twitter: @myemofruit
instagram: @emofruits
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lonely world outro <//3
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do u see what i dont see 
do u bleed when i dont bleed
i die little more every week
maybe its time that i dont breathe
do u see what i dont see 
do u bleed when i dont bleed
i die little more every week
maybe its time that i dont breathe 

i cant sleep 
yeah i cant sleep 
maybe its these drugs inside of me
im sorry that u see this side of me 
im sorry that u see this side of me
yeah im lost 
yeah i know
good drugs
and bad hoes
im cold 
yeah so cold
im on my own 
yeah im on my own
.
-ur friendly neighborhood fruits

LONELYWORLD 

lonely world outro (prod. domyno music)

vocals by @guccihighwaters + @sulphs

other platforms: ffm.to/deadly-weapon

{lyrics}

guccihighwaters:
falling shorter than
what i expected
baby use me
i'm a deadly weapon
off the shit and i cannot feel my face now

sulphur:
i'm sick of this shit
relapse
i can't stay clean
this bullshit always happens to me
i'm not strong enough to stand on my own two feet
i'm not strong enough to push through another week
i'm breaking more and more everyday
and no one seems to care
they just watch me decay
please vacate the premises
i'm about to end my whole existence
and i've tried and tried to fix this
cried and cried

deadly weapon (feat. guccihighwaters + sulphur)

lying2 (prod. 2k6)

follow tali on instagram @tali.outside

lyrics

i’m really sorry but i didn’t want it to be like this
but, i look around at everything i’ve broken
including myself
and it’s not a reflection i want to stare back at 
or a driveway i could pull into
it’s the walls that hold everything inside
that collapse first
or how your subconscious mind can take the devil on your shoulder and turn him into you
when you realize that home wasn’t ever really a place
and it was a person that you looked to a sole being to fulfill the feeling of warm blankets or a mother’s embrace
when you look to yourself and realize you don’t recognize that person anymore
that the hatred inside of you, that you had for yourself
destroyed everything that meant something
how substances could create an escape that would cause a voluntary trip into blackout
where you don’t remember what you said 
or what they said..
because you are completely alone
you could sit on the cold steps, shaking in a place that you don’t know 
but realize that you don’t have anyone
when you realize you’ve spent all your time checking to see if they were okay 
not even knowing the meaning of the word
when you learn to accept all the dreadful things that the people have told you that created this person you don’t know
this person that you don't know
so let’s sit down together
and call this misery
the only thing that you and i can see
and how we could ask for sympathy
knowing that life cuts us out whether we matter or not..

follow tali on instagram @tali.outside
written by tali
produced whyloner

children of the night tag by gucccifer

how we ask for sympathy

children of the night

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