i feel like i havent uploaded in forever!!! im sure its obvious,, but this one is abt a breakup. it's about knowing it's good for me and knowing i always wanted it to end deep down, but regardless i still feel really depressed about it and it still hurts. if u like the song and have the time pls interact/share!!! it would mean quite a lot to me <33

Grieving Period - Original Song - Vampire Honey

i wrote this yesterday morning,, very emotional one. sorry i havent been uploading anything for a while ! 
the song is about a breakup that i knew was inevitable, but still painful nonetheless. i still love the person very much and i don't hate them nor have any anger/resentment for them, but the pain and emptiness of how i felt in the relationship was making me miserable. lyrics posted below--

You don't kiss me unless I kiss you
You don't miss me 'till I want you to
Now you don't even say I love you unless you say it back

And I love you as you're on your own
But the way you love me feels so cold
You treat me like a friend, I didn't ask for that

You told me weeks ago
That you love me
You said you're sorry 
Like you hated the way that it tasted
I wrote you a song
You said maybe
Why don't you hate me
I don't think that I could
But I feel wasted

I tried to convince myself
that you love me, but you're no damn help
'Cus you just don't line up with the words that I force out of you

You've never once told me you think I'm beautiful
I tell you every second I open my eyes
Yet every minute I imagine you leaving feels like agony
And every time you do, you seem just fine

Wasted - Original Song - Vampire Honey

this song is about being afraid to love people; feeling like knowing someone and getting close to them is unfamiliar and terrifying.

lyrics:

i'm scared of what i cannot see
i'm bleeding, it sticks in my teeth
i'm difficult to deal with
needles sticking out my skin
you make me wanna write you letters
sign it with a bloody tether
sell my love for a pretty penny
if i don't, then you'll never tell me

you scare me too much to
hold your hand
what if it's cold and dead?
it's always too much, back up
i'm not ready for another promise
cut the ties, no lovers, call it
UFO in the stars
laying still on my beating heart
it's always been my least favorite part
'cus i can't tell you, 'i might love too hard'

well maybe if i cut you off
you'll never be the one i want
if i don't care i'm never dying
push you away, i won't be lying
face down in every ditch
i don't wanna look, makes me sick
too pretty to look at in the light
sunburn and it hurts my eyes

don't you feel something
just watching me eat myself alive?
oh how it scares me i won't be your only
till the day i fucking die, oh

you scare me too much to
hold your hand
what if it's cold and dead?
it's always too much, back up
i'm not ready for another promise
cut the ties, no lovers, call it
UFO in the stars
laying still on my beating heart
it's always been my least favorite part
'cus i can't tell you, 'i might love too-'
UFO in the stars
laying still on my beating heart
it's always been my least favorite part
'cus i can't tell you, 'i might love too hard'

UFO ☆ Original Song ☆ Vampire Honey

I play ukulele a lot, but I don't believe I've posted any ukulele songs on here so I figured I'd try ?? This song makes me very emotional, so I'm sorry if my voice seemed uneven/off key at times. Please give me feedback, a like, etc. if you listen! <3 - oli

Slow Dancing in the Dark by Joji (ukulele cover)

This is a song I wrote about my past self, when I was 13. It's about how I didn't wanna grow up when I was 13, and I wish I could tell my old self that I'm different now, but I'm not. 
Any feedback, likes, listens, etc. would mean the world to me!! I've written other songs and done covers, so if you liked this once, please check them out!
-Oli

Yellow Year (Original Song) - loserhomecoming

I know I haven't posted anything in a while, because I tend to over analyze my songs and continue editing them to the point I hate them; but this is a song I wrote that means a lot to me, and I've just kinda forced myself to put it out there even if I don't believe it's perfect. The song is about how being abused as a child has shaped who I am today. I hope you enjoy it! <3

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Soap - Original Song - Vampire Honey

This one was recorded in one take with a lot of background noise, but it felt a lot more pure/raw compared to my other songs. It was very emotional for me, and I still like how it turned out. I'm gonna post the lyrics here since sometimes I think what I say is hard to understand.
I hate crying over you
'Cause I know that you don't do it too
I'm just as selfish as I used to be
My love, won't you tell me that you lied?
So I don't believe you're still the love of my life
I'm just as hateful as I used to be

Cigarettes 
Never touched my lips
But now that you're gone
I might pick up a habit
Why do I
let you rule my mind?
'Cause I don't wanna be done
and you have finally had it

I hate holding all the blame
'Cause I can't live with all of the shame
And I still don't know if I'm the problem
You told me that you wanted to stay
but then you left me in a couple days
Am I selfish or are you the problem?

Cigarettes 
Never touched my lips
But now that you're gone
I might pick up a habit
Why do I
let you rule my mind?
'Cause I don't wanna be done
and you have finally had it

[ooh]
Am I angry 'cause I don't know when you stopped loving me?
[ooh]
Or am I crying 'cause this is not how it's supposed to be?
Or am I crying 'cause this is not how it's supposed to be?

Cigarettes - Original Song - Vampire Honey

i was considering posting one on electric guitar instead, but i really like how this one turned out!! i hope y’all like it ❤️

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