Cover of "Cocaine Lights" by Phosphorescent. 

This track came into my life when I was close to someone who was really struggling with their addiction, and I used to imagine him listening to this in the late afternoons/evenings when he would wake up. But beyond the surface of the theme, the song to me is a poem about someone who knows the feeling of loss on a deeper level, loss and the incredible need for grace. The second verse is my personal favorite, and I'm very grateful to Matthew Houck for these words and this melody. 

Lyrics:

In the darkness
After the cocaine lights
I will miss you
More than ever

And to color my eyes into rose
Is to ask of my beaten bones
To be less of meat and stone
And more of feather

But Lord they're rolling me away
Ain't they rolling me away
Don't they roll oh oh oh

In the morning in the kitchen
I can hear my own blood clicking
So I stand there and I listen
Til the glowing begins

There is light that pours sweet from new hips
There is beer that pours sweet through my lips
There is gold where the cold button sits
It's just a showy amen

And in the hallway, in a slip
She says 'hey, don't you like my newest trick'
And I say "yeah that's a pretty good trick
Would you show me again'

And lord I truly am awake
And lord, truly I am afraid
And, lord, truly I remain…

In the darkness
After the cocaine lights
I will miss you
With no warning

I will recover my sense of grace
And rediscover my rightful place
Yes and cover my face
With the morning

VanessaVelasquez