A song about depression

Lyrics:

A vanta-black hole
eradicates myself
sucks everything in
including my soul
a cold radiation
is melting my heart
into vanta-black gravy
it's falling apart

my heart drips black lithium
and the hole sucks it like vaccuum

i see my spirit
passing away
an empty shell of dust
i am

served on a golden plate
i'm dronwing in my eternal hate
ash to ash and dust to dust
i get devoured by my own frust

my life ain't fair
it's a nightmare
nobody dares
to take a care
just no comrad
to share my fate
it makes me mad
feeds all my hate

It feeds my hate
is this my fate ?
it feeds my hate
that just delates
It feeds my hate
is this my fate ?
it feeds my hate
that just delates

I can't stain and explain this pain
to escape it theres only one way

cut alone
bleed alone
swim alone
dive alone
and drown

drug alone
poisen me
hang alone
crash alone

jump alone
fall alone
gas myself
electrifying me

pass alone
die alone
kill alone
suicide me

Unspoken

A song about religions & sects

Lyrics:
Surrounded by control
surrounded by betray
protected by the god
as long as you do pray
your arms in holy chains
hallowed blood in your veins
isolation for fairy-tales
following blind destructive trails

waste your energy
for our conspiracy
lay your money on the plate
to avoid getting our hate

the world is forced by odium
so the people follow the opium
written in books of lies and poems
the people are blinded by opium

Fanatic Lunatics

blooded hands hidden and kept in the dark
the golden facade of lies covers the evil monarch
propaganda in all shapes spreads like a plague
the actor of marionettes keeps in vague

the eyes are everywhere
you can't hide anywhere
the truth is nowhere
your rescue elsewhere

the world is forced by odium
so the people follow the opium
written in books of lies and poems
the people are blinded by opium

Fanatic Lunatics Fanatic Lunatics
Fanatic Lunatics Fanatic Lunatics


never trust the smiling faces
they'll betray you without any graces
be awared of the hidden knives
when it starts with the irrational strifes

nowhere to go
nowhere to flee
why can't everybody see
lost my friends and so called family
at least my chains are broken
at least my mind is free
nothing will be forgotten
so much that I regret
at night my eyes are open
body covered in sweat
and then I keep in mind
how I escaped that dream
reminding all the threat
IN REAL I DON'T REGRET

I DON'T REGRET
MY MIND IS SAVED AND OPENED
I DON'T REGRET
MY MIND IS SAVED AND OPENED

Vanta II (Intro)

Opium (Fanatic Lunatics)

lyrics:

Deep in my core
a heart is beating
deep in myself
my heart is bleeding
the veins are hurting
they burn like acid
inside I'm screaming
but on the outside I'm placid

Huah!
On the outside I'm placid!

Inside me hunts a storm
I always try to be conform
they say I'm undiplomatic
they say I am a lunatic
they say I am cold as frost
fuck what they say I'm anyway lost

Yeah!
I'm anyway lost
Vantalized forever

I see what you want
But I won't assist
I see what you want
But I will resist

Yeah

Are you kidding me?
Are you shitting me?
You are the sick one and not me
Who gives you the right
to judge about myself
it is just your  ...

self!
Self!

You might have no big damage
You might have a better life
A house, a car, and children
good salary and a wife
I might do stupid things
that you can't undertsand
while you are killing minds
and that frightning offhand

but you just don't recognize
your act is equal murder
I'm might not civilized
but you go even further
you blame problems on others
you make them feel like dirt
and not taking one by one
you're judging the whole herd

Yeah!

People are equal
Equal are people
everybody's the same
everybody to blame

Equality

Equality

lyrics:

don't leave me alone
knee down in front of my throne
enter my empire
of blood lust and desire

dissonant melodies
harmonize with your melancholies
synthetic ecstacy
the dead bodies of my enemies

take a look
take a smell
lifetime achievement
Did I do well?
I want you to
join my vision
enter my
division

The HalluciNation
keeps controlling me
HalluciNation in my mind
Where fantasies are not confined

Everywhere I get rejection
I'm afraid they have to learn a lection
denied my love don't deny my revenge
you digged your grave you where who it drenched
You despited love so you need more hate
So I am here to define your fate
follow my path the unholy trail
In my hands you will never fail

The HalluciNation
keeps controlling me
HalluciNation in my mind
Where fantasies are not confined

HalluciNation
HalluciNation
HalluciNation
HalluciNation

Join me in 
HalluciNation
or get your
extermination
Join me in
or simply die
My system is very simplyfied

Halluci-Nation

lyrics:

Heartbroken and left behind
like moses in a basket on the nile
I float on the emotional sea
no land on the horizon to see
This purge is real
what is this feel?
A storm arises throws up my float
we're might on different levels but we are on the same boat

There it is back again
the vanta-black hole that strikes again
sucks everything in into the void
inside my soul it starts to exploit
ripping my skin into pieces
I'm asking myself what this disease is
but my blood pressure always increases
by your side - you're cure, you must be jesus

suddently you appeared
like an angel sent from above
brought light into dark atmosphere
showed me a place - showed me love
years went by you never dissapointed me
without light you neverless setted me free
you understood the darkness in your kind
you never letted me down, helped me with every fight

I felt so alive close by your side
you helped the broken man so I help a broken mam
I saw you are hiding darkness
deep in you with helping others
so we trusted love and shared blood
went together through fog and mud

then I discovered your different kind
different name and profiles
your face five fucking times
and that just worldwide

No!
No!

I asked you and nothing replied
am I just stupified?
Do you used me and I didn't purify?
Your existence was a big lie

I trusted you with everything
Now I'm here with anything
Why did you have to do this to me?
You will pay for your betray

then the news about your suicide
made me regret myself and I cried
How and why have you fucked me
left me behind like how you found me

In Pain

I had to realize
that I was paralyzed
All I did was fantacize
kind of self-mezmerize
It all was just a dream
that to me seemed to real
The aftermath I feel
are wounds that need to heal
I had to realize
that I was paralyzed
All I did was fantacize
a kind of self-mezmerize
It all was just a dream
that to me seemed to real
The aftermath I feel
are wounds that need to heal

Pseudonymika

"Vanta" speaks the unspoken - Songs about mental diseases and individual thoughts from the sick one's perspective, kept in a dark atmosphere with disharmonic melodies but beauty. Written and performed by only one lonely mind, these tracks give you a tiny insight in the darkest shades of humanity.