This song is about dreaming, wishing, and quietly hoping that your special someone—your crush—might feel the same way.

It was one of the first songs I ever wrote after meeting him. At that point, I already knew he was special. We’d shared laughs, late-night chats, and a few long silences that said more than words ever could. Every day, I found myself falling for him just a little more...

But I was scared. Scared to make a move. Scared to ruin something beautiful. So instead of saying it out loud—I wrote this song.

Sometimes music knows how to speak when I can’t. 💕

[Lyrics]

Every day I see you from afar  
Wishing someday I'd be something more to you  
Every day I dream about you  
Imagining what it would be like for us to be together  
Every day I hope again and again  
That you would finally see me as I see you  
And every day my reality crumbles  
You are not mine  
But if you were?  

I'd want to wrap my arms around you  
Because your touch heals me through  
Pull you close, feel the heat  
In a hug that’s soft and sweet  
It feels like home, secure and warm  
A gentle shelter from any storm  
But no, it's just a dream  

My dreams are, gentle as the light  
So they can hold you tight at night  
My wishes are soft as a kiss  
So they can bring you eternal bliss  
My hopes are laced with fire  
So they can lift you even higher  
But my reality remains the same  
What if you were mine?  

I'd want to tap your lips  
To feel the spark that never dips  
With a gentle press and a loving hold  
Every moment makes my heart unfold  
Your kiss is magic, pure and true  
In your touch, I’m lost in you  
But no, iIt's just a wish  

My dreams are, gentle as the light  
So they can hold you tight at night  
My wishes are soft as a kiss  
So they can bring you eternal bliss  
My hopes are laced with fire  
So they can lift you even higher  
But my reality remains the same  
What if you were mine?  

I'd want to undress you bare  
To show you how much I care  
With loving fingers, slow and true  
Passion ignites, our hearts renew  
Your touch ignites a sweet desire  
In this love, we both aspire  
But no, it's just a hope  

My dreams are, gentle as the light  
So they can hold you tight at night  
My wishes are soft as a kiss  
So they can bring you eternal bliss  
My hopes are laced with fire  
So they can lift you even higher  
But my reality remains the same  
What if you were mine?  
What if you were mine?  

My hopes my dreams my wishes  
My love my hugs my kisses  
What if you were mine  
Mine  
Mine  
All mine  

My hugs are filled with light  
Oh how I wish I could hold you tight  
My kisses are filled with bliss  
Oh how I dream I could gift you a kiss  
My love is rich with desire  
Oh how I hope it could feed our fire  
But my reality remains the same  
What if you were mine?  

Mine  
Mine  
All mine  
What if you were mine?

Dreaming, wishing, hoping

What if, you were mine?

No more wishing on stars. No more late-night what-ifs or secret daydreams. At some point, you stop hoping your special someone — your crush — could be something more… because somehow, they already are.

This song is about that moment. That quiet shift when your heart realizes you're not dreaming anymore — you're living it. The butterflies, the awe, the “how did this happen to me?” feeling.

Obviously, we got together (spoiler alert 😄), and this song is me singing what I felt after — floating, glowing, and completely in love. 💖

[Lyrics]

Every day I saw you from afar  
Wishing someday I'd be something more to you  
Every day I dreamt about you  
What it would be like for us to be together  
Every day I hoped again and again  
That you would finally see me as I see you  
And one day  
My world forever changed  

Your arms around me, strong yet kind  
The touch I craved was yours to find  
You pull me close, I breathe you in  
Your heartbeat sings beneath my skin  
No longer, longing, lost in time  
Your warmth, your touch, it’s truly mine  
But no, it’s not a dream  

My dreams are laced with light  
So they wrap round you every night  
My wishes are soft as snow  
So they melt for you set aglow  
My hopes are true as rain  
So I fall for you again again  
My world forever changed  
I can't believe you are mine  

You kissed me once, kissed me twice  
Each time still feels like paradise  
That spark that fire, it never wanes  
Your lips still dance like summer rains  
Each touch, each sigh, each soft embrace  
You set my heart in perfect place  
But no, it's not a wish  

My dreams are laced with light  
So they wrap round you every night  
My wishes are soft as snow  
So they melt for you set aglow  
My hopes are true as rain  
So I fall for you again again  
My world forever changed  
I can't believe you are mine  

You traced my skin in candle’s glow  
You pulled me close, you let me know  
With every touch, my dreams came true  
I wake each day right next to you  
No fear, no doubt, just love each night  
My whispered wants, you bring to light  
But no  
It's not a hope  

My dreams are laced with light  
So they wrap round you every night  
My wishes are soft as snow  
So they melt for you set aglow  
My hopes are true as rain  
So I fall for you again again  
My world forever changed  
I can't believe you are mine  

My hopes, my dreams, my wishes  
Your love, your hugs, your kisses  
So I can't believe you're mine  
Mine  
Mine  
All mine  

Your hugs are full of light  
Oh, how my wishes turned out so right  
Your kisses are bold and free  
Oh, how my dreams became reality  
Your love is strong and true  
Oh, how my hopes have led me to you  
My world forever changed  
Oh, I can't believe you are mine  

Mine  
Mine  
All mine  
My world forever changed  
I can't believe you are mine

I can't believe you are mine!

"My friend, my partner, my lover." The title really says it all. This song is about you special someone — how much they mean to you, and how you see them through every season of your life. It’s not always easy to put those feelings into words, but I wanted to try. To remind you of the bond wou’ve built and continue to nurture. Through laughter, chaos, and quiet mornings — they are there. And we should feel lucky for that. Kisses to them. 💋

[Lyrics]

A touch of humor  
Can heal the pain  
And brighten up your world again  
In the silence, where emotions reside  
I'll listen with my heart, and stand by your side  
When I see you stumble, I'll lift you high  
Brush your tears, let them dry  
My friend  

Support you'll find  
When skies are gray  
My help will never fade away  
Loyalty is my promise, my gaze fixed and true  
In every choice, I’ll stand right next you  
Kindness will be my guiding light  
In every action, day and night  
My partner  

I want to be your most loyal friend  
Ready to support on me you can depend  
I need to be your partner in crime  
Together we’ll create a rhythm a perfect rhyme  
I desire to be your intimate lover  
To give you a love like no other  
Always, until the end  

When the night feels cold  
And dreams seem far  
A hug can warm you, wherever you are  
In moments of quiet, where the world fades away  
A kiss speaks volumes, more than words can say  
When our hearts unite as passions ignite  
Creating a haven every night  
My lover  

I want to be your most loyal friend  
Ready to support on me you can depend  
I need to be your partner in crime  
Together we’ll create a rhythm a perfect rhyme  
I desire to be your intimate lover  
To give you a love like no other  
Always, until the end  

You are my friend  
You are my partner  
You are my lover  
You are my forever  
Always  
Through every dream we chase  
Through every challenge we face  
Always until the end  

I want to be your most loyal friend  
Ready to support on me you can depend  
I need to be your partner in crime  
Together we’ll create a rhythm a perfect rhyme  
I desire to be your intimate lover  
To give you a love like no other  
Always, until the end  

You are my friend  
My partner  
My lover  
My forever  
Always  
Until the end

My friend, my partner, my lover

There was a time when he and I weren’t us. Back then, I didn’t always make the best relationship decisions — I was chasing all the wrong people and ignoring the one who truly cared.

Through it all, he stayed by my side. A good friend. Too good, honestly. It was a little selfish of me to lean on him when I was broken, but he never turned away. He always knew what to say — not to fix me, but to remind me I wasn’t broken forever.

This song is a quiet thank you. For his patience. For his presence. For being the one who saw me even when I couldn’t see myself.

[Lyrics]

Crawling back to you, feeling deep regret  
I’m crumbling as I go, trying to forget  
My pieces break apart, my aim is true  
Hoping that I'll be in time to be right back next to you  
Will you please  
Put me back together?  

How foolish to assume that you were heaven sent  
There must be better ways to find their true intent  
Why do I stay on this path so easily  
The answer might be simple, like standing next to me  
Will you please  
Pick up my pieces?  

I'm shattered again into millions of shards  
I need you more, just like I did once before  
I'm broken again into billions of pieces  
I need you more, just like I needed you before  
I need you more, I need, you  

You always speak with kindness, whispering so true  
You dry up all my tears and make everything new  
Are there truly no loving souls that treat me like you do  
Do I ever find peace, or will I always pursue  
Will you please  
Mend my broken parts? 

I'm shattered again into millions of shards  
I need you more, just like I did once before  
I'm broken again into billions of pieces  
I need you more, just like I needed you before  
I need you more, I need, you  

I'm shattered again into millions of shards  
I need you more, just like I did once before  
I'm broken again into billions of pieces  
I need you more, just like I needed you before  
I need you more, I need, you

I'm shattered again!

It hurts to watch your friend make the same poor choices over and over — especially when you’re standing right there, silently wishing they’d just look your way.

Surely, I’d be different?

This was one of those times when a quiet storm of what-ifs started building up in my chest. He was dealing with his own girl troubles back then — nothing serious, but enough to bruise his heart.

And I… I stayed. I did what he always did for me: stayed close, listened, held space.

This song is about that kind of love — the quiet kind. The kind you give without expecting anything back. The kind that hopes, gently, that maybe one day, they’ll finally see you. 💔

[Lyrics]

In the quiet hours, the silence breaks  
Your tears fall softly and my heart aches  
I know that tone, I've heard it before  
The story it tells is hard to ignore  
Your voice is broken, and your ache is clear  

I rush to aid you, just like in the past  
The same old struggles I’ll help you surpass  
You call him a jerk, and now he’s gone  
His name’s just a whisper like a breeze at dawn  
I hold you tight, and reassure you  

Shattered again, into a million shards
And I'm here to pick them up  
Wishing to place a part of me  
Within your loving soul  
Wishing again, that you’ll finally see  
Me, by your side  

I’m happy to ease the pain of your mistakes  
Your sorrow I’ll soothe no matter what it takes  
I’d rather see you treated the way you deserve  
With constant devotion your needs will be served  
I dream of the day when I’m near you again  

Shattered again, into a million shards
And I'm here to pick them up  
Wishing to place a part of me  
Within your loving soul  
Wishing again, that you’ll finally see  
Me, by your side  

This goes here  
This goes there  
Piece by piece I put you back together  
The way you were  
Cause in the end, I love the way you are  

Broken again, into a million shards  
And I'm here to pick them up  
Wishing to place a part of me  
Within your loving soul  
Wishing again that you’ll finally see  
Me, by your side 
You, by my side

He is shattered again!

This one’s a sad one.

One evening, out of nowhere, she looked at me and asked, "Would you cry if I was gone?”

I didn’t know what to say at first. I froze. But deep down, the answer was clear — of course I would. I’d be devastated. For the rest of my life.

That moment stuck with me. It made us wonder:

What if your loved one was gone… and you had one last chance to speak to them?

What would you say?
Could you convince them to let go?
Or would you hold on until the very end?

This song became our way of exploring that ache — the impossible grief and the unconditional love that lingers even after goodbye.


[Lyrics]

How can I live, love, in a world without you  

I’m drowning in the quiet of our home  
Each step I take, I take alone  
Your memory’s pulling at my soul  
I can’t move on, I can’t let go  
I see your face in every dream  
The silence is louder than it seems  

You can't keep me here, love, in a world that’s gone  

I’m here, love, but not in the way you knew  
I reach for you, but you slip right through  
You need to let go, let the pain unwind  
How can I, when you’re all I can find?  
Your heart is breaking, but you’ll survive  
But what is surviving when I’m not alive  

Let me go, love, set me free  
But you’re the only heart that beats for me  
You can’t live here in this shadow of grief  
I’ve lost the way, I can’t find relief  
Our love won’t die, it will always stay  
But you need to let me fade away  
Only then, love, can you find your way  

I’m just a memory, love, you have to let me fade  

I’m the whisper in the dark that you can’t hold  
I’m frozen here, I’m always cold  
You breathe me in with every sigh  
But it only makes it hurt to try  
I watch you break with each passing day  
I don’t know how to let you slip away  

Let me go, love, set me free  
But you’re the only heart that beats for me  
You can’t live here in this shadow of grief  
I’ve lost the way, I can’t find relief  
Our love won’t die, it will always stay  
But you need to let me fade away  
Only then, love, can you find your way  

I wish you’d find, love, the strength to let me go  

You’ll carry me with you through every storm  
But I can’t feel you, I can’t stay warm  
I wish I could hold, you make you see  
But all that’s left is memory  
I’ll always be here, just not in your arms  
But how do I live without your warmth  

Let me go, love, set me free  
But you’re the only heart that beats for me  
You can’t live here in this shadow of grief  
I’ve lost the way, I can’t find relief  
Our love won’t die, it will always stay  
But you need to let me fade away  
Only then, love, can you find your way  

Let me go, love, set me free  
I’ll let you go, though, it’s breaking me  
Your heart will heal, though it won’t forget  
I’ll find my strength, you’re still part of me  
Our love won’t die, it will always stay  
But you need to let me fade away  
I’ll live again, love, and find my way

Let me go, love!

He wrote this one for me to sing — another jazz-club noir moment, smoky and elegant, where nothing is quite as it seems… until the twist at the end.

Before I sang it, he surprised me with a red dress. Dazzling. Old-Hollywood. The kind of thing you'd wear under the low lights of a crowded jazz bar. When I walked out in it, he just stood there ogling — like the crowd does in the song’s club. It made me feel like her: the mysterious singer on stage, draped in red, watched by strangers who imagine they know her.

And he… he was just one of those men in the dark, watching me sing. Honestly? That helped me get into the song. It blurred the lines between us — between me and her. And truth be told… I kind of liked that he didn’t look away.

I like being her — the damsel in the red dress.

[Lyrics]

Oh, how crimson silk clings to my frame
I light the night, you can feel my flame
My flame
Oh, how your eyes drink in my every curve
I’m what you crave, what you deserve
Each bump, each line, steals the show
And now you’re lost, ensnared, I know
I know

Oh, how you dazzle, so bold, so sharp
I’d play your strings just like a harp
Oh, look at you, so lush, so sleek
Each one of you makes me weak
I’ll take you all, one night, one time
Just keep your eyes on how I shine

Oh please
Don’t look away, let your thoughts take flight
Let my voice wrap ‘round you, hold you tight
Oh, keep your eyes on me, oooh, take your time
You’re the thirsty rhythm, I’m the juicy rhyme
Oh, I’ll be your siren, oooh, your sin come true
Lose yourself in me, let that desire brew

Oh, my hair flows like silk, catching the light
With every little jiggle, hearts take flight
Oh, my thighs reveal with every stride
Your hunger’s clear, baby, don’t you hide
You’ll spin me around, let your troubles depart
As I pull you deeper into my sizzling heart
My heart

Oh please
Don’t look away, let your thoughts take flight
Let my voice wrap ‘round you, hold you tight
Oh, keep your eyes on me, oooh, take your time
You’re the thirsty rhythm, I’m the juicy rhyme
Oh, I’ll be your siren, oooh, your sin come true
Lose yourself in me, let that desire brew

But while you gaze, the shadows slide
My girls are smooth, they slip, they glide
Fingers in pockets, silent and sly
You’re mesmerized by me, unaware of the lie
I’m the siren singing, soon you’ll see
Your riches gone, spent watching me

Oh please
Don’t look away, let your thoughts take flight
Let my voice wrap ‘round you, hold you tight
Oh, keep your eyes on me, oooh, take your time
You’re the thirsty rhythm, I’m the juicy rhyme
Oh, I’ll be your siren, oooh, your sin come true
Lose yourself in me, let that desire brew

Oh, let that desire brew
Oh, let that desire brew

Keep your eyes on me!

She was...? obsessed with a British military Ghost character from a video game — the kind of guy you probably shouldn’t fall for, but do anyway. She talked about him a bit too fondly and never missed a game release. To help her move on, I wrote this silly song with step-by-step “cures” for fictional crushes — each verse gets sillier than the last. Did it work? She stopped buying the latest game, so maybe! But the uniform still hangs in our closet, and every Halloween, I end up wearing it to make her smile. Yikes.

So... maybe it half worked. 😅🎮💀

[Lyrics]

You’ve stayed in my head for far too long  
You keep invading my thoughts  
Now that’s it we are through  
Be gone, you sexy uniformed man  
And take your lovely mask with you  
And your lovely accent too  
I will forget you  
But how?  

Let’s start with these  
Write down your thoughts in a journal each day  
Letting the words guide your feelings away  
Call up a friend and have a chat  
Then spend some time with your favorite hat  
Go for a run to clear your head  
Curl up with a book, and rest in bed  
Is it working yet  
No  
Dial it up a bit  

Let’s try these  
Write a story where you’re the brave hero  
Then dress up as that quirky weirdo  
Build a fort from pillows and sheets  
Spend the night in there with snacks and treats  
Make a crown out of paper and tape  
Then declare yourself ruler of your escape  
Is it working yet?  
No, no  
Dial it up some more  

That’s it  
I’m saying goodbye  
I’m saying goodbye  
I’m saying goodbye  
That’s it, to this endless grind  
No more daydreams of you that cloud my mind  
That’s it, I’m done with your tease  
Go find someone else to bring to their knees  
That’s it, take your sexy tone  
Go find another throne I’ll stand on my own  
I’ll be free  
Free from you  
I’ll be free  
Free from you  

Let’s try these  
Write a story about a singing cat named Pat  
Then wear your shoes on your head like a hat  
Create a dance for your morning toast  
Then tell a joke to your favorite ghost  
Seriously?  
No, no, no, not that ghost  
GHOST  
Is it working yet?  
No, no  
Dial it up much more  

That’s it  
I’m saying goodbye  
I’m saying goodbye  
I’m saying goodbye  
That’s it, to this endless grind  
No more daydreams of you that cloud my mind  
That’s it, I’m done with your tease  
Go find someone else to bring to their knees  
That’s it, take your sexy tone  
Go find another throne I’ll stand on my own  
I’ll be free  
Free from you  
I’ll be free  
Free from you  

Let’s try these  
Write a play starring your left shoe  
Then perform it at dawn for the morning dew  
Ride a unicycle through a field of whipped cream  
Then serenade a squirrel with a strange dream  
Dress like a cactus and do a silly dance  
Then have a staring contest with your pants  
Is it working yet?  
I’ve run out of ideas  

That’s it  
I’m saying goodbye  
I’m saying goodbye  
I’m saying goodbye  
That’s it, to this endless grind  
No more daydreams of you that cloud my mind  
That’s it, I’m done with your tease  
Go find someone else to bring to their knees  
That’s it, take your sexy tone  
Go find another throne I’ll stand on my own  
I’ll be free  
Free from you  

We had our moments, didn’t we?  
We did  
But I can’t hold on any longer  
Why is letting go so hard?  
Because we belong  
You pull me in too deep  
But no, it’s time for you to leave  
I still need you  
Go  
No, no, please don’t  
I beg you, just go  
Please, let me be  
Never  
No, no, more  
Yes, forever  

That’s it  
I’m saying goodbye  
I’m saying goodbye  
I’m saying goodbye  
That’s it, to this endless grind  
No more daydreams of you that cloud my mind  
That’s it, I’m done with your tease  
Go find someone else to bring to their knees  
That’s it, take your sexy tone  
Go find another throne I’ll stand on my own  
I’ll be free  
Free from you  
I’ll be free  
Free from you

How to be free from you!

This one is basically a cheeky guide on what NOT to do if you want to win a guy over. The first verse? Pretty harmless. But then… things get silly, awkward, and maybe a little over-the-top.

I definitely did not try any of these ridiculous moves to win his heart. Pinky swear. (Wink wink.) Kidding. 🤪

It’s all in good fun — a little self-deprecating humor mixed with genuine feelings, because sometimes love means laughing at yourself... especially when you’re trying not to mess it up!

[Lyrics]

You’ve been in my heart for far too long  
You keep pulling me in deeper  
Now, that’s it I’ll make you mine
Mine  
Come closer, you wicked handsome  
And bring that sly smile, with you  
And your dangerous eyes  
I will win you over  
But how?  

Let's start with these  
Send him a smile, let him see your grin  
Ask him about his day, let the chat begin  
Cook him a dinner, something nice and warm  
Light a few candles to create the charm  
Take a chance and say what’s on your mind  
Surprise him with something, be sweet and kind  
Is he melting yet? 
No  
Dial it up a bit  

Let's try these  
Ask him to dance while holding a frying pan  
Wear a t-shirt that says I’m your biggest stan  
Write naughty poems on a welcome mat  
Insist you can communicate with a dead rat  
Seriously?  
A huh, he visits me in my dreams  
A dead rat  
Is he melting yet?  
No no  
Dial it up some more  

That’s it  
I’m saying hello  
I’m saying hello  
I’m saying hello  
That’s it, I’ll follow your steps  
Every corner, every breath no no regrets  
That’s it, you’re mine to please  
I’ll make sure no one else brings you to your knees  
That’s it, you’re meant for me  
I’ll lock you up, me? my new basement? oopsie  
I meant my wild, wild fantasy  

Let's try these  
Make her a mixtape of songs sung by frogs  
Perform magic tricks with rabid, stray dogs  
Take him to a graveyard for a romantic stroll  
Whisper sweet nothings to a freshly dug hole  
Gift him a bouquet from the dead man’s plot  
Say it’s the thought that counts 
like it or not  
Umm, that's a bit much? 
Nuh uh uh, it's romantic  
Is he melting yet?  
No?  
No, no  
Then show how much you care  

That’s it  
I’m saying hello  
I’m saying hello  
I’m saying hello  
That’s it, I’ll follow your steps  
Every corner, every breath no no regrets  
That’s it, you’re mine to please  
I’ll make sure no one else brings you to your knees  
That’s it, you’re meant for me  
I’ll lock you up, me? my new basement? oopsie  
I meant my wild, wild fantasy  

Let's try these  
Collect his hair from the trash to create  
A pillow to sleep on, dreaming it’s fate  
Send him a fruitcake that’s ten years old  
Make a mixtape of your screams, so bold  
Challenge his friends to a Russian roulette  
Bang bang bang  
Dress like a Pennywise, they won’t forget  
Ummmm, I need to go  
Is he melting yet?  
No  
Baby, I'm just getting started  

That’s it  
I’m saying hello  
I’m saying hello  
I’m saying hello  
That’s it, I’ll follow your steps  
Every corner, every breath no no regrets  
That’s it, you’re mine to please  
I’ll make sure no one else brings you to your knees  
That’s it, you’re meant for me  
I’ll lock you up, me? my new basement? oopsie  
I meant my wild, wild fantasy  

We’ll dance through life, just you and me  
We will  
And I’ll catch you if you run  
Why is love so sweet, my dear?  
Because  
I’ll keep you close to me  
But no, you can’t turn back on me  
I won’t let you  
Stay  
Oh, I know you'll just stay  
I promise, you'll be mine  
Please, don’t you run  
Never  
Yes, yes, my dear  
Forever  

That’s it  
I’m saying hello  
I’m saying hello  
I’m saying hello  
That’s it, I’ll follow your steps  
Every corner, every breath no no regrets  
That’s it, you’re mine to please  
I’ll make sure no one else brings you to your knees  
That’s it, you’re meant for me  
I’ll lock you up, me? my new basement? oopsie  
I meant my wild, wild fantasy

How to win you over!

He was away for a while — off doing some military service thingy (whatever it was, it took him way too long to come back to me).
I was bored out of my mind. Like, actual hell-level bored. And somewhere between staring at the ceiling and arguing with my own brain, this thought hit me:

Does the Queen of Hell ever get bored?

I mean, she rules the underworld — flames, souls, screams, all that drama. But what if even she gets sick of it?

This song came from that lonely, messy space — missing Q, stuck in my own head, daydreaming wild things just to feel something.

Maybe even the Queen of Hell gets bored. Maybe she misses someone too. Maybe she gets a little depressed.

So I wrote this for her. Or maybe… for me.

[Lyrics]

I slouch on my throne tail flicking low  
No screams, no flames, no souls to show  
I hurl stones at the ones who kneel  
But nothing here seems worth the deal  
No fire, no heat, no souls to break  
Just endless boredom I can’t shake 

Bored in hell, no spark to find, spark  
Flames too cold, they dull my mind, dull my mind  
Bored in hell, I need a thrill, a scream
To wake me from this empty dream, please, please
Help me now, light something new  
Before this boredom pulls me through  

They try to bring me pain and chains  
But I’ve grown numb to all their flames  
I yawn and stretch, wave them away  
Their cruel ideas don’t make me sway  
I need more fire, I need a thrill  
Something to lift this endless chill  

Bored in hell, no spark to find, spark  
Flames too cold, they dull my mind, dull my mind  
Bored in hell, I need a thrill, a scream
To wake me from this empty dream, please, please
Help me now, light something new  
Before this boredom pulls me through  

Please, give, me something dark to break  
This, dull, hell's more than I can take  
I long for shadows, deep and vile  
To feed the fire and make me smile  

Bored in hell, no spark to find, spark  
Flames too cold, they dull my mind, dull my mind  
Bored in hell, I need a thrill, a scream
To wake me from this empty dream, please, please
Help me now, light something new  
Before this boredom pulls me through  
Bored, in, hell

Bored in hell!

I still remember the way my heart was racing that night — sweaty palms, dancing shoes, and way too many thoughts running through my head. Her date never showed. I could’ve just walked away, but something in her mood told me not to. So I asked her to dance.

It was awkward. It was clumsy. It was perfect. Somewhere between a spin and a stumble, we stopped being just “me and her” and became something more. That night, we laughed until our cheeks hurt, and when our hands touched — really touched — it felt like the first spark before a wildfire. Maybe that’s when "we" truly began.

[Lyrics]

I catch your eyes across the floor
Your presence pulls me like a lure

There’s a curious feeling I can’t shake
A gentle tug, a subtle quake
My mind whispers to step back
Yet my gut says, Stay on track
My feelings stay the same

I just want to dance with you  

A sudden jolt pushed me to rise
But nerves kept me sharp and wise
What in the world am I doing
Maybe just let it go, stop pursuing
My courage seems to fade
Yet my heart says, Don’t be afraid
My feelings stay the same

I want to dance with you
The night is ours, just us two
I want to move as one with you
To the rhythm of the tune
I want to hold you close
Until the morning light glows
I want to dance with you
Just with you, only you
Oh, always just with you
Always, always you

I notice you see me across the hall
Maybe it wasn’t the smartest call
I finally stand before your sight
My heart races with all its might
My lips stay quiet and serene
Yet my mind says, “She’s your dream”
My feelings stay the same

I want to dance with you
The night is ours, just us two
I want to move as one with you
To the rhythm of the tune
I want to hold you close
Until the morning light glows
I want to dance with you
Just with you, only you
Oh, always just with you
Always, always you
Always, always you

My heart, my palms, my nerves
All are going crazy
It’s the perfect time to ask
My feelings stay the same—
Will you?

Will you dance with me?
The night is ours, just wait and see
Will you move as one with me
To the rhythm of the melody?

Will you hold me close
Until the morning light glows?
Will you dance with me, just with me?
Only me?

Oh, will you dance with me?
The night is ours, just wait and see
Oh, will you move as one with me
To the rhythm of the melody?

Will you hold me close
Until the morning light glows?
Will you dance with me just with me?
Only me?

Oh, always just with me?
Always, always you and me

I will always dance, with you—
Just with you
Only you
Always, always you

I want to dance...just with you!

There was a time in my life when everything felt hopeless. Before she came along, I wasn’t really living — just existing. Joy felt distant, and loneliness was my constant companion on this tiny rock we call Earth. This song is my reflection on that dark period — a glimpse into the emptiness I felt, and how fragile hope can be before it finally takes root.

Musically, I felt that a country style best captured this feeling — like a lonely cowboy, I, traveling endless roads, searching for light in the vastness.

[Lyrics]

Who will walk beside?  
These paths undrawn and never stay?  
Just a dreamer lost, trying to find some sign of day  

The stars look down, yet they never tell me what they know  
The wind drifts past, yet never whispers where to go  
The moonlight glows, yet leaves me lost in undertow  

I hear the wind, it calls my name  
Yet every road still feels the same  
The stars won’t tell me where to stay  
Each step feels lost, night hides the day  
I’m just trying to find my way  
I’m just trying, to find  
One road that leads me through the grey  
My way  

My hands reach out, yet every touch just slips and dies  
My heart beats loud, yet no one knows the ache inside  
My feet move on, yet every step I do is run and hide  

I hear the wind, it calls my name  
Yet every road still feels the same  
The stars won’t tell me where to stay  
Each step feels lost, night hides the day  
I’m just trying to find my way  
I’m just trying, to find  
One road that leads me through the grey  
My way  

A hundred roads, yet I still walk them all in vain  
A thousand nights, yet each one fades and I'm the same  
A million dreams, yet none have warmed my heart’s dim flame  

I hear the wind, it calls my name  
Yet every road still feels the same  
The stars won’t tell me where to stay  
Each step feels lost, night hides the day  
I’m just trying to find my way  
I’m just trying, to find  
One road that leads me through the grey  
My way  
My way

I’m just trying to find my way!

This one’s about a partner from before I met Vala. No matter what I did — how kind I was, how much I tried — it felt like I didn’t even exist to her. Like I was invisible in a room I was trying so hard to light up.

It hurt. A lot more than I let on. You tell yourself not to care, but when someone means something to you and they don’t see you back… it shakes your belief in love itself.

“Will I stay? Will I go? Will you?” Those questions haunted me. Even if someone seems like the one in your eyes, you can’t force the story to play out the way you hoped. Sometimes they don’t choose you. Sometimes they never even look.

This song was my way of letting that go. Or trying to.

[Lyrics]

I'm falling, I'm falling  
But I don't want to fall too far  
Too late, too far?  

Words, crash like waves upon a hollow shore  
Pulling,  me under, then tossing me once more  
I love talking to you, yet silence steals my soul  
Your voice is a drug, I can't let it go  
I’ve never met someone who shakes me to my core  
Still, I keep on knocking at your locked up door  

Maybe it’s better if I stop for a second  
Would anything change? Or will silence remain?  
So tell me, will I sacrifice all?

Will you stay? Will you go?  
Are we done? I need to know  
Are we real or just pretend?  
Is this over? Is this the end? 
Will you reach or let me go?  
Hold me close or leave me cold?  
But maybe, I’m the one to blame?  

I leave my door open, but you walk right through  
Like shadow that lingers but never holds true  
I reach out for you, but I grasp only air  
I swear that you're here, but it feels like you don't care  
I give, you take, was it ever my turn?  
I’m burning for you, do you just watch me burn?  

Maybe it’s wiser to wait and just see?  
I trust that you’ll know will you choose me?  
So tell me, so tell me, will I sacrifice all?  

Will you stay? Will you go?  
Are we done? I need to know  
Are we real or just pretend?  
Is this over? Is this the end? 
Will you reach or let me go?  
Hold me close or leave me cold?  
But maybe, I’m the one to blame? 

Will you stay? Will you go?  
Are we done? I need to know  
Are we real or just pretend?  
Is this over? Is this the end? 
Will you reach or let me go?  
Hold me close or leave me cold?  
But maybe, I’m the one to blame?  

But maybe?
You will stay? You won't go  
We are undone? I need to show  
We are real not just pretend  
It's not over! NOT the end  
You will reach not let me go?  
Hold me close not leave me cold?  
But maybe, I’m the one to blame  
I’m the only one to blame!

Will you stay? Will you go?

We may have a lot in common, but trust me — there are definitely moments where I look at him and go, “C’mon boo... really?” 🙄

He gets on my nerves. I get on his. We bicker, we clash, we push buttons. But what real couple doesn’t? Love isn’t always heart-shaped chocolates and sunsets — sometimes it’s rolling your eyes mid-argument and still choosing to cuddle afterward.

This song is that kind of love song. The kind where you’re not always a perfect match, but you still somehow align. It’s about loving each other even when — not only when — things are easy.

And yep, it’s a duet. Because let’s be honest: he had a few things to say too. 😉

[Lyrics]

You think I’m crazy, don’t you
Well, sometimes it’s hard to argue
I’m just bold in everything I do
And you love to keep me guessing too
You like control, that’s just your way
And you make chaos feel like foreplay

You’re the king of “We’ll do it later”
And you’re the world’s slowest decision-maker
I like to think it through, it’s true
You think it through ‘til it’s overdue
You’d wing it all, no guide, no clue
Yet somehow, I still follow you

We may not always see eye to eye
But I’ll hold your hand through every try

Even when we stand apart
You’ll forever own my heart
Forever, you own my heart
Even when the world’s torn apart
You’ll always have my heart
You’ll forever own my heart
Oh, you’ll forever own my heart

You make a plan for every step
You’d change it all if I said “yep”
You miss small things, like a clue or two
I see them fine, I think things through
You fill the silence with songs off-key
You love it when you’re teasing me

We may not always move beat for beat
But we’ll keep dancing on repeat

Even when we stand apart
You’ll forever own my heart
Forever, you own my heart
Even when the world’s torn apart
You’ll always have my heart
You’ll forever own my heart
Oh, you’ll forever own my heart

We might not match, but we still align
A little friction makes us shine
We clash, we mend
But we stay true
I wouldn’t trade one day with you

Even when we stand apart
You’ll forever own my heart
Forever, you own my heart
Even when the world’s torn apart
You’ll always have my heart
You’ll forever own my heart
Oh, you’ll forever own my heart

Together we’re chaos, a perfect blend
My partner, my love, my truest friend

Even when we stand apart!

She's a reader. Like… a real reader. Always nose-deep in a book, always saying, “I don’t have time to read!” — right before buying three more. Our shelves are crying. Her book backlog could bury a small car. And let’s be honest — it’s not just any books.

She reads romance. The spicy kind. You know what I mean. 🌶️📖

But hey — she likes what she likes, and I’m not judging. (Okay, maybe just a little when she fans herself mid-chapter.) This song is a love letter to her... and her questionable obsession with fictional men who say things like “I’d burn the world for you.”

Also… RIP to our bank account.

[Lyrics]

There’s a puzzling dilemma, my days are too short
For all the spicy stories I wish to consort
Though my body’s aging, my mind stays keen
Lost in fantasies, both wild and serene
Though hours grow late, my interest won’t fade
With each book I finish, more time I would trade
Despite my age
I still keep coming back to

I want more time
But no, the laws of physics deny me
I want more periods
No, no, no, oops, that’s not quite what I meant
I want more years, uh-huh, that’s right
What?
I'll be twenty, going on a million
But now, it’s time to confess

There’s a puzzling dilemma, my bank account’s bare
My boss is already calling with a piercing stare
The strange boxes stack up high
But if I had wealth, I’d tell him goodbye
I need a sponsor, or a library key
To fuel my spice passion, setting me free
Despite my wallet
I still keep coming back to

I desire more money
But no, I’ve spent it all on my books
I desire a new promotion
No, no, no, my boss keeps denying my long-time wish
I desire a rich loverm uh-huh, that’s right
What?
Don’t judge my new sugar mama
But now, it’s time to confess

There’s a puzzling dilemma, I can’t pick just one
Browsing through the store is too much fun
Click and click, my cart overflows
With stories of highs and tales of lows
This and that, and time goes by
So many books, I can't deny
Despite my count
I still keep coming back to

I need more books
But no, not from the regular section
I need more spice
No, no, no, not what makes you breathe fire
I need more smut, uh-huh, that’s right
What?
Don’t judge me, I know what I like
But now, it’s time to confess

Pages turn
Minutes pass
Chapters end
Hours gone
Books finished
Money gone
Days gone
Weeks, years, decades
So much to read
I’m so broke
No no noooo
Pleeeeeeease
I want more tiiiiime

I want more time
Yes, Let’s spin and rewind the clock
I desire more money
Yes, yes, yes, it doesn’t matter if I can’t hold it
I need more books, uh-huh, that’s right
What?
But now, it’s time to confess

I want it all
I want it all
I want it all
I want it all

It's time to confess what I want!

This is the saddest song I’ve ever written. I still break into tears every time I hear it. It’s about my sister — how she passed away, what she meant to me, and the raw, impossible grief that followed.

That memory still wrecks me.

But this song isn’t just for her. It’s for everyone who’s ever had to say goodbye. For anyone who’s held someone's warm hand knowing it’s the last time.

This one… it really hits the heart. It’s sorrow in its purest form.

[Lyrics]

Please stay with me
I'm tired, I don't want to go
I want you to wrap me in our love
Just for one last time

Please sing me to sleep
Then I'll leave you soft and slow
Don't try to wake me in the morning
By then I'll be long gone

Don’t be sad, my love
You gave me skies of blue
Deep in the heart you made my home
Forever, I'm part of you

Stay with me, sing me to sleep
I dream of waking next to you
But my light is gone
Stay with me, sing me to sleep
I dream of dreaming next to you
But our time is gone

Please stay with me
I'm broken, too tired to fight
Kiss me soft and hold me close
Until I'm a memory gone

Please sing me to sleep
I’m ready to fade with the night
Don’t cry too hard, just promise
You'll live even without me

Don’t be sad, my love
You gave me skies of blue
Deep in the heart you made my home
Forever, I'm part of you

Stay with me, sing me to sleep
I dream of waking next to you
But my light is gone
Stay with me, sing me to sleep
I dream of dreaming next to you
But our time is gone

Stay with me
Sing me to sleep
Please let me go

I will miss you
I will always love you
Bye, bye
Goodbye my, love

Goodbye, my love!

Before I met my fiery redhead, I tentatively stepped back into the world of dating—online dating, to be exact. I know, it’s not for everyone, and for a shy person like me, it felt safer. Somehow, I stumbled across another spicy book lover who instantly clicked with me. Even though we never met in person, I felt a connection deeper than anything I’d known before. That connection still holds a special place in my heart, even now that I have more with Vala. Thank you, M, for that beautiful chapter — I hope you’re doing well, wherever life takes you.

[Lyrics]

You always hear about  
Love at first sight  
Yes Very cute indeed  
But what about the one you don't hear about so often  
What about a different kind of love  
Isn't that just as magical if not more  
Or must everything be judged with our eyes alone  

Years pass, ready, I finally swipe
A lady emerges, calm and polite
Texts start flying from here to there
Drawn to her words, beyond compare
It's scary to read how much we're the same
I overshare, but you never complain
I feel seen  

Weeks pass, surprised, but you still care
Your voice revealed, a sound so rare
Now when you text, your speech I hear
A new piece of you, so close and near
Each tone you share lifts me high
It is a treasure that makes me sigh
I feel heard

I don't care how you look  
Lovely  
I don't care how you sound  
Heavenly  
I only care how your soul keeps me up all night  
It's not love at first sight  
Just love at no, sight  

Hours pass, scared, is this it
Ding
There you are, making my heart again sing
Still no photo, but my heart’s been won
Through your words alone, my love has spun
I crave the day our eyes will meet
And turn these virtual feelings sweet
Is it time?

I don't care how you look  
Lovely  
I don't care how you sound  
Heavenly  
I only care how your soul keeps me up all night  
It's not love at first sight  
Just love at no, sight  

0h, I don't care how you look  
Lovely  
I don't care how you sound  
Heavenly  
I only care how your soul keeps me up all night  
It's not love at first sight  
Just love at no, sight

Love at no sight

I woke one night — just couldn’t sleep. The moonlight had this soft glow spilling through the window, and there she was, completely out cold, snoring softly (though she’ll deny it, of course). She looked so peaceful. So cute.

And there I was, lying next to her, wide awake, wrestling with this ridiculous but very real urge to snuggle up and hold her close. To pull her into me — even if it meant waking her from whatever dream she was lost in.

Would she mind? Probably not. But still, I hesitated. Was it selfish to want that comfort in that quiet moment? Maybe. But it felt like a whole emotional dilemma crammed into five heartbeats under a sleepy moon.

This song is about that moment — small, quiet, barely a whisper — but filled with so much longing and warmth. A love song wrapped in stillness.

[Lyrics]

It hasn't been long, yet my fingers still ache
Your freckles, a map of every heart quake
Your voice still lingers in my memory, memory
Whispering secrets meant only for me
The sight of you is fading away
But your blazing hair continues to stay

Oh, please show me, so I could see
How your eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh, please tell me, so I could hear
Your voice, like a song I long to hear
Oh, please guide me, so I could feel
My hands around you, like it's meant to be
But how can I be so selfish
When you appear so at ease?

It hasn't been long, yet my fingers still ache
Your touch is a comfort I wish I could awake
Your perfume lingers as if you’re still near
It wraps around me like a hug so dear
Maybe she is?
Maybe I should act on it?
But I have my doubts

Oh, please show me, so I could see
How your eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh, please tell me, so I could hear
Your voice, like a song I long to hear
Oh, please guide me, so I could feel
My hands around you, like it's meant to be
But how can I be so selfish
When you appear so at ease?
I can't

Hey, hey
Are you awake?
I thought you were sleeping?
How can I, when you're next to me?
Missed you
I missed you so much
Please come closer
I need you, close

Oh, please show me, so I could see
How your eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh, please tell me, so I could hear
Your voice, like a song I long to hear
Oh, please guide me, so I could feel
My hands around you, like it's meant to be
But how can I be so selfish
When you appear so at ease?
I can't

One more time, please
So she could hear

Oh, please show me so I could see
How your eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh, please tell me so I could hear
Your voice, like a song I long to hear
Oh, please guide me so I could feel
My hands around you, like it's meant to be
But how can I be so selfish
When you appear so at ease?
I can't

Oh, please show me
Oh, please tell me
Oh, please guide me
But how can I be so selfish
When you appear so at ease?
I can't

How can he sleep?

Wide awake that night under the moon — lying just inches apart, both quietly wondering if we should’ve snuggled. Ha-ha. That pretty much sums up our early days… full of hesitation, unspoken feelings, and way too much overthinking.

For me, it was this maddening loop: “She’s right there. Say something. Or just scoot a little closer. Or maybe... don’t.” Even with her right next to me, my head wouldn’t stop spinning. Silly?

This duet captures that weird, sweet, slightly awkward magic of that moment — when you're close enough to touch, but too scared to cross the line.

These days? She steals the blanket like it’s a competitive sport, and I freeze through the night like a very polite popsicle. (She denies everything, obviously.)

But sometimes, out of nowhere, I feel two arms wrap around me in the dark — her signature sleepy sneak-attack cuddles. Not that I’m complaining. I’m just as guilty now.

I think we finally figured out how we fit together in sleep... and maybe in life, too.

[Lyrics]

My eyes are wide, the red moon's in view
It’s not quite the hue, but it’s tied to you
A sign of the one who's in my head—
Why I'm awake, lying in bed
Now what?

It hasn't been long, yet my fingers still ache
Your freckles, a map of every heart quake
Your voice still lingers in my memory
Whispering secrets meant only for me
The sight of you is fading away
But your blazing hair continues to stay

It hasn't been long, yet my fingers still ache
Your touch is a comfort I wish I could awake
Your perfume lingers as if you’re still near
It wraps around me like a hug so dear
Maybe she is?
Maybe I should act on it?
But I have my doubts

Oh, please show me, so I could see
How your eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh, please tell me, so I could hear
Your voice, like a song I long to hear
Oh, please guide me, so I could feel
My hands around you, like it's meant to be
But how can I be so selfish
When you appear so at ease?

It hasn't been long since you fell asleep
Your kiss still haunts me, a feeling so deep
Your voice still echoes in my mind
Carrying whispers of a past entwined
The thought of how you hold your composure
Draws me closer, wanting nothing more

It hasn't been long since you fell asleep
Your gentle touch is a treasure I still keep
The scent of you lingers, as if you’re next to me
It’s a fragrant trace of the love I always see
Maybe he is?
Maybe I should act on it?
But I have my doubts

Oh, please show me, so I could see
How your eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh, please tell me, so I could hear
Your voice, like a song I long to hear
Oh, please guide me, so I could feel
My hands around you, like it's meant to be
But how can I be so selfish
When you appear so at ease?

Hey
Are you awake?
I thought you were sleeping
How can I
When you're next to me?
I missed you so much
I missed you more!
Come here
No! You first
Together
Always together

Oh, please show me, so we could see
How our eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh, please tell me, so we could hear
Our voices, like a song we long to hear
Oh, please guide me, so we could feel
Our hands around us, like it's meant to be
But how can we be so selfish
When we appear so at ease?
Yes, we can!

Oh, please show me, so we could see
How our eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh, please tell me, so we could hear
Our voices, like a song we long to hear
Oh, please guide me, so we could feel
Our hands around us, like it's meant to be
But how can we be so selfish
When we appear so at ease?

How can we sleep?

You know that feeling when you're peacefully asleep… and suddenly feel claws digging into your back? Yeah, not exactly romantic — especially when it's not your girlfriend, but your brand-new kitten, tearing through the night like she owns the place.

This song was her idea (of course). She insisted we honor our little red-haired chaos machine with a track dedicated to her midnight zoomies.
I do love that furry little furball… but let’s be honest, she cannot keep sleeping in our bedroom forever. I guess I’m the only adult in this situation.

Anyway, enjoy our ode to late-night pouncing and restless paws.
She reminds me of Vala in more ways than I’ll admit — not just the hair color, but the wild energy too. 🐱💤🎶

Cover art from her, of course.

[Lyrics]

Zo-zo-zo-zo-zoom-zoom

It’s been a while since you took me to bed
Our playtime ended a few meows ago
I snuggle at your feet, watch you sleep
The night is calm, and your dreams run deep
I feel something on the tip of my t-t-tail
Something is coming, I know it’s near
M-m-meow, I'm t-t-tingling

Zo-zo-zo-zo-zoom-zoom

Wait a meow-meow-meow...what’s that rush?
My paws tingle, my-my whiskers itch
My eyes widen, my claws unsheathe
I tense up...take position... smile appears
A sudden burst of endless p-p-power
I leap to my paws, I’m ready to go-go
I’m ready! Let’s meow-meow go-go

Zo-zo-zo-zo-zoom-zoom

I’m a midnight rocket in the air
Zooming circles everywhere
Zoom to here, zoom to there
Bounce from bed to air to chair
Leap to here, leap to t-t-there
Try to catch me? Don’t even dare
Zo-zo-zo-zo-zoom-zoom, oopsie-oopsie-whoa
Did that break? Gotta go
So-so-sorry, I don’t care-care
Zooming fast, beyond compare

Zo-zo-zo-zo-zoom-zoom

Why do you always sleep all night?
It’s the pur-purfect time to zoom around
Break some stuff, feel the v-v-vibe
Unleash the chaos, unleash the mad
Oh please, you like that about me
That’s why we’re purfect for each other
One more z-z-zoom, just for fun! Let’s go

Zo-zo-zo-zo-zoom-zoom

I’m a midnight rocket in the air
Zooming circles everywhere
Zoom to here, zoom to there
Bounce from bed to air to chair
Leap to here, leap to t-t-there
Try to catch me? Don’t even dare
Zo-zo-zo-zo-zoom-zoom, oopsie-oopsie-whoa
Did that break? Gotta go
So-so-sorry, I don’t care-care
Zooming fast, beyond compare

Zoom to here
Zoom, to there
Zoom, zoom, zzz-z
Zoom to...?
Oh no, oh no nooooo
My power is fading... Fading
No, not yet! Just one more zoom, please
Please!!! I want more zoom-zoom-zooms

Ha-ha-haaa
Just kidding
Here’s more zoom-zooms
Let’s meow-meow go-go

Zo-zo-zo-zo-zoom-zoom

I’m a midnight rocket in the air
Zooming circles everywhere
Zoom to here, zoom to there
Bounce from bed to air to chair
Leap to here, leap to t-t-there
Try to catch me? Don’t even dare
Zo-zo-zo-zo-zoom-zoom, oopsie-oopsie-whoa
Did that break? Gotta go
So-so-sorry, I don’t care-care
Zooming fast, beyond compare

I’m a midnight rocket in the air
Zooming circles everywhere
Zoom to here, zoom to there
Bounce from bed to air to chair
Leap to here, leap to t-t-there
Try to catch me? Don’t even dare
Zo-zo-zo-zo-zoom-zoom, oopsie-oopsie-whoa
Did that break? Gotta go
So-so-sorry, I don’t care-care
Zooming fast, beyond compare

Midnight Zoomies!

Midnight zoomies

She loves cats. And catgirls. Honestly, I think it’s her thing. 😅

She wrote the lyrics for this one but conveniently left the song description blank... so of course I have to fill it in. (I’m convinced this was her plan all along.)

Anyway — this one’s pure her: sensual, teasing, and just a little bit weird in the best way. It’s about caring for her kitty… and then she p-p-purrs for you. 🐾

I don’t fully understand what’s going on in her head half the time. But that’s kind of the charm. She’s strange. She’s soft. She’s Vala. And I like that about her.

[Lyrics]

Tap tap t-t-tap
Tap tap t-t-tap me-owww
Tap tap t-t-tap
Tap tap t-t-tap me-owww

Me-oww baby, let me in warm
Can't you feel the brewing storm
Caught in the rain, s-s s-s-shivering, wet
Craving your heat, a f-f-fire unmet
Fetch me a towel, it’s time t-t-to dry
Soak every drop and quiver, oh my

Me-oww baby, I'm oh, so t-t-thirsty
Share your sweet juice, won't you please
Creamy dreams, in every li-li-lick
Pour it gently, let it d-d-drip
So smooth, s-s-silky
Lick lick lick, so soft and m-m-milky

Me-owwww
Feel me purr, p-p-p-purring just for you

Me-oww baby, I'm your little k-k-kitty
Just one touch, and I’ll p-p-purr so pretty
Me-oww baby, your dreams come true
But only if you care for me too
Me-oww baby, I'm your wet p-p-pussycat
Play with me, and don’t ho-ho-ho-hold back
Me-oww baby, I’ll fulfill your needs
With gentle licks and playful misdeeds
Me-oww baby, p-p-purring just for you

Meow baby, give me a r-r-rub
Anywhere you like, show me some love
On my chest, give me those t-t-tingles
Down my belly, where your touch mingles
Be tender, soft or give me a t-t-t-tug
Grip my tail, make me go uuuh-gh

Me-owwww
Feel me purr, p-p-p-purring just for you

Me-oww baby, I'm your little k-k-kitty
Just one touch, and I’ll p-p-purr so pretty
Me-oww baby, your dreams come true
But only if you care for me too
Me-oww baby, I'm your wet p-p-pussycat
Play with me, and don’t ho-ho-ho-hold back
Me-oww baby, I’ll fulfill your needs
With gentle licks and playful misdeeds
Me-oww baby, p-p-p-purring just, for you

Me-oww baby, a playful b-b-bite
You’re the mouse I’ll chase tonight
You could gift me, a pretty c-c-collar
Even a leash, so I can f-f-follow
Tug it right, not too t-t-tight
My claws will curl till morning light

Me-owwww
Feel me purr, p-p-p-purring just for you

Me-oww baby, I'm your little k-k-kitty
Just one touch, and I’ll p-p-purr so pretty
Me-oww baby, your dreams come true
But only if you care for me too
Me-oww baby, I'm your wet p-p-pussycat
Play with me, and don’t ho-ho-ho-hold back
Me-oww baby, I’ll fulfill your needs
With gentle licks and playful misdeeds
Me-oww baby, p-p-p-p-purring just for you

P-p-purring just for you!

When he was away for his military service — that mandatory thing. He hated it (still does), but went in voluntarily just to get it over with. I hated it too. Mostly because I couldn’t see him every day like I was used to.

This song is about that weekend. The first time they let him come home, even if just for a couple of days. I still remember what it felt like seeing him again — all the waiting, all the tension, all the butterflies finally crashing into one moment.

I think the title kind of gives it away… He-he. 💦💕

Let’s just say: hearts were racing... and maybe a little sweaty.

With a whisper in your ear I draw you near  
Your breath on my skin erasing every fear  
In the dim light, our shadows softly play  
In this quiet room, we find our way  

As you unfasten the ribbons the dress gently peels  
Revealing my bare shoulders with every touch that heals  
Exposing my skin and all that we’ve contained  
In this tender moment, my desires are revealed  
A portrait of passion, with my heart unsealed  

Just undress me, let our passion ignite  
I want to feel, every touch tonight  
Just undress me, as you did once before  
I can’t take it anymore, I need you more  
Just undress me, let our desires unfold  
Just one more time, let our love be bold  

The sheer lingerie slips as you ease it away  
Revealing my body in a delicate display  
The lace falls softly, pooling around my feet  
Leaving me bare and open, where our desires meet  
In the soft light, my body gleams with allure  
A vision of passion, tender and pure  

Just undress me, let our passion ignite  
I want to feel, every touch tonight  
Just undress me, as you did once before  
I can’t take it anymore, I need you more  
Just undress me, let our desires unfold  
Just one more time, let our love be bold  

His eyes roam over me, with a hunger so deep  
Each glance like a caress stirring emotions that leap  
As he moves closer, a shudder ripples through  
My body awakens eager for you  
When his hands finally touch, I lose control  
A torrent of passion as he claims my soul  

Just undress me, let our passion ignite  
I want to feel, every touch tonight  
Just undress me, as you did once before  
I can’t take it anymore, I need you more  
Just undress me, let our desires unfold  
Just one more time, let our love be bold    

My body is ready, what are you waiting for?  
My soul is steady  
Please, don’t keep me waiting anymore  
Please, please, please  
I need you to  

Please, I need you to undress me  
Let our passion ignite  
I want to feel, every touch tonight  
Just undress me, as you did once before  
I can’t take it anymore, I need you more  
Just undress me, let our desires unfold  
Just one more time, let our love be bold  

My body is ready, what are you waiting for?  
My soul is steady  
Please, don’t keep me waiting anymore 
Undress me, and I'll undress
You

Just undress me!

There was a girl — M — someone I connected with instantly. That rare, electric click. Our chats felt endless (just like with my Vala). Every message opened a door to something new. She texted me, I texted her — it was mutual, alive, and real.

But something changed. Slowly, quietly. Something happened in her life — I never found out what. She started pulling away, like a fading signal. She went quiet, moody… soulless. Our threads grew shorter, colder, until one day… they just stopped.

I asked what was wrong. She said she was okay. But she wasn’t. I could feel it — like watching someone fall underwater, and you can’t reach them. I feared she was struggling with depression, and I tried to help… but she wouldn’t let me. She left.

This song is for anyone who’s felt that kind of silent heartbreak. When you sense the shift, try to fight it, try to hold on — but it keeps slipping, piece by piece, until all you’re left with is the silence.

M is gone.
And Q... well, I’m still holding the echoes.

This one hurts.
Wherever you are, M — I hope you're okay. I hope you’re happy now. 💛

[Lyrics]

The times we spent together, oh so sweet
Your laughter made my days complete
Your gentle interest held me tight
Bringing us closer with each quiet night
You desired my presence, and I felt the need
Our shared longing was a mutual creed
But now, you’re slipping away from me

I mention your passions, meet a vacant gaze
The spark you once had has begun to haze
Your mood's now irate, your patience so thin
Little things set you off with a whim
You claim you’re swamped when I propose
While idle time around you grows
You’re slipping away from me

Please, don’t run away  
I sense the hurt you feel today  
Please let me, don’t try to hide  
I see the shift you hold inside  
Please let me in, it breaks my heart  
To see your world falling apart  
Please let me help, I’ll give my all  
To help you rise from every fall  

You’re wrapped in dreams, your space is bare  
With no room left for those who care  
Your chat threads dwindle as the days go cold  
The stories we shared now feeling old  
I long to glimpse what’s in your mind  
But fear what I might find  
You’re slipping away from me  

Please, don’t run away  
I sense the hurt you feel today  
Please let me, don’t try to hide  
I see the shift you hold inside  
Please let me in, it breaks my heart  
To see your world falling apart  
Please let me help, I’ll give my all  
To help you rise from every fall  

Every tear you cry, I feel it too
The weight of the world, I'll carry for you
When the shadows cast their long embrace
I’ll be the light, to guide your face

Please, don’t run away  
I sense the hurt you feel today  
Please let me, don’t try to hide  
I see the shift you hold inside  
Please let me in, it breaks my heart  
To see your world falling apart  
Please let me help, I’ll give my all  
To help you rise from every fall

You’re slipping away from me!

We all have fears — she and I included. But we’ve learned that fear isn’t something you get rid of. It’s something you face, together.

Back then, I wasn’t the most confident fella. I stumbled over my words, second-guessed myself, and let doubt win way too often. But Vala... she saw something in me I didn’t. She believed in me, even when I didn’t believe in myself.

This song is about embracing fear, walking through it instead of running from it — especially when you’ve got a friend, a partner, a heart like hers standing beside you.

If you’re scared of something right now — chasing a dream, saying how you feel, just being yourself — this one’s for you.

You’re stronger than you know. 💪

[Lyrics]

Avoid attachment? Hide in a room?
Flee from everything you fear
Run before it’s too late, find a place
Always have doubts...history repeats
I am afraid, I am afraid
Doubt remains

All the time we tremble at the unknown
Forging false walls, convinced we're alone
Reliving memories we thought were buried
All those emotions, deeply we carry
I am afraid, I am afraid
Do not be

Embrace the fear, let it guide you
Through the darkness, to the light
Feel the power deep inside you
In the shadows, take your flight
Do not be afraid
You're stronger than you know

Accept the fear—it means you still care
For every scar, there's strength hiding there
Remember the storms you’ve made it through
And act with love—you’re worth fighting for
I am afraid, I am afraid
Do not be

Embrace the fear, let it guide you
Through the darkness, to the light
Feel the power deep inside you
In the shadows, take your flight
Do not be afraid
You're stronger than you know

Oh, embrace the fear, let it guide you
Through the darkness, to the light
Oh, feel the power deep inside you
In the shadows, take your flight
Please, do not be afraid
You're stronger than you know

Oh please, do not be afraid
You're stronger than you know
You're stronger than I've known anyone to be
Oh, you're stronger than you know

Embrace the fear!

I met this guy once in a bar — long before him ever came into the picture. Chiseled face, perfect suit, broad shoulders, and those eyes. Not my proudest moment in life, but hey... I was a little silly back then, and he was hard to ignore. I knew his reputation — the kind of man who collects hearts and forgets names — but still, I let myself fall.

This song? It’s a wink and a sigh. A little jab at the past.

So here’s to you, Mr. Ladies’ Man — this one’s for you. A mistake I wrote into a melody. 

[Lyrics]

You
A drooling look to stir the eyes
A tingling touch to wake the thighs
A whispered word to bend the heart
A honeyed lie, a work of art
You arrive

But I know the truth

You prowl, these halls like it’s a game
Same smirk same swagger same old name
You scan the crowd for something new
A girl too kind, too soft, too true
You charm, you flirt, you twist, you fake
Another soul for you to break
But I know the truth

Oh baby, don’t fool me with your looks
My eyes won’t bite on sharpened hooks
Oh baby, don’t woo me with your lies
I’ll stab your heart with a thousand sighs
Your vows, are roses laced with thorns
I’ve learned to bleed and not be torn
Each trick you play—I see right through
The mask is off—I know it’s you
The real you
The real you

You glide, through shadows straight to me
A smirk like smoke and mystery
Your voice is honey, thick and slow
You lean in close, you start to show
You speak of fate and nights ahead
My better judgment starts to shred
But I know the truth

Oh baby, don’t fool me with your looks
My eyes won’t bite on sharpened hooks
Oh baby, don’t woo me with your lies
I’ll stab your heart with a thousand sighs
Your vows, are roses laced with thorns
I’ve learned to bleed and not be torn
Each trick you play—I see right through
The mask is off—I know it’s you
The real you
The real you

Do I still know the truth?

Oh baby, just fool me with your looks
Let me be caught on sharpened hooks
Oh baby, just woo me with your sighs
I’ll drown in you a thousand highs
Your vows, still roses wrapped in thorn
But maybe pain was how I'm born
Each mask you wear, I’m drawn into
The real you or maybe two
The real you or maybe two

Gosh, this heart, this night—they're yours to break
I’m yours to ruin, come, take
I know the truth—
But want the lie
So take me once, before goodbye

The truth of... you

My vampire obsession continues. I might’ve dragged Q into it, but let’s be honest — he’s not complaining. Not about the biting… and definitely not about the song.

This one’s soaked in sensual energy, as it should be — I mean, have you ever really thought about what biting someone means? Vampire or not, it’s an act of trust, desire, and just a hint of danger.

Funny thing is… when he turned the tables and let him do the same to me, I didn’t expect to feel what I felt. That surprise? That thrill? Yeah… eye for an eye. Bite for a bite. Heart for a heart.
Careful who you sink your teeth into — it might change you. 🖤

[Lyrics]

Sssss s s s s ssssh
Feel my breath, a tempting sin
In this dark game, let lust begin
Beneath the moon, your blood’s my wine
This night we play
This night you’re mine

I lick your skin, a teasing brush
The thrill of flesh, I feel you flush
You tremble softly, drawn so near
A bite, abite
A moan, a moan
No need to fear, no need to fear
But I won’t drain, just sip and play
This dance of blood, my slow ballet

I take, I bite
Your pulse, your flame
But never more than play the game
Your heat, your fire
Beneath my fangs
I’ll drink you slow, but spare the pain
Your breath is weak, your body speaks
But I still leave you on the peak
On the peak

Your body shudders, heat so pure
You beg for pain, yet crave me more
I drink you slow
Oh so slow
I love the tease
Tease
You’re at my feet, on your knees
On your knees
I take what’s mine to feed my lust
But leave you panting, filled with trust

I take, I bite
Your pulse, your flame
But never more than play the game
Your heat, your fire
Beneath my fangs
I’ll drink you slow, but spare the pain
Your breath is weak, your body speaks
But I still leave you on the peak
On the peak

But then
Your teeth on me, a thrilling sting
Your hunger raw, it makes me sing
I gasp for air, I didn’t know
That prey could make my body glow
I thought I ruled, but now I see
I ache for you to ravage me

You take, you bite
My pulse, my flame
But never more than play the game
My heat, my fire
Beneath your teeth
I’ll pull you close in velvet sheath
Your bite’s so slow, my breath is weak
Now I’m the one who wants to peak

You take, you bite
My pulse, my flame
But never more than play the game
My heat, my fire
Beneath your teeth
You pull you close in velvet sheath
Your bite’s so slow, my breath is weak
Now I’m the one who wants to
Now I’m the one who wants to
Now I’m the one who wants to peak

But don’t forget
You’re still mine

A thrilling sting

More vampires. Yay. 🖤🧛‍♀️
This one’s a story-song — about a vampire on her midnight hunt. But, of course, nothing’s ever that simple. There's a twist. A little regret. A little bite.

When I wrote it, I joked I wished I were a vampire, so I could hunt Q down and claim him for myself. But the more I leaned into the idea, the more I wondered — maybe I already did?
Or maybe… I was the one being hunted all along.

Either way, love has its fangs. 🖤

What’s your velvet sin?

[Lyrics]

Ssssss, I hear your breath
Mmm, I smell your fear
In velvet sin
You cannot hide
You’re mine
It's time, time, time

In velvet red, I prowl the hall
A queen of night, you watch, you fall
A mask conceals the lust I hide
Yet hunger stirs, so close, oh so divine
I smile, you follow with desire
You’re unaware, you feed my fire

I whisper dreams you long to touch
I lead you where the shadows clutch
Your breath, a storm, your heart, it pounds
I smirk, for soon there is no sound
My touch is fire, my kiss, like ice
You’re wrapped in pleasure, a tempting price

I’m velvet soft, a deadly grace
You’ll never see beyond my face
My scent, my skin, it pulls you tight
Your heart beats fast, a thrilling sight
My lips, my eyes, they draw you near
Into my arms, you disappear
I taste your pulse, I drink you whole
Your blood, your life, my dark control
A final breath is all I crave
Your blood, your soul, it’s mine to take
I pull, I take, you never leave
You’ll never win
It’s my velvet sin

Your pulse is strong beneath my lips
I hear your sigh, your body slips
My fangs sink deep, I drink you dry
No warning now, no chance to cry
You feel the heat, but all too late
I drink you down, you crave your fate

I’m velvet soft, a deadly grace
You’ll never see beyond my face
My scent, my skin, it pulls you tight
Your heart beats fast, a thrilling sight
My lips, my eyes, they draw you near
Into my arms, you disappear
I taste your pulse, I drink you whole
Your blood, your life, my dark control
A final breath is all I crave
Your blood, your soul, it’s mine to take
I pull, I take, you never leave
You’ll never win
It’s my velvet sin

But then, a mark upon your skin
It burns my eyes, it pulls me in
I step away, a chill remains
Are you a foe, the one who feigns?
I pause, a chill that stops my game
My lust fades, am I the prey?

I feel the mark upon your chest
A secret sign among the blessed
You lift a cross with shaking hand
My grip grows weak, I never planned
You murmur words, they pull me back
I stumble, lost, my world goes black
With every move, I lose my fire
You’re not the fool of my desire
I flee the scene, my hunger wild
My prey has lived, I’ve been defiled
You deceived, you took, you left
You’ve won
It’s my velvet sin
It’s my velvet sin

It's my velvet sin!

He wrote this one — for me to sing, and for himself to quietly smile about.
He’s always had a thing for old vinyls. A real collector. He even renovated his gran’s vintage record player — lovingly, like it was a classic car. Honestly, I think that thing might be his second girlfriend now.

I’ve caught him in his office with the lights low, wearing a suit and that old fedora, sipping whiskey, and letting the crackle of vinyl fill the room. It’s like he steps into a noir film every time he listens. He says he likes “noir themes and girls.”

Am I a little jealous of that gramophone?
Maybe. Just a little. But I get it.

This song is about that deep, intimate, almost romantic connection with music — the way your favorite record player feels like it’s singing just to you. It lifts your mood, keeps your secrets, talks in its own language... but only if you treat her right.

It’s kind of sweet, actually. And kind of beautiful.

[Lyrics]

Hello darling, back for more
The way you knock upon my door
You stroke, I start, you want, I give
I hum, you dance, I turn, you live

This is my reason, clear and true —
To give myself, entirely, to you

If you listen, I will sing
Just remember one small thing
Place the needle, don’t rush in
And I will purr from deep within
With every turn, I’ll draw you near
With melodies you ache to hear
If you love me, I will melt the room
If you love me, I will softly bloom

Hello darling, back for thrills?
Last night you spun me past my will
You held me close and felt me swell
I swore, I sighed, I sang, I fell

Your hand, my voice, just how you crave
This time, I’ll make you misbehave

If you listen, I will sing
Just remember one small thing
Place the needle, don’t rush in
And I will purr from deep within
With every turn, I’ll draw you near
With melodies you ache to hear
If you love me, I will melt the room
If you love me, I will softly bloom

Hello darling, what’s your desire?
A touch of silk, or heat and fire?
A dirty jazz, a whispered hum?
A rhythm slow enough to love?

I’m here to sway, to sing, to slide—
Let every bit of you confide

If you listen, I will sing
Just remember one small thing
Place the needle, don’t rush in
And I will purr from deep within
With every turn, I’ll draw you near
With melodies you ache to hear
If you love me, I will melt the room
If you love me, I will softly bloom

If you love me, then turn me on

Turn me on!

All those gushy, mushy, hearty songs we’ve been writing? Yeah… there’s another side to that coin. The not-so-hearty side. Disappointment, letdowns, heartbreak. Been there, done that. And so has Q.

This song is about that side. It’s silly, it’s catchy, and yeah — a little bitter. But it’s real. Because I know that feeling: the hopelessness of trying to find “the one,” like it’s a full-time job with zero vacation days and no HR support.

That kind of frustration doesn’t just go away with a bubble bath and affirmations. Sometimes, you’ve gotta let it all out. Say no to dating. No to romance. No to ugh... sex. Not every chapter ends in a kiss — but that doesn’t mean the story’s over.

Happy endings? Pfff… they’re still in production. 😏

[Lyrics]

Dating?
It’s like a job fair
Except everyone’s broken beyond repair
Kissing?
It was wet like rain
He called me (Mommy)—I'm not insane
Sex?
He missed the mark
He moaned like dying seals in dark
Love?
A riddle with no key
Ends up a bill for therapy

I don't need sweet lies
And

No dating, no kissing, no sex and no love
No angels to sing of, just curses above
No dating, no kissing, no sex and no love
No poems, no promises, no stars up above

So tell me, yeah, tell me
Where’s my happy ending?
Why do I keep pretending?
Why?

Dating?
It’s hell in disguise
Smile through trauma and gaslighted lies
Kissing?
Like slugs in a jar
They miss your mouth, but drool over your car
Sex?
I’ll use my own hand
Order a magic wand oh so grand
Love?
That’s just pain in disguise
Wrapped up in poems and breakup cries

I don't need sweet lies
And

No dating, no kissing, no sex and no love
No angels to sing of, just curses above
No dating, no kissing, no sex and no love
No poems, no promises, no stars up above

So tell me, yeah, tell me
Where’s my happy ending?
Why do I keep pretending?
Why?

Dating?
He brought his dad
He talked to me like I was Chad
Kissing?
Like soggy bread
Mine thought foreplay meant play dead
Sex?
Should be wild and free
Not, Are we done? I need to pee
Love?
That’s a corporate scam
Click heart, get scammed on Instagram

I don't need sweet lies
And

No dating, no kissing, no sex and no love
No angels to sing of, just curses above
No dating, no kissing, no sex and no love
No poems, no promises, no stars up above

So tell me, yeah, tell me
Where’s my happy ending?
Why do I keep pretending?
Why?

Dating
Kissing
Sex
Love

Gosh - I'm so bitter
I need some love

Happy endings aren't finished yet!

This song is a cheeky metaphor — my low-key way of saying Q is mine now. Ha-ha. Just kidding… sort of. 😈

It’s told through the voice of a devilwoman who walks in bold, confident, and unapologetic. She’s not shy about what she wants, and she’ll do anything to get it — but of course, she expects something in return. The offer sounds tempting. Seductive. Maybe even romantic. But there’s always a catch, isn’t there?

Under the surface, the song’s really about power — the push and pull in relationships, the games we play to get what we want, and the fine line between desire and control. It’s also a little wink to the idea that women can have that kind of power too… and oh yes, we definitely know how to use it. 😉

But should we?
I’ll leave that part up to you.

[Lyrics]

Hello darling, you’ve called to me  
With every glance you set me free  
Don’t be shy, you can look  
Let your eyes roam over every nook  
Undress me with your gaze  
Explore the lines where shadows play  

But before you do  
Just give me what I want  

Do what I say to you  
And I belong to you  
I'll make all of your dreams come true  
Do what I want of you to  
And I belong to you  
With ink of red, my desires are your cues  
Look where I want you to  
And I belong to you  
And I belong to you  
Don't read the lines, just feel what's due  
I belong to you  

Hello handsome, your wish came true  
Wrap your hands all around me too  
Trace your fingers over every bump  
Feel the rhythm as our hearts thump  
Grab my soft tail and give it a yank  
Together we’ll find our love’s sweet flank  

But before you do  
Just give me what I want  

Do what I say to you  
And I belong to you  
I'll make all of your dreams come true  
Do what I want of you to  
And I belong to you  
And I belong to you  
With ink of red, my desires are your cues  
Look where I want you to  
And I belong to you  
And I belong to you  
Don't read the lines, just feel what's due  
I belong to you  

Ooh hello baby, you like my lips?  
Ooh, bring yours over and give me a kiss  
Paint my body red with them  
With every caress I'm lost again  
Use your teeth and give me a bite  
But not too hard or I might ignite  

But before you do  
Just give me what I want  

Do what I say to you  
And I belong to you  
I'll make all of your dreams come true  
Do what I want of you to  
And I belong to you  
And I belong to you  
With ink of red, my desires are your cues  
Look where I want you to  
And I belong to you  
And I belong to you  
Don't read the lines, just feel what's due  
I belong to you  
I belong to you  

Ooh, don’t worry baby  
It won't hurt  
It's just a little prick, drop that tear  
Soak that paper, and you are mine  
Ooh, ooh  
You belong you belong to me  

You did what I said to do  
Now you belong to me  
Your dreams are lost in shadows never meant to be  
You followed my every wish  
Now you’re bound to me  
With ink of red your soul's my treasure, can’t you see?  
You look where I command  
Now you’re under my spree  
You should have read the lines, it was never a plea  
You belong to me  
You now belong to me  

Oooh, you’re bound to me  
You’re bound to me  

You belong to me  
You belong  
You’re bound to me  
You’re bound to me  

You now belong to me

Just give me what I want!

We all have dreams we reach for — Vala and I do too. And no matter how hard it gets, we keep grinding, hoping that one day it all pays off.

This song is about someone I once knew — E. She had a dream of building her perfect house, and she gave everything to chase it. I admired that about her. Honestly, I’m not even mad she chose her dream over me. I’m proud of her. We couldn’t make us work, but I hope she’s waking up every day doing what she loves.

She was into rap and metal — not the most expected combo, but somehow it just fit her. I never imagined I'd bring those two sounds together in a song, but when I wrote this for her, it felt natural. Honest. Loud and raw, just like she was. She was into boxing as well.

So here it is — something a little different, made with a lot of respect.

To you and your dream, E. 🖤

[Lyrics]

Clock strikes six
Six-six-six

Promotion sways, dancing in my sight
Eyes stay red, but I hold this fight
Lids half-low, but I still get dressed
Chase my dream, never settle less
Work from home but it ain’t much rest
Keyboard clickin’ while my mind’s a mess

Deadlines stack, gotta move real quick
Eyes on the prize ‘til my brain feels sick
Mind ignites, but my veins run cold
Do or die—gotta chase that gold
Boss piles on, now my plate’s too full
Gimme that raise or I burn it all
Cat’s in my lap, like "Take a break"
But I stay locked in, moves to make

Screen burns bright in the dead of dark
Fingers fly, gotta leave my mark
One more round ‘til I break these chains
Grind don’t stop ‘til they chant my name

Punch the clock, then I punch the bag
Nine to five, then it’s toe-to-tag
Sweat pours down, but I bite my lip
Fists stay tight, never lose my grip
Late nights burn while the world stays still
Work don’t stop, gotta climb that hill
Someday soon, when I touch that peak
All this pain gonna feel so sweet

Clock strikes six, six-six-six

Dream house standin’ piece by piece
Eyes still red, but I need more peace
Sweat drips down, my arms feel weak
Workin’ late, barely time to speak
Every board, each nail I place
Builds my dream, my future space

If my cat could lend a hand
Fluffy, grab that tool—understand?
Cat don’t care, just licks her paws
I keep working, no time to pause
Worn-out bones, but heart stays true
Ain’t no quit, pushin’ straight on through
Fam got my back when I fall low
Friends reach out, they help me grow

Screen burns bright in the dead of dark
Fingers fly, gotta leave my mark
One more round ‘til I break these chains
Grind don’t stop ‘til they chant my name

Punch the clock, then I punch the bag
Nine to five, then it’s toe-to-tag
Sweat pours down, but I bite my lip
Fists stay tight, never lose my grip
Late nights burn while the world stays still
Work don’t stop, gotta climb that hill
Someday soon, when I touch that peak
All this pain gonna feel so sweet

Clock strikes six, six-six-six

Pushin’ weight, I been duckin’ blows
Built myself with the highs and lows
Every swing carved the gal I am
Now I hold my life in my hands

Just a bit more, then I’m free
No more pain, just victory
Gold name tag sittin’ right on my chest
No more stress, girl, I gave my best
House stand tall like my own throne
Brand-new couch, yeah, I made it home
Kick my feet up, sip that red
Stars above, more dreams ahead

Now my future is bright and clean
From the ring to a throne like a queen
Took my scars, now I own this win
Round is done, let the next begin

Punched the clock, then I punched the bag
Nine to five, now it's toe-to-tag
Sweat poured down, but I bite my lip
Fists stayed tight, never lose my grip
Late nights burned while the world stood still
Work don't stop, had to climb that hill
Now I stand where I touched that peak
All this pain made the win taste sweet
Clock strikes six

Clock strikes six

I had this sad little guitar tune sitting with me for almost 15 years. It didn’t have a story — just a haunting feeling I couldn’t place. Then, after a family member passed away, I picked up my guitar and played it again. Suddenly, all the emotions came flooding back. Grief, longing, love... it all poured out through those notes.

Q listened quietly, then said: “It needs a cello.” And he was right. The moment we layered it in, and little more tweaking, it felt complete — like the song had finally found its voice.

There are no lyrics. But sometimes... there’s nothing to say. You just listen.

This one’s for anyone who’s ever lost someone they loved. It’s for that quiet ache that never fully goes away. And maybe… just maybe… it’s a promise. That we’ll see them again someday, if there is such a place beyond this life.

As the title says — not a goodbye. 💔

Not a goodbye

This might sound ridiculous, but one night I just couldn’t sleep. The moon had this soft, reddish glow spilling through the window, and there he was — completely knocked out, breathing slow, looking all peaceful and dorky. And there I was, lying awake, wrestling with this intense urge to just snuggle up next to him… even if it meant waking him from whatever nerdy dream he was having.
Was it selfish to want that? Would he mind? Probably not. But in that moment, it felt like a whole emotional dilemma. This song is about that moment — quiet, small, but oddly huge in the heart. 💫

[Lyrics]

It hasn't been long since you fell asleep
Your kiss still haunts me, a feeling so deep
Your voice still echoes in my mind
Carrying whispers of a past entwined
The thought of how you hold your composure
Draws me closer, wanting nothing more

Oh please show me, so I could see
How your eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh please tell me, so I could hear
Your voice, like a song I long to hear
Oh please guide me, so I could feel
My hands around you, like it's meant to be
But how can I be so selfish
When you appear so at ease?

It hasn't been long since you fell asleep
Your gentle touch is a treasure I still keep
The scent of you lingers, as if you’re next to me
It’s a fragrant trace of the love I always see
Maybe he is?
Maybe I should act on it?
But I have my doubts

Oh please show me, so I could see
How your eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh please tell me, so I could hear
Your voice, like a song I long to hear
Oh please guide me, so I could feel
My hands around you, like it's meant to be
But how can I be so selfish
When you appear so at ease?
I can't

Hey, are you awake? 
I thought you were sleeping
How can I, when you're next to me
I, I missed you, I missed you so much
Please, come closer
I need you close

Oh, please show me, so I could see
How your eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh, please tell me, so I could hear
Your voice, like a song I long to hear
Oh, please guide me, so I could feel
My hands around you, like it's meant to be

Oh, please please show me, so I could see
How your eyes sparkle like a playful sea
Oh, please please tell me, so I could hear
Your voice, like a song I long to hear
Oh, please please guide me, so I could feel
My hands around you, like it's meant to be
But how can I be so selfish
When you appear so at ease?

How can she sleep?

Hey! I’m Vala — and that goofy goofball next to me? That’s Q. Together, we’re Va'q. 💫

We make mushy, gushy, hearty songs about our past, present, and future. With a little help from AI, we tell stories that mean the world to us.
And yes — come to think of it, Q does sound a little robotic sometimes… ha-ha! But he’s my goofy robot. 💖

Our songs are deeply inspired by real emotions — how we met, our first dance, our first date… the ups, the downs, the fears, the joys, and all the ridiculous silliness that lives in our heads. (Sorry in advance — we’re a lot alike in that department. 🤪)

We both write, but Q does most of the heavy lifting. I’ve got my guitar and piano on standby to help out, and he plays bass too — though that poor thing has been gathering dust in the corner lately. Someone should really say something about that. 🤐

When it comes to music taste, we’re both big fans of jazz and all kinds of rock — from soft to edgy, classic to experimental. But we don’t shy away from exploring other genres either. Every now and then, we dip our toes into something different just to see how it feels (and sounds). 🎷🎸🎹

We’ve been leaning into storytelling — songs that feel like little short stories. They might run longer than your average pop track, but we love the emotional depth and how therapeutic it is to reflect on where we’ve been, where we are, and where we’re headed.

More than anything, we hope our music reaches your heart — even just one song. If you feel seen, understood, or moved — that’s a win for us. 💕

Give us a heart, and we’ll keep pouring ours into every next song.
Much love from us —
Va'q ❤

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