All fucked up now
I’m lying on the ground 
Gone without a sound 
I’ll take my life no doubt 
Hate myself now 
I’m lying on the ground 
No point in trying now 
I’ll end my life life no doubt 

It’s been like this forever 
I want to fucking die
It’s never gotten better 
Don’t have the balls to try
Shoot me with a shotgun 
Drain my fucking life 
I don’t even care anymore 
Fuck my fucking life

No Doubt

my friends they all hate my guts
and i always feel so fucked up
dont know why i even try
be better off if i would just die

lately
ive been feeling crazy
think theyve had enough of me cuz
im so fucked up
lately
everybody hates me
i should learn to just shut up cuz
im so fucked up

dont know why the things i say
always push the ones i love away
stay inside never go anywhere
get left behind cuz nobody cares

lately 
ive been feeling crazy
think theyve had enough of me cuz
im so fucked up
lately
everybody hates me 
i should learn to just shut up cuz
im so fucked up

so fucked up

i've been spending so much time
doing nothing in my room
tryna rhyme a better line
so i can win and you can lose

till someone came along and said
theres thousands just like you
you'll never be a star
you'll never even reach the mooN
you don't know what you're doing
you don't even have a clue
well thats the difference
i dont know, and you seem like you do
so fuck you

lalalalalallalala
oooooo

theres too much going on
i cant keep track of right and wrong
too many people said so long
i haven't processed that they're gone

i don't want anything to do
with anything involving you
i dont care about your new lover
cause you just text me the same thing(the same thing!)
from different numbers (different numbers!)

i dont care if i die drunk
 I dont care if i die young
 i dont care about your wants
i dont care cause i forgot
  i dont care the smallest bit
cause nobody gave the slightest shit
when i just needed someones hand to hold
well lets just say while i was waiting my heart got cold

lalalalal(harmonica+kazoo solo)alallaaooooolala

Afterparty

Calcium

Lost Soul

Belowground - Hippie Girl

prod kimj
https://www.instagram.com/2hollis
https://twitter.com/osx2hollis

I think I’m goin’ crazy
I think I’m goin’ crazy
And what I saw stayed with me
I think of it over and over

And over and over and over and over again
Trippin’, I’m trippin’, I’m trippin
Words got me runnin’, I’m runnin on a mission
Gotta tell myself they love me it’s not fake

White tiger, white tiger, break through it
White tiger, white tiger, take it, move it
White tiger, white tiger, I don’t lose man
White tiger, white tiger, man it proves it

And you must think that I’m stupid (like what the fuck am I doing)
Like why the fuck am I losing? (the fuck am I losing?)

Yeah, they not winnin’ this one
Got some money I’m so broke, gotta inflate my ego
I don’t give a fuck bro, I’d be lying if I said I don’t give no fucks bro

I gotta brush it off, I gotta shake it off, I gotta brush it off
I gotta shake it off, I gotta brush it off, I gotta shake it off
I gotta brush it off, I gotta brush it off, I gotta brush it off
I gotta fuckit off, I gotta break out, I gotta break off

White tiger, white tiger, break through it
White tiger, white tiger, take it, move it
White tiger, white tiger, I don’t lose man
White tiger, white tiger, man it proves it

white tiger

*art drawn by me

lyrics:

i woke up feeling like a total
fucking tr*nny today
i dont think that is such
an unreasonable thing to say
i hate my legs, my ass, my voice
the fucking hair on my face
fat chance im looking in a mirror
what a fucking disgrace

i wish i didnt exist x8

i wrote your number in the back
of my journal today
i think im too much of a
dramatic coward to say
i love your hair, your lips, your feet
that fucking grin on your face
i hope stick around long enough
to hear me say

i wish i didnt exist x8

(awesome drum breakdown)

i wish i didnt exist x8

I Wish I Didn't Exist

I’m so angry
And so upset
Cause you can’t
See me at all
And I’m all alone
And we’re stuck in our homes
When I’m without you
There's nothing to do
I wanna be with

You In my arms
I wish you were
Really here with me
But you are
Still stuck In my screen
Just come out

I lost all respect
So how do I expect
To get a job or life
When you can be my wife
I’ll throw my life away
Just to see your face
How could I go back
It felt so right and real
I dreamt of having

You In my arms
I wish you were
Really here with me
But you are
Still stuck In my screen
Just come out

How did I get this way
Dictated by anime
Obsessed with one girl
Who never will love me
I’ve killed the chance to belong
And now I’m stuck with

You In my arms
I wish you were
Really here with me
But you are
Still stuck In my screen
Just come out
I can’t live without
You In my arms
I wish you were
Really here with me
But you are
Still stuck In my screen
Just come out

I WISH YOU WERE REAL

forfeit

christmas at ground zero

Credit to @𓃬 for saving this song.

This was not on Penguinband's Soundcloud at the time he deleted it.

This Is It - Penguinband

crush

mountain

i know i don't belong here
no one ever gets me
nothing i'm holding onto
detached from everything
lost in sea of shit that's not real
looking for something
to make me feel

i have many reasons
for why i do not care
poison in my cheetos
they're fuckin' up the fresh air
i have many reasons
for why i'm so fucked up
tried to fit in with them
but i can't feel any love
burn it downnn yea yeahh 

i wish i could feel something
something for anyone
i feel like i was raised by
the wolves and had no one
the world is sick and i'm checking out
wish i could burn it burn it down

i have many reasons
for why i do not care
poison in my cheetos
they're fuckin' up the fresh air
i have many reasons
for why i'm so fucked up
tried to fit in with them
but i can't feel any love
burn it downnn yea yeahh 

burn it down (fried by fluoride cover)

please give me a follow 🥺

I mixed it with 2 different songs. By the same artist. because I didn't find the original full song of it. gave it a remaster. 😁 

All credit goes to the original artists. I'm not the original artist

Fried by fluoride - Drain you (nirvana cover) V1

star

sidekick

destroy me

in the corner of the basement
lies a beat up cardboard box
filled with tangled treasures 
more valuable than stocks
whenever asked about it
my old man he would reply
“you just never know, son”
glint in eye and smile wry

my father bowed his head
he knew he’d been defeated
years of prideful hoarding
in an instant: gone, deleted

one day mom had had enough
this stuff has gotta go
I need the room for decorations
for all my Christmas globes
my tinsel and my ornaments
this vintage snowman stand
a dining table decoupage 
my winter wonderland 

it's the Box Just In Case 
where I keep my cables stored
USB, HDMI, and ancient printer cords
RCA and FireWire 
adapter plugs galore
I’m sure I’ll need them someday, son
just like that pile of 2x4s

in the corner of the basement
lies a beat up cardboard box
filled with tangled treasures 
more valuable than stocks
whenever asked about it
my old man he would reply
“you just never know, son”
glint in eye and smile wry

my father bowed his head
he knew he’d been defeated
years of prideful hoarding
in an instant: gone, deleted

less than two weeks later came
a gadget in the mail
“cables not included”
my dad let out a wail
reluctantly he grabbed his phone
and ordered it online
seven dollars, three days later
the cost of father’s pride

it's the Box of Just In Case 
where I keep my cables stored
USB, HDMI
and ancient printer cords
RCA and FireWire 
adapter plugs galore
I’m sure I’ll need them someday, son
just like that pile of 2x4s

Ikea trip this weekend
my job is assembly
cupboards came with extra parts
dowels and screws, M3
gotta keep these extra screws 
they might just fill a need
got a little mason jar
to fill with future needs

it’s the Jar of Just In Case 
where extras go to rest
standard, metric, nails and such
a rusty jumbled mess
no i will not throw them out
they’ll save me cash and time
a trip up to the hardware store
a nickel and a dime

Cable Box

I am doomed and i am screwed
I walk around in a living nightmare
I hate the present and i hate the past
wondering why im a dumbass
i fucked up the last few years
i did dumb shit and now im here
i think abt it and i get pissed
i wanna break things when i reminisce

Im so screwed
im so doomed
life is tough when nobody loves you
im so screwed im so doomed
oooooo im so doomed

I hate myself, and I hate my life
I sulk all day, and nothing feels right 
All I do is complain and whine, I’m afraid to live, I have no spine
I’m a piece of shit, I’m irrelevant, I’m embarrassed and I’ll admit it
I wish I could just be like them, but I’m all alone and I have no friends

im so screwed
im so doomed
life is tough when nobody loves you
im so screwed
im so doomed
life is shit when everyone hates you
im so screwed
im so doomed
life is tough when nobody loves you
im so screwed
im so doomed
oooooo im so doomed

ekd

Vaschez