life getting a bit too real 😭💯 (my mind is overflooded with thoughts about everything, this mental illness is never letting go of me and i cant stop running from it. as soon as i stop to catch my breath it catches up to me and drains me in everything ive ever suffered of. im running further and further into this hole of eternity which ill never get out of. as soon as i experience the tiniest amount of feeling with somebody i get attached and everything starts to depend on them because experiencing feelings for me is rare and it gives such an adrenaline kick that i hold on until they have no other choice to completely destroy me)