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My Liver Will Handle What My Heart Can't

KILL YOURSELF (Part III)

Snow

Snow (Feat. Killstation)

LYRICS

with everything you left unsaid
i'll never get you out my head
i wish i felt the way i did
but i can't stand the way we live

only way of keeping track is by the blisters on my hand
wish that you weren't so distracted wish that you would understand
only thing that ever mattered was the life that we had planned
but you know that every life will have to end, i've been thinking bout

everything you left unsaid
i'll never get you out my head
i wish i felt the way i did
but i can't stand the way we lived

the two of us are dying

killstation - the two of us are dying (prod. killstation)

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//ごめんなさい//

thank you guys so much for the endless amount of support. working with my favorite artists is something i never imagined would become a reality, but you've all made it achievable. i cherish what this music has brought me & i hope we can all grow together in unison through it. i love you guys so much.

this is the first single off my upcoming album, "lacuna" which'll be out october 28th

huge s/o to my mans @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
i can't thank you enough for hoppin' on this one with me

follow 9tails

guardin x 9TAILS - suffocate

produced by @lederrick_ and @johnny_goth
mastered by @neekattack

west coast thrillin, all night chillin
smoking though the morning to suppress these feelings
streets so vivid, people so livid
not a soul safe in the world that we're living
no pop pillin, backwood sealing
but my brother staring at a styrofoam ceiling
east coat feeling, i don't like to feel it
so i spend my morning staring at the earth's ceiling

I know you won't miss me, like i miss you
cause i'm a fuckin fool
i know you won't miss me, like i miss you
cause i'm a fuckin fool

that's that, shawty snapped
this time think she don't want me back
that's that, that's that
that's that, shawty snapped
this time think she don't want me back
that's that, that's that
time passed, too fast
next year think i'm going up next
that's that, that's that
let bygones, be bygones
we don't gotta shed tears no more
we don't gotta shed tears no more

and I left home, i hope that's cool
I'm in west LA i've been acting a damn fool
like that's cool, like that's cool
i don't wanna go back to the damn east coast, goin ghost, give a toast to my brand new post
and I don't needa sell my soul 
(next year think i'm going up next)
i know all good things gotta come to an end
but i'm 19 swearing that it's all pretend
think I lost my mind and I lost my friends but I'm 19 swearing that it's all pretend, ohwoah

I know you won't miss me, like I miss you
cause i'ma fuckin fool
ohwoah, you won't miss me
 I promise you
cause i'ma fuckin fool
i know you won't miss me, like i miss you
you don't miss me like i miss you
cause i'ma fuckin fool

that's that, shawty snapped
this time think she don't want me back
that's that, that's that
time passed, too fast 
next year think i'm going up next
that's that, that's that
that's that, shawty snapped
this time think she don't want me back
that's that, that's that
let bygones be bygones
we don't gotta shed tears no more
we don't gotta shed tears no more

west coast thrillin, all night chilling
smokin through the morning to suppress these feelings
streets so vivid, people so livid
not a soul safe in the world that we're livin
no pop pillin, backwood sealing 
seven mornings staring at a styrofoam ceiling 
east coast feeling, i don't like to feel it
so i spend my morning staring at the earth's ceiling

(guitar solo by me)

west coast thrillin, all night chilling
smokin through the morning to suppress these feelings
streets so vivid, people so livid
not a soul safe in the world that we're livin
no pop pillin, backwood sealing 
but my brother staring at a styrofoam ceiling 
east coast feeling, i don't like to feel it
so i spend my morning staring at the earth's ceiling

I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

AYE PEEP EVERYONE YOU WARNED ME ABOUT IS NOW CLAIMING THEY MISS YOU, I HELD YOUR COLD FACE SAID GOOD BYE, HUGGED YOU THEN KISSED YOU. HOPPED UP OFF THAT TOUR BUS STUMBLING IN PIECES, I HOPE YOU FINALLY AT PEACE NOW THAT YOU NO LONGER BREATHING. EVEN WHEN YOU WAS LAUGHING THE HARDEST I STILL FELT YOUR PAIN, THAT DEEP DESPERATION GAZE, CRY BABY FACE. YOU HAD HAD A THOUSAND PLAYS WAY BACK IN THE DAY, WHEN YOU HAD THEM MILLIONS YOU WAS STILL EXACTLY THE SAME.
WE WAS BOTH FUCKED UP, LIVING ROUGH, HAD NOTHING.
EDITED YOUR FIRST VIDEO, YOU SENT MY PAYPAL MONEY.
DIDN'T EVEN WANT IT BUT IT STOPPED MY SISTER BEING HUNGRY, WE WAS SO CONNECTED LIVING IN COMPLETELY DIFFERENT COUNTRIES. FLEW OUT TO LA, GOT AN UBER TO YOUR PLACE.. NEVER SEEN SO MANY STRANGERS CROWDED IN A TINY PLACE. EVERYONE OFFERING DRUGS & TAKING PICTURES OF YOUR FACE, NO ONE OFFERING LOVE OR WONDERING ABOUT YOUR DAY.
WE WAS BOTH HEARTBROKEN, INTROVERTED, SO LONELY.
YOU WAS THE ONLY ONE OF THE FEW TO EVER REALLY KNOW ME.
AYE GUS, WHATS IT LIKE UP THERE I THINK I WANNA JOIN YA, STRUGGLING TO KEEP IT MOVING I'M TANGLED IN PARANOIA.
EVERYONE THAT WASN'T LOYAL TO YA WOULDA KILLED EM FOR YA, YOU HAD THE SAME MENTALITY CAUSE FAMILY IMPORTANT. 
GUS I'M STILL TRYNA FIGHT MY FEARS OUR CHILDHOOD WAS POISON, I GOT DEMONS I BEEN RUNNING FROM, NEVER STOOD UP & FOUGHT EM. BOUT TO TAKE A FLIGHT BACK TO LONDON YEA IN A FEW DAYS, WHERE WE LIVED TOGETHER.. I DON'T WANNA SEE THAT PLACE. ALL THAT BIZARE FURNITURE YOU PURCHASED, SO AWKWARDLY PLACED. YOU'D TAKE A STEP BACK AND STARE AT IT UNTIL IT LOOKED OKAY. I HELD YOUR FACE, TOOK A STEP BACK AND NOTHING LOOKED OKAY BROTHER, YOU WAS SHINING BRIGHT AND NOW YOU'VE TURNED INTO THIS GREY COLOUR. HOLDING BACK THE TEARS EVERYTIME I HEAR YOUR NAME CAME UP, I DON'T WANNA SAY NOTHING.. THEY DON'T KNOW THIS PAINS CUTTING. TRYNA STAY STRONG FOR THE LONERS THATS LIKE US, MADE A VIDEO OF YOU SLEEPING ON THE BACK OF THE BUS. I MADE A JOKE AND SAID THAT GUS IS WORKING OUT FINALLY THEN PUT THE CAMERA ON YOU TO SEE THAT YOU WAS FALLING ASLEEP.. EVERYDAY OF THE TOUR, LIKE YOU USUALLY DO. HEAD BACK, MOUTH OPEN, YEP THE USUAL. I SAW YOU LIKE THIS EVERYDAY ON THE ENTIRE TOUR, I DIDN'T KNOW THAT YOU WAS DEAD MAN.. AS IF I WOULDA RECORDED.

SEE YOU SOON 
LOVE BEXEY

BEXEY - LETTER TO PEEP [Prod.Despair & Shiro]

Indecision

u make my heart feel fragile 
like it's made of glass <3

@LILXLOTUS
@smrtdeath
@taxpurposes

lyrics:

don't leave me alone w/ lil lotus (prod. taxpurposes)

MUSIC VIDEO: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qGYyo9hQP70

@blacklunged

one of these days
i hope to be okay
im fixing the things
that felt right out of place
im an addict at best
you can take anything
as long as you stay
babe youll be my everything

i dont wanna bother you
stop hittin me up, were through
im takin it day by day
i dont even know what to say
im just tryna better myself
these bottles right up on the shelf
spent nights with the thoughts in my head
spent days wishin all this would end

no i dont need a friend
just need you to save my life
tried endin it twice
a blunts in my right
im thinkin wouldnt it be nice
to fade to the pavement?
these words on my grave are meant
to drive one last statement
right into the back of your neck

no i wont say sorry
i just want you by me
drive my car to your house
just to die in your arms
by myself

Follow me <3

i'd die for you (prod. blacklunged)

teensuicide *p. eskiimo*

no samples.
lyrics:
I'm tired of the way we think
i've lost all hope 
i think i'll leave
the nights still young
i've lost my ways
this path's not straight
and everything you had said
has left me inside my bed
alone without you
i'm glad you came through

(i'm so sad you're gone
we're done)x2

deadbeatteen - mistreatment

prod. @luiscansino 

lyrics: 

love sucks i know
scares me the most
hiding inside
don't tell me your lies 
i know you care 
but it's hard to believe

(93feetofsmoke)

go erase me from your life 
yeah it's fine 
say you don't believe in love 
but i gave mine
go delete all of yours pic 
on timeline 
on IG 
in your mind 

ignore me like that it's alright
guess i just miss your smile 
love sucks i know 
but i'm really scared to die alone 

(scumby outro)
love sucks i know
scares me the most

love sucks w/ 93feetofsmoke (prod. cansino)

https://soundcloud.com/grimeygoyard
vocals mixed by rellim
TOSSING AND TURNING 2/28

yellow stains
blank screens
dont overthink
empty seats 
pipe dreams
follow me
twisted wires
dead batteries 
are you hearing this

all the shit that you say 
got me thinkin
fuck everyone who trynna keep me in
i voice myself loud
i say what i mean proud
got some news for you
so you better fucking 
stick around
hear me yelling
so god damn loud
but its time I’ve been heard
before my lungs 
make me drown

I’ve been dying 
on the inside
for so fucking long now
i don’t belong
i don’t feel strong
i dont wanna try
i don’t want to know

yellow stains (prod grimey)

Written & Performed by: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Mix: @itsyungvan & @i_x_t_a_i_l_s
Master: @scottysplash
Production: @lilbuckethead
Cover art: @iamdavidkiernan (on twitter)
Shout out @qawikamri & @producedbyaidan for helping me extend the beat and go show love to everyone who helped make this song possible (if ya got some to share) <3


Lyrics-

Yung van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life

Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Bring me up
Shut me out
You wanna scream baby
I've learned to shout
You wanna ghost
I'll be your Phantom
Like a shadow
I'll follow till the end of 
Time
But I don't really care 
Said you had my back then you left me in the air
Flying all alone made me feel like I was scared
I'm drowning in your problems
Baby I can't solve them 

Running away
Running away
Running away
Running away

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

9TAILS:

says she wanna die with me
but thats just a lie
depression is like a virus
i see that shit in her eyes
shes up alone every night
weed is packed in the pipe
window open at night
smoke blowing by the streetlights

take me over like a virus
anti virus with the heisman
saw the bate no biting
calculate my timing

im out the door before you tell me to go
i had you blocked before i seen what you wrote
i got people to meet i got places to go
and she play the detective like murder she wrote

i dont have time for the games like its pay to play
feel like kobe how i fade away
keep you a bit behind thats screen delay
i know all your tricks no david blaine

u cant make me stress ya
u cant make me stress no
ask me whats been on your mind or else youll never know
we all will eventually die speak up before we go
put your plan back into motion hit me with the blow

tryna bring the heat like a tanning bed
get in line like its wonderland
break it off like a pencil lead

Yung Van:

Said she wanna die with me but that's just a lie 
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I want her back in my life
I said I'm fine
But that's a lie
Depression is like a virus I see that shit in her eyes
She's falling down like a cradle and wondering why I cry
every time that I see her I need her back in my life

Virus w/ 9TAILS (Prod. Aquinas)

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//新しい最低//

s/o @lilsadeyes
this one is 4 u

lyrics
--------
fake friends fake love when they snap you
six grams in the blunt imma pass you
get high with your guy if he asks you
don't lie say goodbye if you have to
i don't really like the way you talk to me
talking out your ass so much you're shittin' right in front of me
i can see it in your eyes the fans are whatchu want from me
fake is in your dna as your girl is all over me

diss tracks are a no go
guardin fucking snapped in half i swear i'm loco
that girl got my hoodie in her photo
nobody want a cap with your logo
it's funny how they think they know you well   
replicate my sound and watch your music start to sell
you bite all the homies that you talk to on your cell
and i guarentee they're plotting on your vacation to hell
reapin' what you sell
or reapin' what you sow
betchu never met a soul as crooked as your own
pocket all those compliments and hit the fucking road
cause i ain't tryna tune into the second episode

no second episode
i'm too fucking high for this i think i gotta go
i'd do anything for you to leave me all alone
you're a fucking nuisance from your head down to your toes

fake friends fake love when they snap you
six grams in the blunt imma pass you
get high with your guy if he asks you
don't lie say goodbye if you have to
i don't really like the way you talk to me
talking out your ass so much you're shittin' right in front of me
i can see it in your eyes the fans are whatchu want from me
fake is in your dna as your girl is all over me

stop fucking with my head
make me feel at fault when i gave you a proper bed
saved you from the rain and you just go & start again
haven't felt at home since the minute that you said
shit about me hittin' up my ex
shit about the way i deal with every ounce of stress
shit about another act when all you do is flex
or the shit about the girl i thought i loved and was obsessed with
real friends don't fuck around and lie
i can see you're just another clown in a disguise
i thought we were brothers till the end like do or die
but your actions speak against it evidence that you don't try

follow canis major

fake (prod. by canis major)

@prodreaper @93feetofsmoke

i can't trust anyone 
tell your friends pretty stories 
i just wanted a peace of mind 
and all the years wasted time 

every bridge is burned 
i don't wanna know 
stabbed me in the heart then you took my  soul 
never get it back i can't get it back 
no, no, no 

like be honest?  do you want it?
i know your eyes when you're lying 
and i'm trying, and i'm dying to hold it together in my hands 

no trust 

(93FEETOFSMOKE)
I dont understand
Where the Fuck I am 
Blood on my back
Blisters on my hands

Do you even know
Who the Fuck i am lately 
I can feel the stress
Gripping round my neck
Save me 

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust 
I got no love
Left in me 

I tried my best 
Is it working
My brain is 
Such a fucking a bully

Do you understand 
Time is getting thin
Lately
Trailing a fine line 
Between fine and kill me 

6 speed
See me Earnhardt
Thru the nosebleeds

No trust I got no love
Left in me

no trust w/93FEETOFSMOKE (prod. reaper)

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//落ちるのを恐れる//

i've been feeling some type of way recently. i don't know what to call it.

s/o young taylor
click that link up there & check him out 

thanks for 13k <3

lyrics
--------
how you gonna say that you like that
just to walk away when the tide casts
just to disappear well the forecast 
is cloudy today but the way that she talks makes the night dance 
girl you're an angel from hell
bad to the bone baby i couldn't tell
ooo mamasita she sweet to the cell
she on my dick cause i look like drake bell
whisper my name 
grippin' your neck & i'm slappin' your face
pull on your hair as i slide your panties off your waist
sit on my lips cause i love how you taste 
baby girl just take off on my rocket 
when you pop it back you better lock it 
we could spark the jay inside my pocket
fuck all night & we ain't ever stoppin'

got a feelin this is it 
got me feelin like a kid
spark another in a bit too high i'll admit 
rollie rollie rollie rollie rollie rollie on my wrist
jk maybe ravioli in my dish

i'm never hungry 
only for pussy and money 
i thought that bar was so funny 
i'm still laughin' like a dummy 
nothing makes sense to me lately 
stuck in my room someone save me 
i'm a fiend cause this weed got me shaky 
smoking it daily 
cause i cop big bands 
and i got big plans
and i can not stand you
being this far away
from the shit that you say 
that you think that you can't do 
just try a little harder and you'll see
turn your dreams into reality 
fuck the hate and negativity 
i believe in creativity

so when the sun comes up will you be here in the morning
love
x2

i can't sleep without you in my bed
and lately you've been wandering inside of my head 
so maybe i'm falling all over again
and i fear you'll leave me for one of your friends

follow young taylor

lately (prod. by young taylor)

somethin

what it feels like

@prodreaper @youngburial

i’m a little fucked up 
just a loser baby 
you could never love me 
leave before you hate me 
thoughts in my head i wish i could erase them 
but it’s not that easy

so stay away i really need my space 
so stay away i really need my space 

(fats’e)
if it was 2008
would u hit me up on MySpace 
We’d go to a show on a date 
but its not like that I’m not a kid anymore 

now I’ve got a lot on my plate 
And I’m getting older I hate it
and my past I want to erase 
so just stay away  I’m a burden and a bore

if it was 2008
will I live another decade tho
I really just need a little space
cuz it’s not like that I’m not a kid anymore

s a d / d e p r e s s e d / k y s

Ria