ur loss (recyclebin)

original - @ihatebixby
reprod - me
bixby - taste of melancholy
another fun project cover

taste of melancholy cover

@1yugenn

lyrics:

(intro)

flatline
i just wanna die said i just wanna die sometimes probably
flatline 
have u ever made a wish and it doesnt come tru this time ima-

(pre-chorus)

all these thoughts about u leaving i cant think about it
this feeling is just like a part of me cant live without it
i told u that im sorry but u said u doubt it
so i put on my mask, cant be seen without it

(chorus)

i feel like im always afraid
but i feel so warm inside your imbrace
when i looked at u, u said its okay
i had this pain that u could erase

i feel so fucking betrayed
i thought i was aware but i wasnt awake
what the hell did u do to my fucking brain
u put a flame right up to the propane

(verse)

now im burning up
u tried to put me out but now ur outta luck
i have always called u a diamond in the rough
forgave u all the things that u tried to go corrupt

the autumn leaves are falling
and i keep stalling
cause i dont wanna deal with the poison in the pollen
and i dont wanna think bout the times back in august
u said that we were perfect but poisoned by the toxins

(pre-chorus)

all these thoughts about u leaving i cant think about it
this feeling is just like a part of me cant live without it
i told u that im sorry but u said u doubt it
so i put on my mask, cant be seen without it

(chorus)

i feel like im always afraid
but i feel so warm inside your imbrace
when i looked at u, u said its okay
i had this pain that u could erase

i feel so fucking betrayed
i thought i was aware but i wasnt awake
what the hell did u do to my fucking brain
u put a flame right up to the propane

(outro)

i just wanna die said i just wanna die sometimes probably
flatline 
have u ever made a wish and it doesnt come tru this time ima 
flatline

think about it (yugen)

@mental @1yugenn + tactic (idk his @, sorry)

lyrics:

(victxrw)

take tht bullshit put tht 2 the side
i just wnna know that ur alright
ur the only1 thts on my mind
i cant even lie

i cant even lie girl u got me feeling down
i hold back all my tears till nobody is around
i would never try 2 make u frown
ull try to pick me up but ill just fall to the ground

i feel terrible, nd now my feelings are a little unbearable
stuck in my bed because im feeling unstable
im going all in chips on the table
my feelings are fatal

(mental)

im holding the tears in
its just like before
but you're more than a weakness
walk thru that door
and escape and retreat it
hurts me way more
when you have to repeat it

im watching you solemnly, i
could never look apart from these eyes
watching you for all of these times
i just wanna know youll be mine

(victxrw)

take tht bullshit put tht 2 the side
i just wnna know that ur alright
ur the only1 thts on my mind
i cant even lie

i cant even lie girl u got me feeling down
i hold back all my tears till nobody is around
i would never try 2 make u frown
ull try to pick me up but ill just fall to the ground

i feel terrible, nd now my feelings are a little unbearable
stuck in my bed because im feeling unstable
im going all in chips on the table
my feelings are fatal

nobody is around ft. mental (yugen + tactic)

covers of @avit69 one of my favorite artists (prod. avit & jacy nyte)

happy new year !

lyrics:

(ghost town re:do)

lately ive been fallin down
but tell me how you doing now?
its been so long since you left town
i miss when i could see you around
u know, i know
what we both had
is never ever
coming back
emotions flooding, feeling drowned
but now I guess
ill see you around

i miss your shine of moonlight
glowing bright on you tonight
i could never be enough for anybody in this life
walked around this empty town just so I can look upon the night
and it hurts me without you here
i just want my friend to stay
why’d u leave me without even a single goodbye?
it was all just so soon…

i know i gave a lot of me
but you know
you stole a part of me
sunrise
shining on your face
me and you
could never separate

lately ive been fallin down
but tell me how you doing now?
its been so long since you left town
i miss when i could see you around
u know, i know
what we both had
is never ever
coming back
emotions flooding, feeling drowned
but now I guess
ill see you around

(same old me)

these last few months in these thin walls
blood spilt w words, i’ve been through it all
n i grow tired day by day
watching all my “friends” leave me
wish they’d just stayed...
don’t know who i am anymore
i just don’t wanna b ignored
sick of it all…
cuz i’ve changed for y’all for far too long
n all ur lies roll off ya tongue
i’m done j being what u want
it’s clear that i do not belong

i could change the way i look
i could switch the way i talk
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
i just try again n again
so i can feel like i fit in
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
making the same mistakes
these problems, i create
ingrained inside my brain
falling back to my old ways
i’m tired, don’t wanna let myself go any further
cuz everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me

my memory’s faded and i’ve lost who i am
this piece i’ve painted, fragments of what was then
let’s leave it in the past
let it decay to ash
let it just falter… away
feel like my whole life, i’ve been erased
always made me feel like i’m a waste
wishing i could never ever wake
people switching up on me, it’s hard to say
but i don’t really feel a thing but apathy
yeah every part of me is numb to pain
everyday is just a cycle of my misery
and i hate it
cuz it’s always my fault and i’m always the cause of my fall

i could change the way i look
i could switch the way i talk
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
i just try again n again
so i can feel like i fit in
but everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me
making the same mistakes
these problems, i create
ingrained inside my brain
falling back to my old ways
i’m tired, don’t wanna let myself go any further
cuz everything i do is not enough
cuz i’m still the same old me

https://soundcloud.com/avit69/ghost-town-redo
https://soundcloud.com/avit69/sameoldme

ghost town re:do/same old me cover

@inno1k @0arid

lyrics:

(victxrw)

i feel faceless, oh i hate it
staring at the bottom of the bottle try to face it
i cnt explain it oh im so afraid of it
yea im so scared i dont even wanna claim it

and idk wht 2 say
when its laid infront my face
its like im frozen, stuck in space
i cnt seem to move away...
from everything thts hurting me n everything i hate
n im so self destructive i just dont know what 2 say

cuz it never ever works when its me n u </3
glued together all the pieces but its still no use
n im trynna figure out what the fuck 2 do -~-
yea im trynna figure out how to make it up 2 u
ahhh~ yea im stuck up in this maze
wake up in the night yea im feeling Drunk-Dazed
ahhhh~ yea i always hide my face
whenever ur around yea i always hideaway...

(arid)

yeah i piece it all together
i could never let her be the one
yeah ive been up forever
cant keep it together
i dont wanna start i know its gone
know its gone

i wash it blow right in the wind
i know its all that i could give
i worked so bad to lose it all
i worked so bad to lose it all
yeah i know i wasnt hard to figure out
always kept it all inside never let it out
i dont want you to tell me
your words dont keep me happy

(victxrw)

cuz it never ever works when its me n u </3
glued together all the pieces but its still no use
n im trynna figure out what the fuck 2 do -~-
yea im trynna figure out how to make it up 2 u
ahhh~ yea im stuck up in this maze
wake up in the night yea im feeling Drunk-Dazed
ahhhh~ yea i always hide my face
whenever ur around yea i always hideaway...

labyrinth ft. arid (inno)

og: silverstein - aquamarine
ty @llostvision for the inspo

ALSO I NEED A NEW MIC CAUSE THIS $40 CONDENSER AINT DOING IT NO MORE

lyrics:

a ring in a box but not ur dream
its not a diamond, its aquamarine
ur shocking look of self defeat
so desperate...
i think of the place where u fooled me
beside the tarmac u never came clean
im driving past the gruesome scene
I'll never forget this...

i told u I wished that i was dead
my eyes wouldn't open up again :(
i cnt believe i wasn't joking
salt n lime i taste
the sickest thoughts i cnt erase
these images wont stop provoking

u know u could
i wish u would

fall on ur knees and remove the sorrow
return the piece of my heart you borrowed </3
things u used to say
could take the pain away
but now ur gone and we're falling faster
forgetting things that we used to master
games we used to play
could take the pain away...

u packed your shit and went ahead
my mind and my soul were left for dead
i cnt believe u weren't joking
sweat rolls down my face
my bloody knuckles mark the stains
my throat is closing up, I'm choking

u know you could
(u know you could)
i wish u would
(i wish u...)

fall on ur knees and remove the sorrow
return the piece of my heart you borrowed </3
things u used to say
could take the pain away
but now ur gone and we're falling faster
forgetting things that we used to master
games we used to play
could take the pain away...

same bed, we take no precautions
emotions, regret and revenge
the last step in killing the karma
it makes sense from where we've been
the same car same songs same motions
we hold hands, relive how we met
but no talk, no reconciliation
this train's already left

did you think next April
u'd be even further away??
did u keep him faithful
how many nights did you lay awake?
n even six years later
the dialogue, it stays the same
ur 2000 miles away
betrayers never change...

a ring in a box but not from me
its still no diamond, its aquamarine
u'll never find your place of peace
u'll always regret this

fall on ur knees and remove the sorrow
return the piece of my heart you borrowed </3
things u used to say
could take the pain away
but now ur gone and we're falling faster
forgetting things that we used to master
games we used to play
could take the pain away...

art by https://twitter.com/Aioi_oNo

aquamarine cover

@ogpichu

i got covid.

lyrics:

look me in the eyes
tell me wht u find...
wht should i leave behind?
cuz i feel left behind :/
i'll do it all again
its the same old defense
when im pulling on a thread
its the same old end
will u still be here by tomorrow?
if i take a step will u follow?
im running outta love u can borrow </3
all my love's turning into hollow...

nd i tried 2 put it all together
i tried to run, but it feels like we're jus fking tethered
tethered by our emotions, for worse or better
but now when u speak all i feel is bitterness...

(because thats the way...)
nd i dont understand the things u do
(its meant to be #us)
when im feeling down i think of u
its crazy how i still dont have a clue
cuz this is not wht i wanna do...
yea its over and over
im sick of listening 2 u...
im stuck in october
im looking for some closure
abt u...

look me in the eyes
tell me wht u find...
wht should i leave behind?
cuz i feel left behind :/
i'll do it all again
its the same old defense
when im pulling on a thread
its the same old end
will u still be here by tomorrow?
if i take a step will u follow?
im running outta love u can borrow </3
all my love's turning into hollow...

art by https://twitter.com/Aioi_oNo

here, tomorrow (pichu)

[notes:// i fixed the tail, ogs will remember.]

@ogpichu

lyrics:

i never thought,
itll be so hard 2 be alone...
im scarred 
i jus wanna be someone
nd hold my own
i tried 2 reason w u but u jus give me shit
(thru all the tears)
tell me u remember my love, my lips on ur lips
(thru all the fears)

a living nightmare
(trying not 2 fall asleep zzz)
y arent u right here?
(where were u for me)
maybe u dont care
(dont try and disagree)
wish u were right there
(clearing this debris)

i never thought itll be like this
throwing up broken my ribs...
we said we'll never be like this
then tell me what the fuck is this

tell me what the fuck i did :/

tell me, please tell me
cuz im lost again i cant explain
getting used 2 feeling pain
i see faces in the rain
ill talk 2 them 
ill share my pain
open old wounds scars on my veins
feeling weighed down 
ball and a chain
no matter how hard i try the pain remains,
the pain remains...

i never thought,
itll be so hard 2 be alone...
im scarred 
i jus wanna be someone
nd hold my own
i tried 2 reason w u but u jus give me shit
(thru all the tears)
tell me u remember my love, my lips on ur lips
(thru all the fears)

i tried 2 reason w u but u just gave me shit
tell me u remember my love, ur lips on my lips...

remember u (pichu)

@7ripp0 @april211k

[victxrw]

ur so selfish
oh i couldnt tell
i was stupid
all i wanted was 2 help
but u threw it all away
down the wishing well
i still wanna wish u well

but u were never wht i needed u 2 be
i always hated all the ways u treated me
u took everything i gave so greedily
obviously we were jus not meant 2 be
our legacy
wish i couldve done it differently
the memories
its all hurting me so heavily

break my heart in 2 
i hate how i love you
this is not how i thought it through
i hate how i still love you

nd i dont get it
i tried it all
you'd just forget it
forget it all
all the shit tht i did for u
all the shit tht we planned for 2

u were never wht i needed u 2 be
i always hated all the ways u treated me
u took everything i gave so greedily
obviously we were jus not meant 2 be
our legacy
wish i couldve done it differently
the memories
its all hurting me so heavily

wht i needed u 2 be (rippo + april21)

@mxsui

lyrics:

[victxrw]

can u leave can u leave i dont wnna talk
i can see i can see tht u dont give a fuck
they can say wht they say all around me
i dnt care i dnt care if im unhealthy

cheer up, i cant
cuz when i try 2 help, u stop nd say i cant
even when i know i can, no i cant
do this shit anymore no i cant,
oh i cant

[karson]

i dont wanna lead you astray
tell me ur okay
tell me that u need me and then call me by my name
tell me that u love me and that i make u feel safe
tell me that youll stay with me and that youll never change

like i dont wanna go too far
baby let me heal up your scars
?making it too far
i knew it from the start
you waited for my heart
i held you in my arms
its tearing me apart

[arid]

i know its controlling me
but its way too deep
always stuck inside my home
when u fall asleep
everything u see
is not what u always know

i know its my fault
i know its my destiny
to make us whole again
i know that ur telling me
its not meant to be
yea it feels like the end

[victxrw]

can u leave can u leave i dont wnna talk
i can see i can see tht u dont give a fuck
they can say wht they say all around me
i dnt care i dnt care if im unhealthy

cheer up, i cant
cuz when i try 2 help, u stop nd say i cant
even when i know i can, no i cant
do this shit anymore no i cant,
oh i cant

i cant ft. karson + arid (mxsui)

@diligencexs

[victxrw]

she looks at me like im not even human
up all night trynna find a solution
losing sleep trynna find a conclusion
i guess it was just an illusion...

prove it baby can u prove it?
u abused it baby u abused it
all i do is lose all i do is lose it
but u knew it
from the start u knew it all :/

[jons]

i am trying, tying up the loose ends
crying cause i am but a human
i dont know if i did play my cards right
all i know is she played with my heart tonight
i cant sleep, not that i ever did but
she hurts me with her smile when we kiss cause
now i believe, this is not how we should be
prove it to me, that you love me constantly

[victxrw]

prove it baby can u prove it?
u abused it baby u abused it
all i do is lose all i do is lose it
but u knew it
from the start u knew it all :/

nd im not ready for winter
cuz the snow burns my skin
oh ill never be a winner
its never me again ;-;
could u leave me be?
oh im begging please
oh honestly i cant do this shit anymore...

not even human ft. jons (diligence + chained)

[victxrw]

y cant u feel wht i feel?
tell me whts the deal whts the deal
i cant even start and try to heal
i cant even tell wht is real...

cuz i try so hard
nd then i fall so far
is it rlly that hard?
to hide a shattered heart?

[ch2rms]

i cant take it any longer
other words i do not even bother
oh cause it dont work
and we strangers again and again
we going up off in circles
and u calling me out which is very hurtful
take her took you to the grave thats a dirtful
so much lean so i gotta stay purple

?

[victxrw]

its all over again
hate going from friends to strangers
to lovers, then strangers again
im feeling exhausted
tired of getting injured, healing, then injured again :(

y cant u feel wht i feel?
tell me whts the deal whts the deal
i cant even start and try to heal
i cant even tell wht is real...

cuz i try so hard
nd then i fall so far
is it rlly that hard?
to hide a shattered heart?

from lovers to friends to strangers ft. ch2rms (poni)

cover of ctrl alt del by corbin

lyrics:

i feel numb, i cant forget
ur sweet nothings bite my lip
i cant get up, i feel like shit
ive been goin thru withdrawals, ur the drug i miss
i feel sick, i got ur Robitussin
u sent me cuz "love" or something
used to make my heart start thumping
threw it away its all for nothing
It's hard to admit i am hurting
wanna leave my skin call the surgeon
no I cant win with u im certain
in my grave im tossing nd turning
ik it's hard to believe tht i have feelings 2
cut by your ways, how much blood did i lose?
crisis, i was desperate for u
the nicest and loving all for u
right here, i want u next 2 me
no sleep, nd u were never there next to me dreaming
crying, yeah u never knew all of my feelings
lying, u say u love me i don't believe it
i need it, need to feel it, so deceiving, i dont need this
shred my arm 2 pieces
memory control-alt-delete it
memory control-alt-delete it
memory control-alt-delete it

ctrl alt del (corbin + brandon zehrer)

cover of waste by @whereisnomu please go check out the og version its amazing

reprod by me

lyrics:

got me thinking i could fall for u
ur just a devil in a dress
tht i keep talking to
I almost fucked it up
I almost fucked it up again but then i cut it off

now i dont want nobody next to me
u only want me for attention wheres the rest of me
ur feelin better off da ecstasy
nd i can tell that u dnt care its like ur testing me

I’m getting tired of the same shit
i tried it different but its always hard to change it
nd u dont even know my name yet
gimme a chance and ima waste it all

got me thinking i could fall for u
ur just a devil in a dress
tht i keep talking to
I almost fucked it up
I almost fucked it up again but then i cut it off

nd u dont even know my name yet
gimme a chance and ima waste it all
waste it all
I almost fucked it up again but then i cut it off
got me thinking i could fall for u
ur just a devil in a dress
tht i keep talking to
I almost fucked it up
I almost fucked it up again but then i cut it off

now i dont want nobody next to me
u only want me for attention wheres the rest of me

waste it all
waste it all
I almost fucked it up again but then i cut it off

waste cover

@mental

(in the abyss, the darkness x2)

trynna fall into a dream
but i cnt close my eyes ><
wht does it rlly mean
when i just wanna cry?
cn i cry inside ur arms?
it makes me feel alright...
cn u hold me in ur arms
until i feel alright?

maybe i jus think
abt it way too long :/
chewing all these pills
till my jaw hurts all night long
nd do i make a difference?
i cant tell at all
will i make it thru
when i was meant to fall?

in the abyss, the darkness...
where i was meant to fall, where i was meant to fall
in the abyss, the darkness...
with my back against the wall, theres no where else to fall
in the abyss, the darkness...
maybe its where i belong, its where i belong
in the abyss, the darkness...
nd ill still remember everything, even when im gone

(in the abyss, the darkness)
(cn u hear me on this song?
hear me on this song?)
(in the abyss, the darkness)
(ive been crying all night long,
crying all night long)

x2

still thinking (mental)

@1wasterr @jolst

lyrics:
its never ever gnna be the same
u say its okay, say its okay...
i guess its never ever gonna change
it feels the damn same feels the damn same

cuz the distance
oh the distance
it makes no difference
u never listen
x2

but if u did would everything be okay?
the seratonin i need inside my brain
i never win its like everythings the worst
i never thought tht id be in so much pain
im so fragile i cn feel it in the rain
nd after everything i dont think tht ill be the same
nd evertime i drag the blade across my vein
i think about how much longer until i fade
away

im blacking out in park
baby why is it so dark?
gushing blood right out of my heart
but its only for u, its only for u...

its never ever gnna be the same
u say its okay, say its okay...
i guess its never ever gonna change
it feels the damn same feels the damn same

cuz the distance
oh the distance
it makes no difference
u never listen
x2

nd i cnt sleep nd i cnt eat thinking of u
u said u hate me nd i cnt believe i hate u 2
u said u changed ur mind then who am i in ur view?
u put the blame on me u say its my fault yea whats new

this feeling in my chest never lets me go
my lungs are begging me to rest the air dont wanna flow
baby close ur eyes theres blood up in the snow
tell me youll be fine when ill be dead and cold...

when ill be dead and cold...

its never ever gnna be the same
u say its okay, say its okay...
i guess its never ever gonna change
it feels the damn same feels the damn same

cuz the distance
oh the distance
it makes no difference
u never listen
x2

Distance (Wasterr + Jolst)

@reefuh @so-r-u @mental

lyrics:

[victxrw]

it all fell apart the pieces of my weakened heart
that boy talk 2 much i hit him w a fucking spark
am i rlly who i am? im looking at my arms
reaching for the skies im reaching for the fucking stars

trynna find an answer inside all these questions
trynna find a way 2 rid all of this tension
got a new hoe she said im wht shes obsessed with
im telling u 2 get away do u get the message?

223s up on my waist
tell dat boy 2 get the fuck away
im bout my money i dnt wnna play
im losing my thoughts idk what 2 say
with these racks inside of my benz
i dont rlly want no friends
tell ur bitch wht time i land
ill take u far just hold my hand

obsessed w all this green
i count green
asking "fuck u mean? fuck u mean?"
switches on my beams on my beams
i cnt get her out my head shes in my dreams

[reef]

please don't get me started
for every problem got a backwood that im sparking
fuck around get lil bro an AR and a target
44 fuck around flip that opp on the black market
last time I hurt so bad I fell apart 
pouring drink to compensate for all that shit I took to heart
for your sake I run that sack up to the ceiling and them stars
bitch I be posting with them killers they'll come get you after dark

yeah I love you but I dont got time for drama 
slime put a 50 on that pole turn to a llama
bitch we could get you smoked on my momma
this just how my weekend go rolling up that ganja

[victxrw]

it all fell apart the pieces of my weakened heart
that boy talk 2 much i hit him w a fucking spark
am i rlly who i am? im looking at my arms
reaching for the skies im reaching for the fucking stars

Fell Apart ft. Reef (Mental + Cranes)

https://open.spotify.com/track/6dT0a5McywD5bNFpJDaS0I?si=8ed7201a58324df5

@h3artch3rades prod me

lyrics:

[victxrw]

oh my god how have we got here?
i cnt sleep sound, when ur not near
so hold me tight like how u hold her
or every night feels a little colder...

cuz u can be my remedy with everything u say
nd maybe u can make me feel tht everythings okay
i did everything i could 2 make everything stay in place
then i think abt ur face nd then my stomach starts to ache
yea my stomach starts to turn and flip
yea my life is like a sinking ship
we align just like a full ecplise
nd ur words break my bones just like with stones and sticks

[h3artch3rades]

that's the perfect exit
trying not to exist
you still feel my presence
feel it with no pretense
you still want my essence
love for you is different
your love's not equivalent
so we should keep our distance

i cant stand the dissonance
inner thoughts keep listening
you're far away from innocent
that's not a good precedent
so i can feel it pressing in
cuff my hands and take me in
feel it like my loose lips
the same ones that can sink ships

[victxrw]

oh my god how have we got here?
i cnt sleep sound, when ur not near
so hold me tight like how u hold her
or every night feels a little colder...

cuz u can be my remedy with everything u say
nd maybe u can make me feel tht everythings okay
i did everything i could 2 make everything stay in place
then i think abt ur face nd then my stomach starts to ache
yea my stomach starts to turn and flip
yea my life is like a sinking ship
we align just like a full ecplise
nd ur words break my bones just like with stones and sticks

Stomach Ache ft h3artch3rades

lyrics:

(her skin's as pale as snow)
(i'd never let her go)

her skin's as pale as snow
i'd never let her go...
(i'll hold u close, u can cry, don't let go, please be mine)
she's cutting down to her bones
so many wounds shes sewn
(dnt pretend, i see it in ur eyes, its okay, we'll be fine)
but shes not alone

blood and snow don't mix well together
contrasting temperature nd harsher weather
it gets so cold as were drifting higher
ur made of gold but you've lost ur fire
you've lost ur fire
you've lost ur fire
you've lost ur fire
   
ur skin's as pale as snow
i'll never let u go...
(i'll hold u close, u can cry, don't let go, please be mine)
the cuts are down to ur bones
so many wounds youve sewn
(dnt pretend, i see it in ur eyes, its okay, we'll be fine)
but ur not alone

cover art - https://www.instagram.com/thelastmai/
produced all by me!!

Snow

https://open.spotify.com/track/482YTwU4spv2BMA8W3oWOp?si=3cf33f09b56a4057

lyrics:

please, just listen
something in my body's missing...

i think my mind is twisted,
from the thought of losing u.
im scratching at my skin, bloods running thin,
idk wht 2 do...
i think im losing vision.
i told myself "just think this through.
how can i get 2 u, get 2 ur heart?"
i shouldve told u i loved u from the start...

cuz it true, i knew tht u were mine
everything tht u left behind
i just wanna make sure ur fine
look in my eyes
i wouldnt go and lie
nd leave this all behind
id rather die...

just take my hand nd lead it far away from here
all the pain just dissapears
can u see? its crystal clear
i just need u here

would u be right here next 2 me, 
if the stars aligned?
(i wanna keep u here, hold u tight, ill hold u near)
would u be right here 2 hold my hand at night?
(ill keep u here, ill keep u safe plz do not fear)

this song was meant for u
but we're too far distant now...
i can feel my body bleeding out, im rotting underground,
those songs i wrote for two,
makes it hard 2 listen now
u can scar me and harm me tht'll last a lifetime from now-

i think my mind is twisted,
from the thought of losing u.
im scratching at my skin, bloods running thin,
idk wht 2 do...
i think im losing vision.
i told myself "just think this through.
how can i get 2 u, get 2 ur heart?"
i shouldve told u i loved u from the start...

look in my eyes
i wouldnt go nd lie
nd leave this all behind 
id rather die...

just take my hand and lead it far away from here
all the pain just dissapears
can u see? its crystal clear
i just need u here

prod. @kingtheta

Missing

@domerrz

lyrics:

but i dont mind
i jus tell myself i needa push tht 2 the side
dnt got time for crying got my homies by my side
i cn make it better wipe yo teardrops from ur eyes

from ur eyes, like plz dont cry
i'll make it better yea i swear it on my life
try 2 be kind, try 2 be nice
in return they always fuck up my mind :/

(i got 123, huh i got 123)

i got 1, 2 (too) many fucking problems cant solve em
its been 3 days since ive eaten anything solid
my loves only 4 u it still feels like im falling
its 5am waiting for my phone to say ur calling

maybe im stalling... i dnt wanna let u go tonight
feel me withdrawing...

but i just go about my life nd say tht its all fine, nd its alright
maybe im too good at fucking lying
well thts my life nd i gotta deal w it
late at night, thts when i start feeling it...

but i dont mind
i jus tell myself i needa push tht 2 the side
dnt got time for crying got my homies by my side
i cn make it better wipe yo teardrops from ur eyes

from ur eyes, like plz dont cry
i'll make it better yea i swear it on my life
try 2 be kind, try 2 be nice
in return they always fuck up my mind :/

time2cry (dom)

end of an era

lyrics:

i will try to help you forget
the clouds of smoke in your lungs,
the boiling blood in your skin,
even if what i do is not enough.
there are memories in your head,
haunted thoughts of sorrow
you'd burn it all in a second
it'll all repeat tomorrow...

escape to paradise
under cloudy skies
it'll be alright
just follow me home
constantly white lies
from the darkness of the night
it'll be alright
just follow me

(i know what's right and wrong)
(i will get us out of here)
(i know where you belong)
(i will get us out of here)
 
and she asks
when can i get out
to the lands of arcadia
with the one who can save her
and she asks
when can i get out
to the lands of arcadia
in the arms of a savior

even if its ephemeral
(youre leaving me with no time)
even for just one second
i'll bring down the waters from heaven
in nemoral
(leaves made of bronze and fire)
rivers of iron made to sever 
but i'd never leave, our skin is tethered

(i'd never leave, i'd never leave, i'd never leave)

and she asks
when can i get out
to the lands of arcadia
with the one who can save her
and she asks
when can i get out
to a place far unknown
to a place she calls home

prod me

Arcadia

@lullaby

spotify link: https://open.spotify.com/track/3fqrgplHZPeSwVDHZFFVbj?si=0ff107a4b3c844b5

lyrics:

u know it hurts me, i cant breathe
u know it hurts me, i cant breathe
fluorescent lights burn out so you cant find me
fluorescent lights burn out so you cant find me

from the blood in the battle
u stole from the holy garden
is it too much to handle?
all the things that u have started
as the sins flow across u
oh you live like an evergreen
now we build up the lust and break down the trust that lives in the inbetween

u know it hurts me, i cant breathe
cuz everything u do is a fallacy
fluorescent lights burn out so you cant find me
are u really a lover or an enemy?
i cant tell but its worth to imagine a life without tragic, happenings happen
if u want it then have it my bad bad habits, if he can then i can, he can then i can
u know it hurts me, i cant breathe
cuz everything u do is a fallacy
fluorescent lights burn out so you cant find me
are u really a lover or an enemy?

so which one is ur title?
did you take from the holy garden
is it too much to handle?
all the things that u have started
as the sins flow across u
oh you live like an evergreen
now we build up the lust and break down the trust that lives in the inbetween

from the blood in the battle
u stole from the holy garden
is it too much to handle?
all the things that u have started
as the sins flow across u
oh you live like an evergreen
now we build up the lust and break down the trust that lives in the inbetween
x2

fluorescent (lullaby + victxrw)

lyrics: 

bae, whatchu really see?
is it really me?
i tried to cover up
everything that makes me hate myself
y cant u luv someone else?
i can feel it start 2 melt
under canopies of fake facades
i cant bleed another drop
pls just leave, im not ur god
i can feel the squeeze of ur jaws

(from ur jaws)
(beauty in the open seas)
(from the jaws of a enemy)
(feel the teeth bury deep in me)

u ask me what is wrong between u and i
where do i begin?
inside the belly of a monster
let me in
no way 2 stop her
theres no innocence
desolation of a human
this rotten skin

(let me in)

bae, whatchu really see?
is it really me?
i tried to cover up
everything that makes me hate myself
y cant u luv someone else?
i can feel it start 2 melt
under canopies of fake facades
i cant bleed another drop
pls just leave im not ur god
i can feel the squeeze of ur jaws

(from ur jaws)
(from ur jaws)
(from ur jaws)

prod me
ty @pay for the help on this song

humandesolation

og: silverstein - burning hearts

lyrics:

the blood is rushing 2 my head
this room is spinning round the bed
a flashing image perforates
tarnishes memories of grace
a bursting bond reforms into this shape

nd if my body makes it out
unscathed nd safe from broken vows
a promise spoken leaves me holding on
i just can't get a hold of
why we always hurt the ones we love
can burning hearts still keep us strong?

a crack has formed in the foundation
the floor is falling out from under me
a pleading loser makes his case
a liar shakes his head and breaks
a life of honor turns into his shame

nd if my body makes it out
unscathed nd safe from broken vows
a promise spoken leaves me holding on
i just can't get a hold of
why we always hurt the ones we love
can burning hearts still keep us strong?

it's all my fault (It's all my fault)
this eagle's flying down below where shadows fall
now it's sinking in (now it's sinking in)
tht I'm sinking into this place I never thought I'd fall...

u can't trust me, I'm not worthy
u won't ever feel this way
the storm is moving overhead
the wind is blowing back, we've been misled
we've been misled

nd if my body makes it out
unscathed nd safe from broken vows
a promise spoken leaves me holding on
i just can't get a hold of
why we always hurt the ones we love
can burning hearts still keep us strong?

burning hearts cover

with my love @thelastmai

lyrics:

(just for tonight, just for tonight)
(we'll be alright, we'll be alright)
(just for tonight)
(we'll be fine)

[chorus] x2
just one more time before u go now
without u i got no one to hold now
dont tell a white lie
ur all mine
even just for tonight
just for tonight

run through my hand through ur hair
its real hard not to care
cause the pain dissapears
every time u come near
now its malibu and driving in the late nights
puppy talk and kissing on the train ride
ill find another way to make u feel alright
does that sound fine?

so please-

[chorus] x2

(hello?)
are you busy?
(what do you want?)
can you just come over?
(im on my way...)
do you promise?
(i promise...)

[chorus]

just for tonight
everything will be fine
if u give me one more night
i know things will be fine
and i know cause ur calling my phone
hear ur voice at the tone
i know where u belong
just follow me home
wanna get u alone
while ur playing this song
got u singing along

so please-

[chorus] x3

prod. under the maple tree

tonight w/ mai

EXSC1 entry :)

Samples: irisea hiah - dye127, chained2 - 140, inno - fabric 140

https://soundcloud.com/exstia/exsc1

lyrics:

run and try to hide
i know youll be mine
leave it all behind
just leave it all behind you
is it rlly worth my damn time
taking out this feeling inside of my eyes
make it fine
make it fine
ill bring you back to safety
because i-

love you, i love you, i- i- i love you more than
love you, i love you, i- i- i love you more than
love you, i love you, i- i- i love you more than
love you, i love you, i- i- i love you more than
anything

(let go of my hands
how did you get inside?
was it part of a plan?
but i cant, but i cant, but i cant)

love you, love you, love you like i have to
x8
(let the blood flow out,
there is no stopping now.
make it worth my while
just dont go slowing down) 

(dont go slowing down) 

you make it all fall down
you make a void of growth again
i cant help you
i cant help you
make a world around
your selfish inhibitions
i cant help you
i cant help you

let go of my hands
how did you get inside?
was it part of a plan?
but i cant, but i cant, but i cant-

love you, love you, love you like i have to
x8
(let the blood flow out,
there is no stopping now.
make it worth my while
just dont go slowing down) 

let the blood flow out
there is no stopping now
make it worth my while
just dont go slowing down

whycantiloveyou (EXSC1)

@whyhaze @hartfxlt @1akura

[victxrw]

(bye byes are harder than u think
its harder when its just u and me
trying not 2 remember everything
close my eyes ur the thing tht i see)

like baby whatchu say abt me in the dark
is that truly what u think inside ur heart
if i had another chance id press restart
looking for any signs inside of the stars

nd baby i know
maybe this is not for us maybe we should let go
nd baby i know
itll all work out we jus need 2 take it slow

[whyhaze]

take it slow, baby we should let go
but its not over, till its over
i got love scars baby tell me your secret
im writing goodbye letters
im just hoping youll read it

when im away
what do you think of me
girl what do you say?
cause i can say nothing
when i look at your face
i think of what it could been
i wonder what you truly think
i hope that you feel the same

[victxrw]

like baby whatchu say abt me in the dark
is that truly what u think inside ur heart
if i had another chance id press restart
looking for any signs inside of the stars

nd baby i know
maybe this is not for us maybe we should let go
nd baby i know
itll all work out we jus need 2 take it slow

goodbyeNotes (hartfxlt + akura) ft. whyhaze

@1yeezo @domerrz

lyrics:

im at a crossroads idk where 2 go
if u aint here 2 help then leave me alone
cus i dnt need anything else
2 bring me down instead of better myself

need 2 better myself staying out the ground
6 feet up, not 6 feet down
what makes u think i wanna see u frown
when everyday i wanna hear ur sound

(6 feet up, not 6 feet down
dont frown dont frown)

feels like all the walls are closing in, im in the middle
im stuck inside a jail cell i feel so fucking little
i can feel all my bones start 2 creak y r they so brittle
cnt think of any solutions, theyre so simple
i guess its not as simple as i thought
they ask me if im trynna get my life together well, sorta kinda...
i jus wnt it all 2 stop
i wish i could just wake up as a kid here in North Carolina

(6 feet up, not 6 feet down
dont frown dont frown)

thts what they always say its more complicated than tht
cnt look at u the same, my brain wants to reenact
everything i did, everything i fucking said
everything i did, it jus makes no fucking sense
nothing really make no sense anymore
y am i waking up at 5 on the floor
y am i living like my life is a chore
i dont think i can do this anymore

need 2 better myself staying out the ground
6 feet up, not 6 feet down
what makes u think i wanna make u frown
when everyday i wanna hear ur sound
need 2 better myself staying out the ground
6 feet up, not 6 feet down
what makes u think i wanna see u frown
am i the reason tht u frown?

(6 feet up, not 6 feet down
dont frown dont frown)

i guess its not as simple as i thought
they ask me if im trynna get my life together well, sorta kinda...
i jus wnt it all 2 stop
i wish i could just wake up as a kid here in North Carolina

(i wish i could just wake up as a kid here in North Carolina... Carolina)

carolina (yeezo + dom)

@reincarnatesociety
@remedysnuts
@anotherschoolday

victxrw

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