Waking up feeling like doing nothing

I wanna feel like ima be doing something good for once

Please just fuckin fill my cup

Don't fill my head up with these terrible thoughts

While I'm having the night of my life

I was thinking I was fine

But then I looked a little deeper and found what was inside

Fuck what anybody gotta fucking say

Just fucking do what you want and always do it great


I don't know why I gotta be this way

I'm always looking for a reason to have a good day

I can't ever find nothing and it's my fault

That I keep running and chasing for nothing at all


I just wanna have a good life before I kill myself

Off it cuz there's nothing to live for but pain and wealth

And I keep making it more than it has to be so I want to become your favorite tragedy

I won't be here to see it but just know that I love you

If they say that I didn't, then it wasn't true

I wanna rip my brain apart and take in something new

But I can't do that when I'm sitting here without you


I'm know that I'm nothing

Always wanted to be something 

But when I'm in the center

Still feel like I'm crumbling away

No amount of money or any eyes on me will change a thing

I just wanna fucking rot in peace

I don't wanna be a star

I just wanna be me

And not worry about what any of you bitches call my dream

You have no idea, I don't wanna hurt you anymore

This is a cry for help, I'll see you when I'm dead on the floor


Wanna fucking cry but I can't so here's a song instead

I'll be dead when you're calling me the man

531 (prod. by bloom)

I don't wanna be hidden forever
But I just can't deal with the weather right now
Time heals, just wait it out
But it's felt like years, am I supposed to be this stuck?
I said it a million times, I don't know where to go
What'll hurt the worst is when I Let Go
The good feelings faded out
I guess I'll just separate myself for right now

Demo

just some throwaways while i've been working on the album :)

LYRICS:

I'm just so tired of living I might as well get it through after tonight

But you told me not to because you always wanted me here by your side

I cannot sit through my lies

It's not your fault tonight


It's not your fault tonight

Just please leave me here and I'll fight

Whatever is going on

It's way too much for my life

it's not your fault (prod. CRY)

Fully produced by me! Email me if you'd like to work on a song/beat together:)

LYRICS:

When I'm in the cut

You know wassup, you messing with a demon

I know wassup, when you come around me better stay on your Q's and your P's

When I walk in the room, better stop making it all about you

All these fake people, I'm boutta school ya,

Better pipe it down, you a loser

You got a lot to learn

Same here cuz I don't know no better

You're on the fall, go and get you a sweater

But I'm sick as shit, feeling under the weather

It's cuz I'm cold with this shit

Having my fun, do you know who it is?

Vii, check the score when this finished

Been sad as a bitch but I'm still tryna dream, and not tryna live


Through whatever this is, this don't feel like home

It's hard to put these pieces together on my own

When they don't fit together

And I'm not living through my life like how I wanna live it

It don't feel worth it sometimes, but know it will get better

Still try to hold onto that hope, I don't see your heaven

I know you been trying your best, that fuse, it has been ending

You've been the light of my life, I don't wanna be that separate

Spread your winds, but not just yet 


Catch this, yeah it's tearing me to pieces

Should I keep on going even if I can't see the reason?

I been blind for a long, long time, I feel my entire past repeating

I don't even think you see me, I dug this grave for myself deeply

Why is loving you a crime? Cuz I been held in a prison

I can't hold myself together, and I think that's a given

But you don't care what I think, you won't even give this a listen

Can't reassure myself, told the mirror that I'm now lacking vision

Finished (Official Audio)

LYRICS:

Now you're on the other side

Yeah that's where you been staying

You never even ask me if I'm fine


I never you said you could be the one to control me

I would rather have a lifelong nosebleed

Bleeding all over the floor

I can't do this anymore

I can tell you're getting bored

Well let's settle up the score


I can't live without you

And it's been like that for a minute, you know I been thinking bout you babe

Everything will be okay

It'll never be the same

Everything will be okay


I can't stop

Yeah I can't wait

I can't wait to go back to that place

It's somewhere to stay

I'm warm inside

I'll never find anyone like you


Yeah I write in spite of me

I don't ever wanna become the enemy

But you became my therapy


I'm Fine (prod. capsctrl)

Chasing ft. Zilence (prod. Saint Mike X Shadow!)

Redlights ft. d3xxy (PROD. Number 48)

On Me ft. valak (prod.01ashes)

whosentyou? ft. N!C0 (prod. Fears)

CYBER ATTACK [[prod. by abelskittles]]

contact me for collabs, recording, mixing/mastering etc.
music here also posted on youtube
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