hey there gardenia
why do your eyes frown
why does your smile lie
why does your heart cry

why do you look so empty
into the mirror
straight through yourself
into another

person who isn't there
put up your long brown hair
maybe they won't even care
but you still feel so scared

gardenia (demo)

prospect

happy things

in case you've forgotten

let's all sing the anxiety song!

anxiety 4x

feeling like i'm chokin on nothin
and my palms are sweatin
thinking that i just might die
hyperventalating

but i'm just sittin in my room
with a blank expression
so nobody knows
just what it is i'm feelin

manic depressive
with a side of panphobia
prolly what i got
but therapists cost a lot

medicaid sucks
so i can't get help for my
emotional cancer
(the fuck is emotional cancer?)

anxiety 15x

art by moss

the anxiety song

bedroom bop
bedroom bop
feelin stuck inside 
this tiny box
an oddly comforting 
sorta claustrophobia
stuck slouched at my desk 
like catatonia

bedroom bop
bedroom bop
can anyone help my
moping stop
convince me to
step out my room
and lighten up my
lazy gloom

watch me bop
until i drop
until im so lazy
my heart stops
complain that i live life
through a screen
but i cant build up the
will to leave

so ill just watch
whats on tv
hey listen kids
dont be like me
bedroom bop
this is my bedroom bop
i just sit and whine
about my bedroom bop

bedroom bop

grow little seedling
i know it's taking you a while
to get your leaves and branches 
and grow tall as a mile

but i trust you've got in you
you can grow at your own pace
so I'll give you lots of water, sun
support, and the space

hey little short stop 
why do you look so down
is it all the other big grown trees 
that you see around

i'll tell you, you're the biggest 
and the strongest of the bunch
not in size, not quite yet
but i got a hunch
 
you are gettin to be
a very special little tree
and though its hard to see
you're a gardener's dream

it takes patience, and time and love
and maybe a little luck
but you can do it, you can bloom
if you try enough

its a gardener's promise
that i'll be here when you're through
when you've got big branches to hold me up
just like i held you

you are gettin to be
a very special little tree
and though its hard to see
you're a gardener's dream

[solo]

you are gettin to be
a very special little tree
and though its hard to see
you're a gardener's dream

seedling

eli's lullaby

good morning
good morning, darling
really wish i woke up 
in your bed 
a million miles from where 
i slept instead
where i dont have
to pretend
that i belong
that i belong 
that i belong 
at all

good morning

hey whats that, dear
do you want me around
really wish i could be
but i never left hometown
housebound

been waiting couple years 
just to hold your hand
and ill wait a couple more
so just for now
for now

we'll do it digital
digital
being stuck in a computer's
never felt so real
yet the thought of even hugging you is
all too surreal

we'll do it digital
virtual
cuddle the screen 
can't feel a thing
so wait for me

do it digital ft. gardener

hey, whats up?
how are you doing
hi, i'm good
how bout you?
doing fine
thank you for asking
cool

wish we could
just skip the small talk
say to me watcha wanted to 
guess i'm still
learning how to
talk

look me in the eye
and i turn to stone
a mixed up medusa
with nowhere to call home
but you

pause for years
in a couple seconds
your voice gets lost
in the sound of my own thoughts
oh dear

never been much 
of a socialite
invite me to your house
and i'll stay inside
hope you don't
take it as an offense

sing it instead
in case youve forgotten
maybe just share
a drawing too
all because i dont wanna 
speak my mind

look me in the eye
and i turn to stone
a mixed up medusa
with nowhere to call home
but you

pause for years
in a couple seconds
your voice gets lost
in the sound of my own thoughts
oh dear

mixed up medusa

oh no! ice cold!
where'd you put that heart of gold
that you keep locked up in your chest?

whiteout, shut the door
inside, such a bore
will the crow leave her rotten nest?

dear diary,
guess that she loves me
dear diary,
guess now i'm set free
dear diary,
she's still mine
i can hold her hand,
and intertwine

dear diary,
guess that she loves me
dear diary,
guess now i'm set free
dear diary,
she's still mine
dear diary,
i'll be fine

im not what i thought i was at all
no i'm not what they think i am at all
no i'm not what she thinks i am at all
and im not really
fine at all
 
maybe its just a phase and that's all
maybe i can try to hide it all
but whats the point of trying so hard
to be someone you're not at all

oh my! not alone!
see you through the phone
beam our tangled hearts right through the air

and i've found my home
safe from the syndrome
sanctuary in the shape of you

dear diary,
guess that she loves me
dear diary,
guess now i'm set free
dear diary,
she's still mine
i can hold her hand,
and intertwine

dear diary,
guess that she loves me
dear diary,
guess now i'm set free
dear diary,
she's still mine
dear diary,
i'll be fine

dear diary

oh my cutie, oh so spiky
will you always be so spicy
when your world feels off a bit
please remember that i'm not a twit
you dont hide very much by being rude (nope!)
put your shield down, no need to brood
just tell me why your big heart's so sick
i'll prescribe it a little bit of medicine

looking blue
just tell me what you're needing
hey, rude 
no need to be misleading
hey boo
i know just how you're feeling
i do
i do

(hedgehog! hedgehog! hedgehog! hedgehog!) x2

oh my cutie, oh so spiky
just a little, little feisty
know that it'll be alright
you can tell me, girl, and i won't bite
just turn your head on over here (hey!)
eyebrows down, no need to fear
i'm always here to see you're stressed
you can vent to me, and get some rest  

looking blue,
just tell me what you're needing
hey, rude 
no need to be misleading
hey boo
i know just how you're feeling
i do
i do

here she goes, down we go
spiraling dominos.
gonna fall, gotta crawl
back up to where we were
open up, spill your heart
dont let it tear apart
what we got, love you caught
talk to me, free your thoughts

(hedgehog! hedgehog! hedgehog! hedgehog!) x4

hedgehog

open your eyes to the sun
and you'll be just fine
fester in silence cuz i
cant seem to draw the line
and ill tempt the curse  
and just rush past all the stop signs
but i miss you, i miss you, i miss you
i miss the sun

im the moon, im la, la, la luna, loo
hiding in the dark from you
im the moon, im la, la, la luna, loo
and im coming back to you

and ill arrive when youre gone
too far behind
suns never out for too long
so ive been defined
by the night and dark
and all these stupid fears of mine
but ill see you, ill see you, ill see you
ill see the sun

maybe sunny days are coming
endless nights, so unbecoming
little fight left in me now
hoping that you'll come around
will i get up out of bed?
feeling dark and feeling dead
maybe in a little bit
don't expect me to commit

im the moon, im la, la, la luna, loo
hiding in the dark from you
im the moon, im la, la, la luna, loo
and i'm coming back to you

open your eyes

hey
i havent talked to you in a while
i said hey
i really wanna see how you smile
cuz you mispelled my email twice
and we broke up and we came back thrice

oh
how how tightly we held hands
cuz
we remembered how we had plans
and i think i forgot again
how its like to know you when

you werent so far from me
my heart was yours then
but arent we a little more than friends
just a little more than friends?

just a little more than friends?
just a little more than friends?

more than friends

ouch!

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echia ❦✾

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