James Aylward (baroque bassoon)
recorded by Justus Beyer at Ölbergkirche, Berlin, Germany
mixed and mastered by Dietrich Petzold

“What is called “life” is a hesitancy between two different kinds of death: blind machination and total nonexistence. Life as such cannot be opposed to disability. A limb is always a prosthetic limb, an eye is always an artificial one. The engine of evolution is mutation for no reason, such that it is impossible to tell when a new lifeform shows up between a variation and a monstrosity.” 
Timothy Morton “Humankind: Solidarity with Nonhuman People”, pp. 43

scales and spectra (2023) for baroque bassoon and electronics

Lyrics by Daria Geske

In a world that's like a game, 
Being queer can feel the same, 
Like an NPC, 
I'm in the back, 
No control, no agency, just a hack. 

I see the players all around,  
They move with ease, their feet on the ground,  
But I am stuck, I cannot move,  
I feel invisible, like I have nothing to prove. 

I long to be a player too, 
To have a say in what I do, 
To choose my path, to make my mark,  
To be seen and heard, to light up the dark. 

But sometimes I feel like I'm not real, 
That I'm just a character in someone's reel, 
A stereotype, a token, a prop, 
A mere decoration, to be used and then dropped. 

I want to break free from this game…  
To live my life without any shame, 
To be accepted for who I am,  
To be seen as a person, not just a program. 

So let's rewrite the rules of this game, 
Let's challenge the norm, let's break the chain,  
Let's embrace the diversity of all,  
And let each individual stand tall.  

For being queer is not a flaw,
It's a unique trait, a special draw, 
And though it may feel like being an NPC, 
Together, we can create a world where all are free. 

I shed the skin I once wore, 
A transformation to adore, 
The person I was, now no more, 
A new life I embrace and explore. 

Living in fear, trying to please, 
Society's norms, their beliefs, 
But their attacks didn't cease, 
Till I decided to break free.  

I killed the person I used to be, 
To live my truth and finally see, 
The person I was always meant to be, 
Living my life fearlessly.  

A metamorphosis, painful but true, 
A journey of self-love, long overdue,
I stand tall and proud, as I pursue, 
The life I was always meant to do.
No longer living in fear and shame, I embrace my true self, unashamed,
A phoenix risen from the flames, 
A new life, a new name. 

I killed a part of me to live, 
A death that brought forth life anew,
A fear that once consumed my heart,  
No longer holds its hold so true.  

I shed the skin of who I was, 
A shell that couldn't hold my soul, 
A metamorphosis profound, 
A transformation, my life's goal.  

I couldn't bear to live in fear, 
To please those who would hate me still, 
So I cast off that mask I wore,
And let my true self have its fill.

I am reborn, a new creature now,
And though the journey's just begun,
I walk with pride and newfound grace, 
My battle hard, but it is won. 
I live with courage, not with fear,  
My heart and soul now free to soar.

And though the road may not be clear, 
My strength will guide me evermore.

from the latest solo album "Hidden Landscape" (2024)

5. Momentum

2. Dilemma

8. Nanbei

Session lecture en appartement à Berlin : improvisation de Mathias Traxler, Lorena Izquierdo, Norbert Lange, Vincent Laju à partir du recueil "Espèce relique" publié par les éditions de l'Aigrette   https://www.editionsdelaigrette.com/


Espèce relique

Emiliano Salvatore - guitar, voice, composition
Gabriela Areal - cello, voice

winter 2019, Berlin

dúos de un cuaderno de Emiliano Salvatore

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UTXCVJhndZY
Sound ©Vincent Laju

The Passing Body
Vidéo performance By Nathalie Rey
Editing Gülbin Eriş
MP4 28 minutes 2024
Video based on a live performance staged at Performistanbul in June 2024

THE PASSING BODY.

Violin: Hsinwei Chiang
Piano: Bora Lim
Bass: Dan Martinez
Drums: Dennis Bulhões

Just One Of Those Things

An improvised session by Lun Ário (@lun_ario) Mizuki Ishikawa in Berlin 31.03.25

Instrumentation shown on the picture

Lun Ário, Mizuki Ishikawa - improvisation 31.03.25

Through the theme of “Wolf/Wolf Worship,” we wish to explore the duality of light (white) and shadow (black), as well as the deep connection between nature and humanity. This event aims to express these ideas through visual, sound, movement, reflecting Yurika Saito’s research interests.

Cooperation with
Full Moon Sound Experience

Visual/Film
-Yurika Saito https://yurikasaito.de/
Dance
-Tamae Yoneda
Music/Sound
-@vincent-laju
-Mizuki Ishikawa

Date
May 12th 2025 (Mon)
Time
Door open 18:30
19:00~21:00
1st set 19:00 Film & Music
2nd set 20:00 Dance & Music

Place
KunstRaum der Künstlerkolonie Berlin e.V.
📍Breitenbachplatz 1, 14195 Berlin

Entrance
Donation base (suggested 10~15€)

*This performance was made by Yurika Saito (visual/film), Tamae Yoneda (dance), Vincent Laju (cello), Mizuki Ishikawa (feedback) for Full Moon Sound Experience #9 "GOD DOG" on 12.05.2025 at KunstRaum der Künstlerkolonie Berlin e.V. This is a snippet from 80 minute performance. 

Drawing: Funyuchiba 不入地場 The Wolf Shrine by Yurika Saito

THE PASSING BODY.

Vincent Laju

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