The Cold Year featuring Kylee Skye Lynn and Ryan Whyte Maloney

Where are you love?
It’s quiet here
Thought you were coming
Thought I had years

Where are you love?
Racking my mind
Did I give you up?
Did I pass you by?

I used to feel
I used to dream
All of those years
it was so easy
Now I sit 
on broken beaches
My weary heart
shattered in pieces
What am I missing?
It’s all disappearing

On that spring day
we said goodbye
It was the last time
I felt alive

Thought I’d found
the one for me
But love just keeps
vanishing

I used to feel
I used to dream
All of those years
it was so easy
Now I sit 
on broken beaches
My weary heart
shattered in pieces
What am I missing?
I’m disappearing

I used to feel
I used to dream
All of those years
it was so easy
Now I sit 
on broken beaches
My weary heart
shattered in pieces
What am I missing?
I’m disappearing

What am I missing?
It’s all disappearing

What am I missing?
I’m disappearing

Disappearing

Don’t look at me, don’t look at me, don’t look at me that way
Don’t ask me, don’t ask me to, don’t ask me to stay
Cause if you hold me, I’m not gonna wanna let go
You’re just another dead end on this dead end road
Cause I’m done livin’ in the shadows, you know
That’s no place for me
So look away, look away, look away from me 
So look away, look away, look away from me

I’m watching you watching me
Across the room and I feel the heat
This scene’s played out twenty times before
Yeah we both know I want more than what you’re looking for 

Don’t look at me, don’t look at me, don’t look at me that way
Don’t ask me, don’t ask me to, don’t ask me to stay
Cause if you hold me, I’m not gonna wanna let go
You’re just another dead end on this dead end road
Cause I’m done living in the shadows, you know
That’s no place for me
So look away, look away, look away from me
So look away, look away, look away from me

I saw you with her the other night
Holding hands, your smile wide
So I ran for the exit, I ran for my life
I guess some things you have to see with your own eyes 

Don’t look at me, don’t look at me, don’t look at me that way
Don’t ask me, don’t ask me to, don’t ask me to stay
Cause if you hold me, I’m not gonna wanna let go
You’re just another dead end on this dead end road
Cause I’m done living in the shadows, you know
That’s no place for me

So look away, look away, look away from me
So look away, look away, look away from me
And I’m like sorry, sorry but I can’t look at you no more
You say you love me but I’m already walking out that door
And I’m like look away, look away, look away 
Look away, look away, look away from me
Cause I’m done livin’ in the shadows, you know
That’s no place for me
So look away, look away, look away from me
So look away, look away, look away from me

Look Away

Step out on the wire 
It’s like walking in the sky 
Don’t look down 
Just focus on your eyes 

Wind whipping my hair 
Makes it hard to see you there 
But I hear you 
Whisper through the air 

Eyes on me, eyes on you 
That’s all we need to get through 
And there’s nothing that we can’t do 
I know this much is true 
Eyes on me, on you 

Let the world go quiet 
They can’t reach us here 
It’s just us 
You don’t have to fear 

Years will come and go 
And our bodies they will fade 
See these eyes 
They won’t ever change

Eyes on me, eyes on you 
That’s all we need to get through 
There’s nothing that we can’t do 
I know this much is true 
Eyes on me, on you

Every place and person, were just stops on the road 
It was worth it to me, all of those years alone 
I found it in your eyes, and I found it in your soul 
I’ve been searching for so long and now I’m finally home

Eyes on me, eyes on you 
That’s all we need to get through 
There’s nothing that we can’t do 
I know this much is true 
Eyes on me, on you

Eyes on Me

I drive alone 
on a two lane road 
Breathing out slowly 
We both know I had to go 

It’s half past ten 
Texas never seems to end 
But if I stop now 
I will lose my ground 

Cause I keep telling myself I’ll be okay 
Telling myself I deserve more than he gave 
It always ends in the same way
I’m driving in my car away
I don’t think he cares
He never asks me to stay 
So I just wanna run away
Cause I’m just a runaway from heartbreak

I round a curve 
and hold onto my nerve 
Pray I’ll find 
what I deserve 

Canyon lands 
and desert sands 
This beauty helps me 
to breathe again 

Cause I keep telling myself I’ll be okay 
Telling myself I deserve more than he gave 
It always ends in the same way
I’m driving in my car away
I don’t think he cares
He never asks me to stay 
So I just wanna run away
Cause I’m just a runaway from heartbreak

Just a few towns left to go
I’ll be here out on the road
I’ll start my new life on the west coast
Just a few towns left to go
I’ll be here out on the road
3000 miles and I can let go
I can let go, let go
I can let go

Cause I keep telling myself I’ll be okay 
Telling myself I deserve more than he gave 
It always ends in the same way
I’m driving in my car away

Runaway

It’s the middle of the night  
And we’ve been here before 
An invisible crossroad 
We can no longer ignore 
You touch my face  
And I close my eyes 
I’ve tried everything to keep us alive   

Walk away, and make this easy on me 
Don’t give me hope 
We both know you can’t give me what I need 
I’ll fight 
But I think you want to be free 
Walk away, and make this easy, easy on me  

Hour after hour  
We’re trying to figure it out 
Blow after blow 
Bruised by each of your doubts  
If only your heart  
Hadn’t touched my soul 
I’d be strong enough to let you go  

Walk away, and make this easy on me 
Don’t give me hope 
We both know you can’t give me what I need 
I’ll fight 
But I think you want to be free 
Walk away, and make this easy, easy on me  

Walk away, and make this easy on me 
Don’t give me hope 
We both know you can’t give me what I need 
I’ll fight 
But I think you want to be free 
Walk away, and make this easy, easy on me  

Walk away, and make this easy on me 
Don’t give me hope 
We both know you can’t give me what I need 
I’ll fight 
But I think you want to be free 
Walk away, and make this easy, easy on me

Walk Away

I remember the day 
My father buried me
Disappointment in his eyes
Was all that I could see

I know that it was too hard
For him to believe
That I could raise a child on my own 
and still have everything

But my feet are made for fire
And my hands are made to bleed
My heart was made to love and break
He raised me with steel wings

So go ahead and bury me
Dig deep into the ground 
Cause I’m my father’s daughter
And we never stay down, stay down

I remember the day
We knocked on his door
Five years had passed and
I wanted him to meet my little girl  

I could see the regret
When he looked down at her
He said I should’ve known 
That your wings were gonna soar

Cause my feet are made for fire
And my hands are made to bleed
My heart was made to love and break
He raised me with steel wings

So go ahead and bury me
Dig deep into the ground 
Cause I’m my father’s daughter
And we never stay down, stay down

You grow up 
and life goes so different than we plan
But I’m not scared as long
as I remember who I am

So go ahead and bury me
Dig deep into the ground 
Cause I’m my father’s daughter
And we never stay down

So go ahead and bury me
Dig deep into the ground 
Cause I’m my father’s daughter
And we never stay down, stay down

Father's Daughter

We said goodbye in April
The airport ride was long
Holding hands and playing SAINt JHN 
I needed the music on

You squeezed my hand so tight 
Like you just couldn’t let go 
Knowing we were ending
Made it safe to feel so low 

Two months in your home 
Where everything had its place 
Except for me and all I wanted 
There was no space

It was the last time I’d ever see your face 
Maybe we never were right, we just lost our way
But I never understood how you seemed okay 
While each time the door would close, I always seemed to break 

That day in your bedroom
That final blow to my heart 
Had to get back to California 
Before I fell apart 

I grabbed my suitcase from the car 
You reached in for a hug
Always so controlled
Never giving anything up 

Now I’m on a plane 
And you’re already making plans
You’re letting go so fast

It was the last time I’d ever see your face 
Maybe we never were right, we just lost our way
But I never understood how you seemed okay 
While each time the door would close, I always seemed to break 

What did it matter
Four years…whatever, remember that day by the tree
when we shared those hard things 

I cried, we agreed to try again  
Things would go differently 
Wrong again, oh tell me why... 

It was the last time I’d ever see your face 
Maybe we never were right, we just lost our way
But I never understood how you seemed okay 
While each time the door would close, I always seemed to break

The Last Time

I know I shouldn’t play our song
But on nights like these I do
And it takes me back to the moment
when I knew I was in love with you

The opening chord still catches my breath
And the fourth line still sets me on fire
I remember how you looked at me
The music made us feel so alive 

But then a familiar ache sets in
and I shake off my reverie
Cause now you're gone and it's no longer our song
and all we are is just a memory

We must have played that song a hundred times
It always cast a spell
Closing any gap between us
Until our last farewell

Still the opening chord catches my breath
And the fourth line still sets me on fire
I remember how you looked at me
as the rhythm took us higher

But then a familiar ache sets in
and I shake off my reverie
Cause now you're gone and it's no longer our song
and all we are is just a memory

I know I shouldn't want to
play our song
I know I shouldn't wonder
if you ever turn it on 

Cause that familiar ache sets in
and I shake off my reverie
I know you're gone and it's no longer our song
and all we are is just a memory

Just a Memory

The waves keep rollin’ in
Like the days of my life
They all look the same
How do I shift the tide?

I used to dance until midnight
And pioneer new lands alone
I’d risk it all for a great love
Oh tell me where has she gone

Am I still the same girl I used to be
I’ve got more lines on my face
I’ve got more history
Can I take the best of her
And set the rest free
And become, become, become
Who I was meant to be

I’ve looked in the mirror
stared deep into my eyes
Asked myself the hard questions 
Trying to tell myself no lies

I’ve been carrying you on my back
Unable to forgive
But that leaves little space
For new life to come in

Am I still the same girl I used to be
I’ve got more lines on my face
I’ve got more history
Can I take the best of her
And set the rest free
And become, become, become
Who I was meant to be

Who I was Meant to Be

I know it's not easy now
You feel covered in dark clouds
You can't see what I see
that there's light in the darkest things

So Little One
hold my hand and let's run
Find a spot on the hill
where we can be still
Feel the sun on your face
and the wind in our hair
And cry, baby cry
till the clouds disappear

I know you're tryin’ to be strong
and figure out where things went wrong
But please trust me
when I say there's beauty in the painful things

So Little One, 
hold my hand and let's run
Find a spot on the hill
where we can be still
Feel the sun on your face
and the wind in our hair
And cry, baby cry
till the clouds disappear

Near or far
No matter how old you are
I’ll always be here

So Little One, 
hold my hand and let's run
Find a spot on the hill
where we can be still
Feel the sun on your face
and the wind in our hair
And cry, baby cry
till the clouds disappear
till the clouds disappear

Little One

I can’t remember the last time you said my name 
How much time apart did it take for us to change 
And I’m trying my best not to be afraid 
at the crack of my bones as our bond breaks 

You climbed the ladders like you always wanted to 
All the dreams we had God I was so proud of you 
But we didn’t think about the cost 
Woke up one day and we’d gotten lost 

Now you’re here like it was yesterday 
And it looks like love on your face 
If I could I would turn us back on 
but you’ve been gone, gone for too long 

I can count the years since you called my phone 
Did you get my message that I wrote my first song? 
We used to tell each other everything 
It made the absence of you deafening 

Now you’re here like it was yesterday 
And it looks like love on your face 
If I could I would turn us back on 
but you’ve been gone, gone for too long 

You ask me do I still miss you 
And with effort I say….. 
Every day

Now you’re here like it was yesterday 
And it looks like love on your face 
If I could I would turn us back on 
but you’ve been gone, gone for too long

Gone for Too Long

Violet Pen is a lyricist who writes introspective and relatable verse about relationships - those with others and with yourself. Collaborating with other songwriters on the music, Violet Pen’s song lyrics read like pages from a journal, painting vivid images, expressing deep vulnerability and conveying the complexity of life situations in simple, honest ways. In her lyrics, Violet Pen draws from her colorful and complicated life, filled with multiple careers and loves, moves from Atlanta to San Francisco to Alaska, single motherhood, family trauma and growing up in a small southern town on 11 acres of cow pasture. The musical style of her songs span Americana, folk and country. Influenced by great storytellers such as Taylor Swift and Joni Mitchell, she has often found herself in their songs - and she hopes others might find themselves in hers.

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