how has this been out for SIX YEARS😭 I’m so glad I came back to this tho

Sad Summerzzz 24®

Have A goodnight everyone <3

Fuck im fuckin pissed
feelin so damn sick of this
in my head again
feeling all this dread again

i cant let it in
demons eating fast again
hates my only friend
wish id be alone again

home again, steamy headed fucker, feelin rid of it
nothin ever workin so im stuck up in my head, again
i tried so many times to die, i think im getting sick of it
tie the rope right round my head, ill say goodbye, is it the end.

is the end, misty in my room, im tryna breath it in
leaving my one friend behind, the demons meet my face, again
bottles sipping, always drinking, death was on ur mind for it
im reeling in another chance to reach a life of happiness.

Fuck im fuckin pissed
feelin so damn sick of this
in my head again
feeling all this dread again

i cant let it in
demons eating fast again
hates my only friend
wish id be alone again


wakin up, where am i at?
feel a circus of death what is that
i cant feel myself, have a panic attack
please dont leave my side, i might go break my back

break me in half ima looser
wonderin why did i do her
so dirty, im down, i cant fool her
my mission is gone, ima shoot her

Fuck im fuckin pissed
feelin so damn sick of this
in my head again
feeling all this dread again

i cant let it in
demons eating fast again
hates my only friend
wish id be alone again


*i wanna go, home again
pissing off my friends, need some time alone, again
blood is on my face, is it mine, i cannot, tell
need some fuckin help, need to get me out, my shell. go to hell*


[109 BPM, Cm]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jmiCW4eeU7w&ab_channel=reytee

Hates My Only Friend (Fuckin Pissed) (prod. reytee)

prod by me and https://soundcloud.com/jolst
feat: https://soundcloud.com/flowersforyoumusic

youre so cynical (feat. flowers for you)

(verse)
ive been here before 
is this just some deja vu 
I might die on the floor surrounded by pictures of you 
I can't breathe stay with me 
don't believe underneath 
you're my thief 
stole my key
one more thing 
to make you see 

(hook)
in the middle of the night 
one more chance to make this right 
all these clues in black and white 
need some magic to excite
hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore 

(verse 2)
got gas in the tank 
lets just go for a ride 
give me a minute to think 
before you cast me aside 
your words not feeling clearer (its unfamiliar)
you're such a killer 
is it all for the taking?
cuz it's you that I'm chasing 
if no one is faking 
then why is it me who's breaking

(hook)
in the middle of the night 
one more chance to make this right 
all these clues in black and white 
need some magic to excite
hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore 
I got blood shot eyes 
and I'm barely living 
you build and break down my existence
it's at the point where I'm bout to give in 
just one more try cuz I'm still wishing for this 

(bridge)
fall into place, my saving grace
at the point where I'm bout to give in 
just one more try cuz I'm still wishing for this 
(fall into place, my saving grace) 

(hook)
in the middle of the night 
one more chance to make this right 
all these clues in black and white 
need some magic to excite
hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore 
I got blood shot eyes 
and I'm barely living 
you build and break down my existence
it's at the point where I'm bout to give in 
just one more try cuz I'm still wishing for this 

hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore

one bad move [prod. living puff]

my stuff: https://linktr.ee/nickisgonenow

zack's stuff: https://open.spotify.com/artist/53dPePMlci6GqJXISlntSK

TellMeThatULoveMe (Feat. Spaceman Zack)

i would’ve left just the same as you 

@nevrfall

you hurt me in ways that you don’t even know 
n you’re never there when i need u the most
n you never care when i break n it shows 
don’t say that you’ll stay when i know that you’ll go

i jus keep getting fucking worse 
i’m moving backwards 
i’ll keep on breaking 
do your worst 
it doesn’t matter 
it’s funny that i need you
we won’t have an ever after 
say you love me while you’re fucking someone else,

how does that work
our love was filled with patchwork 
a fucked up worn out pattern 
n everything was shattered 
so tell me how does that work 
n i thought you were better 
but every night my chest hurts 
n i can’t take the pressure 
so tell me how does that work 

so what does it feel like 
to know that you’re always on my mind 
to know that i really broke this time 
to know that it’s fucked up my whole life 
i don’t know what to do 
know that i hate me too 
n i would’ve left 
just the same as you 
n i can’t sleep 
in this worn out room 
drink through the night 
till my heart turns blue 

oh well
it’s cold out here 
kinda feels like hell 
left me for dead
but i wish u well
say i’m alright 
but i can’t tell 
isn’t that what u want

how does that work (prod. nevrfall)

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

orignal song "pale blue, pt. 2" written, recorded, and produced by Days to Waste

Lyrics:
Can't get it off my mind
Why do I even try?
The lights are turning green
And I can't drive away just
Highways and vacant streets
3 in the morning and I can't drive away
I know we never talk much

Told me that since you left
Darling have you forgotten the sound of my name?
All this ash in the air starts to turn every blue into different shades

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

I've been away some time
I come and I go just like cold milwaukie rain
then sunny the next day
Walking vacant streets at 3 in the morning 
With friends I'd never leave
Ended up leaving me

Told me that since you left
Honey have you forgotten the moments we shared?
looking back on the past feels like most days it's like you were never there

I'm right back where I started 
The feeling so cathartic
Love me just to watch you walk away
It's love, it's death, it's toxic
The feeling makes me nauseous
Tearing down my hometown brick by brick
Cause' the drive home makes me sick

pale blue (pt. 2)

pale blue, pt. 2

Bones (jolst)

lil skele - no seatbelt (prod. 8ROKEBOY)

Baby I love you
No one above you
Had to dub all of these bitches
Just because you hot
You would of thought I was Into bondage
Way I'm tied in her knot
In the gym she turning heads
The way she hit the squat
I'm a boss but make her laugh
Like I'm Michael Scott
She gimmie neck like a giraffe
Oh that hit the spot
She the best I ever had
I might wife her up
But I will never trust a bitch
Cause they are troublesome

Woah
If I catch her cheating
Imma kick her out the door
Ain't no questions asked
Hit the gas got to go
I don't need you in my life
lil bitch you at you're plateau
As for me I'm 21
Got many years to grow to the ceiling
Months I spent healing
Making these songs by myself off of feeling
I search for the meaning
I'm often defeated
I'm chasing these dragons
That I'm always seeking

When will I learn to put faith in the light
Lost in the dark so I spark in the night
And the pain that she gave me
Opened up my eyes
Had some trouble in the past
But this time I'll live it right

Baby I love you
No one above you
Had to dub all of these bitches
Just because you hot
You would of thought I was Into bondage
Way I'm tied in her knot
In the gym she turning heads
The way she hit the squat
I'm a boss but make her laugh
Like I'm Michael Scott
She gimmie neck like a giraffe
Oh that hit the spot
She the best I ever had
I might wife her up
But I will never trust a bitch
Cause they are troublesome

I put faith up in myself that bitch in missionary
I turn these tracks out every week
Cause I'm a visionary
Killing shit swear they want me in the military
I couldn't give a fuck that's not in my itinerary

TROUBLESOME [JustDan]

presave: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sendflowrs/colourblind

(for the first time, in a long time, i started to feel things again, i started to feel happy..) 

and i swear to god i will be there for you 
whether or not it is cold outside
i can’t even front
heart stopped when i saw you
for a minute i was sure i had died 
now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 

and it never was the same, was it? 
oh was it?
i’m sick of calling your phone !!!!
when everytime i see you on it
youre on it 
you hide your screen and say no 
i’m fucking losing my shit girl 
honest
just stop it
at this rate i’ll never come home 
and she just screams in my face 
“i promise, i promise!”
she said she does but she don’t 

she said she loves me, she don’t :( 
i know she cheats tho
and i’m as sure of it 
as i’m sure in the spring the leaves grow
she left me 0 speech 
so i left that bitch at heathrow
now i’m at level 3 
put 20xp in free throw 
i’m fucked up
drunk love
real kiss 
fake hugs 
pour up
care plus
guess i should’ve learned
last time felt the witches burn, fuck
left me with a cold touch 
so i jus smoke n turn up 
get money in surplus

(and i know,
mmmmm, 
but she don’t,
mmmmm,
but she don’t) 


now you don’t pick up anytime that i call you 
and i’m not used to swallowing my pride 
and you dropped your guard 
caught a hit that had floored you 🥊
i’m out on the ropes but will turn the tide 

so i reject the light, 
sit up and cry 
i can finally see 
now ive opened my eyes
and that girl changed my life
but i guess it’s goodbye
and the day that you left
was the worst day of my life 
the worst day of my life 


(i guess i've been feeling... distant from you.)

colourblind (wisssery x noahmadethiss)

We can never restart…

Check out notcursed she’s amazing <3

Lyrics:

AutumnIsEnding (Lovell)
I said if you won’t say it then I’ll save you the way
I really think we need space I’ll go back to my place 
You can tell my mom that we’re okay 
In truth we’ll never speak again and I can do it til we’re like that 
You know how much you meant to her 
But you’re both crying as your bags packed 
And oh the impact you leave as you turn for the front door 
And take your ass back home 

We can never restart you’ve already gone 
The bags all packed in the back of the cab 
And you’re not looking back 
And my mom wants to catch you up 
But you’re not slowing down and now 
I gotta pick up all of the pieces 
Of my own heart as well as my moms 
Cus she loved for what and you gave us up
Due to stress related reasons 

AutumnIsEnding (madison)
You know how much she adored you 
She treat you like a daughter too 
The downfall of falling in love too soon
And you let your true colours show 
And it wasn’t a pretty sight 
It’s awful uncalled for 
I fell out of love with your pretty eyes 
Goodbye goodbye goodbye 
I hope you find the right one in time 

Notcursed 
I'm sorry that i made a mess of this 
I thought i’d be back
To pick up the pieces i left in your home
Didn’t want it to end like that
But you’re hard to let go of
And i wish i did it better than this 
I know it’s not a lot for you to ask
I regret all my choices 
And now when i look back
I see i hurt more people that that
I thought i was better than this

Ok abandon us w/notcursed (kingtheta)

self prod (loop by jolst)

(lyrics)
Fuck all that, id kill myself
before i asked you for your help
its hard to admit but the world seems bleak 
i struggle to find colors even in my sleep
i hardly dream smoke too much weed
hopefully im fine by this time next week
i been strugglin could really use a hand
but its my fault i lost my friends 
x2

but i wont admit it
just give me another dose
and while im at it
i knew that it was close
to nothin, what you expected of me
but somehow i still fucked up everything
but now i must go and my only hope 
is that you'll be fine living life on your own

i'll write you a song in my suicide note
walk out the house with just my clothes
its not my fault i swear i didnt know
id break my legs and have to move on

its not what it seems
baby i been losing sleep

losing sleep

Song with my friend AVXiD :) Check them out here, they make literally incredible music : https://soundcloud.com/avxid
beat made by MY GOAT wraithontheporch : https://www.youtube.com/@wraithontheporch

I've been sick for a minute so I'm happy to post again <3

unjustified w/ AVXiD (wraithontheporch)

even tho some beautiful things have to come to an end, it's good to sometimes remember the happiness they once brought you :)

"our time together isn't ever quite enough" <3

produced by @mothfries
recorded/mixed by @heartbox_prod

lyrics:

Now It’s just you and me inside my jeep
Eyes locked and hands too
Although I’m scared to death
I get the feeling that I can’t move
Something in my chest
tells me it’s meant to be, we can’t lose
I lean in towards your seat 
and let my feelings understand you

9:53, turned down your street
one hand on the wheel, 
other placed in between 
your fingers fit so perfectly

in my heart: you be; in my cup: bubble tea
we’re singin out our hearts so far off key
if not to owl city
you know we’ll bumpin r kelly

I think to myself it’s the way you hold me
or maybe your smile like the sunset shining
that makes everything so at peace, so easy
either way i know I’m home right now here

pull the car right up outside your house next to your driveway
said it’s okay if you get back in this time a bit late
but I know your mother, she’s awake still
If this is all we get that’s fine, let’s make these next five minutes count

And It’s just you and me inside my jeep
Eyes locked and hands too
Although I’m scared death
I get the feeling that I can’t move
Something in my chest
tells me it’s meant to be, we can’t lose
I lean in towards your seat 
and let my feelings understand you

When i’m alone, home, in my room, feelin’ blue, i’m hating life in my shoes
and I’m missing your family. i’m thinking of you
oh how despite the differences I’ve never felt so loved, we’re so in tune

We’re so in tuneeeeee
we’re so in tuneeeeee
Did i mention I love you?
yeah I love you

this time its us three your sister, you and me the front room
Family all around  i never thought i’d be so valued
If this is what it’s like to feel loved, we’ll never be through  I have to leave and go back home it will be too soon

The World is a Happier Place When I'm With You! (prod. mothfries)

master: @trechorboy

lyrics:
so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

took you off my lock screen yesterday
said you'd never leave and now you've gone away
and after all this time, still don't know what to say
don't know how much longer i'll keep running away
it's getting harder to sleep now
wake up in a sweat i still see you in my dreams now
don't know how to feel now
cause i thought you'd be right here and now you're not around

so don't look at me i'm a no show 
was feeling bad now it's more so
feeling real low think my heart broke
laying alone it gets too cold
don't think it's good for my mind no
i know you're good on your own though
but i keep on staring at photos
i keep on staring at photos, at photos
(x2)

i keep on staring at photos (prod. 2001)

Breathe...

...and I'll carry you away.

Looking to get busier with features! Email me or DM me on twitter or IG! Would love to work with anyone!

The World is a Happier Place When I'm With You! (prod. mothfries)

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