My Endless, Beneath

Papers & Notes: B-Sides & Rarities

I march in the room I weigh out the bar 
a bottle of booze it burns like cigars 
the powder of love I doused on my nose 
he’s playing the show tonight I think they’re talkin to you 

I never wanted the fortune 
I just wanted to be in the moment 
I think everyones fucking bogus 
I sold my soul for a lonely bonus 

a decibel won’t reach to you 
like I used to comfort you 
we’re far away above the stems
but the lights keep us astray 

I miss you but I’m with the broken 
I love you but I chose darkness now
I think about every moment 
to return is an empty promise now for you

my friend who’s scared to change into 
another vessel but I knew
the cost of it all the curse isn’t small 
so I do deeds til i do em all

Silver & Stained

It's here. Special thank you to Leon English, Julian Canser and Sirune for their help on this record. And thank you for supporting. The Nature of Violence.

Papers & Notes

No One Else

Sloane

Lead single from the upcoming EP "My Endless, Beneath".

Black Balloons

Song For Seagulls

The Gauze

A Dance That's Gone Too Long

How To Summon An Abyss

"Polly" by Nirvana performed by Vision4k.

Polly

Tethered to a Hole

Ode to Helena

Untitled #2

Untitled #1

Papers & Notes (Instrumental)

The Sorry, The Tired (Instrumental)

The Seams (Rough Mix)

Lamb (Alternate Mix)

You Are My Love

Shroud Me

The Rash of Life

Psalm of Trust (feat. Leon English)

original song: https://soundcloud.com/smokepurpp/topic?in=smokepurpp/sets/deadstar

topic (+ smokepurpp)

Apple & Spotify

Run (Prod. Gin$eng)

prod me

(Inspired by Pierre Bourne's "Hacked My Instagram")

Lyrics:

((Part1)): Wockhardt, in my cup, it’s nothing
I’ll run just, run away, from something
demons, on my back, they hunting
when I look, into your eyes It was stunning

when I come across you I can’t get enough 
cause I have no patience I just want your love
You’re like an angel that came from above
now i am broken yoy left now it’s rough

cause I am so in love with you
I cannot help that I’m a fool
Broken in half now my heart is in two
my mind is jumbled around like soup




((Part2)): did you really have a heart ya
I will not chase you, I will not save you
u jus wanna tear me apart ya
I cannot faze you nor will I try to

how did I even come this far ya
your heart will not make room I will just leave u
you still want ur ex that ain’t smart ya
he will just make u overly see thru

they just use me all the same
but they never take the blame
when I look them in shame 
they look at me like I’m a lame

but when I try to go away
they all wanna scream my name
but my heart is filled with pain
I can never focus my brain

 they say I’m next, but my heart is vexed
when I’m gone don’t you ever come near
you never made me feel like I’m at home here
you turned everything I love into a fear

they say I’m next but my heart is vexed
pull up with the drugs now I’m off ground
I never care just to even look around
they never care they jus want my fuckin count 

can I make u see
for your love I’m a fiend
you were just in my dream
I can never come clean my heart is so deep

hacked my twitter (part 1 & 2)

fuk
Lyrics:
I keep the 9 and you know I’m comin thru
Why you gotta lie when u said u had the tool
You were never gang you can’t hang with the crew
Left me all alone fuck it i dont need you

Got scars on my arm, from all the pain
I think I’m lost, I’ve gon insane
I thought I had friends but they never came
But when I came up, they knew my name

Come thru wit the wockhardt, I can never sleep hard
Lookin at the stars and I’m never gonna reach far
I can never read ur heart, you know I was never smart
Every single time I was in love I got torn apart

Every single time I was in love I was left scarred
I can never think on an action got a black heart
You were never there what’s the matter u were always far
Look me in my eyes and you’ll see that my soul is dark

thru (prod. lifted)

with love ~
instagram.com/vision4k_


I’ll make u bleed, I got no team
I’m all alone ya, wock hit my spleen
U wanted smoke ya, duckin red beam
I never fold ya, I never leave

Movin wit packs, I’m movin so clean
Where u cop that, it’s not in ya league 
Y3 and the rafs, designer my jeans 
Gone off da drugs but I’m servin the fiends

Yo bitch pull up said she wanna meet me
I don’t want her but she all up on my meat
He said he got the funds but he lyin thru his teeth
Pull up in jag and I’m drivin 6 speed

Run up the sack I know they say
I’m not in my bag but I’m counting the cheese 
Ksubi on my ass and my girl overseas
It’s left in the past now they all wanna piece

Yea I am sad but I’ll make u leak
U said u got the stacks, bitch u miskeen
See 12 movin fast, nine on my jeans 
U sleepin on me but I’ll make u see

bleed (prod. gin$eng)

blood in the snow w/ savagegasp (prod. gin$eng)

instagram.com/vision4k_

https://twitter.com/vision4k_
Lyrics:

(chorus)
when I look into ur eyes yeah you kno I get stuck
I can’t even hide, so I roll off the drugs
look up at the sky I know the sun ain’t comin up
so try i to lie and say I don’t give a fuck
and you kno I’m a clown and my feelings fucked up
I never say I how feel and I kno that it sucks
I be goin out sad and my tears filled with blood
and my feelings are clear but I’m stuck in the mud

(verse1)
bitch I’m pressin up, but your heart is so mean
you ain’t never love me so I pop a whole bean
I wish I never see you when I wake up from my dream
cause everything sucks when you not on my team 
I wish I could love when you are not around
when I see u I fall to the ground 
these demons they hunt me just like a hound
I’m alone in the dark so I don’t make a sound

(verse2)
what you see, i see you move when u talk when you breathe
can you smell all the lies in my teeth
I’m a piece of shit, I am not what you need
gonna hide in the dark, so my feelings are unseen
just for your love girl you know I’m a fiend
emotions got me tucked so I’ll never come clean
I can’t see the sun I’m lost in the sea
I can’t try to move cause I’m stuck in between

(verse3//breakdown)
I walk with you
I don’t see the view
my heart in 2
I can’t move through

(repeat chorus)

stuck (prod. eris)

alone w/ kevin kazi (prod. @killmidnight)

thank you for everything so far.

mixed and mastered by : @visionhatesyou & @magtd

prod: @ginsengxx , @eqmadeit , @fadedblackid , @trvphones , and @proderis

i give up (prod. gin$eng)

I been lost inside my mind
looking at my soul right thru my eyes
I just go and stare up at the sky
they all wanna know where I go to hide 
i know I’m a joke ya I know that I suck
your hand I wanna hold I just hope that I’m enough 
I say I’m feeling cold but I’m warmer than the sun 
everywhere I go I feel like I’m outta luck


when I see you in my dream I can barely breathe
what I feel inside you’re exactly what I need
got a broken heart, it can only bleed 
I seem all alive but nothing’s what it seems
when I wake up, I see your face then I come out the mud
I have no patience I just want your touch
they always tell me I’m gonna be up
I never cared cause my souls always crushed


it’s a lonely path I walk 
I got no one else to call
I been feeling way too far
cause what I feel is way too strong 


I’m always worried I’m off the drugs
nothing works so I just give up
I don’t want nothing I want your love 
my mind is a mess tho I feel so rough 
they say I’m dumb I don’t give a fuck
when did I ever have any luck
I’m gonna hide my feelings under the rug
gonna try and keep my emotions tucked

never enough (prod. iankon & romeo)

inside (prod. gin$eng)

sorry for the wait. 
prod me

(Part 3 : In My Mind)
In my mind all I ever see is me alone
trust in my gut i always tend to lose control
they always tell me that I’m gonna be a lot on my own
I been solid as stone, I feel the ache in my bones

I been getting drunk now maybe I been drugged out
i feel like that I’m a clown I been up since sun down
I feel like I’m underground, maybe I’m just bugging out
I just go away to a place where I won’t hear a sound

 my mind won’t, take a hold
will you please just take me home
I don’t know where I should go
so I fell in my own hole

hiding from people I been on my own
I’ll never put up my feelings for show
I can’t find peace I’m a wondering soul
and they turned their backs so I’ll never go home




(Part 4 : Here, I Stand)
when you're feeling blue I feel it too, I never met one quite like you
you’re the only one I could run to
when you’re down it tears me into(in two)

the drugs again, dealing with love again
but you took my hand and here I stand

I’ll take your demons too
I’ll never let them close to you
but I lost all my screws and you have all of the tools 
and I know I’m a lonely fool

so I stay inside, so I don’t feel the light
but when I close my eyes, I see you in the skies

the drugs again, dealing with love again
but you took my hand and here I stand

hacked my twitter (part 3 & 4)

produced by me

a letter to my own head ~

I been outside I’m off a perc high
I lost all of my pride I’m rotting inside
all they do is tell me lies
i don’t think it’s a surprise
when I see my face in the mirror all I do is cry

I been outside I’m off a perc high
I lost all of my pride I’m rotting inside
I feel like I’m gonna die I don’t know if I’ll survive
what I knew back then doesn’t matter so give me a sign 

I’ve been left forsaken, never faking
the drugs I’m taken turns me vacant 
I wanna Kill my brain tonight
maybe then I’ll feel alright 

only friends I have are the demons in my head
think I’m better off alone think I’m better off dead
all the scars that bled all the tears I shed
and I don’t know what to do I been hanging by a thread

will they find me or will they push beside me
guide me, will you take me on a ride please
I don’t know for certain of they're gonna even like me
I just wanna let of the pain all in my psyche 

can you feel this? will it take you out
would you listen? if I made another sound
I don’t think that I can move, might be stuck into the ground
I don’t think I wanna lose so I have to go around

fear my pain, feel my shame
I don’t think I'm ever gonna feel the same 
they say that I’m ugly and I’m never gonna change
I don’t have an image cause I tore my face

i want to tear my face off

sorry for being gone for a while,
i missed my clowns, 
made this extra special for you.
produced my me

I feel you creeping on my skin from inside of me
what do you wanna take from me you took everything
you made me such a fool you never wanna talk to me
now I’m broken free, get away from me

oh, what’s wrong with me
oh, what’s wrong with you
I cannot get to you
one and one don’t make two

wasted all that time we spent 
Im better off on my own

you finally broke me here tonight 
can’t remember the last I slept at night
you keep trying to come and make things right 
just keep your distance so I can feel alright

Skin

produced by me

you make me understand it
you make me feel like I’m stranded
you coarse my veins like heroin 
you free my soul from all my sins

you make me warm inside
to the point where I can’t fight to get up
you make me brain dead to the core
you make me hell and I want more 

but your runnin out of time 
if that makes you feel alright
you take me down 
you build me up 
you make me see the light 
now would you talk again? 
you lost yourself my friend
you made me frown, and turned around 
now time to say the end 

why you look so sad why you look so down?
is it pain or friends that you haven’t found?
but you loathe so hard so you have that now
and your hate goes far and it gets so loud

so why are you trying to forsaken me?
cause I know exactly who you truly want to be

awaken me again
the time has finally come again
i wish that it would never end
this solitude that I defend from you 

and all the times you fade away in my head into the sun
you keep coming back the enemy all I think to do is run 

he soaks in all of the blame
he takes in all the shame
he walks into the flame
cause he never really cared..

live to loathe

inside, my twisted brain I lie
to make it feel alright 
so I won’t feel it I don’t care 

in time, you’ll follow me in my
own personal confine
I’m stuck to you and it’s not fair

I just wanna let you know that I’m really just not the same 
an if that bothers you, I won’t ever make a change 

and everyone around me loves to make me the alien
but they alll think I’m stuck in oblivion 

but I’m so bliss now you’ve hated everyone just like I do
that venom kiss fuels me in every way so I won’t be like you 

you know it makes me feel so jaded
and I can’t feel my face 

inside, this wicked mind of mine
you might’ve lost your life
I wonder you’d like to stay

in time, you’ll fall asleep in line
in  your new vacant brine
I’ll burn with you and we’ll decay 

like hell, it makes me feel like hell
and you just feel so swell so time to say farewell 
I wrote this for you 

make your mind up, I won’t be so wiser
everyday single day is looking darker 
but I think I like it, maybe I don’t mind it
I swear on my dead end friends in my head 

my conscience is so fried 
so I can’t be so kind 
to let you know that I am
you’re enemy

stray dogs

fucked up

produced by me

am I gonna make it? 
look In my mind you see track lines,
I keep going through this

cause I made chaos my bliss
behind these brown eyes nightmares revive
am I gonna make it?

oh queen of pain will you come rain down on me and make me feel the same
cause I’m the king of shame and everyone around me just pushes me away

and I confess that all I knew was make believe 
and that I would just drown myself in kerosene
I float away to play this broken pantomime 
but you won’t care if I just go and lose this soul of mine

I walk through depths of hell to make sure I won’t come down from this fantasy 
oh when they look at me and wonder what just happened, what a tragedy

don’t leave me here, I won’t be there when it’s time to leave this utter sunken place
and is it fair to just have care when you could just share all your pure hatred in my face

confessions

Your first taste #R 
Produced by Vision4k & Leon English

Maybe when the creeps come out at night
 I’ll feel alright, and we could meet again
all the patience that I had for you, it’s running out
I know that you’d never go escape and leave this place, I made for me and you 
but what else am I supposed to do 
cause we’re going down to

my own underworld, into my own lucid dreams
where you can walk on the walls like it was make believe 
don’t be so scared don’t be so sad, cause there’s no going back
and maybe things won’t be so bad I hope you’ll see

you’re stuck under water, it’s getting cold
and now the worlds getting larger while you’re alone
but don’t forget you’re the martyr and I’m the Holy Ghost
you feel the most, you lose control in here 

oh my child, you’ve lost yourself
as the clock, hits the twelve x2

you can walk ten thousand miles away and you’d still find me
you can go into the outer space and you’d still find me

I caress your skin, I’m creeping up
I’ll take you there where you want to be
a piece of me, I’m giving up
I’ll give you all my extremities

Honey & Pills

It's finally here, thank you all for waiting.

Everything produced by me and these people below:
Vision4k: vocals, guitars, synthesizers, bass, drums, and programming
Leon English: backing vocals, synthesizers, bass
Demxntia: backing vocals
Fish: synthesizers
Glasear: synthesizers
Justus: guitar
Sirune: violins
2delegy: piano

as you fall asleep
as the trees talk and breathe
by the corner, I rest you here to see
the moment, the second of you and me

as it flows beneath the cracks 
as I can’t get what I had again 
but I looked inside and found the broken strings
no I can’t, but I can’t fix a thing 

take a piece from me, you will see
everything you gave to me
don’t feel pain if you believe 
everything’s not what it seems x2

I’m outta control, I’m losing my locks and I can’t find the key
I’ve gone off the deep end, and I’ve been trying with a needle and a seam 

you gotta give it credit too, you never seen a creature quite like me, faraway into the lands of the dark

take a piece from me, you will see
everything you gave to me
don’t feel pain if you believe 
everything’s not what it seems x2

Heart Of Wax

It's finally here, thank you all for waiting.

Everything produced by me and these people below:
Vision4k: vocals, guitars, synthesizers, bass, drums, and programming
Leon English: backing vocals, synthesizers, bass
Demxntia: backing vocals
Fish: synthesizers
Glasear: synthesizers
Justus: guitar
Sirune: violins
2delegy: piano

locked in bed 
cause you can’t leave my head
and I will not forget 
everything that you said to me

and I can’t find air 
but it seems that I don’t care
and it is not so fair
that it’s so easy for my heart to tear in two

and I won’t cry no I won’t hurt 
now that you’re gone into ashes
i scream your name I love the taste 
of your evanescence 

Follow me down to my wallowing hole
you can come down and just make yourself at and grow old

as you breathe I slip away again, dont you leave my friend 
as the gods take you from me again, but I still defend
and the last time we danced I felt the rain again, now it’s gonna end
but the marks on your skin make it so clear again, say goodbye again

now I’m in hell cause I can’t go with you to the light
now I’m in hell cause you’re the only one who eased my mind
now when I walk I walk a lonely road of lies
now I when I speak, I speak with hatred for god and all the signs 

yet I won’t cry but I still hurt cause you’re in the ground 
my heart still aches cause I’m alone now the dirts down 

I lost my mind again (repeated)

Wallow, The Wisp

It's finally here, thank you all for waiting.

Everything produced by me and these people below:
Vision4k: vocals, guitars, synthesizers, bass, drums, and programming
Leon English: backing vocals, synthesizers, bass
Demxntia: backing vocals
Fish: synthesizers
Glasear: synthesizers
Justus: guitar
Sirune: violins
2delegy: piano

the coldest room, the warmest tomb 
the saddest place on earth I knew 
the roughest heart, the toughest part
is going and leaving you for now

across the path, there’s a fading face 
its yours or mine, a lie
cause inside the tides i feel the undertow
I feel so low, I feel hollow

So tell me am I the one, or it’s the same old story, I’m not going near 
so tell me are you the one, cause I'll tell you sorry, all make you mine in the afterlife 

I call to the moon, I’m waiting for you
until the night crawls I can’t move my limbs
my skins growing thin, my heads in the dirt
im rotting in

and it never can end, and it never can turn around again
I think I’ll just pretend, I think I’ll just pretend that you’re in my head

so tell me are you the one, I’ve given myself up to the dark, because I’m looking for you
tell me am I the one, I’m turning away from all of the light because I’m looking for you

Skeletons (Afterlife)

It's finally here, thank you all for waiting.

Everything produced by me and these people below:
Vision4k: vocals, guitars, synthesizers, bass, drums, and programming
Leon English: backing vocals, synthesizers, bass
Demxntia: backing vocals
Fish: synthesizers
Glasear: synthesizers
Justus: guitar
Sirune: violins
2delegy: piano

I look upon the ground and lay a waste like you would tell me to
I clear my eyes and I see my face I thought I never knew 
that you watched me as I would suffer in eternal loss
now i know that you were right 
now I finally see the light 

and I’ll take the cross if i could reach it out to you, 
if it means that my own judgement day is coming due
and I’ll feed the crow, with all my seeds from my own hate for you, no I won’t be your fool

oh all seeing eye, reprise all my lies
for im the one who’s wiser with fire
I like getting burned 
so what now that you’re here
you see me from above 
won’t you stop me from brimstone 
from what I’m told you can do it all

can I share a secret, sometimes I feel so intangible, a maniac who has just turned into an animal
and honestly, I cannot understand the human mind, I want revenge 
I wonder how long til I get mine 

and I’ll take the cross if i could cut you with it’s end 
and I’ll make it known that you’re the one who broke my head
and I ate the sun so now the  Ghosts are resting in my brain, look what have I became

Sweet Revenge

It's finally here, thank you all for waiting.

Everything produced by me and these people below:
Vision4k: vocals, guitars, synthesizers, bass, drums, and programming
Leon English: backing vocals, synthesizers, bass
Demxntia: backing vocals
Fish: synthesizers
Glasear: synthesizers
Justus: guitar
Sirune: violins
2delegy: piano

when I glance into the corner I can feel your shadows swoon 
you can break me all you wanna but I don’t want to move 

maybe you could be the danger that I’m always looking for 
maybe you could be my every single thing and more 

the way that you move in here destroys my world
the void that takes up space 
and I’m attracted to your killer mood
and I can’t leave this place 

we’re hand in hand, we’re cross to cross
tomb to tomb I bleed through you 
through your heavy winds I’m new
have it all, rain can come and fall, 
your thunder and your lightning will still be there to call

and I’m lost 
now that the suns come back
you’re gone, so gone
withdrawn 
now that the skies changed hues 
you’re gone, so gone

Vision4k

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