i just wish i could say sorry

kicking off my 15 day songwriting challenge is this song. 
lyrics:
surrender
you are magic
just breathe 
you are magic
x2

you are magic

Didn't make the cut for FORM's All-Nighter Vol. 9 compilation album so im just droppin' it for y'all now. Hope this makes you feel something good

written and prod by yours truly
Lyrics:
Oh hell nah, everyone say I'm working myself too much,
but when I look back at my old work I be like, "Damn i ain't did enough."
see that's the issue bruh, you gone burn yourself out now you're scaring us
but still not quite satisfied, in my head is plenty comparisons

Ooh, refuse to be basic
All-Nighter working grave shift
In the stu' or on the stage
nerves of steel and they stainless
Don't know what the hell tame is
what I look like going "nice try" I'm not built to be complacent
speed-running through the phases

mmh, steadily been on my grind
guess you can say I've been locked in
Do whatever's on my mind
gotta make sure I'm not boxed in
In solitude for a while, had to ween off of the toxins
more than uncomfortable, but soon i will be flying

Yeah
First off, first off, first off
Damn the blunt done worsened my internal pain
Ain't no way I'm bailing out, still ain't a household name
The main goal is to inspire others to create 

Dont care if I'm
losing my mind
'cuz when I die
you'll be further than me

Putting aside
all of my pride 
once I realized
it was bigger than me

See, I'm just fine
missing fun times
so that our lives 
can be better than previous

Getting my reps in, learning to love the pain
Can I be totally honest? not here for the bread or fame
Wanna be an influence, leave a permanent stain
How could they call you the big man when you scared of the paint nah

Kept the same vows
there is no such thing as it being too late now
remember back when your imagination ran wild
It's still deep within, just got to blow the dust out

yeah yeah, huh

Ran it up, ran it up, I ran it up, oh yeah
Getting saltier and saltier, they lost the flow, oh yeah
Can't keep getting mad over stuff I can't control, oh yeah
Made it obvious that you just a bunch of trolls, oh yeah

Quit the stalling
No second doubts or turning back I'm all in
If I'm drowning or not, don't matter long as I swim
Imma figure it out then pass along the knowledge

Dont care if I'm
losing my mind
'cuz when I die
you'll be further than me

Putting aside
all of my pride 
once I realized
it was bigger than me

See, I'm just fine
missing fun times
so that our lives 
can be better than previous

ALL PLATS

For The Greater Good (ANV9) [qulan]

Decal

bEat uP dAt bOy

not gonna do anything stupid just had to get these emotions out

Lyrics:
This is it. I'm done.
My head's spinning again it's
too much

every morning is more attempts
only seeing the same results
started wondering my importance
I became a shell, a husk

and I can't identify the words
that can accurately describe these
feelings boiling inside me
To keep moving forward
is slowly increasing in difficulty
shit is mortifying

my deepest apologies I didn't mean to bother,
They tryna pick at my brain, I feel llike cannon-fodder
Anxiety is like a stain, can't seem to get it off, huh?
They leading lambs to slaughter, 
I dont wanna be apart of...

There's no use in pointing the finger
already set in stone now
I'm fizzling out
Tell me you see misfortune is winning
treading for too long I wanna drown
my body wont be found.

I damn near lost everything I've ever loved, ever loved, ever loved
Can't push aside all of this pain, I've had enough, had enough, had enough
Momma you tried everything, thanks for not giving up, giving up, giving up
Father you left us astray, were we not enough, not enough, not enough [2x]

(Wanted more and more and more...)

I don't think I'm enough.

i just wish i could say sorry

viista

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