Who really wants to grow up definetley not me im a child in an aging body there js nkthing more to it 

the beats so fire bruh you snapped  this whole song fire <3

prod me

thanks for fw me I rly appreciate u :) whoever listening to this is super cool I bet or rly sad idk loll

lyrics:
im so stuck in this quick sand
bad thoughts im resistin out of my mind, but it jus helps to make em sink in

why am I like this
internal conflict
ion feel shit when I fight it
stuck in the mindset
im goin under, I split my world into sunder
fuck all these lames dont give a fuck what they say
strapped wit a heart and karambit
fuck everyone fuckin round wit my bros shit
why the fuck did u do that no I cant stand it
thought u were a friend
turns out u like fuckin over ur friends so I had so I had to unfriend, hope u understand
I do what I can nothin comes easy, but ill stop shit when u need me

breathe in, feel the weight in my chest
its the best
bleedin, all I need is some rest
some rest x2

im so stuck in the quick sand
bad thoughts im resistin out of my mind, but it jus helps to make em sink in x2

quicksand

spotify

Broken Promises (feat. skele & emptychest) [+ sogimura]

Lyrics:
i swear im really trying to get better every day
all the words i spit end up sound the fucking same
cause of all the stupid things that will always plague my brain
they just snipe out all the goodness but im OG in this game

but when i try to set the loadout all i ever get is errors
so i walk into the battle with this existential terror
and i know that i wont win because im not equipped like ever

so done with myself but heres your christmas song
i just hope that youre good and youre getting along
i know shits hard to see when youre lost in the fog
i just hope that my words can still help when im gone

keep your head up its not too late for you
theres still so much to see and still so much to do
i can help from above and make sure you get through
because life is worth living i swear that its true

its christmas again
i hope youre good my friend
i hope your soul will mend
i swear its not the end

i dont wanna ruin your good time
im just tryna save you from my mind
i know you wish that you were good, you were fine
ill just stay in my line, i wont talk, nevermind

"you should be happy so why are you not?"
i love all my people cause loves all i got

so done with myself but heres your christmas song
i just hope that youre good and youre getting along
i know shits hard to see when youre lost in the fog
i just hope that my words can still help when im gone

keep your head up its not too late for you
theres still so much to see and still so much to do
i can help from above and make sure you get through
because life is worth living i swear that its true

It's Christmas Again

its christmas again.

Prod by @cxldblxxd <3

Lyrics:
She been on my mind for a minute
Feel her in my soul and my spirit
Now she in my rhymes and my lyrics
Say she be sad and i feel it

I just wanna save her from herself
Sad girl blowing smoke by herself
In her bedroom being lonely cant you tell ya, Fats'e playing pretty girl you make my heart just melt

I want you in my bed
I just want you out my head
Hear your voice and what you said
Steal my heart i end up dead

You been on my mind for weeks
Got that spark just like i seek
Want you in between my sheets
Wonder if you think of me

Laying in the room with your lights out
Tryna get high is a fight now
Been feeling so numb this my life now
Killing my brain till i pass out

Laying in the room with your lights out
Tryna get high is a fight now
Been feeling so numb this my life now
Killing my brain till i pass out

Cause you dont know what my heart feels
Wake up from the dream nothing real
Cause i been dying in my mind
Might as well just leave cause im out of time


Dont you ever die now
Dont you ever say goodbye now
Spend your days getting high now
Im okay thats a lie now

Nearly every night i stay up and cry
Dont know what id do if you ever die
Why you be so far want you by my side
Why you be so far want you by my side

I want you in my bed
I just want you out my head
Hear your voice and what you said
Steal my heart i end up dead

You been on my mind for weeks
Got that spark just like i seek
Want you in between my sheets
Wonder if you think of me

wantyou (prod. cxld blxxd)

prod. Northeast Lights

i don’t wanna grow up
feel i’m wasting time
maybe hit my phone up
wasted all the time
nobody really knows us
and my whole life’s passin by
life never chose us but u know i gotta shine
(x2)

when it all falls down are you with me
i be in the whip go 150 in a 60
ex bitch ditch me
next bitch kiss me
pray i don’t miss give a fuck about my wrist freeze
yes
you doing it for money but i do it for my mind back
life so fucked how you never get the time back
time keeps moving even when i drink my mind black

who put my mind down
laying these lines out
lay with the pain it’s gets deeper and deeper but i never cry now
hoping i find out
what cup am i on now
i’ve been sippin so long that i can’t get enough and i’m starting to fade out
(x2)

i don’t wanna grow up
feel i’m wasting time
maybe hit my phone up
wasted all the time
nobody really knows us
and my whole life’s passin by
life never chose us but u know i gotta shine
(x2)

i dont ever wanna grow up

OUT ON SPOTIFY

dead and gone w/ sleye (prod. metlast)

AVAILABLE in all stores/streaming platforms on 4/20/2020
SPOTIFY:
https://open.spotify.com/track/6UEV1QMk2RVbrVHS8HL22b?si=6CWe5uT3TkaGuCqM71MxDg
APPLE:
https://music.apple.com/us/album/why-am-i-running-feat-sewerperson/1507534383?i=1507534384

All production, mixing/master, etc. by me. S/o @sewerperson <3
LYRICS:
[sewerperson]
Help me understand
Just who I'm becoming
Determined to face my fears
So why am I running?
[doublemydose]
I can’t seem to know what the best choice is for myself
I need some help
Oh could you tell? 
I’ve lived thru hell
Pressure inside of me
Always a sight to see
You have a right to be
Hopelessly broken
Never saw eye to eye
Stress that we magnified
Mind all too occupied
How do I focus?
Help me understand
Just who I'm becoming
Determined to face my fears
So why am I running?
Losing sight of you
Cause I don't wanna go back
Choosing to get thru this rhythm's how I react
[sewerperson]
i just tripled up the dose
i just got it from the valet
i just popped inside the ghost
yaya
its got 80 something floors
i could get u to the top
i could let u see the coast
yaya
damn and she just tryna stay the night
she gon pop out with her phone
she tryna get me on live
imma dodge
fully formal suit and tie
all my wraps is something chrome
but i dont know which one to drive
in my garage
woah i just took a half i just took another
im just sweating bullets in the la summer
bout like 20 something plans ill never recover
if u match me on my shit i bet u goin under
help me understand
just who im becoming
bet ur glad now
you left me with nothing
picking up the fragments
my heart u shattered
void from the memories
but now they dont matter
[doublemydose]
Help me understand
Just who I'm becoming
Determined to face my fears
So why am I running?
Losing sight of you
Cause I don't wanna go back
Choosing to get thru this rhythm's how I react
[sewerperson]
Help me understand
Just who I'm becoming
Determined to face my fears
So why am I running?

why am i running? - Single

Why Am I Running?

SPOTIFY/APPLE

why am i running? (feat. sewerperson)

prod/mix/master/cover @trechorboy
feat. @trechorboy + @nicoteenninyo

TRECHOR BOY:
she said she never really cared about me
wasting my time maybe
fuck all that shit
hypocrite 
doesn’t even come close to the way i think of you 
can’t you see 
there's something wrong with me
incapable of love
im never good enough 
but
(X2)

turns out i really wanted this shit 
i had the confidence to make moves with it so 
i went and got my bag 
all i had 
was you
fast forward four years on the timeline 
i woke up and realized all the online shit won’t help
and i still hate myself 
fuck

NICOTEEN NINYO:
is he as warm as me, holdin u on a cold night?
does he say i love you cuz it just feels right?
yeah im gone and ur okay but maybe u wont be in a couple of days
listen to the words u say
does he make u smile like me?
cuz

i only say i love you when we break up
i only say i need u when we cant make up
ill only ever call if im drunk enough
to say the things i never said
tryin to force this new girl down my throat
but it just makes ur taste in my mouth worse
i wish i could say i believe u
i wish i could fucking hate you

~i wish i could fucking hate you
i wish i could fucking hate you~

~i wish i could love just like you
i wish i could love like you do~
(X2)

LOVE/HATE

trechor boy x nicoteen ninyo - LOVE/HATE

this is my life

prod by @trechorboy
cover art by @trechorboy

bright flames 
light faces 
with a warm hue
every town 
burns down
that i pass through
doctor walked in
said that ill probably 
pull through
stared that fucker down 
and told him 
i didn’t want to
i have a confession
all this depression
has made me hate
every being 
in every direction 
i want the worst
i want it done
i wish that covid 19
took out everyone

the seasons change 
& its getting colder
my mind is the same
but im getting older
piece of shit 
20 something
low life bitch
if i was incarcerated
i would prolly snitch
i had a dream 
last night
where everything
was just alright
i woke up
in regret
that my life 
hadn’t ended
all quite yet

bright flames 
light faces 
with a warm hue
every town 
burns down
that i pass through
doctor walked in
said that ill probably 
pull through
stared that fucker down 
and told him 
i didn’t want to
i have a confession
all this depression
has made me hate
every being 
in every direction 
i want the worst
i want it done
i wish that covid 19
took out everyone

i searched for a reason to not kms & found nothing.

prod me ,,

lyrics:

I dont wanna talk, I dont wanna get outta bed I dont wanna walk,
I jus wanna leave here nothin even matters
I already accomplished all my goals and I jus sat there
I dont rly see what u see in me cus ik in my head ur an enemy
I dont feel okay I dont feel like me
I would take on all the pain if it meant I could be here

its hard to explain jus how I feel
okay im pissed off but that shit aint real
I can see thru all the fake shit in my head
but sumtimes it makes me feel like im fuckin...
dead, jus got outta bed
finally got up and now im headed to the shower
wash away my problems but I cant cus this disaster is never gonna end I cant wait for the after, life sucks ik.
I cant catch a break I swear im always on my toes
I try to use my energy I try to give the most
I swear that ima be like this until Im comatose

I dont care what u think of me
I fall down the same path everyday
fighting my problems is tiring
I fight myself jus to get sum sleep x3

i can't catch a break.

LYRICS:
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading  
Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 

Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying  

Yeah please just hear me out 
I wanna know the things that you think about 
Please please just hear me out 
Run away then back to me I'll be around  
And if wanna walk under city lights 
So close with your hand just next to mine 
Hit me up I know backways even to your heart 
Wanna start again that way
Give me every little bit of your emotion 
Know when it comes to love you're loaded 
I don't wanna run I think you know it 
I told the stars and I think they'll show it

Okay break it up I want the balance
No way that you think you acting valid
Challenge every time we go through this
All ballads how I tell her let's risk
It please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
And our playlist of songs they  just keep replaying 
I wanna make this clear I'm always staying 
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading
Please don't leave me waiting 
Got thoughts in my head and they never fading

leave me waiting (prod. IOF x King Theta)

innocence never lasts
✞

contact/send beats/anything: neverlast1997@gmail.com

i dont ever wanna grow up

neverlast

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