Who really wants to grow up definetley not me im a child in an aging body there js nkthing more to it 

the beats so fire bruh you snapped  this whole song fire <3

SadMCCN🌙

Collabed on this beat with @gaia-zambon-778002978

Lyrics:
so i never wanna leave my bed, i stay lost up in my head
please do not disturb me you could wake me when im fuckin dead
guess im giving up thats why you always gettin left on read
dont talk to me dont hit me up im busy tryna get my bread

dont take my pulse cause i flatlined
i know youll leave just like last time
put on a show like its halftime
like im a poet but i cant rhyme

you never heard a flow so slow, guess ive given up completely but im vibin on the low, i dont got no energy for nothin keep your fuckin hoe, she be slidin in my DMs im depressed but she dont know

said she thought its just persona
said she thought it was an act
said she thought that id be happy cause im piling up these racks
said she plays all of my songs
said she listens to my tracks
said she wanna save me now before im never coming back

Shedontknow

shedontknow (prod. Gaia & HKFiftyOne)

Featuring @sendflowrs
Produced by @hellahaunted & @sainttomorrow
Mixed & mastered by @horoshamusic
Logo by Dead & Detached

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


and ive been smoking too much like every day
since fifteen think it's rotting my brain

i got my windows closed but i still hear the rain

i don't like myself anymore

think i've changed

and while you sit there drunk on the side of the pave

do you ever think about those times in the cage

with your friends in the sun oh those times they have changed

now i'm sitting on my own thinking of life on a stage


thinkin of life on a stage

these days i'm alone 

take 3 blunts to the face

spend my days blazed just thinking of life in the states

shoutout jj
i'm tryna record everyday


i think i'm going straight to hell for those two years

if you didnt know im sad you must be new here

cliche dyed hair
i'm a loser

forever screaming on my own at a computer


i'm a loser and I know it
got it tatted on my sleeve just to show how much i own it
stay glued to my computer
writing sad songs and playing first-person shooters


watch me self-destruct

catch me yelling "nerf this"
while i'm rolling up another blunt


i used to do this for fun

now i do this on account of all of my bad luck

i been smoking too much like every day

who would'a thought that these drugs don't really numb all the pain

my eyes stay shut but i still see your face
i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled


i'm still so miserable

still feel unfulfilled

i don't even know what i'm fighting for



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Loser w/ sendflowrs (Prod. caves & Saint Tomorrow)

je te tieandrai dans mon coeur jusqu'à ce que je puisse te tenir dans mes bras.

lyrics:

shiki
I see why you left, this is awful
I don't wanna die anymore, I just want you
Kiss me while I'm dying inside of this bottle
Fall in love with strangers, now my heart is a hostel

Left my love on the east coast
But I don't wanna be alone, I don't wanna be alone, no
And you can text me good morning, but we're in different time zones
And I know that you don't care like I do
I'll find another one just like you
I'll find a new one, call her your name
Black my eyes and paint my face a new shade of grey
I ran away, in East LA where none of my love can get in the way
And baby, I don't think that you could save me
But thank you for trying

I hope you don't know it's about you when you hear this
But I knew you'd listen, only reason I wrote this
And I would bleed for you if I thought you would notice

I'm too scared to dream since I saw you
I told you I would move to New York and write a novel
But I'm still in my mom's house
The one that you warned me about
The one you said was haunted
I'm nauseous, I can't stop heaving
Who would want this? I'm still bleeding
Hide my ribs like, yeah I'm eating
Come save me, this room is freezing

skele:
I know why you left, this is terrible
As I was writing this, I wanted to let you know
It's getting really hard to let you go
I wanted five more minutes baby, just so I could hear you talk
Cuz everything I knew just fucking fell apart
You never really cared, you just played the part
And now you're gone, it's all my fault

hostel w/ skele (love,matt x chris marek)

be ya man

https://soundcloud.com/scummusic
PROD. https://soundcloud.com/trxpicvl

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

I don't wanna feel anything anymore
i just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I remember everything from the time that you left my side
Wiping the tears 'no don't fuck with my eyes'
Biding my time, i wanna try 
Just to forget you but i feel alive 
Oh please take my life
Please take my life
Its the best time to die
Like now, i wanna right now 
I wanna die

I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I dont wanna live in a world without you
Even after al the shit you put me through
You're still the one 
Night grow cold and I'm alone
And you don't ever pick up the phone when i call
So let me die here

Let Me Die Here w/ scum (prod. trxpicvl )

one of my favorite songs i've ever made. big shouts out to the homie guardin for getting on this with me!! check him out here:

soundcloud.com/guardinmusic

sample credits: https://soundcloud.com/yungcold

sad chill - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWgkYnqG4u4
guardin - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pfn_ugMCzmQ
静的 static - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1V_UlSTkw1k

california dreaming (feat. guardin)

@ihateshinigami

https://genius.com/Shinigami-fairytale-lyrics

if i had the courage
i would leave this place
burn it to the ground and let it rot away
you can fill the void up
with the drugs you take
they will never ever take the pain away

fairy tales of a place ive only seen in my dreams
all alone in my head ripping apart at the seams
i dont know where to go from here
i dont know if i could face my fears

fade to black in the back seat
i been doin fine if you ask me
thinkin back to the days in the classroom
skippin class and gettin high in the bathroom

i got a cloud on my head now
it pulls me into my bed now
the chains of my past keep me grounded
i lost my mind but i found it

shinigami - fairytale (prod. jay vee)

Spotify: https://spoti.fi/2DmIQce

 [prod. Sketchmyname] (Now on all streaming services)
 
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Instagram.com/The_AlreadyDead
Instagram.com/the_mccn

Artwork done by 
https://www.instagram.com/prestonpape/
https://twitter.com/lifeofpresto

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@Soundcloud.com/Lu_lo
https://twitter.com/AlexLulow

Front Porch (ft. lulow)

prod. Northeast Lights

i don’t wanna grow up
feel i’m wasting time
maybe hit my phone up
wasted all the time
nobody really knows us
and my whole life’s passin by
life never chose us but u know i gotta shine
(x2)

when it all falls down are you with me
i be in the whip go 150 in a 60
ex bitch ditch me
next bitch kiss me
pray i don’t miss give a fuck about my wrist freeze
yes
you doing it for money but i do it for my mind back
life so fucked how you never get the time back
time keeps moving even when i drink my mind black

who put my mind down
laying these lines out
lay with the pain it’s gets deeper and deeper but i never cry now
hoping i find out
what cup am i on now
i’ve been sippin so long that i can’t get enough and i’m starting to fade out
(x2)

i don’t wanna grow up
feel i’m wasting time
maybe hit my phone up
wasted all the time
nobody really knows us
and my whole life’s passin by
life never chose us but u know i gotta shine
(x2)

i dont ever wanna grow up

staring at the street signs 
toxic thoughts keep filling up my mind 
i tried, saying I’m fine but I’m running out of lies 
so take me right back, take me right back
and i don’t really care if you don’t like that

so yeah, whatever 
i lied and said that i've been getting better 
i knew that it wouldn’t last when you said it was forever 
so take me right back, take me right back there
i can feel your eyes it’s a heartbreak stare

heartbreak stare (ft. skele)

[+] blood on my bust down.
* exclusive by @lilskeleskrrt * prod by wellfed *

IG: www.instagram.com/burnoutarchive
TW: www.twitter.com/burnoutarchive
SITE: www.burnoutarchive.com
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf

skele - walk it out!! (+ wellfed)

follow sapphire2001

highschool ft. sapphire2001 (p. loopy)

s/o soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

me:
its the same shit,
3g’s and I face it
I stay breakin
down larry in the basment
distance
I feel distance between us
try to make up all these false candle wishes x2

skele: 
yeah, hop in the whip and i dash
brand new beam all black
im off the shit i might crash
ya
a couple k in my wallet
brand new car just bought it
racks pour out my wallet
might get rich and buy hot topic
its the same shit
everyday i dont feel it
the distance, baby tell me do u miss this
i cant face it, i dont think im gonna make it
i cant take it, down larry in the basement

me:
why you try so hard?
i wanna go back to dancing in the snow in my front yard, 
jus take a picture it'll last long, you act like I wouldn't care if you were gone well you're so wrong. 
put an 1/8 in a blunt and then I face it, then replace it because

its the same shit,
3g’s and I face it
I stay breakin
down larry in the basment
distance
I feel distance between us
try to make up all these false candle wishes x2

larry og

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larry og w/skele (prod.yago)

https://soundcloud.com/deadbrokeofficial
https://soundcloud.com/ripkais

lyrics:
she had the same perfume, i never failed to remember you.
i don’t even know what to do.
mind is fading help me thru.

i’ve been fucked up, fucking up my heart now.
i can’t sleep, i cant sleep, with the lights out.
i keep seeing, i keep seeing things, i’m going out.
of my mind i can’t find none my thoughts wow.

she had the same perfume,
i never failed to remember you,
i don’t even know what to do.
my mind is fading help me through,

watch me, coz i don’t wanna live at all.
nothings been worth it, thought she was perfect.
call me a creep but i kept her perfume.
the only thing that i have that will keep me from you

watch me, coz i don’t wanna live at all.
nothings been worth it, thought she was perfect.
call me a creep but i kept her perfume.

i’ve turned into a monster,
it’s all that i am now,
and i don’t wanna leave you behind,
but sometimes he gets out,
and i can’t control that fight
if you see me don’t speak to me,
i swear to god,
i warned you i told you, no one is perfect,
and she might overdose tonight.
if she wakes up i’ll be surprised..

she had the same perfume,
i never failed to remember you,
i don’t even know what to do.
my mind is fading help me through,

she had the same perfume,
i never failed to remember you,
i don’t even know what to do.
my mind is fading help me through,

perfume

dead broke - perfume (ft. kais)

innocence never lasts
✞

contact/send beats/anything: neverlast1997@gmail.com

i dont ever wanna grow up

neverlast

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