produced and mixed by me
mastered by cubox
featuring @717na

Hard to feel the ache when the heart goes numb
Stare goes blank, no I'm never having fun
Been detached from my old self
Staring at the ceiling fighting lethargy with no help
Wasting my time, who am I gon' tell
Oh well, I'm wasted on my mattress
Won't go turn the lights on, I'm too lazy and distracted
Thinking 'bout my former self, that guy is such a has-been
I ain't tryna learn today, let's form another habit
I was talking big talk, now I'm here
My mental is sick God, are you near
I really need to hear you, please give me a clear view
Demons in the mirror might be closer than appear to
All your solutions are in vain
What's the root of my stagnation, every day's the same
Say something useful or get out my face
Think I'll medicate before I get the chance to blow out my brains

I won't go outside because I'm feeling too bad
How the hell I go from riches to rags
Everybody runs their mouth but they will not understand
I'm so tired of being used and distressed
What is there to gain from this life of uneventfulness
Used to think I'd graduate and live my life in excellence
They all used to be so proud but now I'm living check to check
Looking back on me and I can barely see resemblance
I'm so jaded, I'm so faded
I'm so jaded, ain't worth saving
I'm so jaded, ain't worth saving
Ain't worth saving

I'm so jaded, do you know what you put me through
Yeah you got me messed up, I can't look at you
Yeah you turned me to a douchebag acting rude
Now I feel a little better 'cause I got these trues
In my truey jeans I see the way you look at me
Why you hate me I don't know it's a mystery
No I can't stand the way you look at me
No I can't stand the way you look at me
Look away
I don't need you I'm a different beast today
Look away
You still hate me, girl, I see it in your face
Look away
I'm so fed up with your bs and your ways
Look away
Look away

Affirmations don't do jack for me I just want an escape
It's so hard to make my peace with the ways that things have changed
I can't see why you would love me in my times of disarray
Trauma bonding with my secrets, think I'll take this to my grave
Hand to my stomach I'm heaving
Sift through these thoughts of confusion for reasons
I'll just embody my weakness
Try pull me out, but I'm already sinking
Try pull me out
All my ambitions are fleeting
I'm so jaded
Give me a sign to believe in

VIAL OF TEARS

JADED (ft. 717na)

JADED (ft. 717na) [PROD. CVONS]

prod @hatchetsaww
LIGAMENTS UP IN MY FRIDGE I GOT PLENTY OF FOOD TO MAKE
WATCH THE FLESH AND BLOOD GATHER AS I MAKE A BRAND NEW HUMAN SHAKE
TAKING ALL THE TIME I WANT TO WHEN IM TRYNA SKIN HER FACE
AS SHES WEEPING SALT THE WOUNDS LIKE ITS A MFING STEAK.

SKIN GUT DRINK DISMEMBERMENT
IMMA EAT UR BRAINS AND WHATS SPILLED LEFT THAT IS DEFINITE
FUCKING CORPSES AND WHATS LEFT OF IT
GETTING SOME TOYS 123 AN EXPERIMENT

LEAVE U BUTCHERED SLASHED AND DEFECATED
MUTILATED GUTTED AND HATED
JUS CUZ U GOT A GROUP DONT MEAN YALL CANNOT BE DECIMATED
IN A DITCH MUHFUCKING WASTED
TOSS THE ACID I AM WAITING
FOR HER TO STOP BREATHING BRAIN IS BASHED THE WALLS ARE RED PAINTED

FUCK DISMEMBERMENT EAT MAKE THE MOST FROM WHAT I GOT
TAKE HIS FUCKING JAW I DONT WANNA HEAR HIM TALK
PLAN IT OUT CAREFULLY GO AND STALK THE SPOT
I DONT NEED A KNIFE IF I DONT WANT IT PULL IT OUT AND USE THE CHOP

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SKIN, GUT, DRINK, DISMEMBERMENT (PROD.HATCHETSAW)

BULLET BILL (Ft. ELMX) (Prod $kiah)

bitch im so done
taking all these drugs wasn't fun
seeming okay on the outside
but im at the lowest point of my life
people ask if im okay
I shrug it off and I tell them that I am when im not

bitch im so done
taking all these drugs wasn't fun
seeming okay on the outside
but im at the lowest point of my life
people ask if im okay
I shrug it off and I tell them that I am when im not

dumped her like I dump a body and I felt no remorse
cut myself because it helps me feel something again
cut myself because it helps me feel something again

*unholy noises*

I break your heart
rope around my neck and I fall off a tree

(stop putting necrotrap in my related tracks pls soundcloud)

cut myself because it helps me feel something (prod. vrolys revenge)

Lyrics:
V O i D:

1jayso:

why don’t u come home
oh my dear i’ve been waiting for a while
it’s been so long since I smiled
so why don’t u stay for a lil while

it’s 3am again oh my god like what the fuck
thought i told myself i would not get fkn drunk
think i might jus crash right into a tree
i know i’m perceived 
as a disease

think i lost myself i was on so many drugs
don’t know who to trust 
rip my heart out with my lungs
i jus wanna feel so fkn numb from it all
i’m done

I'mTryingIPromise w/ 1Jayso

WARYY X ELMX - FAMILY GUYY (PROD. FINGOTIT)

SLENDERMAN [PROD HVVXCK]

prod by lava and ira
mixed & written by ira

In the Sky w/Ira [P. Lava x Ira]

In The Sky w/Ira [P. Lava x Ira]

Idyll twice is a duo based in Paris, navigating between post-rock reminiscences and lo-fi collages. Their first album, Lost and Found, will be released on November 4th, 2025.

Written, produced, mixed, and mastered by idyll twice.
Artwork by Flore Balas and Guilhem Prat

Link :
https://soundcloud.com/idylltwice
https://www.instagram.com/idyll_twice/

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idyll twice - let the words do the talking

This song plunges into the intense struggle of mental and emotional turmoil, portraying the relentless pressure of intrusive thoughts and feelings of isolation. Through stark, visceral imagery, it conveys the suffocating weight of a mind under siege, where time, voices, and fears seem inescapable. The verses illustrate the descent into darkness, the chilling sense of being trapped, and the erosion of clarity and hope. The chorus amplifies this tension, capturing the overwhelming sensation of life slipping apart and the heart being consumed by inner chaos. Overall, the song is a raw, unflinching exploration of anxiety, despair, and the relentless battle within one’s own mind.