picrew.me/image_maker/695440 - SAMPLE IS FROM Crystal Castles's song "Transgender"

you're wearing me out, just... please... stop..

I Can't Change

Original mixing done with Rave.DJ's AI: https://rave.dj/tZgMdnTIQr9eLQ
Youtube: https://youtu.be/g5B0gEFR9ns

Why, Society? || The Beach x Society

ORIGINAL: https://soundcloud.com/alterslashego/hex-cougar-all-or-nothing
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I know it's yet another audio edit- just- shaddup--
The deep meaning of this edit is to represent how I felt while reality checking myself one night. I was thinking that what other people's concerns said couldn't be true at all, but then I just kinda mentally stepped outside myself and really took a look at myself, without guarding my feelings and self and such, and just asked, "Am I okay?". I am okay by the way, it was just a very sudden, strange moment. I'll look into my health, but I don't want to obsess over it... because that unfortunately can be a problem of mine.

Ami Okaч  |  ("Hex Cougar - All Or Nothing" + Slowed, Reverb, Hexxed, Pitched, Bass Boost)

VIDEO: https://youtu.be/SCNzCUYc7eY
ORIGINAL(much better imo): https://soundcloud.com/lolinearly20s/12-14a
Made this at like 2AM, sounds like crap and is absolute distorted noise, and this was actually *not* intended to be a jojo reference... even though the timing and visuals/meaning are VERY coincidental. Also, I got a neat thing called an Atom SQ, which I'm excited to showcase in later songs.

CATHARSIS #2

(this is unmastered, and MIGHT be LOUD!) -- This was made maybe around a month or so ago to help get out feelings of vulnerability I had after being validated (in a sense)... this is takes place before the track "Status", and status is a processing of info for something else, something considered "even more"... sorta... it depends and it's complicated. The two tracks "ptsd child" and "status" are both *related*, though.

(unfinished/raw) ptsd child

Melody sampled from: https://soundcloud.com/metahesh/i-might-be-dead
"These are strange times.... but these times are very eye-opening.
To be validated for something I'm not even sure of is a very surreal feeling.
It creates a noise in the mind...
Here is some of it."

Status

The lights are fast, why am I dazing?
This makes no sense, why am I all hazy?
My throat is tight, my vision is bright...
I'm going down an elevator hell!
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Elevator Hell is a vent song about a recent concerning experience I had after seeing a music video with strobe lights, which included a feeling of when going down a fast elevator, hence "elevator hell". I don't know if it was a psychological effect or worse, and I'm going to be informing my doctor about this. I've felt off ever since I once took too many CBD gummies a month ago when trying to relax for once (I wasn't thinking correctly about what the dosage was and I decided "oh hey lets take 75mg worth" and um... ER visit.), but now it's scarier for the fact that it could also not be just a psychological response that I'd feel weird.
Was gonna say other stuff but right now I really don't know.

ok actually I remember now: the song is intentionally made to be disorientating and anxiety producing, sort of like replicating the feeling I had during the experience.

(why am I saying this?)

Elevator Hell

A song made to represent how things have felt as of late, even if it can be tucked away.

I apologize if the thumbnail isn't the best... but why am I apologizing?

For a status update, life independence has been emphasized by professionals for the sake of my literal health. The neurologist thinks what I was experiencing regarding my random onset of symptoms is psychogenic (check the description of "elevator hell" for a basic gist of some of it). Health and wellness has been a lot on my mind recently.

Surfeit

Could you tell I put my fuck-mothering anger into this one?
Continuation of https://soundcloud.com/eirxnos/10-years

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