ALTER EGO

BLUE SKIES

PRISONER

WHO'S THAT CREEPING

MDCCCXXX

THE CURSE OF THE DEAD

FAREWELL OLD FRIEND

HOW'S LIFE

MEMORY BLVD

SURREAL SUFFERING

PARALYZED (Prod. DutchRevz)

What To Do ( Prod. Cat Soup)

Too Gone (Prod. Farber)

Nightmares ( Prod. Lonewitch)

Isolation (Prod. Dan Darmawan)

Maybe It's For The Best (Prod. Rizi Beats)

I Didn't Know (Prod Grayskies)

Devotion (Prod. Shiniboi)

In My Head

In My Head (slowed + reverb)

produced by myss
https://www.youtube.com/@myssbeats

I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE FEELS LIKE DEJA VU
THESE EYES THEY TELL LIES IT'S A DIFFERENT VIEW
IT'S ALL IN MY MIND IT'S OUT OF CONTROL 
IT'S A PART OF MY LIFE HOW AM I NOT INSANE
IT'S ALL GOING TO END
PESSIMISTIC LIFE YOU'RE LIVING I FEEL BAD FOR YOU
NIHILISTIC THOUGHTS THEY DESTROY MY MIND
PESSIMISTIC LIFE
NIHILISTIC THOUGHTS THEY DESTROY MY MIND

PESSIMISTIC LIFE

produced by myss
www.youtube.com/@myssbeats

reason
give me a sign that makes me sane
i suffer
it's all that i know
wish it was something else
an omen
there is something out there i can feel it
it's over 
this the side of me that i don't show

floating underwater
im drowning
leave me in the depths
there is no saving me

useless
I've tried to change but i'm insane
ill suffer
i am all i know
wish i was someone else
i wonder
is there someone out there that can feel it
it's over
this the side of me that i don't know

floating underwater
im drowning
leave me in the depths
there is no saving me

DISTORTED REALITY

produced by grayskies
https://www.youtube.com/@prodgrayskies

i've grown tired
i've wasted all
did it all
won't you save me from me
no one can
i could never
i could never be the way you want me

the way you want me
im going insane

i cannot take this for long
its a cold world
its been so long
i didn't know
that i would suffer through it
its a sad world 
to walk alone but
i didn't know

lost in a world where the lies seem to make sense
it's been ok so far but i didn't know that i would of made it
nihilistic views what's a silver lining 
i've been locked up in a troubled mind
living far away from myself and it looks im turning blind
and the stars turning static, my skin becoming pale
you could tell that i'm dead

the way you want me
im going insane

i cannot take this for long
its a cold world
its been so long
i didn't know
that i would suffer through it
its a sad world 
to walk alone but
i didn't know

NIHILISM

produced by michael harrison
https://www.youtube.com/@michaelharrison_

oh i been waiting for a while now
for this mind of mine to trust a soul again
i just keep on losing hope now
guess thats how it goes now

and ill never look back
learning from mistakes tryna get my life back
drain it all down when you full of regrets not flowing ill stagnate
guess that's how it goes now

i run away from every little thing you did
oh tell me what you thinking
oh ill run away from every little thing you did
never see me in the mirror ill duck
put aside the trust
you never reciprocated love
i dont wanna lose my mind again
it's too many times im done
put aside the lust
you always came back with hate
i dont wanna lose my life again
one's too many times i'm done

RECIPROCATION

produced by poppy ozu
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4VN9fA8AwF3KhHUe0NZPsg

you fly over me
you cry under seas
still live in your eyes dont let fall tears
wont you kiss me on the mouth but no one here

back to reality there's nothing in a dream
lost all my hope I'm just tryna find meaning
nihilistic touch over false promises of love
suicidal thoughts on the back of my mind
lack of emotion that's something i know
given you the best of me just wasn't enough
if you want me to go then maybe ill go
im losing control

still live in your eyes dont let fall tears
wont you kiss me on the mouth but no one here

you fly over me
you cry under seas
i try
wont you listen
i fly with you under blue skies
ill try if you listen
ill fly with you
still live in your eyes dont let fall tears
wont you kiss me on the mouth but no one here


UNDER SEAS

produced by grayskies
https://www.youtube.com/@prodgrayskies

it's just so far away
the pain wont go away
my mind was led astray
it's too late my world is grey
i crashed into the wall
i lost sight of it all
this life does take it's toll
the eyes deceive the soul

im cold
its so cold
fading away
it's all going to stop

im so cold
frozen thoughts of home and now
im falling
if death's a dream then i'll pass away
i'm dying 
mourning thoughts can kill
im trying


Ralf Saint

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