1ove myself, hate myself

recycled song from years ago

prod. http://soundcloud.com/scarletbrides

differences of sides 
and it's hard to explain
but this physical violence
is how i maintain
and all of these feelings
are stuck in my head
they're trying to get out
but i cannot amend
because for that
i'd need to accept the fact
that this is the future that's set
i don't want to face it
i am too weak
so i blame it on everything
that brings me peace
the same thoughts that leave me half dead
i'd rather wrestle with than
actually question, is this really who i am?
cut off loose ends, kill all my friends
i get angry for no apparent reason
what, why, who, when?
to death do i ascend?
or is my inheritance that of demons?

a matter i don't intend to attend to (prod. scarletbrides)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/807mula

ft. https://soundcloud.com/nedakthenarcissist

arechi:

staring at me all puzzled like a jigsaw
avert your eyes ‘less you wanna see me pissed off
i got a blade, slice right through your ripstop
nothing please me more 
than the sound of a bitch drop

damn, you’re a bitch, who knew?
where is big dawg? 
thought you said he’d come through come through
i’d just fight you
but i’m simply not in the mood the mood
you see me looking at you
next thing you see is all black, dude

homie why you pressing? that is just depressing
think that i care, but, do you see me stressing?
if i killed you, then my homies ain’t confessing
when i beat you, i hope you learn your lesson

*hook repeats*

nedak:

yeah, my mood keeps swinging like it’s kipping.
but i’ma turn my flaws into equipment.
i’ma stay convincing all these bitches that i’m different.
been a weird motherfucker ever since i was an infant.

shorty’s asking if i’m really narcissistic, 
well, you’re gonna have to find out on your own.
and while you’re busy asking stupid questions, bitch, i’ma roll a cone.
gonna spark the spliff, so i can sit and seek the unknown, unknown.

most the time, i think i’m better off alone.
got hoes around the globe steady blowing up my phone. (up my phone)
and if you don’t wanna fuck with me, then don’t.
i got plenty bad bitches that are tryna lay prone.

i gotta pop up, i gotta kick off.
i just be inching and inching to cross the list off.
why these fuckers wanna play games like jigsaw?
i’m not in the mood, you don’t wanna see me pissed off.

*hook repeats*

jigsaw ft. nedak the narcissist (prod. 807mula)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/zyllerbeats
& https://soundcloud.com/zepelinbeats

strapped up and cocaine on the counter
this a trap house, don’t need a bouncer
half an ounce of shrooms in my pocket
take some and it’ll give me powers

think twice way before you approach us
chin, right fist meet up and they’re the closest 🥰
you a bitch and everybody knows it
talk more shit, put a blade where your throat is

bitch i see you looking at me
tell me, what’s the move? what you seek

*verse 1 repeats*

*hook repeats x2*

bitch i fucking hate your talking
shut the fuck up, quit your barking

sumn sumn (prod. zyller + zepelin)

drear type vocals lmao

prod. https://soundcloud.com/tyrhael

tamed my thirst, take the lead
less of her, more of me
so i've learned i can't be pleased
search for warmth, endure heat
legs disperse, anchor knees
quickly curve, ground your feet
beg to hurt, conscience flees
spine matured, nourish me

take my worth, little thief
mind my words, growing weak
train is cursed, blowing steam
what's the earth without a seed?
you're the dirt, an end to meet
the wine at church, a lowlife's dream
supply your urge then make my leave
cattle he(a)rd, eager sheep

train of thot (prod. paradosso)

it’s not my birthday

prod. https://soundcloud.com/or1ove27
(awaiting) cover art by https://instagram.com/istashathescrub

i’ve been awake for way too long
got things to do, not starting strong
i hate myself for one more day
even if i’m not in the wrong

hearing all the cheers, grunt
fill me up with beers/blunts
now i’m feeling tears; drunk
need a friend, come here punk
hang myself like deer hide
i’m sorry my dear, hide
i’ve been into fist fights
gotta get my shit right

like a late shipment
still tryna sort myself
i don’t need wishes
i just need some help
i can’t see a point
like a shitty felt
might burn some bridges
and watch the cities melt

saw an angel
she spoke to me
said you’re okay
not sure i am

*hook repeats*

birthday song (prod. or.1ove)

smoked lungs and cold guts
get fed by the homeless
then groan tons ‘cause you’re dumb
“whole month being sober”
your tone stung, now no one
ain’t giving cold shoulder
i’ve grown some, still lonesome
don’t think i’ll get over
won’t moan none, i’ll hold ya
not love but it’s closer
bought into your aura
got lost in your quarters
embrace as time slows us
and no one opposes
if they try, ignore them
‘cause you’re too important

we junk rats, we punk fags
with mud rags and skate hats
we numb faced, we slum waste
we thumbtacks in haystacks
always drunk and laid back
in a day, do nothing
but share germs with fake friends
don’t that sound amazing?

breathing (t)in

prod. https://soundcloud.com/or1ove27

table hockey with her body
slide across my surface
oftly fond of useless dialogue
shawty help find my purpose
slap my face
in love with toxic traits
probably a byproduct of 
crack cocaine
skin is opposite shades
colors blend, making life 
a lot less grey

i can’t refrain
needle stuck in vein
ease my pain
ex is jealous,
damn his name
x2

itching, feigning  
biting like insect
bitching, pleading
but she never listen
wishful demons
but i am a Christian
blissful meaning
found why, complete mission
x2

*hook repeats*

byproduct (prod. or.1ove)

prod. https://soundcloud.com/or1ove27

here we go like tit for tat
boy really thinks he’s all that
pull up, your ego dissolve
like the tab under my tongue
acting like you’re really hard
how you end up in er
know some people behind bars
cave your face in, free of charge
x2

what you got to say?
we could go all day
turn you to a chalk print
it could go that way
wake up in the morning
blood all on your face
or don’t wake up at all
find a better place
x2

acid got me feeling like i’m on a fucking boat
balance off, my vision’s heightened like i’m looking through a scope
little boy really don’t have any healthy methods to cope
so are we gonna do this shit? i just need a yes or no
x2

*verse 1 and hook repeats*

lysurgery (prod. or.1ove)

flying like superman without a cape
shrooms are the only thing help me escape
can’t talk right now, get out of my face
like no clouds coming when i hit my vape,
i’m drained
shawty wanna talk that talk? okay
wanna lay down? baby come my way
i’ll protect that pretty little face
got a blade if anything goes sideways

blade got you stuck in place like stasis
got a couple homies who are really down 
to spray shit
you just a junkie, bent back like matrix
you’re just a bitch, just a bitch, that’s blatant

superman loves psychedelics

prod. https://soundcloud.com/807mula
& https://youtube.com/@proddentist

ft. https://soundcloud.com/strayngeakastray

arechi:

i mean i’m messed up man, how can i not be?
got a bunch of real homies turning to drug fiends
and some pretty fake girls pretending to love me
in the past few years, had several people jump me

i need you to be patient
i need you to just wait
i need someone who forgives me
when i make a mistake
i hope i can outlive the person i was yesterday
and only the Lord knows what i am trying to say

such an unfamiliar force
it broke down my walls without any remorse
and i thought that i had thrown it off of its course
until i heard it say “no Josh, i’m all yours”

i found my heart and it changed my life since
just know when i depart, i won’t migrate down wind
i’ma look up at the stars and i’ma let the sound in
i’ma look up at the stars and i’ma let the sound in
i can’t let these hounds win

straynge:

hey guys, straynge here

i can’t look at my pain
can’t look at these brains
can’t look at this face
can’t do it today
i’ma relapse, relapse in my veins
relapse on my pain, do it again

i’m not sure if i can live through this
if i can get through this
if i can do this shit
i’m not sure if i’m high
if i am then i am up in the sky
i’m floatin’
i am bragging and boasting
cruising the coast, bitch
are you in love with me the most?
‘cause i’m in love with you the most, bitch

yeah, i’m gonna live and i’m gonna sin
no, i’m gonna win
and i don’t give a shit if you want to hit
if you want to live
if you want to do this shit
don’t bother me

it’s brand new to my life
it’s brand new to this high
there’s brand new behind these eyes
and you’ve gotta see if i realize
if i realize that i met my demise
when i was down, down low
but i will reach back up
and now i don’t even know

don’t even know
if i’m going too slow
if i’m going too fast
this is a blast, this is a blast
i don’t want it to move on, it’s
it’s just like the past, it’s just like the past
remembering old memories
it’s just like the past
don’t move on too fast

don’t move on too fast
i’m living this life, i hope it will last
i wanna keep on going
i wanna keep on going
so i’m strapped with the gat
i would do it all my life
all my life, all my life
until i would die, this is an art
i like rapping, music, all of it

i mean ft. straynge (prod. 807mula + dentist)

all reposts include me

arechi means “wasteland” in Japanese

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