i hate myself 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yd6HH52LrN4
(lyrics)
┼I'm blind can you see me in this darkness
┼And I'm in pain can you even stop this
┼Now I'm thinking that you mighta done caused this
┼I see you livin it up, straight up in bliss
┼I'm thinkin all about the scars on your wrist 
┼I'm thinkin all about the time I was on your lips
┼I'm thinkin all about the times I gave you a kiss
┼And now I can't think of anything I wouldn't miss
┼I think of you when I'm driving all alone
┼I think you when I'm looking at my phone
┼I think of you waiting for me at home
┼I been waiting so long I'm stone
┼I been thinking of these pills
┼All I think of is killing myself
┼I don't want this pain I feel
┼I just wanna know if this is real
┼I'm blind can you see me in this darkness
┼And I'm in pain can you even stop this
┼Now I'm thinking that you mighta done caused this
┼I see you livin it up, straight up in bliss
┼Is it real or not, I can't tell

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