5th track on littleuniverses LP

LYRICS:
A breeze came in awoke my senses
what do I do with all my knowledge
I think a lot about how all twinkles and fades
staring my eyes in the mirror
acknowledging this statement
 
How I once baldly wanted a daughter
How I now see my friends as mothers
Wonder if I’ll get that honor
 
My life’s changed so much
this room’s not getting any smaller
I tell you some of this now my imaginary daughter
how I now know who won’t be your father
 
I worked so hard to black out every night
to conceal what I really felt in life
tell you more of that later my lovely daughter
 
See these clouds and I have a deeper understanding
I speak to them sometimes
they feel more stable than my friends
see that one moving…
I wonder if you will ever exist
 
Will I ever have a daughter
Will I ever be a mother
 
Now is the time for happiness
one day I hope to tell her all of this
so she will understand how far I had to slip
to be here
 
How much heart I know I have to love her

Will I Be A Mother

I accidentally found a SHORT clip of an old version and outtake of one of my tunes DEEP BLUE in my archives.
Kind of an interesting find... and good enough I thought why not post it on SoundCloud.
I ultimately decided on a different approach as can be heard on the "official" version of Deep Blue, which I had released in 2017.

DEEP BLUE ANOMALY (Audric Jankauskas-2017)

Witnessing the fascinating conjunction of Venus and Jupiter from my hostel window prompted me to revisit one of my early attempts at writing music for solo MIDI electronics. 

"Celestial Dance", composed in May 2019, is in three parts, each following the other attacca, without pause. The harmonic structure of the work is derived from the clash (conjunction!) of two diminished seventh chords, with their root notes a semitone apart. Pierre Boulez had used such a chord in Sur Incises (and Incises)  which piqued my interest in its sonority. The instrumentation albeit MIDI oriented (which allowed me to push the instrumental performance to superhuman virtuosity) is made up of the instruments Boulez used in Sur Incises - with the addition of an electronic piano and solo strings. 

Celestial Dance, for electronics (2019)

Bonds

A song inspired by autumn, walks in the city park, cold days.

November

You wandered so far from home
You rode down the trail alone
The vast desert swallowed the heart of your soul
I didn't know how far you'd go
I didn't know how long you'd roam
The shriveling marrow deep in my bones

- Lover, one and only
- Deserts, high and lonely

cover art by Mark Demsteader, "Vortex"
sheet music https://drive.google.com/file/d/1qe118FTbRhqO0jBpVrW--rmvWFezii5v/view?usp=drive_link
9.4

HIGH AND LONELY DESERTS

This will be the first release from a forthcoming album. It's partly about the current political climate we live in but also delves a little bit into my time at school. I tried to create a character that is dissolution with his social predicament that ends up succubming to right wing propaganda. It's not as bleak as it sounds! 
The chorus focuses on an imagined political figure that uses propaganda to change the minds of millions within the U.K. It takes part around 2016. I wonder who I might be singing about? You can't break the heart of the nation essentially means you can fool some of the people most of the time but not ALL the people ALL of the time. I have used the question in the last phrase of the song; can ya? Because lets face it they did. The right sort of broke the heart of the nation but the nation hasn't realised it yet!

Heart of the Nation

Everyone Means Well

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Yachtsaz Clutchedat

Thirty minutes of experimental music made in response to a weekly haiku poem, curated by Marco Alessi of Naviar Records and Naviar's international community of composers.

This episode features music made by Naviar's community inspired by Nakamura Teijo's poem "Come outside!, we can almost touch, the spring moon".

To have your music featured on the show, participate in the Haiku music challenge.


Tracklist

Night Note - Come Outside!
windspace - We Can Almost Touch
zenbytes - touch the spring moon
Stan Magendanz - we can almost touch the spring moon
ray_cobley - Lunar Illusion
Halcyon Hum - Munbotoru

Naviar Broadcast #315 – Come outside! – Wednesday 17th April 2024

Psychedelic Indie Folk Gospel 
love longing loss alienation nature spirituality dying transformation
Produced with Cubase on Focusrite Scarlett 2i2 
and MuseScore for digital sounds and sheet music

HIGH AND LONELY DESERTS

WAZEE

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