The entirety of this track is WOAH! The ending and intro especially. Lookin forward to the rest of the album

I'm incredibly happy and honored to present my new ‘Unrequited Self Love Story’ LP!!! A 10 track album on a trip through finding your own true peace.
And I'm also out of words to be able to say that it's out now on my favorite label in this world @wearesilkenwood !!!
Really hope it makes you trip to somewhere inside yourself ;)

This album goes through the inner journey of realizing that nothing from outside yourself it’s gonna ever bring you peace.
For some reason, we all seem to disconnect from our most pure heart essence and try to look for that same thing outside. We try to recover that strength and confidence finding someone to love us, trying to achieve our goals and looking for succession; but none of those seem to work long term and we seem to feel even emptier and more sad at the end of the day, when everything is quiet.
We frenetically run from our shadow as much and as fast as possible even though the mind keeps calling our attention harder and noisier, till it finally takes over and we have no chance to ignore it any more.
Once we’re in front of our biggest fear, we still struggle to look at it face to face and we keep asking our gods for some guide; but even them tell us that we have to look at it straight into their eyes. So then we realize that apparently scary demon was just our inner kid being afraid of growing up.
We have to calm them then telling that becoming an adult is not that of a deal; it’s just the art of not giving a fuck about peoples opinion, making your own decisions and keep pushing no matter if you fail or if you get it! So we finally stop looking for anyone or anything! We finally realize that we’re just complete on our own! But to fully love ourselves we need to embrace our darkness, so that primary spark of love can come out again brighter and more powerful than ever, not negating its inseparable shadow. Its own dual nature. So that we can finally free fly by!

Art by my old time friend Zeppa:
https://adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Stream it anywhere:
https://www.silkenwood.us/releases/tbb-usls

Unrequited Self Love Story LP (Out Now On Silkenwood)

first of all, thanks so much for listening! this album is two years' worth of work and i'm very proud of it.

Primavera is my attempt to capture not only a springy acoustic soundscape but also speak to the struggles of neurodivergent people, whether their challenges be finding love, making a living, or experiencing change. i want to dedicate this album to all the neurodivergent youth who are still finding their way in the world, like i am.

i sincerely hope you enjoy this album, and again, thanks for listening.

credits:

all music written, produced, mixed, and mastered by snow aster

Anne Preis - vocals & violin on tracks 1 & 11
Kylie Dickinson - vocals on track 1
Kayla Silverman - vocals on track 11
Skylar Brillante - drums on tracks 2, 3, 4, 5, & 10
Xander Dake - drums on track 8
Drake Duffer - guitar on track 3
Owen Dodds - keys on track 3
Trent Reeder - vocals & guitar on track 10
Bret Coppa - harmonica on track 13

special thanks:
Jacob Hurlock
Johnny Bakos

turn around / seasons

"𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘮 𝘐 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨... 𝘱𝘪𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘣𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘢𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘢 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘴𝘲𝘶𝘦 𝘱𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘱 𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘢𝘭. 𝘠𝘦𝘵... 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘰 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 now. 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘯𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳 𝘪𝘯 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 𝘰𝘳 𝘢𝘧𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘥. 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 so 𝘩𝘶𝘯𝘨𝘳𝘺."

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Disease [PREMIERE]

We got @alexanderpanos on the INTRO!

But...
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The "J?"

Beeporbomple.

COP!

Album analysis and review on Bustena:
https://bustena.wordpress.com/2024/05/21/un-album-electronico-unrequited-self-love-story/

I'm incredibly happy and honored to present my debut ‘Unrequited Self Love Story’ LP!!! A 10 track album on a trip through finding your own true peace.
And I'm also out of words to be able to say that it's out now on my favorite label in this world @wearesilkenwood !!!
Stream it anywhere:
https://www.silkenwood.us/releases/tbb-usls

This album goes through the inner journey of realizing that nothing from outside yourself it’s gonna ever bring you peace.
For some reason, we all seem to disconnect from our most pure heart essence and try to look for that same thing outside. We try to recover that strength and confidence finding someone to love us, trying to achieve our goals and looking for succession; but none of those seem to work long term and we seem to feel even emptier and more sad at the end of the day, when everything is quiet.
We frenetically run from our shadow as much and as fast as possible even though the mind keeps calling our attention harder and noisier, till it finally takes over and we have no chance to ignore it any more.
Once we’re in front of our biggest fear, we still struggle to look at it face to face and we keep asking our gods for some guide; but even them tell us that we have to look at it straight into their eyes. So then we realize that apparently scary demon was just our inner kid being afraid of growing up.
We have to calm them then telling that becoming an adult is not that of a deal; it’s just the art of not giving a fuck about peoples opinion, making your own decisions and keep pushing no matter if you fail or if you get it! So we finally stop looking for anyone or anything! We finally realize that we’re just complete on our own! But to fully love ourselves we need to embrace our darkness, so that primary spark of love can come out again brighter and more powerful than ever, not negating its inseparable shadow. Its own dual nature. So that we can finally free fly by!

Art by my old time friend Zeppa:
https://adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Tracklist:
1.Loosing Heartsmission (Intro)
00:00 - 02:40
2.Unsettled Romance (Feat Hagrid Void)
02:40 - 07:30
3.Sad As Hell
07:30 - 11:58
4.Running From Myself
11:58 - 15:20
5.My Mind Is A Black Hole
15:20 - 18:14
6.Face It Or Die
18:14 - 21:40
7.You Gotta Grow Up
21:40 - 26:49
8.IDGAF If U GAF
26:49 - 30:49
9.By My Side
30:49 - 35:44
10.Flying By (Outro)
35:44 - 41:47

Unrequited Self Love Story (Full Album Mix) “Silkenwood release”

SUPPORT DJ STEPBRO
@djstepbro
https://twitter.com/dj_stepbro

HOLY SHARTTTTTTT AND SHITTER💩POOP!!!! IT'S BEEN A WHOLE YEAR SINCE THE LAST NUMBERED COMP⌚⌚❤️‍🩹??? dawg who tf fat ass be eatin up the TIME probably yo mama🤣DAMMNNNN💀💀

You already know we back at it with tha number 6, man urinates on fellow passenger and gets naked🩲for not being allowed to MAKE PENIS🍆🎹MUSIC UNTIL JUNE 16TH FOR VOLUME 14????🤯😱😱🤢(thats me about to yack because one of the submissions was SO SO sooOOOO fun E)The insane in the membrane cock wafflers in the trademarked™️ dickswordia server🗡️ (i think that discord invite in the MF BIOOOO is giving you a booty call rn🍑🍑🍑you should answer that hoe📱🎶) took part in yet ANOTHER incredible event to CUM up with the BEST OF THE BEST💪we have to offer🤲. We yet AGAIN absolutely BONED🦴our song and comp length record with a stupid 3+ HOUR COMP WITH 77 HEATERS🔥🧯🧯???? WTF IS WROOONGGG WITH YOU❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗

Alrighty then, that's enough rambling😭😭🖕🖕WE GOT A COMP TO GET TO BRAH WOOOOOOOOO VOLUME 14 BABYYYYYY💯💯💯

DJ Stepbro - N. Sanity

SUPPORT ALL FAPS
@all_caps1

🥯

SUPPORT ESHLOBORATUS
@elaboratus / @elaboratusgang

SUPPORT HEAD HONCHODE
@ilysianofficial

SUPPORT JERRY AK
@nt-collective

SUPPORT P4KKUN
@p4kkun

SUPPORT PUSSY BOUQUET
@daisy-bouquet

[P4KKUN]
(OH MY GOD) 
BITCH I LIKE GREEN MONEY, RED MONEY, BLUE MONEY 
FUCK IT GIMME ALL YOUR GOD DAMN YELLOW MONEY
MY MONEY'S DIFFERENT COLORS
IT'S ALLOVER THE RAINBOW
FUCK YOU, WHAT CHU MEAN?!!
I WANT ALL THE GREEN!!!

YUH, YUH MONEY IN MY POCKET
YUH, YUH MONEY IN MY POCKET
YAY! AYE, MONEY IN MY POCKET
AYE, AYE, MONEY IN MY POCKET!!!!!!!!
HEYYY, HEYYY, MONEY IN MY POCKET
HEYYY, HEYYY, MONEY IN MY POCKET
HEYYY, HEYYY, MONEY IN MY POCKET
HEYYY, HEYYY, MONEY IN MY POCKET

[ALL FAPS]
*RAPPING NOISES*

[PUSSY BOUQUET]
DRIVE THE LEXUS '03
WITH THE GAS TANK STILL ON E
YEAH THESE FEATURES AIN'T FREE
LIL BOY YOU BETTER PAY UP
WWE
THESE DUBS ARE FREE
ILL PUT YOU ON THE ROPES
AND THEN I'LL CUT YOUR THROAT
YOU TALK THE TALK
I WALK THE WALK
I WONK YOUR SHIT
WITH SLOPPY TOP
YEAH YOU KNOW WE WAY UP (WAY UP)
LIL BOY YOU BETTER PAY UP (PAY UP)
PAY UP

[HEW]
BUDDY JUST TOOK A FUCKING DUMP
AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO HEARD THAT BUDDY?
THAT SHIT’S FUCKING SPLASHING

[ESHLOBORATUS]
YEAH I GOT LIL SHAWTY SPLASHIN
SHE SAY SHE LIKES MY FASHION (FASHION!)
YEAH I HAD LIL SHAWTY SPLASHIN (SPLASHIN!)
NOW IM OUT DA DOOR DASHIN (DASHIN!)

BRAIN SO DUMB CUZ SHE GOT NO WISDOM TEETH,
SHE SAID SHE REALLY LIKES ME EVEN THO MY AIR FORCE ONE'S CREASE
HEY
SHE STILL COMES OVER IF MY ROOM IS MESSY
I WON'T LIE, I GET BUTTERFLIES WHEN SHE SAY MY FIT'S TOO CLEAN

AYE BACK IT UP (X4)

[HEAD HONCHODE]
I'M SITTIN IN MY BED
STARIN' AT MY MASSIVE COOOCK (HAAAAAA) (:HUNK:)
WITH NOT MUCH ELSE ON MY MIND
I THINK THAT IMMA STROKE IT OFF (HE'S A STROKE, HE'S A STROKE) (😱) 

AS I'M WHIPPIN OUT MY PHONE
I RECEIVE A TEXT THAT JUST KNOCKS ME OFF MY FEET (IT'S PMC) (:BLOODCURDLER:)
NOW I'M SURROUNDED BY A BUNCH OF WILLIES
AND I DON'T KNOW HOW I'LL COMPETE


[JERRY AK]
JERRY AK RAPPING ON THIS JELLO ASS BEAT
JELLO, SHOUTOUT MY BOY JELLO
AYE AYE AYE

THIS BEAT SOUNDS WIGGLY LIKE JELLO
MY FLOW TOO FRESH, LIKE HELLO
I PISS MY PANTS, THEY YELLOW
I'M A CLASSIC MOTHERFUCKER LIKE A CELLO

SHAWTY ASS FAT LIKE MARSHMALLOW
I BE ON THAT WILL SMITH SHIT LIKE WILLOW
IM ON THAT SHAKESPEARE SHIT, OTHELLO
THIS BEAT SOUNDS WIGGLY LIKE JELLO

SHAWTY'S ASS BE LOOKING LIKE A 3 POUND BAG OF BISCUITS ON A SLEEPING BAG
I MAKE NOTHING OUT OF SOMETHING LIL BABY
I TURN NOTHING INTO SOMETHING LIKE SOMETHING NOTHING INTO SOMETHING LIL SHAWTY
ON THE DEADLOCS

IMMA PUNCH YO MOMMA FACE UP
IMMA PUNCH YO DAD'S FACE UP
IMMA SMOKE YO MOMMA
IMMA SMOKE YO DAD
IMMA TURN YO ASS INTO A MUTHAFUCKIN, XBOX
I'M GONNA FIRE UP A GAME, AND PLAY XBOX GAMES

[🥯]
*CLARINET NOISES*

HOLY SHARTTTTTTT AND SHITTER💩POOP!!!! IT'S BEEN A WHOLE YEAR SINCE THE LAST NUMBERED COMP⌚⌚❤️‍🩹??? dawg who tf fat ass be eatin up the TIME probably yo mama🤣DAMMNNNN💀💀

You already know we back at it with tha number 6, man urinates on fellow passenger and gets naked🩲for not being allowed to MAKE PENIS🍆🎹MUSIC UNTIL JUNE 16TH FOR VOLUME 14????🤯😱😱🤢(thats me about to yack because one of the submissions was SO SO sooOOOO fun E)The insane in the membrane cock wafflers in the trademarked™️ dickswordia server🗡️ (i think that discord invite in the MF BIOOOO is giving you a booty call rn🍑🍑🍑you should answer that hoe📱🎶) took part in yet ANOTHER incredible event to CUM up with the BEST OF THE BEST💪we have to offer🤲. We yet AGAIN absolutely BONED🦴our song and comp length record with a stupid 3+ HOUR COMP WITH 77 HEATERS🔥🧯🧯???? WTF IS WROOONGGG WITH YOU❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗❗

Alrighty then, that's enough rambling😭😭🖕🖕WE GOT A COMP TO GET TO BRAH WOOOOOOOOO VOLUME 14 BABYYYYYY💯💯💯

ALL FAPS, BAGEL, ESHLOBORATUS, HEAD HONCHODE, JERRY AK, P4KKUN, PUSSY BOUQUET - 88888888 (FEAT. HEW)

Dazzled By Disillusionment

About the song: "This song talks about the paradox that commonly happens when you reach your top goals and achieve your biggest dreams; but somehow you start to feel even more empty than before and sad as fucking hell… Anyone?
Is it happiness overrated?
Does the end destination matter at all?"
-The Big Blind

Lyrics:
I’m sad as hell
Cannot even tell
Everything seems beautiful
But I can’t wring the bell
I can feel nothing at all
And I don’t know where to look for
I’m sad as hell
I feel under spell
I can see the river flows
But I can’t drop my tears
I wonder why am I here
But I can feel I’m getting near
I’m sad as hell
With my guys and bad as well
I was meant to be a happy boy
But I ran out of joy
I would just love to enjoy this
But I’m closing my eyes for peace
I don’t wanna dance
No time for romance
People just enjoy the wind
And party never ends
I would just try to pretend a way
But I’m not in the mood today
I’m sad as hell
Cannot even tell
Everything seems beautiful
But I can’t wring the bell
I’m sad as hell
Cannot even tell

Artwork/Visuals: adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Follow The Big Blind:
Soundcloud: @the-big-blind
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/6QwGrl6Xk…tnSXuh3XPwktk42Q
Twitter: twitter.com/thebigblindmus
Instagram: www.instagram.com/thebigblindmusic/

Follow SILKENWOOD:
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Instagram: www.instagram.com/wearesilkenwood/
Web: www.silkenwood.us

The Big Blind - Sad As Hell

Artwork/Visuals: adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Follow The Big Blind:
Soundcloud: @the-big-blind
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/6QwGrl6Xk…tnSXuh3XPwktk42Q
Twitter: twitter.com/thebigblindmus
Instagram: www.instagram.com/thebigblindmusic/

Follow SILKENWOOD:
Soundcloud: @wearesilkenwood
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Instagram: www.instagram.com/wearesilkenwood/
Web: www.silkenwood.us

The Big Blind - Loosing Heartsmision (Intro)

Lyrics:
I was looking at you and my eyes where smiling
I don’t need to see you to perceive this feeling
heartbeat high speed at the moment I met you
Cause the world stopped spinning
full meaning voice before and after words
When your skin touched mine I could hear the most beautiful chords
I could feel the love coming true
And my injures healing
With
Just a funny stare
I just feel the need
To take you away
To my altered plane
Where nothing is sane
So climb through the stairs
Let me take away
Make your ego fade
Let me take you with me
Don’t know if you agree
That you’re trying to hide from inside
You’re not that truly free
If you flow like the sea
But you have no borders to rest by
I’ve been taking my time
I’ve been holding my chime
I’ve been taming my mind
To finally find
That baby
I
Just want you to see
The world through my eyes
Come blind walk with me
Till this strong flame dies
I had to get off the ship
How could I have known that I
Couldn't take a breath in here
While you move around in bliss
I had to get off this place
Feel the earth with my own skin
It was fun to get to play
But you played it without me
With
Just a funny stare
I just feel the need
To take you away
To my altered plane
Where nothing is sane
Come climb through the stairs
Let me take away
Let your ego fade

Artwork/Visuals: adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Follow The Big Blind:
Soundcloud: @the-big-blind
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/6QwGrl6Xk…tnSXuh3XPwktk42Q
Twitter: twitter.com/thebigblindmus
Instagram: www.instagram.com/thebigblindmusic/

Follow Hagrid Void:
https://soundcloud.com/hagrid-void
https://open.spotify.com/artist/2GFTV7d0Cca55abNb0PFBj?si=0e467790b4b6489c

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Web: www.silkenwood.us

The Big Blind - Unsettled Romance (ft. Hagrid Void)

Lyrics:

I’m running away
from that shit I say
To myself all day
But I came to stay
I’m not ok
But I love to play
This crazy game
Just to feel unchained
I feel insane
But I take the train
To a distan land
There is no demand
No demon’s voice
No diamonds choice
Only pure rejoice
Till it stops the noice
I’m running from myself
I’m running from myself
Run running and I can’t stop wondering
If I where faster will a scan skip my fingerprint?
Talking tinkles with the tong till simmering
And sing singing in the rain till I loose the train
I’m not Coltrane but I train to play well
And well, will you care if I swear to avoid pain?
A glass of champagne no paintings just poetry
I’m climbing the tree to pick the pictures I can’t see
I’m running from myself
I’m running from myself
I’m running away
from that shit I say
To myself all day
But I came to stay
I’m not ok
But I love to play
This crazy game
Just to feel unchained
I feel insane
But I take the train
To a distan land
There is no demand
No demon’s voice
No diamonds choice
Only pure rejoice
Till it stops the noice

Artwork/Visuals: adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Follow The Big Blind:
Soundcloud: @the-big-blind
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/6QwGrl6Xk…tnSXuh3XPwktk42Q
Twitter: twitter.com/thebigblindmus
Instagram: www.instagram.com/thebigblindmusic/

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Soundcloud: @wearesilkenwood
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Web: www.silkenwood.us

The Big Blind - Running From Myself

Give it a go!

And thanks so much to @izzykramer !

Vurdtphlaim.

REFILLABLE 栄光_20240520

Evaporate

Blind producer, keyboardist, vocalist and electronic music composer.
Building some sound bridges between distant music worlds :)
Contact: thebigblindmusic@gmail.com

Unrequited Self Love Story LP (Analysis & Review On Bustena):
https://bustena.wordpress.com/2024/05/21/un-album-electronico-unrequited-self-love-story/

A blind producer? Like: Blind blind?
Yea! Shanti Vega AKA The big blind barely sees and he makes music with a frenetic talking computer!!! How the hell he does it? IDK ask him…
With a jazz piano training, a classical music background and a soulish passion for electronic music; this artist brings a take on the EDM scene that incorporates elements from all genres, but being none of them at all.
Based in Spain; he shows quite a versatile career as a keyboardist and producer; oscillating from all kinds of electronics to pop & rap vocals, acid bebop soloing, smooth jazz piano arrangements or even all improvised Avantgarde music.
He also leads The Big Blind Trio: A band project that covers from the roots of blues and modern forms of jazz to electro-acoustic arrangements for the electronic music pioneers such as Koan Sound, Haywyre or Savant:
https://youtu.be/1raoZx-1Pr4
He made his first appearance with his ‘Looking For Soundland’ project in 2019: A record conceived as a film without image; and then focused on studying the professional jazz piano degree in the EMC in Madrid; earning experience as a live performer in varied formats like ambience smooth jazz for background in formal events, jazz fusion dance bands, big band, duo comping singers and even leading his own jam session (The big Blind & Friends) as the resident musician. He also participated as a keyboardist and arranger for studio recordings with projects like The Estupendos or Chris and the Beats.
After finishing his studies in 2021: He got more serious into producing. Getting to work on the music for some of the most promising Spanish artists like Edna Free, Sol Bontempy, Paraíso Calero or Granuxi; while continued his personal experimentation with diverse electronic genres.
In 2023, he signed his debut album release with the brand new emerging label @wearesilkenwood with a whole vocalist project himself: His Unrequited Self Love Story LP! A full length album that oscillates from the hardest forms of bass music to the mellowest harmonies. And he came back on the label with his Funny Money EP in 2024: A country/dubstep/cinematic/jazz record??? Whatever hahaha...
He have been also seen on other well known labels of the underground such as @intrinzic-music, @phono-records & @novelchapters

‘My biggest goal in music is to fuse the sound possibilities of electronics with the freedom of jazz improvisation, the transcendence of classical music, the easiness of pop, the punch of hip hop and maybe also the rage of rock? Who knows where this journey will take me hahaha... Wish me luck!

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