I'm incredibly happy and honored to present my new ‘Unrequited Self Love Story’ LP!!! A 10 track album on a trip through finding your own true peace.
And I'm also out of words to be able to say that it's out now on my favorite label in this world @wearesilkenwood !!!
Really hope it makes you trip to somewhere inside yourself ;)

This album goes through the inner journey of realizing that nothing from outside yourself it’s gonna ever bring you peace.
For some reason, we all seem to disconnect from our most pure heart essence and try to look for that same thing outside. We try to recover that strength and confidence finding someone to love us, trying to achieve our goals and looking for succession; but none of those seem to work long term and we seem to feel even emptier and more sad at the end of the day, when everything is quiet.
We frenetically run from our shadow as much and as fast as possible even though the mind keeps calling our attention harder and noisier, till it finally takes over and we have no chance to ignore it any more.
Once we’re in front of our biggest fear, we still struggle to look at it face to face and we keep asking our gods for some guide; but even them tell us that we have to look at it straight into their eyes. So then we realize that apparently scary demon was just our inner kid being afraid of growing up.
We have to calm them then telling that becoming an adult is not that of a deal; it’s just the art of not giving a fuck about peoples opinion, making your own decisions and keep pushing no matter if you fail or if you get it! So we finally stop looking for anyone or anything! We finally realize that we’re just complete on our own! But to fully love ourselves we need to embrace our darkness, so that primary spark of love can come out again brighter and more powerful than ever, not negating its inseparable shadow. Its own dual nature. So that we can finally free fly by!

Art by my old time friend Zeppa:
https://adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Stream it anywhere:
https://www.silkenwood.us/releases/tbb-usls

Unrequited Self Love Story LP (Out Now On Silkenwood)

Album analysis and review on Bustena:
https://bustena.wordpress.com/2024/05/21/un-album-electronico-unrequited-self-love-story/

I'm incredibly happy and honored to present my debut ‘Unrequited Self Love Story’ LP!!! A 10 track album on a trip through finding your own true peace.
And I'm also out of words to be able to say that it's out now on my favorite label in this world @wearesilkenwood !!!
Stream it anywhere:
https://www.silkenwood.us/releases/tbb-usls

This album goes through the inner journey of realizing that nothing from outside yourself it’s gonna ever bring you peace.
For some reason, we all seem to disconnect from our most pure heart essence and try to look for that same thing outside. We try to recover that strength and confidence finding someone to love us, trying to achieve our goals and looking for succession; but none of those seem to work long term and we seem to feel even emptier and more sad at the end of the day, when everything is quiet.
We frenetically run from our shadow as much and as fast as possible even though the mind keeps calling our attention harder and noisier, till it finally takes over and we have no chance to ignore it any more.
Once we’re in front of our biggest fear, we still struggle to look at it face to face and we keep asking our gods for some guide; but even them tell us that we have to look at it straight into their eyes. So then we realize that apparently scary demon was just our inner kid being afraid of growing up.
We have to calm them then telling that becoming an adult is not that of a deal; it’s just the art of not giving a fuck about peoples opinion, making your own decisions and keep pushing no matter if you fail or if you get it! So we finally stop looking for anyone or anything! We finally realize that we’re just complete on our own! But to fully love ourselves we need to embrace our darkness, so that primary spark of love can come out again brighter and more powerful than ever, not negating its inseparable shadow. Its own dual nature. So that we can finally free fly by!

Art by my old time friend Zeppa:
https://adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

Tracklist:
1.Loosing Heartsmission (Intro)
00:00 - 02:40
2.Unsettled Romance (Feat Hagrid Void)
02:40 - 07:30
3.Sad As Hell
07:30 - 11:58
4.Running From Myself
11:58 - 15:20
5.My Mind Is A Black Hole
15:20 - 18:14
6.Face It Or Die
18:14 - 21:40
7.You Gotta Grow Up
21:40 - 26:49
8.IDGAF If U GAF
26:49 - 30:49
9.By My Side
30:49 - 35:44
10.Flying By (Outro)
35:44 - 41:47

Unrequited Self Love Story (Full Album Mix) “Silkenwood release”

About the song: "This song talks about the paradox that commonly happens when you reach your top goals and achieve your biggest dreams; but somehow you start to feel even more empty than before and sad as fucking hell… Anyone?
Is it happiness overrated?
Does the end destination matter at all?"
-The Big Blind

Lyrics:
I’m sad as hell
Cannot even tell
Everything seems beautiful
But I can’t wring the bell
I can feel nothing at all
And I don’t know where to look for
I’m sad as hell
I feel under spell
I can see the river flows
But I can’t drop my tears
I wonder why am I here
But I can feel I’m getting near
I’m sad as hell
With my guys and bad as well
I was meant to be a happy boy
But I ran out of joy
I would just love to enjoy this
But I’m closing my eyes for peace
I don’t wanna dance
No time for romance
People just enjoy the wind
And party never ends
I would just try to pretend a way
But I’m not in the mood today
I’m sad as hell
Cannot even tell
Everything seems beautiful
But I can’t wring the bell
I’m sad as hell
Cannot even tell

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The Big Blind - Sad As Hell

*laser gun

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The Big Blind - Loosing Heartsmision (Intro)

Lyrics:
I was looking at you and my eyes where smiling
I don’t need to see you to perceive this feeling
heartbeat high speed at the moment I met you
Cause the world stopped spinning
full meaning voice before and after words
When your skin touched mine I could hear the most beautiful chords
I could feel the love coming true
And my injures healing
With
Just a funny stare
I just feel the need
To take you away
To my altered plane
Where nothing is sane
So climb through the stairs
Let me take away
Make your ego fade
Let me take you with me
Don’t know if you agree
That you’re trying to hide from inside
You’re not that truly free
If you flow like the sea
But you have no borders to rest by
I’ve been taking my time
I’ve been holding my chime
I’ve been taming my mind
To finally find
That baby
I
Just want you to see
The world through my eyes
Come blind walk with me
Till this strong flame dies
I had to get off the ship
How could I have known that I
Couldn't take a breath in here
While you move around in bliss
I had to get off this place
Feel the earth with my own skin
It was fun to get to play
But you played it without me
With
Just a funny stare
I just feel the need
To take you away
To my altered plane
Where nothing is sane
Come climb through the stairs
Let me take away
Let your ego fade

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The Big Blind - Unsettled Romance (ft. Hagrid Void)

Lyrics:

I’m running away
from that shit I say
To myself all day
But I came to stay
I’m not ok
But I love to play
This crazy game
Just to feel unchained
I feel insane
But I take the train
To a distan land
There is no demand
No demon’s voice
No diamonds choice
Only pure rejoice
Till it stops the noice
I’m running from myself
I’m running from myself
Run running and I can’t stop wondering
If I where faster will a scan skip my fingerprint?
Talking tinkles with the tong till simmering
And sing singing in the rain till I loose the train
I’m not Coltrane but I train to play well
And well, will you care if I swear to avoid pain?
A glass of champagne no paintings just poetry
I’m climbing the tree to pick the pictures I can’t see
I’m running from myself
I’m running from myself
I’m running away
from that shit I say
To myself all day
But I came to stay
I’m not ok
But I love to play
This crazy game
Just to feel unchained
I feel insane
But I take the train
To a distan land
There is no demand
No demon’s voice
No diamonds choice
Only pure rejoice
Till it stops the noice

Artwork/Visuals: adriancepa9.wixsite.com/portfolio

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The Big Blind - Running From Myself

Lyrics:
I can’t keep holding any more
Cause you know that I keep looking for the north
I can’t even figure out a door
But I keep walking by the blanks on the score
I can’t keep flowing through the same stream of light
I just keep running till it glows and close the rise
I came just wondering when it ends and when it starts
I’ve been asking for answers so upstairs I asked the stars
And they Answered:
Face It Or Die!
Face It Or Die!
Face It Or Die!
Face It Or Die!
Face It Or Die!
Face It Or Die!
Face It Or Die!
Face It Or Die!
I must be at the end of this evil steeplechase
I’m willing to begin, but before I have to reprise
Now I must realice that I’m so worried to cross this haze
But it’s calling so loudly that I can’t unheard what it says

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The Big Blind - Face It Or Die

Lyrics:
I was with the rain
Dancing
I was past the sky
Wondering
I was by the side
Of the mountain
I was just looking to be by your side
I was just a man
With no mind
I was just a body
With no shadow
I was just a second
In space and time
But I kept looking to be by your side
I was just a slave
Of my own dreams
I was just a shinning star
But so far
I was just a broken heart
With a foreign ring
So I just founded it and found there my freedom
Now I’m here just by my side
Now I hold my guiding light
Now I just can feel alive
Cause I’m embracing my brightest and darkest sides
Now I’m here just by my side
Now I hold my guiding light
Now I just can feel alive
Cause I’m embracing my brightest and darkest sides

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The Big Blind - By My Side

Lyrics:
Now I’m flying by with no wings
Just like a bird chipping sounds of spring
Melodies come to my head like a stream
And harmonies came like breath just the day of birth
Now I trust the way
Nothing to say
Cause silence is fine
I’m playing with peace
Songs with no keys
Which aren’t even mine
Now I’m flying by between the trees
Like a firefly dancing with the summer breeze
Need no light to get delight in the dark
Cause now I see with the sight of the heart
I’m dropping my tears
To hidrate my fears
So they’re not afraid
Sending love to my shadow
Por estar a mi lado
I’m glad it didn’t fade
I’m changing the turns
There’s no return
Cause I’ve grown my faith
I’ve been taking all the pain
I’m determined to refine
It’s been really hard to find
But now I’m straight through this new lane
I was watching
My life going by
And I couldn’t wait
To change my mind
I’ve been looking
For someone to love
But love was inside
And now it’s coming out
Now I’m flying by, so goodbye
Just like the autumn leaves leaving the floor towards the sky
Living, tasting breathing like an apple pie
Dreaming, no more wondering why
No telling more lies
Feeling precise
About my own spins
Now finding the sound
Of my true ground
And know what it means
Now I’m flying by and need no eyes
Finding hit in a winter day slipping through the ice
Making a bonfire that couldn’t get much higher, not even if it tries
Cause it will burn the clouds then and you will know that god also cries
I was watching

My life going by
And I couldn’t wait
To change my mind
I’ve been looking
For someone to love
But love was inside
And now it’s coming out

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The Big Blind - Flying By (Outro)

Lyrics:
The world seemed to be so beautiful
And every single day was just a gift
This world seemed to be so wonderful
But suddenly it came out with some ugly surprise
No price for those young eyes so full of joy
No way to turn them back to life
Cause life now seems to be a very funny bad joke
But no laughter even after or before the end of the rise
You gotta grow up
You gotta grow up
But somehow you keep going down down down
You think it’s the end but it’s more profound
You scream and you shout but there’s no respond
Cause you gotta grow up
You wasted your time playing lost and found
You needed a compas to site the ground
But now that you’re out there you must respawn
This life seemed to lock behind the clock
But past the door there was no stop
There was an old man standing with a pail worried face
And no silence though there was no sound to chase, at all
So then I realized a mirror was the wall
So I must be that man but; when did this time come?
To overcome this crazy prom I closed my eyes
And keep walking, there’s no turning back home
They are no more lies
You gotta grow up
You gotta grow up
But somehow you keep going down down down
You wasted your time playing lost and found
You scream and you shout but there’s no respond
Cause you gotta grow up
You think it’s the end but it’s more profound
You needed a compas to site the ground
But now that you’re out there you must respawn
Cause you gotta grow up!

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The Big Blind - You Gotta Grow Up

@teksoma

AMFLARA's first fusion dance compilation is the definition of quality over quantity. While it only features five tracks, these five tracks are some of the highest quality releases to date. Artists were paired into groups of 2 or 3 based off of their style and genre, and were given 2 weeks to create whatever they wanted. The end result is an incredible compilation that spans many genres.

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Teksoma - Early In The Morning

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Look At You

Blind producer, keyboardist, vocalist and electronic music composer.
Building some sound bridges between distant music worlds :)
Contact: thebigblindmusic@gmail.com

A blind producer? Like: Blind blind?
Yea! Shanti Vega AKA The big blind barely sees and he makes music with a frenetic talking computer!!! How the hell he does it? IDK ask him…
With a jazz piano training, a classical music background and a soulish passion for electronic music; this artist brings a take on the EDM scene that incorporates elements from all genres, but being none of them at all.
Based in Spain; he shows quite a versatile career as a keyboardist and producer; oscillating from all kinds of electronics to pop & rap vocals, acid bebop soloing, smooth jazz piano arrangements or even all improvised Avantgarde music.
He also leads The Big Blind Trio: A band project that covers from the roots of blues and modern forms of jazz to electro-acoustic arrangements for the electronic music pioneers such as Koan Sound, Haywyre or Savant:
https://youtu.be/1raoZx-1Pr4
He made his first appearance with his ‘Looking For Soundland’ project in 2019: A record conceived as a film without image; and then focused on studying the professional jazz piano degree in the EMC in Madrid; earning experience as a live performer in varied formats like ambience smooth jazz for background in formal events, jazz fusion dance bands, big band, duo comping singers and even leading his own jam session in the Sala BarCo (The big Blind & Friends) as the resident musician. He also participated as a keyboardist and arranger for studio recordings with projects like The Estupendos or Chris and the Beats.
After finishing his studies in 2021: He got more serious into producing. Getting to work on the music for some of the most outstanding Spanish artists like Edna Free, Sol Bontempy, Paraíso Calero or Granuxi; while continued his personal experimentation with diverse electronic genres.
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/3yh7E7vTDb6bANsr7x8bTc?si=b5a39891d8d440eb
In 2023, he signed his debut album release with the brand new emerging label @wearesilkenwood with a whole vocalist project himself: His Unrequited Self Love Story LP! A full length album that oscillates from the hardest forms of bass music to the mellowest harmonies. And he came back on the label with his Funny Money EP in 2024: A country/dubstep/jazz cinematic record??? Whatever hahaha...
Also in 2024: his album got reviewed and analyzed on a renowned classical music history blog (Bustena); as an example of the decentralized modern electronic music era:
https://bustena.wordpress.com/2024/05/21/un-album-electronico-unrequited-self-love-story/
After that, he collaborated with the autor of the blog in a didactic project for the prestigious foundation Juan March; consisting on a multi-genre electronic suite all made by remixing classical music from the 18th century:
https://www.march.es/es/es/madrid/conciertos/material/salon-mecenas-entre-clasico-popular-siglo-xviii
He have been also seen on other well known labels of the underground such as: @phono-records @novelchapters @intrinzic-music & @0ssembli
As a pianist,: He released a whole transcription and interpretation from the iconic Brazilian composer Cesar Camargo Mariano of his tune Samambaia. And also made an appearance in the closing track for the ultraexperimental electronic free jazz album To Repel Ghosts by @kirzenlitch recording live keys and acoustic drums himself.

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