i met a girl online (hope shes not a guy)

Black Dress!

7.17.23 the person i wrote this song about left last night

waking up here again
above all you said we'd be here together
but nothing lasts forever
yeah nothing lasts forever
stuck inside this game of yours
constantly worried that ur bored
bored of me my texts are green
i texted u so patiently
please tell me is it worth it
take oxy my stomachs hurting
throw up outside the curtains
wish i still knew for certain
sweet release
you got me down on my knees
ill do whatever you need

hook

Forever

i wish that we would talk some more [+ vaughn ]

@akira3ksucks @weejk 

(pwnd:)

red eyes
i might die
you fill my thoughts with suicide
drugged up everytime
you cut my name into your thigh
bloodstains on your dress
you left me here with nothing left
stab your knife right in my chest
treat me like all of the rest

i cant decide
if you should live or die
rot my brain everytime
you're never satisfied
if i say that i love you
would you say it back
my head is filled with fluoride
turn to a maniac

(wujek:)

you decide if i should live or die
i cut my wrist while you look in my eyes
tell me lies until i feel alright
watch me die as you lay by my side

(pwnd again:)

red eyes
i might die
you fill my thoughts with suicide
drugged up everytime
you cut my name into your thigh
bloodstains on your dress
you left me here with nothing left
stab your knife right in my chest
treat me like all of the rest

wujek & pwnd - so there's this girl

prod me wit @odihu & @mqxixo (shoutout wuj)

https://open.spotify.com/track/3ThfD6whQ3jeXUvtHo5vN8?si=b9ebd3e522d642b8

[me:]

reduce my heart into oblivion
i dont care i dont care
take my bed and throw me in a river yeah
i dont care i dont care

grew out my hair so i dont have to see u
starved myself so that i could eat u 
feel my pulse u can tell that i need u
leave me alone if thats what ur gonna do

i love u so much so much
when im near u i blush i blush
could we make it just us jus us
just us just us
just just us

i dont wanna hurt u 
oh no oh no
i just wanna love u
i just wanna eat u

grew out my hair so i dont have to see u
starved myself so that i could eat u 
feel my pulse u can tell that i need u
leave me alone if thats what ur gonna do

[odihu:]

i wanna see you
i wanna be you
get so close yeah i just wanna fell you
youre like everything to me my dreams come true
hug me softly when uiim in a bad mood
feel like an elephant in the room\
feeling so bad fell like excuse
i should take it
i cant face it
when u take my hart bb pls dont break it
wish that u were next 2 me it fell just like its rainin
im so stuck i think that im caved in
i cant abandond you youre the whole point of my life
hopefully well meet at one point isnside our lifes
im so sad becasue i reaklly really tried
well be together one day and well be fine

[moxi:]

i do everything i can to be the best for u 
i know u hate me but its too late im obsessed with u 
think ab u all the time 
in my dreams every night
praying you'd be by my side 
hoping our hearts intertwine 
am i trying to hard? 
will any of this suffice?
i rlly care ab u 
i wanna change ur whole life

hp- hoowwoeooooo
i wanna change ur whole life
4x

i do everything i can to be the best for u 
i know u hate me but its too late im obsessed with u 
think ab u all the time 
in my dreams every night
praying you'd be by my side 
hoping our hearts intertwine 

[me:]
grew out my hair so i dont have to see u
starved myself so that i could eat u 
feel my pulse u can tell that i need u
leave me alone if thats what ur gonna do

eat yu (ft. odihu & lifeless)

https://open.spotify.com/track/7jD8KJWWEnicZlvcZ6vvOo?si=eec1e450e45646c3

prod me w/ @1zakuro & @odihu

she's outside and wants me dead
reassured her times and times and
out for blood, she wants my head
i don't understand what made her mad
throwing fits and causing wrecks
is it really my fault that she's so sad?
self destruction she's a mess
i gotta get far and leave her yeah


oh darling look my way
unless u want ur life to pay
cos ive been wanting u for so long
and u didnt even know
run away in spite
wanna make u mine
wasting all my time
ive had enough
murder on my mind
wanna end ur life
wanna fill a pint
with ur blood

youre always in my head
i love how u look dead

she's outside and wants me dead
reassured her times and times and
out for blood, she wants my head
i don't understand what made her mad
throwing fits and causing wrecks
is it really my fault that she's so sad?
self destruction she's a mess
i gotta get far and leave her yeah

i dont understand why are you so mad
you make everything seem so sad
dont understand why u cant take me back
well thats too bad
cause ur out for blood and u want my head
and its so sad that u want me dead
i miss the scars that are  on ur legs 
i miss you so much comeback i beg


i wanna hold u in my hands
i just wanna be your man
so much shit i regret i said
punching the wall till my hands turn red

come back to me
come back to me
dont be so sad
come back to me 
comeback to me
why are u so mad
cause ur out for blood and u want my head
love u so much but u want me dead
i dont know where it all went wrong
just pls come back

she wants me dead (ft. zakuro & odihu)

prod me 

odihu
she lives inside my head
idk what she said
i wasts staring at her pretty face and down to her legs
i tell her about the scary things and shit i regret
pretty face turnin red
i want her in my bed
i hope she knows how much i love her
i pray that she doesnt find another
shes the girl inside my dreams
i know one day shell come crawling to me

blehh
the way she talks to me 
has my heart skipping beats
i need to find a way to make her fall in love with me 
she's the one for me
yeah i'll love this girl forever
don't know what she thinks
but we should be together
girl girl girl girl i love you
i wanna get to know everything about you
you're the girl inside my dreams
i know one day you'll come crawling to me

lovecupid
can you crawl in my head
and tell me all the pretty stuff you have said
can you open me up and pour your love into me
and tell me pretty things i would always need
i keep on having dreams about you
i just wanna know do you love me too
i just keep on thinking about you
why the fuck did you need to leave me too?
i hate you

the girl of my dreams (ft. if birds were real & lovecupid)

lyrics

why does everyone around me feel okay?
why am i getting even worse everyday?
why does everyone i talk to seem so fake?
and why is it so hard to make somebody stay?

monday again
just another week
cant do this anymore
im to weak
im going inside of the bathroom just so i can eat
cause when they see me all alone they wanna bully me

everything cools down when im in my bed
in a place called home where i can rest my head
but this cycle just repeats itself over again
if nothing ever changes i might end up dead

why does everyone around me feel okay?
why am i getting even worse everyday?
why does everyone i talk to seem so fake?
and why is it so hard to make somebody stay?
x2

its monday again...

@bloodsekai @odihu

falling out the window
thats how it feels all the time
im the one that they throw
u'd get tired of it 
right?
tired, i'm so tired
liars, they're all liars
higher, make me higher
like an angel 
towards the light

im dying
i need your love right now
im falling apart
blood foaming out my mouth
looking for a way out where is it now
imma grab the shotgun leave my brains right on the couch 

its another day and i can only think of you again
i wanna cut into my skin and write your name with blood of sin
and you make me feel okay and i think ur my medicine
you meant every word u said to me u left me in the wind

falling out the window
thats how it feels all the time
im the one that they throw
u'd get tired of it 
right?
tired, i'm so tired
liars, they're all liars
higher, make me higher
like an angel 
towards the light

bloodsekai & odihu - getting tired

if you dive deep enough into my memories they will sound like this

nostalgia for a place i never was

i use s my songs as a way to my express myself and how i feel about the world an eveybodyu around me

i wish that we would talk some more [+ vaughn ]

wujek

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