Favourites 2

I don't wanna feel 💔

🕺🏽

cheaty presents

weial!

production: me & soma (@prodsoma)
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[intro]
feel alone n helpless
i paved this road w/ no end
tired of playing pretend
just wanna get out this mess

i’m not okay, i confess
these last few months, i’ve been stressed
i just have so much regrets
i just have so much regrets

[verse]
i’ve only had myself to get through all of this, it’s hell.
it’s lonely when the ones u used to know have said farewell
bleeding out, my eyes r open
can’t see, all my senses broken 
i wish that i wasn’t so hopeless
i wish that i wasn’t so hopeless

[chorus]
nobody even knows it, but i’m tired
i can feel killin all of my desire
doesn’t help when all my “friends” don’t even bother
not a thing that i can try to make me calmer
i’m drowning in emotions down beneath 
i’m grinding all my teeth
it’s getting hard to breathe, so...

tell me, was it a waste?
dug six feet down, no escape.
feels like i just got replaced
by someone better than me
if i left w/o a trace, no one would ponder
this path i’m going down, don’t even wanna 
staying silent cuz i don’t want any drama
heart is bleeding on the floor, guess that’s just karma 

[verse]
i tried my hardest just to be there for y’all
gave every person my all
but u still let me just fall 
u stare and laugh at me when i’m at my low 
don’t have to say it, ik
all that u do, yeah it shows
that i’m not welcome here
that u don’t even care
act like i’m unaware
a sight i cannot bear
i tried my best, i swear
heart on my sleeve, i wear [s/o rod wave]
just left me in despair
u never were a friend

[chorus]

apathetic (avit + soma)

prod. @skotskr and I
art by @wormpiss_69 on ig

Hook:
And We’ve been trapped in this realm for trapped for many years
We are together
But I made you feel so alone
I wanna make you just smile and love you
But do I even really love you
And I don’t know
But I think the answer is no

Bridge:
I just want
Peace
(repeated)

And we’ve been trapped in this realm for trapped for many years
We are together
And I made you feel so alone
I wanna make you just smile and love you
But do I even really love you
And I don’t know
But I think the answer is no

love.exe (co. prod skotskr) [untitled_0038]]

Leaving

Leaving (feat. the bootleg boy & Heroe)

snip

https://youtu.be/ofLIE9JqVMU

prod zetra + vvspipes
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[lyrics]
baby i hate when we fight
my momma told me i aint living right
she want some dick put her ass ona flight yuh
my demons come out in da night
i told my shawty that we gon b fine
u see the pain when u look in my eyes yuh

think im in the mood 2 get fucked up
i fell in love... in love w the drugs
i need me some green i hit up my plug
its bad 4 my health but idgaf
u think that im crazy but im just a slut
he running his mouth he ran out of luck
n my heart is cold think i ran out of love
bitch im not ok ima keep it a buck

baby i hate when we fight
my momma told me i aint living right
she want some dick put her ass ona flight yuh
my demons come out in da night
i told my shawty that we gon b fine
u see the pain when u look in my eyes yuh

bae lemme take u 2 paradise
this is our story just u and i
i stg that ill nvr lie
and i know i cant go for nun
he trying me but that boy is my son
i hit the blunt, this shit hurting my lungs
oh thats ur girl? well she loving my songs
i swear i cannot make this up
bitch im young n i am breaded up
bitch im down bad i need me a hug
and ur down at the bottom ur stuck
snakes in the grass gotta watch my steps
choppa on me hit him in his leg
scary thoughts spinning in my head
im on my own im my only friend

baby i hate when we fight
my momma told me i aint living right
she want some dick put her ass ona flight yuh
my demons come out in da night
i told my shawty that we gon b fine
u see the pain when u look in my eyes yuh

paradise <3 <3 <3 prod zetra + vvspipes (video in desc)

written and co-produced by me
produced by @swazyhq and @impursuit
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used to be so caught up in you, oh,
i've given up and now i'm running to the hills, cause i've lost the thrill
stuck in a hole, i don't know what to do, oh
i try to numb and look for something new to feel, but there's nothing real, and now i'm

discombobulated
i kept my hand in the fire, and now i'm getting so tired of this, (i'm feeling jaded)
i guess i'll keep getting higher, cause now i know you're a liar 
and shit, i'm devastated
i'm stuck in my room alone, i wish you'd pick up the phone, 
i feel the patience dissipating and now,

the sparks gone, there's no song, you finally won 
it's not fun, i'm struggling, was it something i'd done?
i'm not strong, nothing inside, my heart you had robbed 
the songs of love that i had, don't mean a thing anymore 
x2

losing a pulse, i need to take a breath, oh 
feel a convulsion running through my chest again, haven't slept again 
drowning my paper in a pool of lead, oh
pull me around like i'm a marionette, again
do you remember when you and me would 

stay up late, we're singing 
you said that i misconstrued it, you didn't think when you threw it away, 
my head is ringing, 
and now i'm feeling so stupid, i wish i hadn't went through it 
but hey, i'll stick to drinking 
the bottles always my friend, i know i'm drowning again 
but it's better than remembering, now it's different because

the sparks gone, there's no song, you finally won 
it's not fun, i'm struggling, was it something i'd done?
i'm not strong, nothing inside, my heart you had robbed 
the songs of love that i had, don't mean a thing anymore 
x2

feresy

new song :)

lyrics
blood up in my system
why she say she miss em
i just killed that mf
talking all that shit yuh

.45 make em shit yuh
fucking on his bitch yuh
i aint tryna live yuh
wait i think i did yuh

wait i think i do yuh
glocky it gon shoot ya
shoot at yo medulla
i be wit them shooters

killers, fr yeah
baby know the deal yeah
easy off them pills yeah
we not tryna feel yeah, fill yuh

wait hollup wait, i see 12 out the window
know you know the drill bro
yeah we shoot to kill bro

get your choppa ready
when they come in we gon spill bro
blood up on the pillows
do this shit fr hoe

it's a long way home
one more murder then i'm gone
two more bullets to his dome

i'm inside, can you please leave me alone
i miss life, when, i ain't do nothing wrong

i'm locked inside my home
i'm reaching for my chrome
can't nothing keep me calm
got blood up on my palms

yeah, its blood up on the ceiling
i ain't one to deal man
why can't nothing kill him
why ain't nothing kill them

looking out the window

spotify :)

I have no motivation
So I get nothing done
I hate the mornings so i 
Sleep in way past the sun    	 
I have like everything but
I still find nothing fun, 
I really like the smell of
The world when it burns

It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm

now its only a fraction   
Of times that we had
So i turn to distractions
Whenever im sad  
It turns into a cycle
I think im going psycho
Fraid of things that i might do
Might do

Lately i just hate everyone
I hope they all run away 
I hope they somehow just trip and fall
I hope they dig their own graves 

Im a mess
Im obsessed 
with distractions all day
And when i stop  
drown in thoughts
i just break down again
(2x)

Fuck that
Ima turn this shit around
Wrote that
In december i was down
Looking back that shit was kinda rough
But now im here its kinda funny got my money up

This year ,drop whatever I wana
All my songs are kinda sad but now im tryn be funner
Theres jus this
Big fear, 
I wont do any numbers
doesn't matter anyways im already goin down under 

I
I got a present 4 u
And im not sure if you’ll like it or not
But i assure u its straight from da heart
Ok u
U make write all these songs
But im j sad 1 percent  of the time
I jus dont make songs about 99

distractions

spotify

cover of i love you 3000 by stephanie poetri

the lyrics is not based on real events its just the song
after careful consideration i have realized i don't like this anymore.

3000

tangled with fate

'jazz' +@1spoder

stream: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/redhorse1/numb-feat-spoder

written circa nov2020 before redhorse was a thing,
back when i was still in school - still the saddest song i've written, limina may overtake tho-

lookin in the mirror, i don’t look too happy,
my room smells like shit, and i've got no money!
another one of those days, dead in my bed,
escape thru my phone, ignore what’s downstairs...
this time it seemed worse, what’s gotten into her,
i wish i had her energy, not being a sitting duck,
are my problems that bad? they tell me i’m too awkward,
sometimes i wish they’d expel me, then i might just be bothered
i know i say no, actually i want you here,
being a burden just hurts, but i need someone to see my tears
only downhill from here, i don’t wanna grow up
shoulda took a few pictures, i’d have shit to look back on
but no i’m a loser 
foggy path up ahead
maybe it’s time to wake up, 
talk to her instead.

solo

feeling audacious, might leave my bedroom
been the first time since i saw the full moon
they ask me why, i’m just following the rules
but i know inside i ain’t got anyone to talk to
bittersweet taste, brought it all on myself
just want the attention not the love, it makes me unwell
past few months i been sitting like a shell
sitting like an empty vessel drifting away into the ocean
island of my own, embrace the palm trees
escape from reality, i just wanna be me
move with the currents, fed up of self-control
hopeless for the future, got me feeling freezing cold
life has no winners, 
live a planless paradise,
sleeping in this limbo, 
no concept of time.

switch up

@1spoder verse, go get ur money up n follow him

had enough, i'm running out of patience
i'm sorry
can't figure out another way to say this
i really hope you don't keep me waiting here
i really hope you don't trap my mind with fear
i don't like who you are
cause i don't know where to start with you
i could travel so far
but i'll end up coming back to you
and i hate it
but i don't have the guts just to say it
walk without a head, think i'm brainless
you want my damn heart then go take it
i'll be here waiting
and it's all my fault
that i took it this far
guess i had it all wrong
and you are who you are.

2-5-1s am i right

numb

stream the mf song

numb, +spoder

song of 2 minds lol
feat @1spoder
prod @ethan-schaefer-950685123
https://www.instagram.com/prodbybloom
cover art https://www.instagram.com/natasha.alana

out on all plats too <3 https://open.spotify.com/album/6o1JaQvMW8QGKMjrFUUaJW

lyrics:
[Pre-Chorus: spoder]
Break my sanity in two
Yeah, you stare at me
While I’m staring at you for hours
This silence couldn’t be louder (Ohh)
Peace, of mind
Yeah, that’s all I ask for
Pick up that passport and leave out that door
Realise, that I'm terrified
Could you open your eyes?

[Chorus: spoder]
I’ve been on my own, baby
Hoping that you save me
Cause I’ve been losing focus and it’s hard to see
Don’t you act like you know me
Though I’m feeling lowly
Cause you tear shit apart and you’ve been fucking hoe'd me
I’ve been on my own, baby
Hoping that you save me
Cause I’ve been losing focus and it’s hard to see
Don’t you act like you know me
Though I’m feeling lowly
Cause you tear shit apart and you’ve been fucking hoe'd me

[Verse: heroine diaries]
Said I didn’t take his girl then where his girl go?
Why they hating? Steady praying on my downfall
I don’t got too many friends need a roll call 
I’m up too late waiting for your phone call
Cause I’m a loser, drug abuser, snort like hoover, yeah, yeah 
Fenty patch, on my tongue, help me feel, yeah, yeah 
Broke my heart, it was bad, can’t go back, yeah, yeah 
I’m up late, catch my flight, to your state, yeah, yeah 
Hop up in this Uber it’s a Tesla, Tesla 
Landed in New York I’m off a Tesla, Tesla 
Your girl on my line I do not text her, text her  
You a bitch boy I do it better, better 

[Pre-Chorus: spoder]
Break my sanity in two
Yeah, you stare at me
While I’m staring at you for hours
This silence couldn’t be louder (Ohh)
Peace, of mind
Yeah, that’s all I ask for
Pick up that passport and leave out that door
Realise, that I'm terrified
Could you open your eyes?

[Chorus: spoder]
I’ve been on my own, baby
Hoping that you save me
Cause I’ve been losing focus and it’s hard to see
Don’t you act like you know me
Though I’m feeling lowly
Cause you tear shit apart and you’ve been fucking hoe'd me
I’ve been on my own, baby
Hoping that you save me
Cause I’ve been losing focus and it’s hard to see
Don’t you act like you know me
Though I’m feeling lowly
Cause you tear shit apart and you’ve been fucking hoe'd me

this silence couldn’t be louder (feat. spoder) (prod. bloom)

draw you inside my book

draw you inside my book (feat. KMays)

drawer

dear rat,

we love you, and we miss you.

sincerely,
@b2nny
@1spoder

remy's remedy

lyrics:


I locked eyes with a succubus and paid the price
She fucked life into my empty heart that night
Easy on me now
Easy on the pain
I was bleeding out
And she laughed in my face
Stars light up just for u in our backyard
No matter anything you do ill still be urs love
One look can shape my mood and she had known that
I think id be better blue with a toe tag

Dont be shy
Around me
I am still who u met
When we were 14
In these
Porch lights
On halloween
I was hoping that I
Could still see u in my dreams
Tearing up
Never felt so useless
I dont even wanna do this
The energy to go thru this with u
Left me like last Tuesday
She moved in with me soulmates
Now she acting like a roommate
I was never that guy though
Her love you more like a typo

I locked eyes with a succubus and paid the price
She fucked life into my empty heart that night
Easy on me now
Easy on the pain
I was bleeding out
And she laughed in my face
Stars light up just for u in our backyard
No matter anything you do ill still be urs love
One look can shape my mood and she had known that
I think id be better blue with a toe tag

a Tuesday (Eric Godlow x scottysplash)

i'm only human in the end

fakegirl

check out the bros::
https://soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt
https://soundcloud.com/yungaxstn
lyrics 

kais:
i, saw u in the back an
i, did a little to much then
its gettin harder to sleep now, really wishing that i could be real now x2

snow on her dress watch us fade yea,
snow on her chest heart break yea,
she told me we should take break yea,
im lookin at my phone
dumb, stressed out, and i feel all alone,
don’t
try to use yo dome,
if i break out i jus hope i go home,
stressed out in the back so im sippin on crone.

lil skele:
I took a lil too much 
I be moving slow shawty I ain’t in a rush 
yeah black out in the backseat
I’m a lil too fucked if u ask me 
yeah
it’s like bury me in Louis v 
I been hella faded my eyes getting hazy 
Ion love that bitch she crazy 
ion ever leave the house chill by my lonely 
i fw anybody don’t pick my phone up when it’s ringing 
bumping dg and I got wrist on icy 
feel like guitarboi sipping on peace tea
I been steady stacking bands I got the money

yung axstn:
The nicotine helps me get over 
I’m not your friend you’re never sober 
my girl yeah she wants me over 
i feel the same just wish you were closer
now if you don’t mind I’ll be back in a bit
Cause the shit in my head it makes me wanna quit
and I’m sorry that I can’t be there 
and I know that you want me right there
and I’m sorry that I can’t be there
you miss me all the time I just wish I was right there

kais:
i, saw u in the back an
i, did a little to much then
its gettin harder to sleep now, really wishing that i could be real now x2