BEGINNING personifies the lows of being in a partnership, the desire for more interactions with this being; for more emotional vulnerability from this being. as if an unfortunate event caused a disconnect between the two lovers, now leaving one feeling lost; out of place.

MONACHOPSIS

BEGINNING

ground zero

sing, my tongue (instrumental)

sing, my tongue! (instrumental)

sing, my tongue!

[lyrics]

maybe i’ve lost my mind
friction combats my prime
i feel minimized from being criticized
for all my little lies
you’d think i’d never cry
but

it is what it is now…

you and me
from memory 
haunts me pleasantly
constantly pressing me
from other entities 
love

is all i can give now…

holding myself back but i stay focused
your absence like autumn leaves in the wintertime
your warmth makes it worth it, i promise
if i’m honest i hate you still
you were my lsd
my poppyseeds,,no more

it is what it is now…

(you can never say it’s too bad)
we never made amends 
not seeing you ever again

i have to let go!
where do we go from here?

RENASCENCE

poppyseeds

[lyrics]

i can’t shapeshift for you
fit the sculpture in your mind
spent years in the foyer judging air and wasting time
it’s inevitable

mirror on the wall
you writing “bury your heart”
broken hangers on the floor
bad luck still catches me in awe
it’s inevitable

from an egg to a chick 
to the day you split 
from the womb to the tomb 
we learn to live
cull the herd, die slow, live again 
regress for a minute, and long for comfort

(i feel my chest getting heavy
i owe nary a penny
to you niggas)

remember how you counted me out
that long summer

(living is hard but a blessing
follow your dreams til they carry)

don’t run off way too far
you might lose yourself
lost in the wind

mother (ft. kojima plus)

[lyrics]

you ruined me perfectly
conscience essence makes a perfect dream 

but you never heard of me? 
i’m just wishing you’d notice me 
you, reacting accordingly
to the two of my plans
you make ends meet

travel plan b
january

(tick tock)
only tell time by the wrist watch
heart pump blood
fuck a thick clot
two bands
bantu knots 
not too many niggas with they top off

so take that t-shirt off nigga
it’s 100 degrees
you make 4 figures
you a god to me
and i love you
my emotions comfy now
because of you. (ah ah)

i felt so real when i’m around you
but now you’re lost
what will it cost to love you again?
promise i’ll try to be a better friend
i hope this doesn’t end

never made amends
two peas in a pod
looked better with they friends
it never made sense how we
never made amends
two peas in a pod 
looked better with they friends 
where the fuck they been?

[instrumental]

break bread if you want
not guaranteed i’ll forgive you for that shit
i’mperfections keep on ringin my eyelids
darkness arises
i am the prophet
but i am a jockey
still a bit cocky
as i should
i wish you would.
i wish you could.

you could be mine but i lost the touch
stopping myself never said too much
focused on u now i’ve had enough
you can’t be mad that i gave a fuck
point blank gone cus it’s not a bluff
nah i ain’t that tough
but i like it rough
put a pause on the beat
record the wagon in my passenger seat
new baby pretty and nicer to me
love being loved like im supposed to be
new highs no more lows for me 
gotta build from scratch
come home to me.

never made amends
two peas in a pod
looked better with they friends
it never made sense how we
never made amends
two peas in a pod 
looked better with they friends 

i miss my friends.

amends!

[lyrics]

falling out
six feet deep
i went overboard
into the seas
that day i thought you missed me too
i never met someone like you

where are you now?
i need you
ten toes down on my knees
let me lead you
(back my way)
i really wish i fucking stayed

i have to learn to let go of you
no matter how long its been
i still miss you

(don’t fret
you’re way
too far
now that you’re gone gone
not in my arms, oh god
deep in my heart, i lost
ain’t think i’d make it this, far)

let me be
at peace

ladybug

[lyrics]

so strung out
you played me like a guitar
left me in the shadows
plucked my strings until i popped

it’s all the same stories at night
“i wish we were homies that play fight”
rough house til AM i might
then treat me like birds to a kite

i don’t understand 
used to be the kid who spoke his mind
always full of life
never apologized for shit
(that’s a lie) 
papa raised me well into a god
my queerness no facade
treat me well or let it die

it’s all the same stories at night
“i raised you for manhood”
more or less i’m still alright
i’m still the same from 405
knock me down and i’m still gon fly



yuh yuh yuh

i used to care what people thought
i’m still undercover tough
you niggas stay actin up
touché on my fuckin bluff
i hurt less when you don’t touch
me there like a fuckin doll
i kept my peace but it’s still unfair
i’ve had enough

contrast in my personality
i’ve been losing hella sleep
you still got the best of me
kept me there til you had to leave

god wrote to me
or was it psyche?
shadow damage
nigga don’t remind me

it’s all the same
nothing’s ever changed
repetition endless
you were never around
i was just convenient 
mouth upon your skin 
“it’s a one time thing”
i ain’t seen you since
i thought we was friends
(we weren’t that familiar)
i thought we was friends.

(we weren’t that familiar)

sing, sing my tongue 
bless my zenith with your message
go beyond intuition
‘cause human diction’s overwhelming 

sing, sing, sing my tongue
spread my wings amongst the clouds
are you happy now?
cherubim lost
can’t handle more losses
i am not god

(i cannot
i cannot wait for you)

anvil

daytona

[lyrics]

nobody sees me here
all of my thoughts run clear
passing through pavement
under my feet
such a sweet relief
how nobody knows my structure
nobody sees me fracture
i need a hottie or two 
to make an excuse
my mediocrity

i wanna be worth it for you
i wanna be worth it times two
passing through pavement
under my feet
such a sweet relief 
that you’ve come back to breathe
the same air as me

im honored by your minimal gestures
it’s what i deserve, at least.
bothered by several lectures
i learned to feel childhood, the least.

a family of pompous feats
i come from the tinted tree
the shady related i speak
and branch off to isolate me

damn, i don’t fit description?
tell me i ain’t fail the mission
im supposed to get endless kisses
a genie with endless wishes

beauty marks the end of heart
like a flatline cast chills
common cold like no other
wrap me tight, broken goddess art

but where do we go from here?
it’s hard to turn left at the right time
my soul is in overdrive

phaero

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