The Life of an Average Emo

best sad songs mix

https://soundcloud.com/d4vddd

[Verse 1]
I'm scared (Oh-oh-oh)
It feels like you don't care (Ooh-ooh)
Enlighten me, my dear (Ooh-ooh-ooh)
Why am I still here? Mm (Oh-oh)
I don't mean to be
Complacent with the decisions you made
But why? Mm

[Chorus]
In the back of my mind
You died
And I didn't even cry
No, not a single tear
And I'm sick of waiting patiently
For someone that won't even arrive
[Post-Chorus]
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

[Verse 2]
In the back of my mind
I killed you
And I didn't even regret it
I can't believe I said it
But it's true
I hate you

ｗｈｙ  ａｍ  ｉ  ｓｔｉｌｌ  ｈｅｒｅ？？

another sad song

CRY4H3LP demo (prod niles forester and alex oso)

Love Can be Destroyed

What do you Want..?

Next Chapter 2

Stress II

Stay Here

Stay Here ft. Lil Riot

Midnight Wishes

Overwhelmed

Overwhelmed ft. Res ThE Kid

Anxiety :(

Feel The Same

Feel The Same ft. Res ThE Kid

Happy Valentines Day Amaya!!!
Original Title (All for None)

All 4 You III

Panic Season

SCREAM FOR ME

https://soundcloud.com/upintokyo?utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

Lost and Confused

Lost and Confused ft. upintokyo

This One

appreciate the small things

self destruct

its kinda strange how this song ends at 3:33

is anything REAL anymore?

Reality 2

Always High 999

Lose Control

Good Times

Good Times ft. Res ThE Kid

After Party

After Party ft. upintokyo

Lyrics:

(okay, okay here we go then. take them percs with purple soda)

yeah, get right, right
purple soda, catch a flight
get high, pink skies
perc floatin, out my mind
take a perc and snort a line
different planet, coraline
different flavor, pop a pill
shiver cold, gimme chills

yeah yeah yeah,

getting lazy, 3 pills in my hand, get so high Im feelin dazy. now these percs I take dont faze me. coming down, I'm ventilating. chill out but I cant, now im goin I'm crazy. codeine crazy. codeine brazy, chasing thrills, no more hating

le-le-lean

I think I cracked a code, oxy and codeine

I cant chill out on the drugs, theres percies in my pee
thrill chasin, pill chasing, no they chasin me

hooked on the pills like a fish out of tha sea
I don't condone these pills, snatch yo soul from under yo feat
without this code swear to God im incomplete
cheat code- oxy - percie - lean. lean. lean

what you know bout it? you don't know about it- dealing with addiction, know about it- yeah, you'll be frownin- on them pills be drownin- yeah yeah yeah. now you know about it- don't wanna know about it.

okay right? Im alright?
I'll be fine, snort a line
doin drugs, pass the time
ease the pain, bloody night
fizzle pop, soda sky

look up in the sky and pray to God I'll be alright
fight for my life, demons hide.
tripin of the perc I took before the fight
now its getting dark, no light
I'm a soldier, I'm a knight
its all in my head, I swear I'm fine
that's a lie
double lines
on the road I swerve
hit a pole and missed my turn

its yo turn, tell me that I'm getting worse
tell me that its getting old
I know you really hate me for it, baby I know
you tell me that I'll never learn, baby I'm slow
I hope you take my hand, I'm getting to cold
I hope you lead me out of here, baby lets go
tired of the pills I'm doing, they taken my soul
your the only one to get me through it, baby I know

yeah, get right, right
purple soda, catch a flight
get high, pink skies
perc floatin, out my mind
take a perc and snort a line
different planet, coraline
different flavor, pop a pill
shiver cold, gimme chills

(okay, okay here we go then. take them percs with purple soda)

Pink Skies

Lyrics:

4 in the mornin, pills on the phone
demons callin, leave me alone
drugs on the table, fall in my zone
don't know what to do about it.
on my own

cant handle this stress
all alone
demons are crawlin
I'm on the floor again
wake up and I pass out
liquor I pour again
I been movin fast now
until I get bored again

woah, I don't know
Im in hell again, I know
like, woah.
I don't know
pills on tha- uh
pills on tha phone

ring ring, wake up, who is that
I don't know, no
he staring at me from the dark
staring at my soul
tell me what you want
tell me and then go
demons are not welcome here
pop a pill and roll- over
try to sleep, baby get closer
I'm too scared to fall asleep, gimme some closure
if I wake up, will it be over
am I asleep?
demons get closer

wake up in the morning, pray for peace
I don't no sleep, demons crawl on me
take a pill, watch how fast I fall asleep
turnin to these drugs, giving me some peace

I cant do this shit, all alone
tired of the pills that I'm on
doin all these drugs, never got me closure
only got me closer, demons hiding ohh

I don't even know no more
the abyss I fall in got me sore
wake up in the morning, 4AM
don't know where I am, Neverland?

gotta stay high
hi, I'm high
the only time i feel alive
go to sleep and close my eyes
baby do you blame me
these pills put me in the sky
angels all around me or demons in disguise 
I don't even know no more
the abyss I fall in got me sore
haven't you heard these words before
pretty sure you've heard these words before

4 in the mornin, pills on the phone
demons callin, leave me alone
drugs on the table, fall in my zone
don't know what to do about it.
on my own

cant handle this stress
all alone
demons are crawlin
I'm on the floor again
wake up and I pass out
liquor I pour again
I been movin fast now
until I get bored again

woah, I don't know
Im in hell again, I know
like, woah.
I don't know
pills on tha- uh
pills on tha phone

Sleep Walkin

Take a tRiPpP

Eclipse over Tokyo

I Dont Love To Lie

I Dont Love To Lie ft. upintokyo

Happy 1/2 a Year my love

Lyrics:

Looking back now, I can see the love that we started.
Look around now, you just pulled me out of the darkness.
Feels so real, no more need to take more pills.
You’re my shield, I'm not scared to fight for what's real.

You tend to find this happiness in everything you hold, your my home, the only home I know.
When it gets cold, you tend to pull me closer.
When I go home, I wish It wasnt over.
Feeling like I'm high but I swear that I am sober.
Yeah you like to take it fast, i pray you take it slower.
Like a fire running through my head I'm losing my composure.
You'll always be the one for me, even when we’re older.

Woah wowowowowoh, I know wowowowoh, Take it slow ohwowowoh It has to be you, always will be you.

Looking back now, I can see the love that we started.
Look around now, you just pulled me out of the darkness.
Feels so real, no more need to take more pills.
Your my shield, I'm not scared to fight for what's real.

When it gets dark out and I need a place to go.
You’re my home, the protector of my soul.
Tired of these demons tryna steal and take control.
And when you’re not home I'm sippin on petrol.

Woah wowowowowoh, I know wowowowoh, try and take it slow woah wowowowoh, it has to be you, always will be you.

Looking back now, I can see the love that we started. (Looking back now, I can see the love that we started) ((Looking back now))
Look around now, you just pulled me out of the darkness. (Look around now, you just pulled me out of the darkness) ((I can see the love that we started))

Looking back now, I can see the love that we started.
Look around now, you just pulled me out of the darkness.
Feels so real, no more need to take more pills.
You’re my shield, I'm not scared to fight for what's real.

Always Will Be You

just a bunch of songs that either i featured on or i never released nor will release

Kaiki Nisshoku Cypher Single

Kaiki Nisshoku Cypher

Lyrics:
Pull up on the scene, dont make a sound, im goin ghost
walkin through the croud, dont see my face and then i toast em
tell me how that ground tase, bloody, bitch you chokin

better think twice before you talkin on sum shit that take a turn
bitch im walkin with a smile, fuck it, make em learn
rippin out yo guts, pourin gas and watch em burn
pourin up some lean, i gotta walk thatll make you turn
leave yo body broken, bitch you bloody on a curb

i wont hesitate, yeah i swear ill go bezerk
you think im fuckin scared, ill put your family on a shirt
got yo momma prayin for you, you should probably go to church
next thing that you know you gon end up in a hearse

"please hurry mommy, the boogy man is tryna get inside our house"

you wanna keep on talkin shit, like bitch who are you?
everybody knows your bitch, crissy is too
sissy motha fucker, wanna talk but never shoot
they knowin if they come around, its me and tha crew

bitch yeah i kill em slow, i like to keep it violent
put them boys on hush mode, yeah they keep it silent
wanna diss and make a song, man im just excited
i can actually make a song, maybe you should try it
7 plays in just an hour, you make rap, nah ion buy it
i just passed a 100k, im feelin like a giant
turn them boys into a ghost, bitch there aint no hidin' 
joiner you can join em, yeah im just still decidin'

GHOST 2

Lyrics:
*i can change, im a different person*
*all these mistakes, they building up*
*help on the way, but im givin up*
*wait oh wait, you tell me sum*
*if i didnt change, am i enough?*

fade away, im giving up
mistake after mistake, tell me when its enough
i cant wait
i wanna die
think bout the past and you and i

i know that its hard but it aint the end
turning to the pills was my greatest sin
ive made regrets for the rest of my life
the one thing i dont regret was when we met for the first time

you took my life, you made me change
you took my heart, wrapped it in chains
yeah i promise that im yours till the end of my days

look in my eyes, i promise ive changed
yeah im a different person from the first of our days
ill be damned, i swear to god i wont lead you astray
if you dont have me, no one has me. 
thats how ill stay.

*all these mistakes, they building up*
*help on the way, but im givin up*
*wait oh wait, you tell me sum*
*if i didnt change, am i enough?*

twist and turn, i toss around. baby i cant sleep right
something in my head doesnt feel right, right?
i treat you bad and you wont leave?
is this what love feels like, like.. why

makes me sick that i cant be the better man and be right
all these domons in my head making me not see right
im a demon your an angle, i got the lock, you hold the key tight, right?

one more mistake and i bet youll probably B-Line
i know i deserve it baby, promise that ill be fine
maybe itll do some me good to get a little me time
thats a lie, ill be alone and wait for you in 
the meantime

till you come back home
i know that your mad at me i did it on my own
you cant see the progress that im making on my own
your my only happiness, dont leave me alone

fade away, im giving up
mistake after mistake, tell me when its enough
i cant wait
i wanna die
think bout the past and you and i

i know that its hard but it aint the end
turning to the pills was my greatest sin
ive made regrets for the rest of my life
the one thing i dont regret was when we met for the first time

Mistakes

Lyrics:
ive always been alone, always been stupid
one day i was captivated, shot by cupid
said id never fall in love again, i was useless
with her by my side, everything feelin lucid
she took me by the hand when everything was feelin ruined
now i get the chance to make amends, shes an angel
i promise to stay with you till the end if im able
last thing i remember was me sitting at the table
covered in my blood, i admit i was shameful
she took away those thought, turnin demons into angles
i promise your the one for me, for you im stayin faithful
hope im growing old with you, sitting, watching cable
one day hope we looking down, smiling at a cradle

lost, without a doubt
having talks with satan
swallowing those pills, hyperventilatin
then you took my hand, my reality was changin
now im chasing dreams, i promise you ill make it

i remember all those times in my room gettin faded
i was all alone, didnt know if i would make it
covered in my blood, all these demons got me shakin
then you came along and stole my heart from out the basement 

ive always been alone, always been stupid
one day i was captivated, shot by cupid
said id never fall in love again, i was useless
with her by my side, everything feelin lucid
she took me by the hand when everything was feelin ruined
now i get the chance to make amends, shes an angel
i promise to stay with you till the end if im able
last thing i remember was me sitting at the table

Never Be Alone Again

Lyrics:
come on x4
lets go x4
come on x4
lets go x4
i know, i know
that youve seen too much
but,
come on x4
lets go x4

ive been through it all
one more pill, then ill fall,
asleep, in agony
mental dreams, insanity
blood pools and whelping tears
crying bottles, helpless fears
ive been all alone for years
now im here, now im here!

change your perspective
treat it as a lesson
all this pain in the end i promise is a blessin
think of all the happy times
ease the pain, pass the time
then when you make it everything will be alright, so

come on x4
lets go x4
come on x4
lets go x4
i know, i know
that youve been through it all
but, 
come on x2
you can never give up

this is a message.. to everyone who wants to give up.

My WRLD

Never Give Up

uselessness

Uselessness

Dont Go

Lyrics:
Looking in the shadows, i see demons
really feelin like they have a grip on me
look around, i wonder if you see them
or is it really just a gift to me

walkin round the party, im not feelin really hot
blood getting colder, but its feelin really hot
i just walked into a table but i didnt drink a lot
feelin like i just downed a 4 and then i drank a scotch

i just.. cannot shake this feelin off
cannot shake this feelin off me

when im turnin the lights off, the demons get closer
ive been stuck in my head just lookin for closure
and i thought id get better, as i got older
but the closer to death, the more on your shoulder.

(you can burry me alive, im way too suicidal)

im not feeling to good, i feel suicidal
and these demons too loud, saying go grab a rifle
nah, im grabbing these pills, i wanna die like my idol
im tired of writing a story that dont have a title

these pills
dont heal
they steal
your soul
these demons not letting go
i guess my heads their home

my self asteam is low, oh
you dont even know, woah
im feelin all alone
carrying this secret in silence inside of my head
these demons want me dead
yeah, cardiac arrest
ive been fillin up with stress
none of this will make no sense
yeah, buildin up with sin
yeah, violence and torment and blood and torture again
my heart that be bumpin and thumpin and pumpin the blood thats inside that contains all the pain and im feelin insane and i just wanna die and ill do it again and again and again.

Looking in the shadows, i see demons
really feelin like they have a grip on me
look around, i wonder if you see them
or is it really just a gift to me

walkin round the party, im not feelin really hot
blood getting colder, but its feelin really hot
i just walked into a table but i didnt drink a lot
feelin like i just downed a 4 and then i drank a scotch

schizophrenia

Schizophrenia

Lyrics:
taking all these drugs and im only sinking deeper
ive been looking in her eyes and shes feelin like a keeper
taking silly pictures while were looking in the mirror
then i shed a tear, this is my fear

imma wake up one day and youll disappear
youll break my heart after only one year

yeah im scared of killing myself, im shaking in fear
and if i really just died then would you all miss me?

if i leaned in, would you still kiss me
or would you move on? would you forget me?
and i dont wanna be a burden, but it feels like nobody gets me
if we have a problem then it probably is me
and the thought of you leaving is making me dizzy
would you move on after my final breath?
my heart beatin faster, bumpin out of my chest

(deep, deep, deep. its just getting to deep in here)

its been getting way too deep
im out my mind, i tase defeat
my head is spinnin, i cant think
and its been gettin hard to breathe

so tell me what you want from me
ive been in the deep end, i cant even see
so tell me what is wrong with me?
all these demons in my head playin hide and seek

ive been losing my mind
ive been saying ill be fine, ill be fine
well, maybe not this time
cause ive been doin really bad, i aint getting better
ive been looking for them sunny days but its only rainy weather
and ive been praying out to god, hoping that we stay together
tell me that its not the end cause its your heart that i treasure

taking all these drugs and im only sinking deeper
ive been looking in her eyes and shes feelin like a keeper
taking silly pictures while were looking in the mirror
then i shed a tear, this is my fear

imma wake up one day and youll disappear
youll break my heart after only one year

yeah im scared of killing myself, im shaking in fear
and if i really just died then would you all miss me?

The Deep End

this was one of my first actually decent freestyle's

Falling Down

Falling Down (Freestyle)

Nothings Different

Passion & Confusion by timmies and shiloh

bandcamp: https://timmies.bandcamp.com/album/passion-confusion
spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/7dhqyOcnFR9o9SfUhhxqbs
itunes:  https://itunes.apple.com/ru/album/passion-confusion-feat-shiloh-ep/id1288535787
other: https://passionandconfusion.fanlink.to/passionandconfusion

Spotify

tell me why i'm waiting (ft. shiloh)

Don't You Ever! Let Anyone Tell YOU Who YOU Can or Can’t Be. 
You only Live ONE Time, Taking Chances and Making Mistakes is all part of Your Journey. 
Don’t let your Past Define what your Future will be. 
Everyone Deserves a Second Chance.
Take a Chance to show them all How Far You've Come. 
You don't have to Be Who They Say You Are
Everyone in this world is Different, don't set Your standards to become who They Are
You are better than what Your Mind tells you that you are.. if you truly believe your weak then you've already lost to the control of a Demon
Your Life is Important. 
Don't Let This World Influence You.. BE BETTER
You can Achieve ANYTHING You set Your Mind to - 999
Love Is Real, you just haven't found or felt it yet


!i - stands for, no matter how you see it, its the same. meaning: were all different but still the same. were all Equally important to this world
Ecl!pse - stands for, everything has a darker half, the ! is the separation of darkness and light

!iEcl!pse

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