[lyrics below]

prod by me

video:
https://youtu.be/KDbFYyZ-DH8

spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/album/2dU462fZz8prDjZe2YhLCw

bandcamp:
https://abnormal.bandcamp.com/track/pariah

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lyrics:

Further more straying into the world of the unknown
Losing sense of time and sense of myself
Haunted by many
I'm the black sheep
None of you know what I feel
If I exposed my true self you'd be sorry for what you see
In front of you
I'm so gone that it isn't funny anymore
I'm so lost in a place that I can't escape
Going far from home
Confused and messed up dome
I've always been a waste
Toxic, poison in my veins
Self destructive mind frame
Contemplating death, cannot find peace in my head
In my brain it all makes sense
But you never will 'cause
You could never get me
Always been outcasted by many
I'm a pariah
Everything is black, what I see
I must be dying
I be waking up already fed up
Waiting for shit to end
What could be pulling my strings I wonder
What it really is

All I see is darkness around me
Taking all over me
I cannot feel or breathe
Constantly suffocating
All I see is darkness around me
Taking all over me
I cannot feel or breathe
Constantly suffocating

Pariah

Pariah (Video In Description)

@blankheaven @youngtofy @mch6
prod. @sanperseus + blank

Lyrics:

[Blank]

I wish I was attractive (So attractive)
And I wish that I was perfect (Oh so perfect)
And I would like you to notice (Would you notice?)
But I know that you would never  x2

Yeah and i wish i was attractive (Yeah, yeah) to you x2

Dancing in the dark, dancing in the night
Lost sense of reality, I don't give a fuck the love
Whats wrong with my face? Thoughts i wanna erase
Whats wrong with my face? Thoughts i wanna erase

[Tofy]

I wish i was attractive, makeup on my face, I'm a fuckboy
Too far from the malice, i guess she was a catfish
Broken heart, I got no addicts, fake passions and no justice
Get away, everything i knew from you was fake
Lay down on the grass, I'm too far from the sky
All the nights, trying to bright like the moon light

Like the moonlight (x3)

[MCH]

I don't feel attractive 
But I give a fuck about it
2020 on my gang shit
2020 on that lame shit (x2)

Censored gang, nigga we up 
Abigail? Thats on my weep?
2020 on my blb 
I don't think about it, so I'm on it

Blankboy + Youngtofy + Mch6 - Attractive ✧*

B.L.C is a classic trap instrumental inspired by the new wave of the French rap scene. Combining La Fève’s energetic flow with J9ueve’s melodic edge and So La Lune’s atmospheric vibe, this beat is perfect for storytelling, confident flows, and street bangers.                                                           💼 Usage:
Free for non-profit use (YouTube / SoundCloud with credit: Prod. Robson Prod).
Contact for leasing or exclusive rights: robertfaye2105@gmail.com

"B.L.C" – La Fève x J9ueve x So La Lune Type Beat | Classic Trap 2025

shell of light

FEAT. AOL, CAMPFIRE.MESH, KYOKAINE, KRONOS, FLOWR, DEACEASED, ALI, SNIPZ, DOIN' FINE & CHARLOTTE CROSBY
PROD. TINFOILBOY & SATURNULTRA
ART BY ROCKIN' RILEY

SATURN HAS A DEATHWISH (SEE DESCRIPTION FOR FEATURES)

https://open.spotify.com/track/6RiQxeTiKoaS31vUAVD1je?si=W2cpSgFxTBGG8G_2Is24bw

ugly
written by christopher cortes & nicholas grant
produced by matthew patrick taylor
engineered by zyrom

lyrics

nickg:

[verse]

melancholic dissociation
the moss on my bones decaying
my ribs are an open cage
and a home for a lonely rodent
i roam the unknown with satan
my boys they all know i’m changing
i’m growing still slowly fading
an ocean of hopeless faces
i wade through the water
your only saviour is gone bitch
i am a failure, a bother
i am enslaved and so toxic
but when the rain touches on me
i’m not ashamed of my wrongs
because the whole world is around me
i am the girl that you found inside of your masculine body
i am the blood that runs through you
i am the wind in the trees
and i am the feeling inside when you hear your mothers deceased
i am the man in the woman 
i am the woman in man
i am your strengths and your weaknesses and the car that you crashed
i am the acid you took
and i am the art on the tab
because everything is nothing and that's all that i am

cortez:

[verse]

walk around with these scars on my face
self inflicted with these thoughts
of self doubt melting my aching pace
i trip and tumble as my bone marrow rot
screams of help caught in my throat
spend days sitting in my own self loath
stare at a mirror, smashing glass until i burst
i spit the blood between my teeth
vomit til my flesh no longer hurt and i begin to crease
witness my carcass squirm in the dirt like a worm
and you find me half sunken in the creek

i held your fleeing consciousness inside of my arms
when they took you from me baby all i could think is harm
hide my feelings from people who show no fucking alarm
fuck this pain in my chest i've been spitting up pure black tar
i've been tearing at my skin, and i been ripping my hair
i stopped caring for shit, babe i know it's not even fair
i have trouble loving me so how could i aim that at your self


music video

https://youtu.be/z7MfGCKJQtE

ugly, with nickg (produced by mf zeph)

all tracks are unfinished/demo/concept tracks.
some will be completed and released at a later date on @checksnbalances.

:) thank you for listening and have a great day, ily <333

Checks - Contemplate

Checks - I Wish That I Could Get Fucked Up Again

beginnings of ideas, loops, demos, etc.

trying to figure out where it [all went wrong].

idc where, just far

whatevercomestomindhonestly@gmail.com

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