(@prodnomu)
comic art by https://www.instagram.com/jigglytofu.art/
sample is 'adventure spirit' by yvette young 

always love u guys for all da support
//
Ill admit it im a little jealous 
When were together  
theres no problem no not whatsoever
But when im texting 
u i feel a stupid fucking pressure
My fucking head hurts 
Desperate times just call for desperate measures
Were both depressed and
Lately it feels like a lack of effort
In our affection
Lately it feels like there's been a sever
in our connection
Wish that you and me dint have this distance
So we’d feel better
cuz it all comes back when were together
Like hell to heaven 

dam hate how im selfish and full of myself
Manipulation’s not good for your health
I keep my mind off this sht but its always right there when im wishing that im someone else
someone that always jus knew how u felt
That way id take care of u by myself
I hate the feeling of helplessness tired of being a burden thats useless as hell
Stay by ur side
You say ur good but i still see u crying
You say its fine
Break out a smile
But i see through it i see that ur dying inside every time
But “its o kayyyy”
Thats what u say
But the fact that i know that ur hurting
Is the worst thing
Please jus go away
Cuz this feeling of familiar heartaches
It destroys me
But its okay
Buts its okay
Tell me its okay
yea its okay
yea its okay
yea its okay

yvette

spotify

I have no motivation
So I get nothing done
I hate the mornings so i 
Sleep in way past the sun    	 
I have like everything but
I still find nothing fun, 
I really like the smell of
The world when it burns

It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm

now its only a fraction   
Of times that we had
So i turn to distractions
Whenever im sad  
It turns into a cycle
I think im going psycho
Fraid of things that i might do
Might do

Lately i just hate everyone
I hope they all run away 
I hope they somehow just trip and fall
I hope they dig their own graves 

Im a mess
Im obsessed 
with distractions all day
And when i stop  
drown in thoughts
i just break down again
(2x)

Fuck that
Ima turn this shit around
Wrote that
In december i was down
Looking back that shit was kinda rough
But now im here its kinda funny got my money up

This year ,drop whatever I wana
All my songs are kinda sad but now im tryn be funner
Theres jus this
Big fear, 
I wont do any numbers
doesn't matter anyways im already goin down under 

I
I got a present 4 u
And im not sure if you’ll like it or not
But i assure u its straight from da heart
Ok u
U make write all these songs
But im j sad 1 percent  of the time
I jus dont make songs about 99

distractions

(@prodnomu)

Got me thinkin i could fall for u
Ur jus a devil in a dress
That i keep talking too
I almost fucked it up
I almost fucked it up again but then i cut it off

Now i dont want nobody next to me
U only want me for attention wheres the rest of me
ye
ur feelin better off da ecstasy
And i can tell that u dont care its like ur testing me 

I’m getting tired of the same shit
Ive tried it different but its always hard to change it
And u dont even kno my name yet
 gime a chance and ima waste it all

chorus

waste

other platforms <3

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RU4EpTFxZbc&ab_channel=nomu

out now on all plats <3

ty  @scrobaby for the lovely guitar
(@prodnomu)

float like a butterfly
I spread my wings im gona fly like its do or die
Ya ya ya
Dont get another try
Id fucking throw it all away like a sacrifice

like a butterfly
I spread my wings im gona fly like its do or die
Ya ya ya
Dont get another try
Id fucking throw it all away like a sacrifice
like a sacrifice

But Im better now
Than ive ever felt
Yea im better noow
thats what i tell myself
But Im better now
Than ive ever felt
And id be lying if i said i dont need you now

like a butterfly
I spread my wings im gona fly like its do or die
Ya ya ya
Dont get another try
Id fucking throw it all away like a sacrifice

like a sacrifice
like a sacrifice

Im getting better w the goodbyes
Cuz nothing ever really hit me like the first time
Im used to watching as the time flies
Im reminiscing - missin when u would drive by

And its crazy to kno that u love me still
And it feels so real somehow
Do u love me still
Do u love me stilll somehow

butterfly

all plats <3

ty @jibaorockin for guitar solo <3

out on all plats !

//
You're so evil
I cant leave you
You’re so evil
I dont need u

Didnt think youd leave me for somebody else
Didnt think id catch you didnt hide your trail
Shoulda put my trust into somebody else
tore my heart apart i hope you go to hell

Im fucked up every night
Im drinking, smoking doin anything to feel alright
Im doing anything that clears my mind
I used to love you now its over now I wonder why

You're just a devil in a dress
But when you kiss me i forget
I gave u everything you wished
You threw it all away for him
And now im fucked up
now im fucked up in the head, I
Never knew you'd throw it all away, cant
trust a thing u ever fucking said, Why
Did you break my heart in someones bed, Why
Did you break my heart in someones bed

Im fucked up every night
Im drinking, smoking doin anything to feel alright
Im doing anything that clears my mind
I used to love you now its over now I wonder why
Im fucked up every night
Im drinking, smoking doin anything to feel alright
Im doing anything that clears my mind
I used to love you now its over now-
Im fucked up in the head
now im fucked up in the head
Cant trust a thing u ever fucking said
Cant trust a thing u ever fucking said
Cant trust a thing u ever fucking said

Devil

devil

w/ @scrobaby

//
now everyday feels like a waste of timeee
i’m fucking sick of it 
i hate this life
and i’d do anything to change, i’d try
i know it’s not for me
i bite my tongue but now i think it’s time i show my teeth
cuz all my life i been a people pleaser
been a bit too nice i’m fucking putting me first
i know it’s not for me
i bite my tongue but now i think it’s time i show my teeth

love it when u do it like that
i’m jus tryna kiss u right back
love it when u do it like that
i’m jus tryna kiss u right back

in my t shirt
ima bite it til my fucking teeth hurt 
i could please u
tell me what u like
baby i could get u right yuh

waste ur time 
i don’t wana waste ur time oh no
waste ur time,
i don’t wanna waste ur time

teeth

all plats

fun song w friends <33

prod(@prodnomu + @rjpasin)

ft(@i9bonsai + @sebseb122)

//
All black fitted
On my body
Oh u feel so bad ok lil bich like why you sorry
I could give that left right, throw it like im rocky
Do dis shit for fun, ima play dis at da party 
Ya ya, fitted
On my body
Oh u feel so bad ok lil bich like why you sorry
I could give that left right, throw it like im rocky
Do dis shit for fun, ima play dis at da party 

Yuh yuh
Its not fucking fair
How u pull up on me act like u dont fucking care
Yuh yuh
U dont stand a chance
I got racks up on my body u not making sense (cents hahaha)
Tell me how dis happens cuz its happens everytime uh
Talking to my face but i can see it when u lie
Act like something great but u got hate behind ur eyes
Hate behind ur eyes u got hate behind ur eyes

bons:
tonight i dont want to let it go back
to how it was bc you know it wont last like this
if we get it wrong can we even just admit
whats there to fix no theres nothing else to give
this wont stop tell me hows it going but i know its all lost
u dont have to say that or make it go on
i think i like it better whens its all lost i dont want to run around much 
i dont want to talk in a new way
watch me get sick of a new place
n i cant live like that yh who says
u already know that its too late
ive been trying to get away
today you dont need to save face
got me going round just like in a maze
its another cycle but its all the same

seb:
Swirl just like Uzumaki
Yeah she not my girl, but you know she call me papi
Yeah she hot like a grill, chef it up like Teppanyaki 
Pop then I kill, that’s the reason that she wants me 
Yeah she wanna be with me 
Wanna count receipts with me
But tell me would you bleed for me 
Cause you know I would bleed for you 
Cause you know you’re my remedy 
I don’t want to pick and choose 
If imma shoot for you imma just buy Jimmy Choo 
Damn, SEBii Nomu Bonsai heard you were a fan 
See me with beaucoup money cuz I got the bands 
I got toys like Bandai yeah there from Japan 
Yeah they all wanna be my honey but they ain’t got chance

Sorry

sorry (ft. i9bonsai & SEBii)

prod(@jongards+ @prodnomu)

Why am i always wrong
I always fuck it up again 
I try to do it all
I gave it everything i had and i got really far
But i dont seem to understand
Theres always something off
Theres always something off

Im in this realm 
Where i dont care at all
I swear its hell
Nd i dont swear a lot
Im in this realm 
Where i dont care at all
Now i dont care at all
No i dont care anymore

anymore
anymore
anymore

I was locked
 in my room cuz i thought i was fine
I was rotting
A lot cuz the thoughts in my mind
And ive lost And ive learned 
Now i see thru ur eyes
when u stare
 in the sun, all the colors r bright

i tried 2 pray for help	
Im all alone n theres nobody else
i tried 2 pray for help	
Im all alone n theres nobody else
Theres always something off
Theres always something off
Theres always something off
No i dont care anymore

anymore
anymore
anymore

when u stare
 in the sun, all the colors r bright
But u stare
For too long and you slowly go blind
And i’ll spread all my wings when i know im alive
But i burned in the sun now i’ll never go fly
Again  

Why am i always wrong
I always fuck it up again 
I try to do it all
I gave it everything i had and i got really far
But i dont seem to understand
Theres always something off
Theres always something off

Im in this realm 
Where i dont care at all
I swear its hell
Nd i dont swear a lot
Im in this realm 
Where i dont care at all
Now i dont care at all
No i dont care anymore

Realm

spotify <3

realm

ft(@mental)
prod(@rjpasin + @prodnomu)

[nomu]
Ya ya
I got all of it
Long as i have u I got all of it <3
Ya ya
heaven sent
Everytime u leave Its like im sad again
(2x)

[mental]
Bb everytime u leave im stuck
And my heart been broke so long i thnk im giving up
Ya im bleeding out
Bbygirl i need ur love
If u hate me then tell me 
Now i cant sleep enough
If u hate me then tell me 
Cuz i cant be without u
If u love me then kiss me 
Cuz i cant be without u
I jus wana be around u
If u love me tell me baby i will never doubt u

But im thinking i should get awayyy
Fall in love when i see ur face
If im really the one u hate
Tell me why i cant be erased
T-tell me why, lmk, make me sick
Everynight goin thru all ur shit
U kno that it makes me sick
Dont have a heart
i traded it for a kiss

[nomu]
Ya ya
I got all of it
Long as i have u I got all of it <3
Ya ya
heaven sent
Everytime u leave Its like im sad again
(2x)


I was feeling down
Now im feeling up
When u came into my life
U gave me all ur luv
Now u hav my heart
I cant get enough !
Cuz u talked to me when
I had no one left 2 trust
yuhh
Im jus making music for da hell of it
When i write these songs i feel da sentiment
I dont want dis shit to ever end again
Tell me that u luv me i love tellin it

all of it

all of it (+mental)

prod(@scrobaby + @prodnomu)

//
Im sick to my stummy I can't feel a thing
Scrolling on my phone and I cant even think
How you sposed to go its only been a week
hope ill never have to ever see you leave

And i jus wish that u would go home
I miss it everytime i look at all our photos
I cant do this no mo
Cuz i been patient but i hate it when its so slow

Christian on my coat i feel mysterious
All black fitted on my body i feel serious
Tell me y u mad cz bich im curious
I jus asked a question y u furious

im all alone again
I need some medicine
im all alone again
I need some medicine

I have a problem and i cant seem 2 do anything
I’d find a cure but i think ur my only medicine
Im narcissistic by myself and thats my only sin
i need to visit u so i can find some happiness
(2x)

thought i was doing fine
turns out i crossed your line
i felt so bad about myself n how i made u cry

i think i lost my mind
when i called u at night
i promise u that there would never be a second time

im all alone again
I need some medicine
im all alone again
I need some medicine

And i jus wish that u’d go home
I miss it everytime i look at all our photos
I cant do this no mo
Cuz i been patient but i hate it when its so slow

medicine

(@prodnomu)

//

how many bands did i make, 6
run it up jus like track, sprint
spoil my girl like rancid
how many bands did i make, 6
run it up jus like track, sprint
spoil my girl like 
spoil my girl like rancid

bich im fucking back  
think i lost my way befor but bich im fucking back  
i was really in da trenches i was fukin sad
then i locked in wit dis shit n caught a fucking bag
 
ya
yuh
got a fucking
bag

my girl way 2 pretty fo dis shit
need a ring up on dat finger
need a diamond on dat ring
dis girl 1 in like a million
i can never fumble dis
if i do not make u mine 
den ima fucking idiot

girl i need u
chef up when i feed u
2020 when i see u
shoot my shot like ryu
im foreal 
baby jus i know id kill 
tellin u how i feel
can i jus seal da deal

Rancid

rancid

changed

(prod. nomu)
art by me & anna!!
please get out my way !  >:(

also new music is on the way <3 luv u all

//
I feel anti social
Please get out my way
I dont wanna talk to you
If u a fake
I feel anti social
Please get out my way
Please get out my way
Please get out my way

Devil on my shoulder
Angel by my side
I swear that i lov her++
She my ride or die
I still feel so empty
I cant even lie
But she make it better
Feel like im alive  

Yuuuh like its perfect blue
Wish i had the fame
I want something new
Yuuuh like its perfect blue
Throw it all away
When i look up at my  idols
Sell their soul awayyy, for some money and a title
dollar for some fame, pop some drugs and let ur mind go
Watch the numbers raise, baby what u need to lie for

I don't want it no more
You can take it away
ima burn down the stage
Hope it all goes away
I don't want it no more
And let the money parade
While im hiding in pain  
Hope it all goes away

antisocial

(@prodnomu)

//

I try and try
Its not enough
I cry and cry
Im not enough

Im stuck
Im done
Fuck this
Have fun
Take drugs
Fucked up
Im done

I love
You when you
Take my 
Hand and
Make me feel like i can stand
Up for myself and fall
Again

I just wanna be me
Oh how hard could that be
But i see and you see
That we all
Love some green
And our minds fall apart
And we’re blind to our heart
Leave no room for the art

im done

(prod. nomu)

//
i just wanna  live my best life
i just wanna settle down
and have a good life
that means i dont wanna lie inside the limelight
I dont wanna 'take the drugs and have a good time'

cause everybody has some problems with their mental
and everytime they take a pill they didnt mean to
and now the fakest people saying that they miss u
and now the fakest people sayint that they wish u, were here

I dont need a lot
i dont wanna sell my soul or give it up for guap
i dont wanna make this sht for people who on top 
I dont wanna worry bout the things that people thought  
every single drop

Maybe ill admit it
every legend dies when they havent reached their limit
filled to the brim, like my drink, and then i'll tip it
ooh leme sip it til im thinking 
woah
ooh leme sip it til im thinking 

i just wanna  live my best life
i just wanna settle down
and have a good life
that means i dont wanna lie inside the limelight
take the drugs and have a good time
(2x)

best life

(@prodnomu)
@sanriorose 

luv u all <3333333

//
[dolly]
i gave u the best of me
dont know why u textin me :(
i gave u the best of me
you left so why u textin me ?
(2x)

you left me all alone yea
you left me on my own yea
had problems left at home yea
i wasnt posed to know yea
ever since then i been down
i miss when u were around

you couldve told me what i couldve done yea yea :(
and when u left u left me me feeling dumb yea yea
not worth a dollar but a run for my money
the pain that u left me is not even funny
but they noticed it was sunny
now i get straight to my money
NOW IM EATIN GOOD AND LEAN IS IN UR TUMMI
AND I KNOW UR NEW NIGGA HE IS JUST A BUMMY
HE IS NOT ABOVE ME [no he is not above me ]

[nomu]
I dont wanna live this life without uuu
Told me that u hate me i dont trust uuu
I dont wanna live this life without uuuuuuu
Baby im a loner let me love u

In the phantom, stars above me
I feel lonely
I know that u lovely
Can u show me ? <3
Tell me that u love me
Hold me closely
I know that u lovely
Can u show me ? <3

Hit me up
Text my number
Kiss me thru the phone

Fix me up
Antisocial
Leave me all alone

know im not the best
But im glad im not alone

Baby will u love me?
I cant do this on my owwn

without you

without you [+d0llywood1]

(@prodnomu)
its been a while but heres something different :)

//
Fear, I live in fear 
That one day youll disappear

In front of me

Because of me
Loving u
Loving me

Forget how I said
Insecurity

Is a feeling of
Love with some jealousy

Jealousy
Jealousy

What are you so afraid of ?

because of me

(prod. @shinjinv + @prodnomu)
ty for an amazing 2019

//
Oo u wana be me
But i wish i could leave me
I dont wana be me
O u would not believe me

I dont wanna deal with all your bullshit today
I put on my headphones when i walk everywhere

Yea u only  use me
Tell me that im good enough 
For you and then abuse me
This is too confusing
You make me feel stupid
I just wanna stay at home and listen to my music

And when i said i love u
Said u love me 2
And if u never say it then ill always do
bBaby im a loner all i have is u
And if you leave me ima be a broken tool

(hook)

You shoot me down
Before I try
Next day walk in
act like its fine

I dont really talk too much
I prefer to keep it quiet
I feel like im not enough
I hate how im staying silent

I dont have the self control
Im j doing what im told
If u got a problem w me y dont u just let it go?

Try to tell me one more time
Ur just tryna waste my time
I can see your scared inside
I can see your tryna lie

All i do is make u mad
And everytime it makes me sad

(hook)

use me

use me [+shinjin]

(@prodnomu)
stay safe luv u all <3

video on astari: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xysH0udOXdc

//
U look pretty in that dress
U look pretty in that
dress(16)

Okay i take it back
Everything i said
Eveyrthing i did
You dont understand
Thats not what i meant
U done made me sad
i Didnt give a shit 
Yea
yea

Im just jealous how u make it look so effortless
make s it hard for me to try to make an effort yea
when i try,  u end up always doing better yea
But when i'm insecure i think about the better days 

 
But now i look right in the mirror and I see what ive become
And im not very happy with myself I wanna run 
Away from all the things that make me feel like im someone
Ive tried so many time to make it right but now im done

IM A QUIET PERSON BUT IM SCREAMING  IN THE DARK
AND NO ONE FUCKING HEARS ME CUZ I MUTE MYSELF A LOT
I TRY TO KEEP IT SILENT IN THE DAY BUT DAM  ITS HARD
AND YESTERDAY I SCREAMED SO FUCKING LOUDLY IN THE CAR 

And even though Im better than before I still feel worthless
Ive tried so many times to make it right and make it perfect
And after all this time ive figured that its just not worth it
Go and lock the doors so i can hide behind my curtains

dress

(@prodnomu)

haven't posted a song in forever so here u go <3 luv u allll thank u for listening


Its a been while since i been by myself
Talking nobody else
Except me

Ive been so comfortable inside my own shell
And im feeling quite well
Its routine

Everybody gets one second
Ye Just one second of heaven
1 for me
1 for u
1 for everytime u knew
How i felt when i was down
Everytime ur not around
For the first time in forever I wake up without u now

dont know how much time i have
Til my haves become my had
And my dreams turn into wishes
While my wishes turn to ash
Ive got problems in my veins
You can see it in my face
But my problems fade away
Everytime u call my name

FUCK!!
This prolly the last time for a while
It seems like the perfect chance to get things off my mind ye
Wish i had more music but i just don't have the time
Maybe it's excuses but regardless i was trying

And every time i hear a song i feel so insecure
Cuz everybody has a sound and im just standing here
Cant write a line i lost my shine im out of things to sharee
But thanks for listening to me its good to know you care

just an update - i made it into college
Hope i get a chance to see u all after the fall ends
Ill miss everyone of you who talked to me at all and
Ill make sure to check up on the ones who even called me

Promise ill be back
Maybe send me messages and maybe start a chat
ive been feeling better and better
like Much better than ever
finally i really like it where im at :)

comfortable

(@prodnomu)

luv u guys thank u for waiting again <3 here is a song i wanted to drop on my bday

the sample is "still feel it all" by maro

//
my friends call me dumb
so I start to believe it
say it's a joke
but I know that they mean it
I know
theysay I'm never there
that I should spend more time with them
that's a funny idea

Cuz my friends are at home
And lately ive felt so depressed and alone 
Im back where i started like 3 years ago

and i constantly fail to show all my affection
and all of this shit builds up all of this tension
I wish I could give her the things she deserves
but keep fucking up I'm not learning my lesson
I'm dumb
I'm no fun
I have so many things in my life that are keeping me up
I fuck up anyways
it's almost as if I just throw it away

and my girl’s the best
she wakes up my phone with a good morning text
and makes sure to buy me my favorite gifts
and tells me goodnight after blowing a kiss
Yea i kno
But shes 3000 miles away
Telling me everything is okay
Always fuck up so im taking the blame

A little bit smarter, A little more strong 
A little bit better at accepting my flaws
A little bit faster when i answer your calls
A little more effort when im writing these songs

chorus

a few months ago I was living so well
peaking my mental and physical health
now I'm here
in the back with a face full of tears
in need of help but there's nobody near

**
But its fine
Cuz Ill take it one step at a time
Its okay if i cry
So i’ll keep it together
Cuz one day i know that this sht will get better 
**

nomu

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