far from you

Verses in order 
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@Mental 
@blxty
@l3nnonade
@spukii_lawls
@mad1toosexy
@ulovely
@00matthew 
@Genc471

deadbydaylight cypher (w/ mental + blxty + I3nnon + spuk06 + mad1 + Genc471 & more) [p.Genshi]

felt like changing my sound a little :)
wrote this from the heart

@breakupbreakdown <3

lyrics:
gotta get rid of my demons
i wanna live without free lance
i can see you on my phone lens
i gotta stay in the moments
i cannot track all their movement
keep coming back cause your clueless
why do you say that im useless
i do not care about no past sense

yea, i wanna be by myself
put your shit back on the shelf
you are not good for my health (yea yea)
but i keep geting stuck
i wanna be by your side
but our feelings collide
wish i could say that your mine
but thats not what you think

i been hurting way to much
way to many
my heart is fucking static
my feelings feel like plastic
i dont want you back
nor another
my head is getting dizzy
i wish you wasnt busy
yea, i know that you miss me (yeaaa)
took a while before you kissed me (aaaa)

its okay uh
bitch im on my way
another day
cannot find my place
like a race
how you fucking chase (meeee)
feel so wasted
wish i didnt break it

torture everyday
i dont need you okay
but it still hurts my when i think about you everyday
but your intentions are the problem
but we cant solve them
shit how i be wrongful
yea bitch im awfull

i dont fucking understand how you still go
always with you all the time i cant adore
keep on begging me for more
i dont want you baby can you leave and close the door
i can keep fucking with you
how you fucking with my head
i dont want you back so can u just go back to bed
all the things u fucking said
that will keep on hurting till the day i get my rest

one more left
i will keep on smoking till my lungs black
cuz i fucking know that you will be back
all these fucking feelings cannot hide that
(NEVER WILL I GO BACK)
x2

you dont wanna be mine
walking in the sunshine
bitch i got a glock nine
know that im not fine
dont wanna stand by
you know i cant die
feel like i might cry
dont wanna say bye

gotta get rid of my demons
i wanna live without free lance
i can see you on my phone lens
i gotta stay in the moments
i cannot track all their movement
keep coming back cause your clueless
why do you say that im useless
i do not care about no past sense

yea, i wanna be by myself
put your shit back on the shelf
you are not good for my health (yea yea)
but i keep geting stuck
i wanna be by your side
but our feelings collide
wish i could say that your mine
but thats not what you think

demons (breakupbreakdown)

yo guys better music is OTW <3
aellzis is goated:)
lyrics:

@luvpika
i could never be alone im with my bros
and they think that im sad but i dont fuck with these hoes
and they said i cant do this shit but im doing the most
and i dont really know nobody cuz i keep it closed
and i wanna end it all but fuck i cannot stop
and whatever i try to do i feel like im a prop
and no one can compare me to the people in the drop
cuz they know that im special i dont need to be on top

i dont fuck with
anyone they think that im emo
i dont give a
fuck about you you aint shit bro
and she still wanna love but this love it has no meaning
i still make a mess but this mess dont get no cleaning
and i think that its sad that i still dont got no freedom
but i make so much cash that i feel like a casino
and why you tryna clone bro ur never gon be me tho
and i think that its funny cuz im always in my primo

@owtiss
i cant even tell if i love her
i dont wna spend my time w u no more
now im caught up looking for another
im so tired i can't do this anymore

my mind is in a rut
if i cld take it back then i never woulda run
i dont think i can last w a person i dont love :|
its all moving so fast i cant think of what i want
i cant keep my composureeeeeee
i jus wna throw it all away!
so dont get any closerrrrrrr
im tired of u getting in my way

@luvpika
i cant fix this shit i cant fix my problems ye
playing with my feels i dont care i blocked them ye
thats not what i thought i thought that your the (oneeee)

thats not what i thought it mean
snortin ketamine
still addicted to the green
im not staying clean
fuuuckkk (yea yea)
she gon make a scene
take a fucking screen
dont care how you been
2x

meaning w/ owtiss (neohn)

ft(@mental)
prod(@rjpasin + @prodnomu)

[nomu]
Ya ya
I got all of it
Long as i have u I got all of it <3
Ya ya
heaven sent
Everytime u leave Its like im sad again
(2x)

[mental]
Bb everytime u leave im stuck
And my heart been broke so long i thnk im giving up
Ya im bleeding out
Bbygirl i need ur love
If u hate me then tell me 
Now i cant sleep enough
If u hate me then tell me 
Cuz i cant be without u
If u love me then kiss me 
Cuz i cant be without u
I jus wana be around u
If u love me tell me baby i will never doubt u

But im thinking i should get awayyy
Fall in love when i see ur face
If im really the one u hate
Tell me why i cant be erased
T-tell me why, lmk, make me sick
Everynight goin thru all ur shit
U kno that it makes me sick
Dont have a heart
i traded it for a kiss

[nomu]
Ya ya
I got all of it
Long as i have u I got all of it <3
Ya ya
heaven sent
Everytime u leave Its like im sad again
(2x)


I was feeling down
Now im feeling up
When u came into my life
U gave me all ur luv
Now u hav my heart
I cant get enough !
Cuz u talked to me when
I had no one left 2 trust
yuhh
Im jus making music for da hell of it
When i write these songs i feel da sentiment
I dont want dis shit to ever end again
Tell me that u luv me i love tellin it

all of it

spotify

all of it (+mental)

@victxrw
@ogpichu
@bazington
@sensuku

[arid]
i dont even think that we were done
i dont wanna feel it in my lungs
u dont even care im like "so what"
every word every note that u sung

i know u do it all for me
i dont wanna look at u hear ur apology
yea every other time it was hard for me to know
i dont wanna see u on this road
i swear i seen u a thousand times
left me in the cold i wonder why
all of this decay inside our lives
i dont wanna push it to the side

[victxrw]
i think i jus fall in love 2 fast
i just wnna feel what we used 2 have
i dnt think i have what it takes 2 last
so maybe u can show me different

ill listen... (ill listen, listen, listen, listen...)
cuz the distance doesnt change a thing ill fix it
i still think that the love is existing
does that make me crazy for wishing

(i dont care if u think tht im crazy, i only long for u.
i hope u dont forget abt me as long i sing all of these songs for u.)

[pichu]
if we go on like this
i dont think i wanna be with u anymore
noway im gonna fight this
theyll come back to me when i score
i was on the floor bleeding my eyes out everybody watching me
i pray to a lord i dont believe in yes im pleading for my saviour

apology w/ victxrw + pichu [baz + sensuku]

@owtiss
prod @owtiss again lmao

dawg like idk what happened but shit man something happened
like i went nuts DO YOU HEAR THESE 808s?????

i dont wna wake up
idk why ;/
everything is hurting
why am i alive??
care ab my feelings
did i get that right?
i dont wna see u anymore
im fine

barely tell me anything ive had enough!
its just one thing, then the next..
think im done with love :)
dont have to remind me
im not enough
im just tired of fighting
im giving up!

an apology?
i dont rly want it
now i rly cant breathe
on the ground
think im dying ;-;
did u even rly love me at all?
when u said i love u did u rly mean it?

why am i alive?? (me)

Yung Za - Rerun

(prod. @shinjinv + @prodnomu)
ty for an amazing 2019

//
Oo u wana be me
But i wish i could leave me
I dont wana be me
O u would not believe me

I dont wanna deal with all your bullshit today
I put on my headphones when i walk everywhere

Yea u only  use me
Tell me that im good enough 
For you and then abuse me
This is too confusing
You make me feel stupid
I just wanna stay at home and listen to my music

And when i said i love u
Said u love me 2
And if u never say it then ill always do
bBaby im a loner all i have is u
And if you leave me ima be a broken tool

(hook)

You shoot me down
Before I try
Next day walk in
act like its fine

I dont really talk too much
I prefer to keep it quiet
I feel like im not enough
I hate how im staying silent

I dont have the self control
Im j doing what im told
If u got a problem w me y dont u just let it go?

Try to tell me one more time
Ur just tryna waste my time
I can see your scared inside
I can see your tryna lie

All i do is make u mad
And everytime it makes me sad

(hook)

use me

use me [+shinjin]

(dani kiyoko + luvlxckdown)

you’re a girl in a dress
i see in my dreams
and she scare me so much
but she ain’t what it seems
take a look inside
my glowing blue eyes
and don’t be surprised
oh what would you find?
i’m your subconscious 
and i’m here all the time
do not try to run away
please don’t try to run and hide
cause i am you and you are me
so lets agree to disagree
that if you ever try to stop me
imma have to let you be
(x2)

imma let you go
imma let you be
i know i’m annoying
and i know you’re sick of me
baby just don’t leave
you don’t have to fucking go
or else i’m gone go sleep
and i’m gonna dream so more
it’s a nightmare 
that i see in my dreams 
and it’s not fair
she be stalking me it seems
but shes not there
idk what i’m supposed to do
and everything is fucked up
cause i think of you
all the time

you’re a girl in a dress
i see in my dreams
and she scare me so much
but she ain’t what it seems
take a look inside
my glowing blue eyes
and don’t be surprised
oh what would you find?
i’m your subconscious 
and i’m here all the time
do not try to run away
please don’t try to run and hide
cause i am you and you are me
so lets agree to disagree
that if you ever try to stop me
imma have to let you be
(x2)

girl in a dress (dani kiyoko + luvlxckdown)

(@prodnomu)

luv u guys thank u for waiting again <3 here is a song i wanted to drop on my bday

the sample is "still feel it all" by maro

//
my friends call me dumb
so I start to believe it
say it's a joke
but I know that they mean it
I know
theysay I'm never there
that I should spend more time with them
that's a funny idea

Cuz my friends are at home
And lately ive felt so depressed and alone 
Im back where i started like 3 years ago

and i constantly fail to show all my affection
and all of this shit builds up all of this tension
I wish I could give her the things she deserves
but keep fucking up I'm not learning my lesson
I'm dumb
I'm no fun
I have so many things in my life that are keeping me up
I fuck up anyways
it's almost as if I just throw it away

and my girl’s the best
she wakes up my phone with a good morning text
and makes sure to buy me my favorite gifts
and tells me goodnight after blowing a kiss
Yea i kno
But shes 3000 miles away
Telling me everything is okay
Always fuck up so im taking the blame

A little bit smarter, A little more strong 
A little bit better at accepting my flaws
A little bit faster when i answer your calls
A little more effort when im writing these songs

chorus

a few months ago I was living so well
peaking my mental and physical health
now I'm here
in the back with a face full of tears
in need of help but there's nobody near

**
But its fine
Cuz Ill take it one step at a time
Its okay if i cry
So i’ll keep it together
Cuz one day i know that this sht will get better 
**