here on my own

Juice WRLD - Love is War {Prod. RockyRoadz}  (slowed)

sorry about everything (feat. WESSIN)

prod. by nate b and charlie bett
dedicated to pops.
Friday, August third two thousand eighteen
The day he passed away, the night he couldnt live to see
So what led up to it is the question they ask me 
It’s a long story, if you read it then youd know what I mean

So my dads stuck in rehab cause he had an alcohol addiction
Nearly his entire life it started from one bad desicion
I was wishin it was fiction when he told me bout his condition 
There was nothing I could do but dad just know that you’re forgiven

So he went off to get the help that he was needing 
and a week before the third is the day that he was leaving 
By now, It’s been a couple months since I have last seen him
so excited for him to see me I’ll never forget that feeling

That night I looked at the stars hoping everything goes right
And me and mom hopped in the car once we saw the sunrise
When I saw him, he told me he loved me never thought it’d be the last time
 I told him that I loved him too two tears filled his eyes, sad Thrills.

On the way back I said I missed him so much that I’d never leave him alone
he told me he missed me more but he couldn’t wait to get home
But I couldn’t help but notice that his tone sounded different
He sounded sad and weak but it was too insignificant

Like is it too late for hope, Well It might be for a while
I tried telling him some jokes, But he couldn’t even smile 
momma dropped me off at his place just to spend some time with him 
she was gon make me go home but she knew how much I missed him

he told me he'd never drink again, which was News to me
We spent hours talking and laughing just like how it used to be
he made us dinner, I was so happy he was home again
and whenever I heard his voice it felt like I was 8 years old again

We took a ride around the old neighborhood  reminiscing
Noticing how different things are since the beginning
My dad loved to entertain, he used to do it for a living
we used to have a family,  now all of its disappearing 

he mention hes going through a lot of pain i was surpised
you get out of rehab a couple hours ago right?
he said it still feels like im just trapped inside
it was like a jail cell, i said dont worry you’ll be fine

listen  Charlie just kill me if I ever get the nerve to
Ever try to harm your mom or if I try to Hurt you
I told him your talking crazy I tell him what do you mean
He said these thoughts can lead to actions that I don’t want you to see

But these thoughts don’t exist
How bad is it
you’d have trouble understanding it
Ive had a couple issues if I tell you won’t handle it
Excruciating pain it’s too much to explain 
I don’t want to hurt you charlie don’t worry bout me ill remain

Fine right just like you told me, he started to cry
i told him shit, im here for you, call me any time
He told me its getting late, he teared up telling me goodbye
it told him ill see him soon two tears fell from his eyes, sad thrills

He dropped me off back home that day, last ride I got from my father
its been a couple days since dad and i saw each other
recently mom and dad were hanging out just like when i was younger
seemed like things were getting better but i just sat back and wondered

why he wasnt smiling often
he texted me bout pills hes popping
Meant to stop his depression, but he told me that it was causing
him even more pain, he took several a day
they had different effects on him he said it drove him insane

like one would make him fall asleep, he was afraid hed never wake up
and one would make him stay awake but feel like he cant escape the 
pain that he was going through, these pills were contradictory
and man if he was drinking while taken them hed be history


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Blue Toe

Sad Thrills

Albany Freestyle

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writing verses with a smile

Muddy Waters

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dont listen to this without reading the lyrics https://genius.com/Henry-draw-fat-fuck-nhs-remix-demo-lyrics

reprod. nightmvte [https://youtu.be/YHmhBYp9o9E]

written by henry draw

interpolates and samples nhs by slowthai. credits found here https://genius.com/Slowthai-nhs-lyrics

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