performed by kj
prod by kj & xtravolous
written by kj
mixed by kj
mastered by kj
recorded in kj's home studio
samples 'walls' - sapientdream

v1
cant go a day w/o thoughts of suicide
you can look into my eyes
and see that i am dead inside
nothing left but pain inside
nothing left but rage inside
i've been verbally abusive
i cope w drugs that i'm abusin'
and the menthols i be using
i gotta hella brain damage
i'm either numb or in a panic
i'm either depressed or i'm manic
too many tears in my eyes
too many years filled w lies
too many ruined lives

v2
i''ve tried to cope w a knife
i've tried to end my fucking life
not a single damn goodbye
wish i never came out bi
used to be afraid to die
now i'm in love w suicide
my friends suck & never there
i don't think they ever cared
don't wanna fall in love again
rather fall off of a bridge
i lay restless in my bed
fighting voices in my head
i see my grandmas dead bodies
can't get any sleep at night
too busy planning how to end my life

v3
i never go outside
stay in bed till the day i die
made my momma cry
way too many fucking times
preachers kid turned to a heathen
as angelic as a demon
i look down
my wrists are bleeding
the pain never stops 
it just comes in different forms
i do stupid shit on purpose
being smart makes me bored
buying drugs i can't afford
i stay put not going forward
inside my bodies a civil war(shit)

v4
bitch i'm not okay
please don't even ask
i gotta carry on from my x like i'm ski mask
unhealthy relationship
it's gettin' real hard to fake this shit
just turned 18
already a slave to the nicotine
false hope turned to broken dreams
the feelings come & go 
but the scars never leave
how could i be so naive
to tell you what's inside of me
you said that you'd never leave me
SO WHY THE FUCK AM I ALONE?

alone

alone (prod. by xtravulous)

performed by kj
prod by kj
written by kj
mixed by kj
mastered by kj
recorded in kj's home studio

intro
escape into the night
i'm trapped inside my mind

c x2
down to fuck
up all night
brain on drugs
no peace of mind

v1
stay up late
smokin' slates
poppin' mdma
benzos on my dinner plate
swervin' on the interstate
these pills are my escape
- 
these pills are my escape
leave this world like heaven's gate

pc x2
so many prescriptions 
i think that i'm addicted

c x2

v2
fell in love off the drugs
yea this shit's all fake love
high as fuck every night 
but we never high enough
i've prolly smoked too much
but someone's gotta hit this blunt

b x2
you should stay away
you should prolly runaway
xanax numbs my pain
i might try cocaine

c x2

peace of mind

peace of mind (prod. by kj)

*NOT MONETIZED*

remix of 'Take_it_Back_v2' by denzel curry + kenny beats of 'unlocked'

performed by kj
prod by kenny beats
written by kj
additional prod by kj
mixed by kj
mastered by kj
recorded at kj's home studio
cover art c/o @jackboys via instagram
https://genius.com/Kj-black-heart-take-it-back-v3-lyrics

[intro]
(whoa, kenny)
i am...

[v1]
nineteen, designer fiend
anti-lean, levi jeans
mind psychotic, girlfriend's toxic
weed exotic, smoking chronic
y'all faker than my smile
i see thru u from a mile
and ik it's been a while
but i can't forget your smile
grew up on zack & cody
lone coyote, off peyote, cacti emoji
car littered w paraphernalia
she said i'm just a fucking failure
don't know what the fuck to tell ya
if i did, i wouldn't fucking tell ya
over sleeping, lucid dreaming
lost my mind, i'm fucking tweaking
tryna fight these fucking demons
tryna dodge these fucking feelings
high fashion, demna gvsalia
chanel comma gabriel
almost famous, zooey deschanel
alexander wang, helmut lang
you're a fucking lame
man, get tf up out my lane

[v2]
(as we go a little something like...)
fuck a life, i'm too depressed
tryna slow down on these cigarettes
now i'm even more distressed
now i'm even more oppressed
shit mental health, shit physical health
only focused on my future wealth
layin low, master of my mf stealth
u text too much, i don't enough
now my phone, she's blowing up
she ain't ever fucking growing up
shit's got me fucking throwing up
u need to calm down, fucking stupid cunt
stop stalling, pass the fucking blunt

[beat switch]
(here, shake hands with danger)

[v3]
all she wanna do is smoke weed
ain't been sober in fucking two weeks
from thc to xtc, from lsd to dmt
this shit's gon be the death of me
i get higher than my insurance
pass out, low endurance
relapsin's just a recurrence
do u love me?, i need reassurance
for a lost soul, what's the price tag?
died over clout, and a louis bag
pussy bitch, a fucking fag
this world we're in is fucking sad
u ain't mean it, but u fucking said it
my depression's your aesthetic
you're gonna need a paramedic
somebody call a fucking medic
all my friends left me on read
should probably just go on back to bed
they'll love me more when i'm fucking dead
and yea i fucking mean what i said

[v4]
on the school bus, bumping scHoolboy q
u got all those fucking followers, but nobody knows u
don't nobody know shit bout the shit i've been thru
all they wanna hear is good news
(as we go a little something like...)
stuck like i stepped in glue
they still don't have a fucking clue
and i haven't cried since my best friend died
no where left to hide, i'm so fucking tiiied
i think i'm truly dead inside

[outro]
(shake hands w danger, step right up, and say "hello".  grinding wheels and metal is what made... three finger joe)

Take_it_Back_v3

Take_it_Back_v3 (prod. by kenny beats)

performed by kj
prod by kj
written by kj
mixed by kj
mastered by kj
recorded in kj's home studio

chords
Cm-Fm-Gm-Ab-Bb

lyrics
call me southstar
only got 2 friends
no a/c in my black car
ain't rollin in no benz
hair blowin in the wind
eyes to the sky, i'm stargazin
the days  never end, sleep deprivation
still here in conway
supposed to be in so cal
nothing goes my way
but at least i haven't sold out
what's the point of life?
we're still in disbelief
stuck in an endless strife
turned to sinners + thieves
subtle ambient lights
vodka + clean sprites
all thru the late nites
2kbaby zeitgeist
stressed out due to elegance
messed up due to negligence
hard to tell what to relish in
computerized intelligence
we don't do apologies
safe sex + pornography 
escaping chronography
capitalistic formed monopoly
u don't exist, solipsistic
goodbye + good riddance
do what i wanna, hedonistic
life simulation, nihilistic

kj southstar

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