how do you know when you've gone to far?
how do you know when to stop?
how do you get better when you've already hit the top?

how do you forget them?
how do you move on?
how do you get over love when it's never really gone?

do you wait for nothing or wait for hell?
wait for another soul to tell them "i need you."

how do you erase the past,
erase when life moved fast?
how do you find someone new to make memories that last?

how do you stop remembering? 
how do you stop regretting things?
how do you stop? how do you stop?

do you wait for nothing or wait for hell?
wait for another chance to yell "i need you."

How?

sometimes life gets in the way
and you stay inside, you're motionless for days
nobody with you to help you feel okay
you want to ask but don't know what to say

while your looking at the ceiling
your heavy lungs keep breathing
you let out a sigh, your mouth is dry
nothing left to catch your eye

why?

everyday's repeating
and you've finally stopped eating
you look around the room and see
the same damn things that make you think

"i need some change and need it fast
something to forget the past
a color-shift in my decor
i'm tired of this tile floor
i took those knick-knacks off the shelf
i think it began to help
someday i might put em back
when i don't feel like such a wreck"

a change of space is what made everything feel fine
and even though you're still alone, your home feels a home this time
and you can make it through the week, get a perfect night of sleep
what's the point of therapy when you can donate shit to charity?

so help yourself
get a grip on your mental health
try out something new for once
you haven't felt alive in months

you need some change and need it fast
something to forget the past
a collared shirt in your hoodie drawer
and colors where there were none before
take those knick-knacks off the shelf
it just might begin to help
the smile you forgot you had
will make you think there's nothing bad left

Knick-Knacks

get back i don't need to hear that
tell me that you feel bad
guilty cus i fear that you'll find someone else
who gets you to love yourself
and gives you all the help
that i can't get myself

i do everything i do for you

useless days with you
wouldn't give them up for anything
useless days with you
the only one i love 

i don't want these goodbyes
just look me in the eyes
and tell me that we're fine 

i don't want you to go
pretend that i don't know
and stick close

i do everything i do for you

useless days with you
wouldn't give them up for anything
useless days with you
the only one i love

Useless Days

Draining focus
I'm taking notice
Of what I should be and how I'm not there

Someone say, where should I go?
Aimlessly I tread alone
Almost home I'm moving slow

She stuck my Chucks to the pavement

What am I doing here?
Where will I end up next year?
I'm asking questions cus I want a second chance
And I miss the days of writing in-jokes on our hands

Can I make it in your world?
And why is it always that you don't know?

I forgot what it meant to me
And I shouldn't care what you think I need
I'll run off somewhere you'll never be

With my Chucks still stuck to the pavement
She stuck my Chucks to the pavement

Gumshoe

Thirteen years day to day up bright and early
Now I'm in tears, what comes next for me?
I screwed it here straight F's only, now I'm lonely
The end comes near, but it feels like it has just begun

And I don't wanna go
I just want to start it over
Cus now I'm growing older
And I don't know how to grow up

Straight F's

Just a cover of "Goodbye" by The Vines I did cause it's a pretty G song.

Goodbye

Acoustic cover of Arterial Black by Drist.

Arterial Black

Don't be visibly bummed or else other people will get bummed.

even blend of envy

Sometimes I Just do the Wrong Thing

[Lyrics]

I have no chance to get it right,
I've given up the fight,
I've given up this time,
My heart is broken up in two,
A shadow of itself,
I really need some help,

I wanna tell you that I love you,
But I don't think I ever will,
It's never gonna happen,
It's never gonna happen,
The options that are given,
Are superior in every way,
So It's never gonna happen anyway,

You can say I'm a loser,
I can say I agree,
You can say I'm amazing,
And it'll make me think,
Everyone I've loved,
Has thrown me in the trash,
Burned me into ash,
Burned me up like it's nothing,

The evidence is stacked against me,
I don't have a reason to try,
I think I should just pack my bags,
Walk away and say goodbye,
If I died tomorrow,
Would you think about me and cry,
Would you think about me at all?

capsaicin

[Lyrics]

I don't wanna be solo,
I wanna start a band,
Been alone forever,
Could really use a hand,
Lately I've been feeling so low,
Stuck inside of my room,
Just want somebody to talk to,
I just want somebody who,

Can deal with me and my stupidity,
Who makes me feel like one whole piece,
Who I can make music with and laugh,
I could really use another half,

I'm bored of being solo,
Tired of being all alone,
I just need a little rhythm,
Then I'd be good to go,
But I'm just a creature,
Nobody knows my name,
It's a prominent feature,
It's why I have no say,

Deteriorated self confidence,
It's a bit of a problem I'll admit,
I'm happy to have the friends I have,
But it'd be nice to find another half.

solo

[Lyrics]

Why do I have to be that friend,
The friend that you come to,
For comfort when it ends,
It's like an anvil pressed against my head,
Pressure adding slowly,
But I'll never be dead,
Instead I torture myself,
I need to move away,
But I don't like the distance,
I thought I've gotten over it,
But I get pulled back in,
And I hope for the best,

The subject matter at hand,
Is what's making me feel like less of a man,
I know there's not a chance in hell,
I know I can't please you,
I'm not good enough to stand,

Why do I have to be that guy,
Who makes the wrong decisions,
And asks himself why,
why am I in pain,
Then use my looks as a crutch,
For other's disdain,
I feel like a stain,
A speckle on the pavement,
That get's washed out by rain,
Don't know why I feel this way,
But no one's told me otherwise,
So what else should I think,

The subject matter at hand,
Is what's making me feel like less of a man,
I know there's not a chance in hell,
I know I can't please you,
I'm not good enough to stand,

I guess I'm just that friend,
Who's a bit too understanding,
And never seen as more than a friend,
At least I have that much,
I've got something to be proud of.

let's be friends

Wasted Time

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hey friend could i walk with you home
step inside of your humble abode
hang around we got nothing to do
but id be cool just talking with you

how was your date was it okay
how do you feel
its so much fun as the third wheel

hey friend are you falling asleep
goodnight and have sweet dreams
im about to go to bed myself
and dream about how i screwed myself

whats so wrong with me
im not complaining i just want to know
i think i know why
but im not sure if thats it or if theres more
i could change but i should move on

hello again my only friend
i see you there
its been awhile since you said hi back
do you even care

Radiant

Lyrics
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It hurts when this shit happens
I can't do anything to fix it
Close, too close for me
Now im credited as "Lovestuck Dunce #3"

I can't just choose to stay far
Clung too tight, my mistake
Just one day gone by
I fear complaint, I wonder honestly

What happened to indifference?
Can I not say hi and walk away?
not these days, I'm lonely 
I feel sick, maybe I'll turn my head

It's just another repeat
I always do this to myself
Maybe this time it's different
Who am I kidding? It's all the fucking same.

Fool Me Twice

Lyrics
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Time awaits
The days that I can't sleep
Awake I stay all week
I know I'm weak 'cause you're still in my dreams.

Never leave.

Is it worth my time?
Am I fine to lose my mind?
Do I keep my thoughts inside
Or leave my life unsatisfied?

Are you satisfied?

Short cherry blonde,
Are you having fun?
Whats your favorite song?
Was it written from the heart?

Sweet fairy blonde,
Has it been too long?
Did I do something wrong?
What's wrong with me?

Young son of a gun,
We've had our fun
I think we might be done
And thats okay.

Soft angel sun,
We've just begun,
But soon you might be gone
And that pains me.

Stuck between a rock and a hard place
Up to bat and out at first base
Please invade my personal space
I will do whatever it takes.

It's all i need.

Short cherry blonde,
Are you having fun?
Whats your favorite song?
Was it written from the heart?

Sweet fairy blonde,
Has it been too long?
Did I do something wrong?
What's wrong with me?

Young son of a gun,
We've had our fun
I think we might be done
And thats okay.

Soft angel sun,
We've just begun,
But soon you might be gone
And that pains me.

I need a friend
To hold my head,
To wish me luck,
To be there.

Say, "I need a friend.",
As I lay in bed
And wonder what has happened to me.

Good Times

lyrics
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what if i could see
what if i never had to leave
what if i could talk to you better
what if i could walk with you forever
what if you and I could be together

scream at me to wake up on time
blinding red light flashing 6:25
i just put on my shoes and hoodie
cus i sleep in my jeans i swear im not lazy

im unmotivated no conversation
after i graduate ill probably stay in
maybe ill get me a nine-to-five
where i sit inside institutionalized

i don't do enough my friends aren't real
i try to pretend like it's not a big deal
the past few years havent truly healed
and i find fun in the simplest things

a trip to the gas station up the street
feels like a vacation honestly
the only things in life i look forward to
are going to staying at and leaving

what if i could stay
what if i never had to go away
what if i could talk to you better
what if i could stay put here forever
what if we could just stick together

Graduation

Lyrics
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I hate it when you feel so bad for me
You're not the issue honey
If I felt nothing I'd be happy
And if you felt the same you'd be my cure

Tell me what you think
What can I do to change

For you I'd change anything
Abuse my brain any day
For you I'd fix everything

I'm left alone to think of how
I'm losing my sanity 
Losing my touch
Losing the reason I'm a loser in love

Eventually I'll be too far away to say I love you
Too far away to call your name
Too far away to hold you tightly
Too far away to show I care

Tell me what you think
What can I do to change

For you I'd change anything
Abuse my brain any day
For you I'd fix everything

What You Think

lyrics
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i wish i could be there
head on my shoulders and stare
off into the distance
god damn i'll really miss this

i stay inside when it's sunny out
i don't want much of a body count
i said im here if u needed help
you said "im okay"

"now im bored of you"

i wish i never met you
but so thankful that i did too
it's not your fault i slipped up
and fell so deeply in love

i stay inside when it's sunny out
i don't want much of a body count
im an extrovert but nobody's home
or having so much fun and thinking

"im bored of you"

Bored of You

lyrics
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Down so down
No one ever seems to stick around
Move on let it end
But I won't find one like that again

It's all about a friend

Far far away 
Distance is the hardest game to play
I don't mean offense
But meeting her is something I regret

It's all about a friend

I don't want to compare
'Cause nobody wins it's not fair
I meant it when I said 
She's stuck in my head

It's all about a friend

About a Friend

All I need is to see you
Is to see you
All I need is to feel you
So I heal too

But you're gone
You're always gone
Yeah you're gone
You're always gone

All I need is to bleed through
Is to bleed through
All I need is to see you 
I want to see you

But you're gone
You're always gone
Yes you're gone
You're always gone

See You

why do i try?
it never turns out alright
cus i don't want to notice
i don't wanna see

what am i worth?
do you think im a jerk?
do you think im a nuisance?
will you miss me when im gone?

you never notice when you've blown it
till you've been forgotten in this world

Forgotten

go get out of my head
get out of my head
get out of my head

go get out of my life
get out of my life
get out of my life

go get out of my head
get out of my head
get out of my head

My Head

closing up shop
whatever that won't happen anyway
today is gonna be the same as always
it's hard to speak my mind

help me out cus
moving on is harder than you'd think

i'm acting dumb
i keep her on my mind and only her
and i can't move even if i try
she's stuck on my mind

help me out cus
moving on is harder than you'd think

Moving On

Green Tea

you don't ever want to disco with me
you won't ever want to disco with me
but i don't see why i don't see why
do i not have the moves to blow your mind

do i not posess the social interest 
that you seek inside that you keep confined
can i learn the dance to get you intranced
can i realise that you're never mine

do i memorize the memorous times
did i fuck it up

caught in the backroom
caught in a vacuum

open my eyes and see that im not who i want to be 

im caught in the backroom 
caught in a vacuum

open your eyes and see that im not who you want to be

im caught in the backroom
caught in a vacuum

Disco

(being fat)

bored nothing else
nothing else i will share
sure something else
something else i don't care

answer nothing
dodge the question
run away, runaway

Run Away, Runaway

i don't want to go
not sure who i'd know
i don't want to care
don't know why it's there

it's killing me enough
it's killing me enough to fall
decisions are so tough
will it be enough to calm 

why is that?
there isn't much i want from you
that's all i ask
i just wanna be there for you

don't say your goodbyes
am i wasting my time on you?

losing your respect
what did i expect
i acted like a tool
my childish act you thought me a fool 

I've heard you talk about
there's symphony in doubting all
we've had a falling out
but does it really count? your call

why is that?
there isn't much i want from you
that's all i ask
i just wanna be there for you

don't say your goodbyes
am i wasting my time on you?

There For You

I'm making moves
I'll take you to
Where you can groove
With you know who

I might give up
I might give up
I might give up
I might give up on you

I'm making moves
I'll change your mood
Check out the view
I guess I lose

I might give up
I might give up
I might give up
I might give up on you

I might give up

Moves

Where do I start? I'm falling apart
Think of that night where I held you till dark
What did you think? Was I stuck in your heart

Or was it only just a way to stay warm?
Does feeling only matter when you're bored?
Or is feeling non-existent cus you think I'm too persistent?
Well don't worry I can't love you anymore

Time to move on with my life
You've got someone else on your mind
Are they much better than I have been ever?

Are they with you when you need a helping hand?
Or hold you up when it's too hard to stand?
Give you what you need when others make you beg and plead?
Will you treat them like nothing like me?

I guess I have to be honest
It seems like you want me to bleed
At the bottom of your list is my name
But you insist that you care a whole lot about me

I'm sorry for everything I've done
Complained when you only wanted fun
But that's all in the past, you still think I'm an ass

And you treat me no different than before
Suddenly became your last resort
You and I got along, did I do something wrong?
Why don't you love me anymore?

Tell me with honesty, what made you give up on me?
Is this the ending for sure?

Cursed in Cursive

i was sitting on my futon when i heard the heavy rain
whoever called this fucking place the sunshine state must be insane
it's ironic in a way but maybe just coincidence
my knowledge of the word was tainted by alanis morissette

i don't agree that everything is okay
sometimes things must be fucked up it seems
i'm breaking down mentally and growing up physically
i just want to be okay

sometimes i can't say for sure
that what i feel is pure
but what i feel i know is real
i hope there isn't too much to endure
i hope i win this melancholy war
 
it started when i saw something i wasn't meant to see
it hit me like a bullet or an arrow to the knee
i crumbled to the floor where there was no one who could see
except a couple tiny ants and a dust bunny family

i don't believe that everything is okay
sometimes things must be too much for me
i saw red flags a-blowing but i only kept a-going
i just hope your doing okay

sometimes when my heart feels sore
i call you up and ask you for the cure
cus it feels so much better whenever we're together
then i'm strong enough to vacuum up my floor
if i win this melancholy war

but i'm pretty sure that you gave up and i should get a life
enough of only nothingness enough wasting my time
i should find a girl that gives reciprocated love
but it's getting so much harder now that i took off the glove

the glove it kept me going it reminded me of us
it reminded me that nothing we established was made up
it reminded me that i don't need another point of view
with it off now i'm reminded it was all because of you

Melancholy War

i saw you for the first time in awhile
why is it that when i'm around you never smile?
was it something i said and everything i've done
overwriting every memory of having fun?

i thought it would've been nice to see you again
a renuion of sorts i didn't want it to end
and i waited for the night to begin
but you turned your back to act like you don't want to be friends

anymore and i know there was nothing here before
where do i go you sealed off every door
you lied to me saying you'd die for me say no more
say no more

every song that i pen nowadays
all say the same thing i want a new muse a new train
and the tracks i want made out of the best damn plastic
and on board i want a theater with the seats that are haptic

surround sound speakers and an imax screen
so i can watch my failures the way they're meant to be seen
but we ran out of cash so we ran out of tracks
guess it's time to make a song so i'm not stuck in the grass

anymore i want to go back i want to go back to before
this was was all broken dysfunctional hoping for more

i want to go back

whytide

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