porter robinson — trying to feel alive (goodnight lavender cover)

artwork by sakire:
twitter.com/sakanfish

lyrics

do you feel better now?
i thought i'd run until the sky came out
and with the sunlight on my face
something changed

and just trying to feel alive
you climbed a mountain, are you satisfied?
as you stand at the top
you already wanna do this
one more time

maybe it's a gift that i couldn't recognize
maybe i don't really need to feel satisfied
maybe it's a gift that i spend all this time
just trying to feel alive
maybe i don't really wanna be satisfied
maybe it's a gift that i couldn't recognize
maybe this all, maybe this was all
just trying to feel alive

and just trying to feel alive
you climbed a mountain, are you satisfied?
as you stand at the top
you already wanna do this
one last time

and then somebody somewhere finds
the warmth of summer in the songs you write
maybe it's a gift that i couldn't recognize
trying to feel alive

maybe it's a gift that i couldn't recognize
maybe i don't really need to feel satisfied
maybe it's a gift that i spend all this time
just trying to feel alive
maybe i don't really wanna be satisfied
maybe it's a gift that i couldn't recognize
maybe this all, maybe this was all
just trying to feel alive

trying to feel alive

official amv

december is a pretty rough time of year for me personally, and on top of that, i've been struggling with self-confidence issues and burn out over the last couple months- i went through a bit of a dip a couple days back and since then this came out of it. it's kinda nice, and its the first bit of music ive felt properly connected to in quite a while, probably since lavender, and thats nice. 

this is a bit of an impulse post and im still deciding whether or not ill put it up for distro, ill probably decide later on tonight.

i hope if ur reading this that you've had a nice holiday season, and if it hasnt been that great for you, know youre not alone and that i hope the new year brings you all the luck and joy you deserve, and then some more on top <3

luv u

makina - light through your fingertips

out on all streaming platforms :) :) thanks @t0rr @soupandreas 4 working on it w meee

you told me to let go
cause i’ve been taking too long
i’ve been taking it solo
and you’ve been righting my wrongs

she said

how does it feel
to get what you want
how does it feel
to think that you’re good till youre gone

check, yes more of the same
you’re calling my name and i’m calling your bluff
ink on every page
i’m writing you letters and you’re writing my songs

yeah ive been living too fast and pushing on the gas and nobody’s giving me the option to stop

and i don’t wanna slow down but i never know if im living life right or wrong

she said
how does it feel
to get what you want
how does it feel
to think that you’re good till youre gone

howdoesitfeel? (prod. torr / soupandreas)

come on i'm sure
it always gets better
so stop this damage
i know it hurts
he left so soon
but i know he'll manage

he'll come back, and he'll be him again
i don't know if i still want to be friends
its not enough, its not enough, for me to pretend
its not enough, its not enough

and i dont know you anymore

your white lies, your white lies
leave with fright lines
i cry when light up with the sky
i almost died but i feel alive
it left me with fright lines
it left me with fright lines

i scratched up my old identity
fell in love so everyone could see
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me
caught up on emotions i didn't need
locked away for a summer of secrecy
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines remind me
the fright lines remind me

only last year
did we talk together
how it'd get better
we were right here
i looked at you
and you said you met her

im sidelined, waiting looking in
i cant tell if we even still are friends
i want it back, i want it back, and see you again back
i want it back, i want it back

and i dont know you anymore

your white lies, your white lies
leave with fright lines
i cry when light up with the sky
i almost died but i feel alive
it left me with fright lines
it left me with fright lines

i scratched up my old identity
fell in love so everyone could see
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me
caught up on emotions i didn't need
locked away for a summer of secrecy
the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

the fright lines

the fright lines, the fright lines, the fright lines
the fright lines, the fright lines they drew on me

fright lines!

track 1

what can i say
i always hope i could see a pretty face from here
but im miles away
i’d burn to death in your atmosphere

but after the fall comes the break
and i’ve been looking for things to change

ready set go
i’m coming back home
and i’ll be looking for something new
i’m checking my soul
for something unknown
because i won’t be stuck on you

so what comes after
they’re telling me to please dream faster
and break down my walls
i got that broken bullet out my backside
and i can’t lie i thought that

i won’t lie i thought i couldn’t take it
you on my mind while i was wasted
i thought i was happy but i just faked it
i couldn’t do this while i tried to make it

i can’t lie i thought i couldn’t take it
you on my mind while i was wasted
i thought i was happy but i just faked it
i couldn’t do this while i tried to make it

ready, set, go!

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Lyrics:
Why'd you go back on an omen
Call up on a moment
You gave everything that you had
Oh, I'd want you back if you told me
We're living in a story
You gave everything that you had

If you were happy, tell me the sounds
That you heard everyday of your life
If you could dig me a hole in the ground
Something to keep us playing around and around

If you could show me who I want to be
We could tiptoe around our hearts
If you could show me who you want to see
We could skip the imaginary part

Why'd you go back on an omen
Call up on a moment
You gave everything that you had
Oh, I'd want you back if you told me
We're living in a story
You gave everything that you had

Cut ties, dead weight
Figure out
Oblivious all of the time
Show me
All the times you fell
And I think that you're my remedy
Falling back, falling back
Eyes rolling, seen it all
Miss that, miss that
Tied to an idea
'Cause I've been waiting for too long
From dawn 'til the sun will set

If you could show me who I want to be
We could tiptoe around our hearts
If you could show me who you want to see
We could skip the imaginary part

Why'd you go back on an omen
Call up on a moment
You gave everything that you had
Oh, I'd want you back if you told me
We're living in a story
You gave everything that you had
But if I told you the truth
Could I close my eyes & hear you say it too
And if you whisper "I love you"
We could skip the imaginary part

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Living in a Story (ft. ROBY)

not an ID REEL

nothing special, just some stuff this year and some from last year. most of it are either practice songs or failed wips, etc lol. there are no particular plans with these so i don't expect to do much with them moving forward

2023 STUFF

prod. me

Your tears fall like snow
Id stand and stare to watch the silence grow

It's all my fault
The night comes crawling in
his story isn't told

A moment that I wish i had not lived
but ended giving more than i can give

A distant call
Been far too long
i wasted it all
wasted it all

But I
I know
What it's like to fall
With no more reasons made
Letting go was never my mistake


When my time bleeds slow
And you hold me close
With no more things to say
Don't know how much more i’d waste away

wasted it all

intentions

been a while idk what to do with this so here ya go

back to hibernation

goodnight lavender — something more
a part of “i hope that you never forget me.” LP

artwork by sakire:
twitter.com/sakanfish

lyrics

the pain in my heart
starts to unfold
do you feel what i feel?

so bright, that sight
i still recall
that fright, i might
cry tonight

every july, it's still cloudy
still i wonder, if i'll forget?
every july, it still haunts me
now i wonder, who you used to be

sometimes i feel
like i'm on my own
even by your side
longing for something more

sometimes i feel
like you're still right there
still by my side
longing for something more

something more
something more
something more

but i'm right here still next to you
the past is in the past
and the future holds your dreams
your dreams

push through and through and through and through and through and
through and through and through
you've got to let go

push through and through and through and through and through and
through and through and through
you've got to push through

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