so over the summer, i decided to write a much more upbeat song than i was used to. something that was a little more meaningful, something that really conveyed my feelings for someone else, and for the first time, i wrote about something and someone else in my life. i feel that songwriting is not just creating a catchy tune and getting it stuck in someone else's head, but it's talking about the emotions that you feel, or telling someone a story. this story is about unrequited love; it's the story of a person who's more grounded while the other is reckless, a bit naive, and a bit demanding (which i hate to admit, but is a lot like me). based on some of the relationships i have seen in the past, this song tells the story of someone who is willing to do anything for love, the person who will never stop thinking about what could've been, the dreamer who will never give up on the thinker. please enjoy. (lyrics are down below; also a shoutout to justin who demanded by text to get a shoutout because he thinks he's awesome)

daydream
by the windowpane
it's an awful shame
to be talking in dismay
and i'm sorry 
for all my mistakes
and my lying ways
my lying ways
but you came with the broken soul
the one that heaved a breath
that told me you were rusted gold
and i came 
with the heart that wants to dance
the one with big brown eyes
that never blink so they don’t miss their chance

(chorus) give me
oh give me a sign
gotta sip on some cold bottles
gotta cherish my own life
and when you
say that you don’t have the love
i’ll lie down on the sand with closed eyes
till you gotta tell me to wake up

listen
to what i have to say
it’s an awful shame
to be talking in dismay
and i’m sorry 
for the mess i made
you can’t forget about my lying ways

but you came with the smirks and the pale face
made me wonder how i’d ever fall asleep on those good nights, smoke-filled days
i came with the eyes that want to see
so if you watch me come in i suggest you run away from me

(chorus) give me
oh give me a sign
gotta sip on some cold bottles
gotta cherish my own life
and when you
say that you don’t have the love
i’ll lie down on the sand with closed eyes
till you gotta tell me to wake
let me
oh let me walk this line
i’m no good at persuasion 
but i’m good at stopping time
and when you
say you’ve played this game too much
i’ll lie there in your arms with closed eyes
till you gotta tell me to wake up

but you practically know every piece
the way we'd glance and smile
the way we'd talk all night
i apologize, i had to leave
too fast, too late
i'm so ashamed
for now you'll see me in your dreams
until you come
and i'll be patient, promise
hold onto this shaking grip
remember all the times we fought for this

so give me
oh give me a sign
gotta sip on some cold bottles
gotta cherish my own life
and when you
say that you don't have the love
i'll lie down on the sand with closed eyes
till you gotta tell me to wake
let me
oh let me walk this line
i’m no good at persuasion 
but i’m good at stopping time
and when you
say you’ve played this game too much
i’ll lie there in your arms with closed eyes
till you gotta tell me to wake up

so give me
oh give me a sign
gotta sip on some cold bottles
gotta cherish my own life
and when you
say that you don't have the love
i'll lie down on the sand with closed eyes
till you gotta tell me to wake up

Wake Up

recently got a recording microphone, desperately have been wanting to record this for centuries. 

Cherry Wine Cover

i haven't written a song in 10 months, so this is the best i can do for the time being. enjoy and dismiss the dog barks at the end. 

Run Cover

Sex Cover

guys r jerks!! and this song is about that!!

lyrics: 
i'm so afraid
of what's to come 
i see your face
what have i done
i feel alone
i don't feel warm
i've sold my soul
my sister warned 
she said 
don't be quick to trust
don't be quick for love
don't hold him by your broken words 
i've heard them all before 
and i'm getting bored 
i like the ones that leave me burned

this time i want venom in my veins
i want someone who can give me pain
nothing's still and i don't think i'm sane
but this time i want venom in my veins

and you have me black 
you have me bruised
you have me messed up and confused
you have me thinking every night that i should just apologize
and i beg to leave
go far away
because i can't
deal with this place
you got me lost
can't find my way
and i'm so tired
they said 
don't be scared to lose
cause you've got to choose
to take some pride but leave your smile
and i've heard them all before 
and i'm getting bored 
i haven't felt love for a while

so this time i want venom in my veins
i want someone who can give me pain
nothing's still and i don't think i'm sane
but this time i want venom in my veins

and he keeps telling me that this will pass
that it's a summer and it's never gonna last
and he keeps telling me i move too fast
even though i'm here and i'm still trapped inside my past

but maybe i don't want to feel this pain
and maybe he's too nice to play this game 
but nothing's still and i don't think i'm sane
so this time i want venom in my veins

The Havens

venom in my veins

so this is a sad song about missing somebody enjoy
best with headphones <3

lyrics: 
he says it's too far
living an ocean apart
but i don't see it
he says it's too hard 
i'm too broken and scarred 
and i'll be bleeding

he doesn't know that my mouth runs dry
talking about his smile
thinking about that night
looking through neon lights
and maybe then i might
sit down and wonder why
was it all just a lie? 
what did we leave behind? 
so i tell myself baby when nobody's listening

(chorus):
just hold on
just hold on
when he's gone
just hold on 

he says it's not me 
that it's just a few weeks 
it's somewhat secret
and he says when this ends
that we'll still be friends 
but we don't talk anymore 
baby what was it for? 
did you mean it? 

but he doesn't know that i miss his touch
i miss the fool he was
in fact he reminds me of 
that song that was played too much
and i know he's given up 
'cause i think i was too rough
baby was i enough?
what happened to our love? 

so just hold on
just hold on 
when he's gone
just hold on
when life's wrong
and i can't move on
when he's gone 
just hold on

and i know i promised 
to be more than honest
but i've never wanted a lover like you
i'm too impatient 
i've been begging to say this
i'm tired of waiting and playing your rules 

and you'll never know that i'm lost at sea
i've lost a part of me 
i gave it to you, but i didn't mean
to hold onto you, 'cause we both agreed 
i'd follow your rules, i'd make them believe
that you were a face that i haven't seen 
so now we're two strangers, just barely sixteen 
who never knew love and what this song means

so just hold on 
just hold on 
when he's gone 
just hold on 
when life's wrong
and i can't move on 
when he's gone 
just hold on

just hold on

there once was a kid named ac who thought he was better than me. i told him he's shit, and this song just proves it, so just listen; i hope you'll agree.

(shoutout to kobe robinson for being in the cover art u go bro)

lyrics: 
ACs not half the man he wants to be 
a stoner fratboy wannabe
a living insecurity
AC, he doesnt know a thing or two
of how to act or paint his shoes
and pardon me if im too rude
but he thinks im so afraid
of a skateboard and a horrid music taste

so AC doesnt even know me
thinks he can control me
but he doesnt own me
AC really thinks that he insults me
id like for him to show me
and i dont think he knows me
i dont know how to say it
hes so overrated 
so please dont say you want to be 
a boy like AC

AC tells stories from two years ago
he doesnt know when to let go
he thinks that he needs his own show
id watch it only if it came to end
cause he knows that he has no friends
he likes to bark at all of them 
but he thinks im so afraid
of a skateboard and a horrid music taste

so AC doesnt even know me
thinks he can control me
but he doesnt own me
AC really thinks that he insults me
id like for him to show me
and i dont think he knows me
i dont know how to say it
hes so overrated 
so please dont say you want to be 
a boy like AC

and were staring down in black and white
and were putting up a fight, putting up a fight
burning red
he acts this way, he has no right
he cant take away my sense of pride
he cant be the rain to douse my fire
he cant take over my head

cause AC doesnt even know me
thinks he can control me
but he doesnt own me
AC really thinks that he insults me
id like for him to show me
and i dont think he knows me
i dont know how to say it
hes so overrated 
so please dont say you want to be 
a boy like AC

hey! you there! ever felt guilty because boy, have i

(also, first song with a naughty word ehe prepare your ears)

lyrics: 
i was running out of line
i snuck a little closer
went beyond a border
i get drunk off subway highs
a taste of half-past sober
telling me it's over
says i've gotta pay a price
boy, i didn't mean it 
they didn't believe it 
and i've lost track of all the times 
when i was last found sleeping
i was caught daydreaming bout the day

when you'll walk my way
say that i made all the broken parts make sense
and i'll be somewhat safe
now it's too late
you don't look my way
and all they said was in my head there's still some left to pay

so i don't think you could stand to be 
a mark of the mess that you made from me 
'cause there's a little voice inside my head
says to pay off my debt
did you pay off your debt? 
i don't think you know what it's like 
to be somebody cut from someone's life 
'cause there's a little voice inside my head 
says to pay off my debt 
did you pay off your debt? 
did you pay off your debt yet? 

i got caught up in my shame
needed a distraction 
looking for reaction
"i was young and i wanted somebody to forget my name
i wanted to see what mistakes i could make" 
but that's what they say 
anyway

i'm a ghost 
a rumor that you told 
a fairytale hooked to a belt, a fucked up mess
a soul already sold 
now it's too late
you don't look my way
and all they said was in my head there's still some left to pay

so i don't think you could stand to be
a mark of the mess that you made from me
'cause there's a little voice inside my head 
says to pay off my debt 
did you pay off your debt? 
i don't think you know what it's like 
to be somebody cut from someone's life 
'cause there's a little voice inside my head 
says to pay off my debt 
did you pay off your debt? 
did you pay off your debt yet? 

stay opposed, even though
i break off silence 
get used to talking to four walls
i've tried so many times 
we still stay quiet 
was i the cause of our downfall? 
stay opposed, even though
i break off silence 
get used to talking to four walls 
i've tried so many times 
we still stay quiet 
so what did i do wrong? i'm sorry i'm so lost 

'cause i don't think you could stand to be 
a mark of the mess that you made from me
'cause there's a little voice inside my head 
says to pay off my debt 
did you pay off your debt? 
i don't think you know what it's like 
to be somebody cut from someone's life 
'cause there's a little voice inside my head 
says to pay off my debt
did you pay off your debt? 
did you pay off your debt yet?

wishanastar

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