sobriety (cover)

last summer was a breeze gone by
this summer just a hell of a ride
woke up with my sights set high
cant stop always wanting to die

but you rest in that tree at night
its always sad whys it gotta be that way 
 you never mean what you always tryin to say 
whats got you all choked up

itll never be fine
you cry, you lovable sort

cuz you cant change time
spitswap in a pillow fort

spitswap, too

freaks (cover)

merry christmas
i learned how to play guitar again! 

tranquil afternoon
im gonna find a way out soon
the thought of you turns grey
with every turning page

seeped in black and white
i take your words and close my eyes
does it hurt when i start to cry?
it always lives in the back of my mind


walking beside me
show me the right way
im scared of the future
tell me im okay

i dont wanna cry with the lights off
i just wanna finish what im working on
i dont know myself and i dont know why but
i dont want to die

a quiet relapse & im learning again

crying to nobody
talking to somebody
id do it all for you and do it all over again
ill make it right
tonight

my thoughts consume me
my hands will cover me
i saw a star and it was floating above your head
i guess i was wrong
again

but the sky still moves over me
and i am still just standing here
looking up at night

i am nobody
you are somebody
you have me in your palms
im on my knees
i still check in everyday to see you speak

i will be nothing more
i will be something else
ill kill myself until ive made something new instead
no please dont cry
ill be alright

so let me fall down once more
let me feel it all
over and over and over and over
again

im sorry for everything

i will always be

recorded this guitar for the first time i hope it sounds good

i wanna be the guy (cover)

regrets are the only thing that i think about
sometimes your smile is too
but with nothing else to do
or nothing else to lose
anymore 
i wish i didnt wake up
i never told you how pretty you are  
or perfect, you are enough
nobody but you
could help me like you do
anymore


i've been at the bottom of the well
i don't want to be here
can't you tell?
if it meant i had to stay here to protect you
then i will
can't you tell?
i promise that i'll make it to tomorrow
if you swear to be good

can i help you get away from me?

7_12_24_02-00-18

a year
recorded february 14th 2025

i fall into this open grave i dug for myself
i call out but you dont seem to hear my cries for help
and every step you take feels youre getting more distance
from me
i hate how i give you my all until i break
and you still walk away

but im sorry 
im not strong enough
im not good enough
for anyone to love

i cry and cut this worthless flesh out of me to bleed me dry
this painful truth that nothing that i do will ever help you
nothings right 
why cant i convince you to stay? cause i knew that i changed
i learned im not broken
i dont want to lose the first and only person
that ive ever loved

and in the end
no one came to save me
no one tried to love me
not even myself

i just wanted you
to hold me with your hands
tell me that you're there
no please dont leave again

im sorry

i miss u



youre probably okay
and im just fine
but i just hate the way that you just pop in my dreams every night
and im still frozen
im still timeless
i just hate the way that i cant seem to let go

and i wish that we were still friends
i wish that i didnt have to fall
do u think that we can meet again
do u think we can meet at all

very zach farache esque im sorry

feeling lonely and tired nowadays

im so lonely right now
everybody sees me like this
i stay up and i frown
wandering through all of the abyss

let me know if you're tired
i can carry you to the end
cuz im so fucking tired
of drifting away from my friends

lonely

worried soft cover

fifteen minutes (cover)

222

everything about a sweet song
doesnt come easy, i know
and those things will be forgotten
by what you see

so wont you find out whats next in this life?

...

wisher

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