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endgame
i had a time n place to fall back into the fog
replay, id go back today
wish i never called it off
know im not one to just push it aside
i feel my lowest just steppin outside
brushin the dust off my lungs just to breathe alright
now i gotta take shit just to sleep at night

dim lights on my conscious
i crossed out my past mistakes cuz i just dont wanna process
im aware of all that time takes
i wont keep u guessin ima stay the same

surface tension i been making dents on top of water
im built from components held by PCB and solder
death watcher, keep it close to me
like i could just close the page but i dont bother
hold my head down underwater
to the slaughter
feel my soul levatate out of this shell when i step out
i really feel the distance now
it feels so wrong to stick around
coat on, i dont want a send off
threats artificial i fend off
dig straight down like a check off
bite my tongue, just wanted to just say it i held off

dim lights on my conscious
i crossed out my past mistakes cuz i just dont wanna process
im aware of all that time takes
i wont keep u guessin ima stay the same

replay i standup n pace, its all back to this
i cant concentrate, just hesitate
i pick up the pieces like whats to take
and like whats to say
i keep my mouth shut like what can be done
all a fuckin waste
i dont want a friend cause i have to face
that ive failed the people that stuck to me

dust

@taylor

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board it up keep it fortified
i been tryna get my money right
lames talkin bout me i aint hold it tight
social suicide, dont have to hide
worth the price
red vein 5am
mitragyna make me doze off
tapped at 5am
led in my gut, windows frostin
deep in the cut candle droppin
prints in the snow see me walkin
cold i been froze up
reap no reward like whats the hold up
ghost in the door when i pull up
can i convince
jus let me go just let me
double tap chug on my back
leather seats all black
223 n thats a wrap`
dark net grab a pack
soon as i let go it pull me back
take a hint its not that
snow fall down turn to soot
bring me bad news
i live on an empty street cause i have to
bridge my life to the clouds if i had to
make sure its not me that you're attached to
candle wax dried on the desk like some past dues
pushed me out the nest into destitute

red vein 5am
mitragyna make me doze off
tapped at 5am
led in my gut, windows frostin
deep in the cut candle droppin
prints in the snow see me walkin

soot (taylor morgan)

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pitch black like it's nightfall
i guess i'm the type to keep it vague and keep the lights off
rinsed that, now it's all cold
brace now, it's over
i gotta go
if i make it out it's on my own
i planted myself here by my own hand
try to face it all before the snow lands
i don't keep in touch i guess you know that
and daylight never meets me guess i know that
i got all these habits
can't control that
step into the night i got my own back
always like that
it almost feels like someone's here
could you empathize though i'm not near
show face, i don't want to
dont need to explain what i've been through
just go patch it up
swear i tried, turned to dust
i can't mess it up if i never show some love
i give doubt, not trust
sit inside this house and i rust

vague (jolst)

ft. cr1tter
prod. remghost x caves

lyrics
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i'm free-falling out the back of the window
back to when things were still simple
now i've got nothing left
i'm just a boy on the internet
we won't talk we'll just sit here in limbo
looking for signs and some symbols
some that we'll never see
now we're just high on a memory

can you feel me through the screen
can you tell me what it means
when i pour my guts out
and you leave me on seen
i just lost a friend
i just lost a lover
walking on a tightrope
with my eyes covered
i don't wanna fight no
i don't wanna crush her
i feel like a psycho
when i'm off the uppers
uppers downers
i just miss being around her
another lie another high another compromise 
i can't wait no more i'll be gone tonight
go through hell to see the heaven in her eyes
she treat me bad i treat her well there's no surprise

i'm free-falling out the back of the window
back to when things were still simple
now i've got nothing left
i'm just a boy on the internet
we won't talk we'll just sit here in limbo
looking for signs and some symbols
some that we'll never see
now we're just high on a memory

my recollection's alluding to lust
picking my brain until it self destructs
something inside of me's calling your bluff
calling your bluff
this little travesty lies in the rough
thought i'd get over it but i'm still stuck
endlessly cycling this off the cuff
i'm not enough

boy on the internet (ft. cr1tter) (prod. remghost x caves)

lyrics:

Get the fuck out 
Light the truck up
This had took away faces
They refer back
Im the top guy
Im in 25 places
Light this blunt up
Drop the match stick
Blow a Hole thru that pavement
Whos the right guy
Whos the right one
No one else want the placement

Im so right now
Im so hay day
Im so I dont care what who say 
Fuck it pour the next deuce
Im counting lines up on a Tuesday
If I text a bitch its link time
All im getting backs a true say
Fuck it never mind the mood change
Im too busy for a mood swing
So Tell me baby u think who changed
I been always on the same thing
This what never going broke bring 
Lotta problems when the phone ring

Light this blunt up
Drop the match stick
Blow a Hole thru that pavement
Whos the right guy
Whos the right one
No one else want the placement

Im in the mix baby im me again
Sorry as fuck
U deep in that drink calling me again im not home
Took me a second to get in this mode
Even my skin tryna turn into to stone
Too many numbers thats not in my phone
Half of the industry hearing my tone
And Baby im back in the city again
Sold out shows in sold out clothes
Baby im back on the grease again
I catch fire and there I go
Whatever I say is wherever they go
Thats my dog he take his bones
I just want this cash in my hand before I land
Before im home

So pick the fuck up
And throw the rest out
I been here for like ages
Its just the break down
This the last one
This when all the shit changes
Light this blunt up
Drop the match stick
Blow a Hole thru that pavement
Whos the right guy
Whos the right one
No one else want the placement

this where everything changes (eric godlow)

lyrics:

Draped in this porch light
Is a broken man 
Stained with his guilt wine red thru his hands
These Words that we know
Halt the truth relayed to him
When everything is lost he picks up to start again

Based on his blood sports
I cannot defend
He just picks the brick back up as he stands
Ive been getting out more
Hell be sure to state
But Fuck if I could tell his rage paved thru his wake
When Every single second counts double on this day
Plan ahead for proper use to minimize ur waste
I cant even feel the copper splatter on my face
Id be none the wiser without profile of this taste
In his bruised hand he holds my back teeth
before the dirts layed he stashes more flesh
On this Wednesday im pushing daises
But On this Thursday im pushing roses 

Draped in this porch light
Is a broken man 
Stained with his guilt wine red thru his hands
These Words that we know
Halt the truth relayed to him
When everything is lost he picks up and goes again

Wait and Watch as his mask drops and his face shows
Its just like a mirror of looking at my own
I swear to god its like the last night I was out alone
Just Listen to my insight and stay the fuck at home
Its Big guns on the green line and a tired soul
U could get marked just like anyone u know
Leave his face on him side ways with a black hole
He just blew his brains out the back his fucking skull
Flayed on the stop sign sits his beating heart
Its like the human body get help break and fall apart
So Back into his hiding hole inside the long dark
He Rests until the year is done and halloween starts

Hlwn25 (eric godlow)

Lost With All The Raw Emotions

Broken by You

Heartbroken Again (Girl POV)

(prod.knkr)

this is another witch's tale.

i still sleep with the lights on
trauma got me wired wrong
every shadow feels like something
every quiet feels to loud

i don't trust the calm
never learned how
but you breathe next to me
and the fear backs down
you make the monsters quiet 
even when my head's a riot

you don't fix the damage 
but you sit with me inside it
you make the monsters quiet
and i don't shake like i use to
you don't save me but you stay
and somehow that's enough too
somehow that's enough too

i wake up scared 
that you'll leave before 
i open my eyes
i hate the way i need you
then push you out of my life

im sorry for the moods
im sorry for the rage
im sorry for the versions of me 
i haven't tamed

i ruin things i love
but im trying not to break this
i know i get destructive
when the panic hits the surface
i ruin things i love
but i swear i wanna stay
I'm fighting all the instincts
that tell me to run away

im a storm, your the quiet
but you still show up 
when im violent
with my feelings
with my fear
im trying baby

cant you see im trying here
to be a better person

you make the monsters quiet

you make the monsters quiet (prod. knkr)

(prod. sorrow bringer)

this is another witch's tale.

i use to live in ruins
cold walls and heavy air
but loving you felt different
like someone opened windows there

i didn't know i could be soft
i thought my heart was set in stone
(was set in stone)
i don't recognize my heart
but in a good way
it beats a little calmer
ever since you choose to stay
these bruises don't feel permanent
the night isn't so dark

i don't recognize my heart 
but i think i like the change
i use to hate my reflection
but now I'm learning who i am
and every time you say you love me
i believe it just a little more

i don't recognize my heart
but maybe that's the point
maybe healing wasn't losing me
it was finding my voice

dont recongize my heart (sorrow bringer)

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