(prod. by neverforever.)

[shine]
I can't call
You’re gone
Can’t stay strong
I’m flawed

What went wrong,
This song
Hurts my cause 

Since you left me in the dirt I’m all alone
I can’t fucking get off of my phone
Way too many sins,
Need to atone

I’ll just run away 
Until I’m home

I don’t wanna stay for a fight,
I’ve been too proud
Asking if you love me back,
Silence is too loud

Scared that you’ll be on the attack,
Blend in with the crowd
If you ever hit me back,
I’ll block you with a frown

[Daywatch]
I told you “I’m fine” 
For the 30th time
But everybody’s wondering
When I'm coming out of my
Room

I say “It's just comfortable” but
I hate being vulnerable, and
You keep prodding me
You won’t get answers from me

Why are you talking bad about me
Aren't we supposed to be family?
Aren't you supposed to be proud of me?

I’m tired of these motherfuckers
Acting like my friends
Sliding with a motherfucking pussy, 
You don't even know him
He makes my life hell,
Shit talking me to your face
Real man, knock his ass down
Should've knock his ass down

Don't call me after, 
I won't pick up
(Fuck)
I’m a real friend so I'll pick up

There’s only one difference between us
You’re an asshole
And I’m a dumb fuck

[nightmares.]
Dumb fuck
Gotta pick up
Pack up all of my clothes

I’m leaving, leaving home
Wonder where I’ll go

Too much, yeah it's too much
Stress is overflowing,
Hope I get by a
Car crossing the street

Tired, dying
All alone

Where do I go?
Too stressed out
Tears are flowing

Say goodbye
I'm not turning,
Back on that road
Turn the last page

turn back (ft. shine & daywatch)

Lyrics:
Wonder why I'm alive
Question why I'm still alive
Question why I still try
Is there even a point?

Was there ever a point
I hate my face
God I'm a disgrace x2

I, don't see a point anymore
I can't see the same
I hate all of this pain
I hate all of my face
I hate everything
Let me die here, please

But it doesn't end like that
It'll never end like that
It doesn't work that way and I'm sorry
Can't you forgive me this time
Can't you stop lying to my face

Don't say you love me
Mom and Dad never cared
They'll hate me in 2 years anyway
I'll never be me x2

I'll never be me and I guess that's fine
It's fine I guess
It's I digress
It's fine I swear

cynicism (grey skies)

First self prod
Lyrics:
The flowers dying (they're all dead)
I wish I knew (you never told me)
The birds are crying (crying)
Why aren't you? (why aren't you crying)

Can you tell me? (you'll never tell me)
Why am I scared? (I just don't get it)
Can you take my hand? (take it please)
Can you lead me there? (lead me there)

I just don't get it (I never will)
I cannot take this fall (not again)
I think I'm dying (dying)
I am nearly ready to go (ready now)

It's time (it's time)
To start anew-

(outro sequence)

i think i finally stopped having nightmares.

(nightmares.)
Been staring at your eyes
The moonlight shimmers
Round the fire, our hearts intertwine
I can see it in your pretty eyes again

I think we have something
I think its pretty clear
Let me hold you
Tonight x2

Let me hold you tonight my dear

(Wyfy)
i'll bite my tongue
words were passed but never said
ill stay quiet 
I wish to be in his place instead
3 years have gone by
you still live rent free in my head
anxious tendencies will subside
still learning how to control it

ive been doubting myself
think ill just fidget for a while
ive been holding it all to well
some nights i look back to see you smile

time heals all wounds
except for itself
because it's way too late now
and im left here by myself

(nightmares.)
Fire lights your eyes up, again, again
I see your warm smile
Warmer then the day
Helps me stay awake again

Can I hold you one last time?
Can we kiss in the moonlight?
Can we kiss and look in our eyes?
Can we see those sparks fly?

I feel sparks fly when I'm with you ft. wyfy

Memories in my head
They fall apart like threads
A puppet, on strings I am
I hope that you don't leave me again

I cannot see this pain
My eyes they bleed out
I feel like I'm insane
Everything goes quiet

quiet x5
everything goes-
QUIET
quiet
QUIET
Quiet-
Be quiet

Not again I cry out for help
I cannot be heard
Fallen under many a spell
I know I won't be found

QUIET x2
EVERYTHING GOES QUIET
I CAN NOT UNDERSTAND
WHY IM LEFT HERE
OH PUPPET THAT I AM
WITH NO STRINGS ATTACHED
I CAN NOT BE HERE
ITS ALL TO DAMN-
Quiet

everything goes quiet

Production: Pekarot
Original: https://on.soundcloud.com/byEB9ip4P6YjGzsC9

Lyrics:
A year ago today, 
I cut my wrist
Never felt the same,
Now I'm in the abyss

Stuck in a pit, yeah
Wanna die, yeah
Never felt the same, yeah
Always tired
I don't wanna be here,
Not anymore

Hate myself, 
I just wanna leave now
Cut my wrist,
now I bleed out
End my life,
yeah It'll be a quick out

Feelin so stuck in this drought
I'm never gunna find a way out

I'm so done with life
cause I'm forced to be 
something I don't want to be
I don't wanna be me
Please just take me 
out of this body

(Evergarden) 
I need time to think this through
i got choices i cant make 
i been tired as of late
i tend to think too much
at night i admit it 
i dont talk too much
hope i dont fall victim

been while  
hope ill heal now 
was kept away 
broke the seal now
i dont know how to feel 
not anymore 
x2

(withered roses)
Say goodbye to the old me 4x
Now these scars don't heal 5x

February 10th 2023 (Remastered) w/ evergarden

Prod: Me
Lyrics:
Do I really have friends?
I am I boring in the end?
Cut my wrist again
These thoughts, they keep me up

Maybe I should go
I don't really know.

I don't know,
Guess I never will
Who is really there?
For me. x2

Tell me please
I need to know right now,
Cause I don't know now
And I'm losing hope right now

I'm losing hope right now.

who is there for me

Prod: Me
Lyrics:
Are we still friends? (Oh, are we?)
Cause it's kinda hard to tell (Hard to tell)
You don't talk to me (talk to me)
No, not anymore (anymore)
Not anymore (anymore)

I see you active online (why are you active online?)
Still haven't replied (not a single message)
It's almost been a month (A month of silence)
I guess that was the end.

I guess it was the end
Guess it was the end
Guess it was the end
I guess it was the end.

The end of everything (YOU RUINED IT ALL)
The end of over 2 years of friendship (TWO YEARS)
I've known you for so long,
I guess it ends sometimes as well (it ends right now.)

It's time to say goodbye
No, I'm sorry but I have to let go (go.)
It's all your fault though.

hope is taken, not given

Prod: me
Lyrics:
I've taken too much time,
Just to not feel ok
All these memories,
just feel like empty space

I think I've cried about everyday
Maybe one day
I'll be ok.

I've taken too much time,
Just to not feel ok
All these memories,
just feel like blank space

I think I've cried about everyday
I don't think Ill ever be ok
Its been too long
I've taken time
I've had my space
I'm done with the crying

Done with the tears
Done with the lying
I'm done, I'm done
I'm done, I'm done
I'm done, I'm done

I'm done.

done with it all

self prod
lyrics: 
In the meadows, I lay
In the gallows, I stay
As they let go, I break
As they watch on, it’s my fate

In the meadows, I lay
In the gallows, I stay
As they let go, I break
As they watch on, it’s my fate
I can’t let go, it’s too late

All this time spent, it’s erased
It’s erased
It’s erased
It’s erased

hung in the gallows (where I stay)

Lyrics:
Is this, is this the end again
I've been falling
I've woken up again
Nightmares. never end,
I'm here once again

My body rots
Am I still here?
After a thousand years
I fade into soil
I've died again it seems

The birds and their calls
Envelope me again, again
I've fallen in too deep
These wounds won't heal
It hurts so much again
Again.

enveloped in the soil

Cover by https://soundcloud.com/safehavendot
Everything else by withered roses

Lyrics:
I have died too many times just to ponder
Why I am alive at all, it hurts to wonder
Wonder through the forest and look at all the greenery
Wonder if live even has any meaning

Stop to take a look at all the different flowers
Bullet in this gun it really makes you ponder
I have cried myself to sleep at least 2 times
I don't really think that I should be alive.

And the rain falls from the clouds
Leaving dew on all of the flowers
"I am not ok" I say too many times.

Take your time
Look in my eyes
I have died.
One too many times

I don't think think I'll ever be ok
All these thoughts they swirl in my brain
I'm so stressed out I can't even cry
Everyday it hurts being alive.

withered roses

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