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reason you left him

nicky & keepsake - reason you left him (spirxt) [hosted by jane]

deshaun, 4 meech x saga - always & forever {keepsake & jannah} #dmc

She was pulling on my heartstrings, yea I’m fasting while I sing. Yea you stole my flow, but you’ll never be osei. I just wanna I wanna cope… I wanna cut everyday. Gotta hide my wrists i don’t want them on display. I don’t know if you’re my bro cause you’re talking shit everyday. They were the reason that I had to hurt on myself, yeah I gotta open my diary and talk to myself.

When I look back, I’m so disappointed in myself. Cause I cut myself too fucking much instead of getting help. I don’t know what I did to anybody, why are they giving me hell? At the end of the day I gotta smile and tell myself, “oh well”. Even though I’m the class clown, I’m unhappy inside. Got many cuts on me but that shit’s something I gotta hide. Why did you talk behind my back bro you blew my high. I never thought she would ruin my life when she told me hi. I was fucking delusional and I fucking had to pick myself up. And I had nobody to talk to bro I was so lost huh? That’s why I’m so glad I got music so that I could express myself. These day 1s ain’t your bros, they’ll switch up on u for clout.

For numbers and clout… I thought that we were brothers. Idgaf about a stream or gaf about a number, one day I’m gonna be up tho and my locals are gonna be plumbers. But when that shit fucking happens I’m never gonna switch up on my brothers. Rip to my brothers that are deceased right now, I gotta remind the world who tf yall were.

The thought of a loved one dying, that shit sometimes scares me. Cause I’ll spend my time crying, that shit could feel so heavy. Yeah in high school bro, I just wanted to fit in But instead they tried to bully me, bro I’m not kidding. That shit made me cut myself cause it never felt like I was winning. I know that soon it’s my bday but I’m still traumatized by the past. Ever since she kissed me I knew that this shit would never last. I’m crying so fucking much cuz of the past.

Even tho I smile every single day I’m still suicidal. Idgaf anymore bro I’m not bringing a bible, in my worst day I prayed so fucking hard but it felt like god never heard me. I never did shit to a soul I don’t know why people really wanna hurt me. Well I guess that I’m too fucking empathetic for this fucking world. Had to sniff on some ketamine cause bro I have to forget about this world.

trauma response

trauma response (prod thr6x)

1. wish you were here (sentencc)
2. loving you hurts ft friendly (dimbleb x smxkey stunna)
3. your beauty makes me feel insecure about myself (mordy's suixide) 
4. I fell inlove from the moment i saw your teeth (mili)
5. finn and jake the dog (mordy's suixide)
6. sorry for what i said when i was inlove (i think dimpleb)
7. i love you lauryn (idk prod)
8. in the club heartbroken (idk prod)
9. Lost Of Words ft Rage (dimpleb)
10. Why you leave me (yungdni)
11. Will You Be My Thot (dimpleb)
12. Essence Of Fall ft Yokaiu (idk prod)
13. I feel like I'm not living I'm just a corpse Interlude (idk prod)
14. I came to an acceptance that i will be alone forever 
15. No-where near/ Piece of me

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@senojvv

i want u as bad as u want me
i’ll be ok, as long as u round me
and plz don’t leave me
right where u found me
ik that u see it, my heart is pounding

take care when u leave me
yo uber outside
i see them chills coming thru
right down yo spine
and ik yk yk
that i won’t be here for long
but i can’t be on my own
sorry i did u wrong

ong ima slide right in
for u, ima count my sins
on top, keep moving them hips
don’t stop, keep kissing my lip
kick rocks, I’m not one of them
it’s hard, too keep my hands to myself
it’s hard, to not kiss and tell
u are, like an angel from hell

(Adlibs)

count my sins (senoj)

@violetxx9 


we’re like stan and wendy
one day i swear oh yeah our love will be the end of me
how can we go from destined lovers to just enemies?
how can we go from arguments to giving into me?
it’s such a mystery

starting talking on the low 
holding hands to giving lo
baby yk how it goes 
see lil rage up in his glo

heard the word was going round and she came to see me 
don’t worry bout it baby everything peachy
we get to speaking
she gets to screaming 
she’s hyperventilating baby why u screaming 
she gets to tweaking 
everything is sinking 
i get to thinking baby why did we sink


we’re like stan and wendy
one day i swear oh yeah our love will be the end of me
how can we go from destined lovers to just enemies?
how can we go from arguments to giving into me?
it’s such a mystery

like stan&wendy prod violet

My clothes they turned red, like my heart. Kay, I wish I was dead life is hard. Either way I’ll still just fucking die like bro what’s the point? Smoking on that big sativa nigga u called it a joint, my cuts nigga r so fresh; I’m hiding my cuts w my jewelry either way I’m still so fucking fresh. 

I hope that you listen to this after I’m dead, don’t look at my face bro let me rest… I’m always walking w a smile while I’m unhappy inside, when I open my eyes in the morning I just start w a big sigh. That hoe’s a red flag nigga she was showing signs, was chasing on that bitch til I came across a stop sign. 

Wait, osei? It’s time to look at yourself. I’m tired of the games that she plays, that shits not good for my health. I cut myself and it’s insane, I’m tryna die nigga oh well; went vertical this time, there’s blood on the floor oh well. 

Dunno if I’m going to heaven, dunno if I’m going to hell. I have to get my emotions out nigga when I record I fucking yell, I went to therapy bro a few times that shit did not mfing help. Sniffed on that ketamine bro by myself, I hate being sober like hell. When will this stop? Mixed opioids w ketamine I wanna die. 

I often ask myself, what am I doing here? Don’t like seeing the man that I see in the mirror. I’m tired of proving myself that I’m good enough, maybe they’re right; maybe I’m not good enough. Got my heart on my sleeve I always gotta smile, even in my worst days bro I just gotta smile. 

Need a girl that looks at me like Michonne does to Rick, remember all the times I was looking at the pics. Oh too bad all that shit was a lie, when I’m at school my wrist is something I hide.

one day, i'll be gone forever.

one day, i'll be gone forever. (prod yungdni)

hurt me first (bloodonmyskin)

share with me the blankets your wrapped in / Featuring angelrave x rage (bloodonmyskin)

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