LYRICS:

[Verse 1]
I'm rooming with my mother again
With fear looming, consuming thoughts, I defend
Put my walls up at heights they ain't ever been
I'm not in this to be nice, become friends or to make amends
I just wanna prevent having to fucking call 911 again
And no, I will never pretend or ever repent for what I have said
But bein' in this position was something that I never would have dreamt
It's like a nightmare that I cannot misrepresent
But I will attempt, to be as distant from her as possible
She's volatile and thinks she's infallible
Everyone else sees it as comical
But to me it's a psychological 
disease. That needs to be treated. 
Once there is change, then I will believe it. 
But as of yet she's conceited, sitting in her own world of appeasement.
The moment I get a chance, I'm leaving.
Doubt me? You know nothing about me
I'll make everyone around proud until they'll stop lookin' down at me.

[Verse 2]
I moved out of my father's place on my birthday
The big 1-8, went to work at 5 AM then ate a piece of cake
Think you're life is worse, this you can't even debate
I blew out the candles, as I dismantle my life and leave it in shambles
This situation might be something that I cannot handle
I know this because I keep poppin' these pills by the handful
Feels like I'm climbing Mount Everest while strapped to my back is an anvil
And still
I do everything that I can to resist,
but I must insist, you are like a cancerous cyst
Come inside my mind, you'll be horrified by what you will find
These thoughts, I've never surmounted 'em, why?
Because these thoughts are an account of my life
There's no getting rid of 'em...trust me...I've tried

[Verse 3]
A couple times it even got so bad I wanted to die...
So I took a bottle of pills, and I started to cry
As I gulped 'em down I should've left a note nearby
Too late, I'm throwin' up and I'm in a hospital bed.
Spoke with some professionals and a lot of 'em said,
"Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem".
That's ironic. They tried to solve mine and were asked to define "chronic".

Moving On

Immortality

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