Connor

I removed all my other songs, and decided to experiment with different styles. This is a freestyle i just did too some random beat i found on my computer :X

I just copied the first part and stuck it to the end, for a repeat and shortened the beat.


Beautiful (freestyle)

Just something i put together. Im still working on it soo feed back would be great,

Yes i know i have shitty recording, i dont have a proper mic
And no i havent editited it, i just quickly recorded it before work

Shout out to redhooknoodles for the instrumental

Lyrics:
Chorus:

Round my hometown, memories are fresh
and in my hometown, memories are fresh


Verse 1: 

As he stares at the long corridor thats infront of him
he remembers the memories that got him to this place
how every single day he walked through these thin two walls
how he felt that every day, he was getting much older
felt his heart growing colder
the weight of the world on his shoulders

the stress of a broken family
all relationships in smoulders
burnt to flames
thats when you start to see
the tears on his face
and at the peak of the pain
when everything seems to fade
thats when he stops falling to the floor
picks himself up from one knee
and keeps moving foward

he's alone now, he dont need no one,
walking through these corridors
a ghost aint stopping till his dreams are done
a soldier mentality
his breathing slow 
focusing on what the worlds about to throw at him
and his memories start to fade and draw him in
he remembers the pain
remembers the tears
his days sitting in the rain
fuck it he says

keeps his head looking at the prize
never giving in
tunnel vision setting in
they wanna see him stumble
aint ever gonna keep him down
thats the way the cookie crumbles

Chorus


Verse 2:

He remembers back to a time, walking the streets of his old suburb,
thoughts on his mind,
standing on a old curb
rain falling infront of his eyes
but he feels nothing, an empty shell, 
his mind in a far far place,
memories fresh
still like the death of his parents
back when he was young, how they raised him, 
taught him all he knew, taught him to fight for what he believed in
taught him to survive, in a world that wanted to see him fail

and fuck it he said, took a step foward, used his voice to prevail
poured all his anger love and hurt
into the words he wrote down
and as he sat around staring the sky
the lights blinding like the fire burning inside
they wanna see him stumble
and stay down
take away all he has
throw away his luck
this is his time
this is his shot
he aint ever giving up
dont give a fuck 
what they throw at him, his armour's hardened
his weapons sharpened
face looking foward
gaze darkened
to his goal in front of him
cross him, you'll unleash the demon inside of him
he aint ever gonna stop
they wanna see him stumble
he'll just get right back up


Chorus


Verse 3:

Memories(Draft)

Yeahhh welllll thanks.  i thought id upload a freestyle that i did about 7 minutes ago, because i realised i didnt have work.

Hopefully you enjoy it, its probably one of the best ones i've done... im still practicing.

Give me feed back,
 
Shout out to B-lout and JMS--- Mhuka mhuka nuka buk

Wolves(Freestyle)

Something i been working on, its heavy shit. Personal

So if you dont get what its trying to say, well then, you haven't experienced what its talking about

Let me know what you think. 

Once again, sorry bout quality. Hopefully i can use proper recording gear and add effects, 

Torn Apart(Draft)

I wrote this song, about parental abuse. If you cant understand what its trying to express, you should open your mind more.

Give us feed back and tips, the lyrics are all written by me.

Credit to Emotion for the beat.

lyrics:

Chorus:
Let him hold you, let him touch you, soon you'll understand

Verse 1:

She thinks back to a time that she never had, 
where people would say sit back yeah just relax,
where she would let it all happen, not even fighting back
the future holds an escape, but she cant forget the past
he liked to live that good life money and gas,
honey and ass running and fast bud and then grass a hunger that lasts,
a must and a have 
a jump and a land
drunk from the jacks,
he'd open his hand
face stinging from the slaps

inhale it from the soul trapped in bricks having talks with the god asking why this,
as a kid going wild alot of choices makes life the only 
chance that i got fuck the money and the ice. 
I'm a angel in the dark but evil still finds me, 
no were to run no where to hide setting my third eye free, 
seeing babies in slums who's eyes read god please help me because 
I'm not coming home until my parents stop beating on me,

Verse 2:
The plea in her eyes, everyone could see
but no one chose to believe
they couldn't percieve
the fact of her getting beaten by him
no one listened
she was cold and weakened
till one day she slit her wrists and let the cuts deepen
wishing that she'd lose all feeling
the light was leaving her eyes
the blue started to subside
covered in darkness
was when she was brought back to the light,
life flashing before her eyes,
the shine inside her, the bright
she chose to not give up
she chose to fight,
stand up for her beliefs
but by that time, she was too far gone
far too late,
the hands covered her mouth as she tried to scream
she tried to escape
she gave up, and let him touch her, let him do his thing
they called it rape
the tears in her eyes, as she stood outside
in the the night, beautiful in the moonlight
she took the knife, 
never again would she let herself be touched by him
this was the only way she knew to win

Verse 3:

He's all alone, his family didn't take notice, looking at him like he was worthless
Had No Mom He Had No Dad, His Grandma Tha only Person 
He Had, 
Sometimes, He's Confused, He's sad he's Mad, 
So he sits down alone, and starts Writing on a pad,
And This Is Were Things Go From Good, Too Bad, 
Or Bad Goes Too Good, Like It Should, Now He Does Everything, 
He Wished He Could, Now Nuthin In His Way, Ever Withstood, 
He's not From this Earth, He's MisunderStood.
 
a monstrosity that could possibly end up costin me 
lost in me is how my mind used to be
back when i lost all belief in myself and everybody around me
those that surround me coulda seen that i was frowning when they came
and found me they coulda helped me  but they chose to turn they back on me
so i chose to just stick to the facts and let it all happen,
late nights, just rhyming and rappin
to express a sin that should never be happenin

Verse 4:
im the lucky one, that finally broke free
for all those people out there who ain't as lucky as me
dont keep it all bottled inside, dont keep it locked up, 
you dont need to hide,
dont let them hit you, 
dont let em lay hands on you,
control your mind
open your eyes, look into their faces
you'll understand one day, that theirs beauty even in dark places
its not your fault, this shits happenin
not your fault, that he's attackin, 
stand strong, and find the courage to fight back
to tell someone about 
all thats happened in the past
dont let them suffocate your life
dont let em control your mind
you'll understand one day, that this shits not alright



One Day

This song is for my mates, thanks for everything you have done
for always having my back, for always keeping me strong through whatever was thrown at me

Love you all cunts, 

Whatever gets you down, you know i'll always have your back, no matter what
***there is no chorus, just instrumental between verses*****
Lyrics:
Verse 1:
For so long, i long for home
reminiscing on what i've done wrong
paths split at crossroads
I have to choose one
making a choice harder than any other that i've done
Its time to move on
forget the past
throw away mistakes
to make new ones
I cant see the future through this glass
life goes so fast
but its time i choose to go out with 

Blasting off, feet leaving the ground
I look back and realise there's no going back now
this is my shot
my pad and my pen
the rocket ship
the fuel the ink that im writing with

Mind in a new zone
pictures on the wall like memories
experiences are my inspiration
to tell ya'll a story
about everything you dont know about me

Verse 2:

How will i be remembered?
Weak or Strong, i just wanna be remembered
as i am, not how i was,

Let me lay it down for you, so sit back,
a vast tale about to unravel infront of you

I was given everything as a kid, went without
nothing
always had the love of someone or something
took friends for granted
family i turned my back on em
growing up trying to impress those around me
they couldnt see the pain inside
of me that was growing
making my heart cold
they didn't know it

So i would fight, hit dudes, rock around with knives
getting fucked up with sluts every single night

On my 16th birthday, thats when the news finally broke free
my chest exploding
like flames too gasoline
it stole from me everything
and everthing i could have been

Verse 3:
Tears in the eyes of my closest ones,
saw my family crumble around me
the walls of a normal home
broke down to pave way for a broken one

Hiding behind all fake smiles, 
could never forget the gnawing at the back of my mind
slowly with time it consumed me,
the disease inside
was finally let free

crying evernight to only have my heart broken by those
that were my light
the depression turning into and addiction
for prescribed pills
cutting my wrists to see if i could bleed still
overdose on alcohol
and sleeping pills
but id stay alive
continue the fight turned to drugs
no one had a clue
could hear my mother crying through the walls of my room

Verse 4:

I was becoming the man i had told myself i'd never be
sleeping around, till i found you somehow
taught me to live again
had no money, but i kepts spending
to keep you ignorant of what i was
kept smoking, kept drinking
realised i was trying to impress another someone, but you took my fears away
then you broke my heart, shattered like glass
from an axe, the darkness covered my hands once again
thats when the cops came for me, 3 strikes and your gone,
lucky im still on my third one
but i was still laying in the dust all alone,
but you's picked my up and gave me a home

You's stood by me, brothers in arms, no matter what it was hurting
you taught me to not give a fuck
the demon losing his grip on my heart
mind clearing, taught me to live life because you dont get another one
depression hit, struggling to come to terms with it
but you's kept me sane
and at the peak of the pain, you's taught me to survive and live again
kept me under your wings
told me i wasn't alone 
that you's would have my back through everything

so when i see my mates falling apart, it kills me
you motherfuckers kept me strong, so snap out of it and keep moving on

so as you come to these crossroads
reminiscing on a past full of mistakes and failures
feeling like the world around you is crumbling down and you cant do shit
know that the night is darkest before the dawn and
yeah bro, we can do this






Just A Thankyou

Just something i threw together

Cheers Mr.Quest for the beat





Wolves Eat Sheep