my audio-scrapbook of concrete things, impactful experiences, and nostalgia bombs :)

somewhat an inspection of scotomata of the mind and its experiential perception, through the lens of my digital consumption and formative moments through the years 2001-2023.

make of it what you will <3

beats me!

Being stuck in denial is inherently dangerous, however, sometimes it’s better for the heart.

Lyrics~

Calling up my phone bitch I will click the decline
Walking on a tightrope bitch it’s do or fucking die
Love me or hate me, I still will hate despite
All the efforts inside of the people for demise
The innocence dies while the hellish ways rise
Sipping on the lean while I’m shutting my eyes
It’s better to just cry then to stay in denial

It’s better to cry then to stay in denial
Better to cry bitch than stay in denial
Sick of this world bitch, I’m stuck in denial
Better to cry bitch than stay in denial

Family lies, doesn’t even matter who would love you despise 
I hate all you people, you listen to lies
I’m stuck in denial, I’m short of demise
Got blood on my four six, moving the slide
I’m sweating out toxins, down to my eyes 
Please I’m asking you to hear me out
I know that you’re absolute in doubt 
I feel the same when it comes to life 
When you’re stabbed with the knife by the ones who tell you to strive 
I never wanna love again, I don’t feel alive.
Unless I’m on the drugs that I keep until I take my flight

All that we did was fight, this could not be life
So I made a fucking slice, let it drip down all the way to the rice
I’ve been busting my ass just to please all these people
But this does not last, I’m still antisocial 
I don’t talk to people, I’m separate from life forms
Burning down dorms and I’m ripping floors though
Moving so slow before I’m going solo

Denial (Prod. weloveyouty)

another experiment with AI text to audio generation, testing out how well I could manipulate the generated melodic/harmonic audio into something indistinguishable from a typical sample one would use. hyper-liminal sampling in a way?


thank u mum x

mums thinkpad

se10th

rx-d15

clockradio

roleplay

thank you to the talented katie o'connor for her vocal contributions to this track, as well as @vaygrnt for the photo creds

ANOTHER NiGHT

Alone introduces the more ambient side of me. When creating this track, I wanted to go for something that was dreamy and relaxing. The song is carried by a melodic piano, soft airy vocals and semi-acoustic drums.

Alone

mym8_prim8

Howling morning wind comes close, 
but its nothing next to a womans heart
beauty blooms, but not like the rose,
oh so sweetly blessed, soon to be torn apart

prowling patient hands opposed,
it seems divine, until the curtains close
growling under your sweetest gaze,
stand proudly, lips tightly bound have lost the taste

how many years will this yellow moon of mine remain?
when all your power disappears, will you still remember my name
in the evening amber glow,
i have seen the light in shades of marigold

deep indigo evening bloom,
overflow to fill the empty room
an unshakable faith....still eludes me
only your unmistakable sway can prove me wrong

an Unmistakable Sway

[lyrics]
I ran a hundred laps just to see if id collapse and then I did 

I've been sitting at the pond so long I've probably counted every fish 

almost every quarter I've earned goes right to the well 
I wish apon

every single fish 
ever- every single fish in the sea

I could take you place that you probably never wanted to be 

I could give you nightmares that it make you 
don't go to sleep just what you need 
another lullaby 
so what you gonna cry 
so what you gonna cry

Song 2

hmu if u want any !

beat 1 (00:00)- F#Maj 108bpm mel loop by https://soundcloud.com/anem0s
beat 2 (01:28)- F#Min 138bpm
beat 3 (02:52)- D#Min 124bpm mel loop by https://soundcloud.com/anem0s
beat 4 (04:41)- AMaj 89bpm - sample: crossbow-wubz
beat 5 (05:25)- G#Min 128bpm

files vol.1

One hand 

Vase

Beat inspired by artists such as Rome Streetz, Boldy James, Mach-Hommy and Roc Marciano. 

Rome Streetz x Boldy James boom bap type beat - "Stepback"

Why I didn't Fight the Funk

Old School Essence is a raw boom bap beat with hard-hitting drums, dusty vinyl vibes, and that golden era hip hop feel. Perfect for cyphers, freestyles, or anyone who wants to capture the classic street sound in their rhymes."

Hip hop Old School Essence

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