fuck it im making this public i made this in 30 min

god im sad and pissed off and i feel like such a waste of space for not doing the open for https://soundcloud.com/okstarkie even though i tried for 8 hours straight

lyrics:
[prechorus]
 god im pissed off
tryna make it right
i cant really ever help it 
i cant get her off my mind (who lol what am i talking about )
its the hardest at the night time
eyeing up the razorblade
i got these thoughts up in my mind
that i cannot get away

[hook]
i put 20 on my soul
screaming out im getting old
i swear to god they do not like me
they just liking what i've shown

why the fuck im always wasting all my time
i got places i should go
i got methods i should try

but im stuck up in my ways
so ill vent inside this throwaway
i just wanna cry
but i cannot find the time
(cough)
cannot find the time
swear to god im never right
i just wanna go to sleep
swear to god i just wanna die

[verse]
i cant even keep the will enough that i can scream
baby i just wanna overdose and i just wanna sleep
tell me why im always so upset and why i feel these things
i just want to sit inside my room and cry at my tv
(yeahhh)
lately ive been feeling like im r4msey 
cus anxiety's my only friend 
i popped another ady
now im reeling off the chems

wishing it would end
lying on my bed
i feel horrible for ghosting hunter (and my friends)

[bridge]
yeah
im a worthless piece of shit
i pop another ady i dont ever wanna sleep
cus when i sleep i see the faces of the people that i hurt inside my dreams 
fuck
my
life
(crash!)

[prechorus]
 god im pissed off
tryna make it right
i cant really ever help it 
i cant get her off my mind (who lol what am i talking about )
its the hardest at the night time
eyeing up the razorblade
i got these thoughts up in my mind
that i cannot get away

[hook]
i put 20 on my soul
screaming out im getting old
i swear to god they do not like me
they just liking what i've shown

why the fuck im always wasting all my time
i got places i should go
i got methods i should try

but im stuck up in my ways
so ill vent inside this throwaway
i just wanna cry
but i cannot find the time
(cough)
cannot find the time
swear to god im never right
i just wanna go to sleep
swear to god i just wanna die

[bridge but outro]
lately ive been feeling like im r4msey 
cus anxiety's my only friend 
i popped another ady
now im reeling off the chems

wishing it would end
lying on my bed
i feel horrible for ghosting hunter (and my friends)

vent (ninewaters)

DROWNING (Fumiko X Frostd)

those be my teeth frfr

lyrics:

its all my fault its the way that i made it,
used to spend my time gettin faded and wasted,
time goes on i dont feel better :<
this time i'll blame it on the weather!
cause its better than blaming myself,
and it has been bad for my health
i dont need anyones help,
u still hate me im wishing u well,

got people all around me but i still feel alone :<
it still feels like im drowning dont know where to go.
got a knife in my back and a bullet in my heart,
and i cant open up idk where to start,
get fucked up, till the suns up,
were fucked up don trust us, X2

feels like somethings missing, but idk what,
and ik ive been distant, find it hard to trust,
feels like something should change but im stuck in my ways,
its been feeling the same ive been counting the days,
watch em fly by, why does everything feel like a waste of my time?

its all my fault its the way that i made it,
used to spend my time gettin faded and wasted,
time goes on i dont feel better :<
this time i'll blame it on the weather!
cause its better than blaming myself,
and it has been bad for my health
i dont need anyones help,
u still hate me im wishing u well,

Wasted

[etai]

ride or die want u by my side i know i might've lied but at least i tried to keep your heart intact
right before i die i'll send a heart react
but my messages don't send
never saw it on your end
we were always more than friends
we just didn't know it yet
its the time spent that i regret

[anesthesia]

925 on my wrist, tennis bracelet
big ass blunt to the face imma face it
lost surgeon shawty need a facelift
i stack my racks up tall like its makeshift

luminescence, drain me of my life essence
no resistance, surrender to the death sentence
i make a change, im never coming back to this no more

[etai]

i might take a shot to the head
its what im aching for
spend and then make back all my bread
thats what this ice for
ice so bright its an eyesore
miss my brother axo thats who i stay up and cry for 
all night i could cry more but i gotta stay strong

ride or die w/ anesthesia (prod. deathright)

lyrics:
all this heartbreak got me lyin on the floor
yellin your name and bangin on ya door
we already been thru this shit before
i dont know why i try anymore

every single time we just crash and burn
gave you my all you gave me nothin in return
how i feel is never your concern
i dont think ill ever learn

yellin in my face and youre callin me a scumbag
we both said shit that we cant take back
you will never change its always the same shit
made mistakes we wanna forget
no closure, and youre leavin now
heart open, and im bleedin out
so alone, i wanna scream and shout
run off to your friends and tell em im a bad guy, ex guy
next guy, fuck you to that guy

@kaeod
you dont even know me like that
you just leavin me to burnout i dont want you back
please just tell me what im supposed to do i feel so trapped
you pin me up and chain me down i just wanted some slack
well now im havin nightmares
and i know you would never care
im doing something wrong i can tell
feel the tension in the air (x2)
shattered crown
fallen king im goin down (goin down)
my thrones falling apart now
i wish you that would stick around

crash n burn w/ kaeo (z3nny)

out everywhere :-)

[lyrics]
i think i'm just an afterthought
what would u do if i drifted off?
what would u do if i let it stop?
would u sit back and gently watch?
i try my best but i know the cost
i know she sellin but i never bought
there's this one thing that i never got
there's this one thing that i never got

i can't even relate to half the shit u say
i'm stuck inside my head, i'm trapped inside my brain
it's always just the same, keep pushin u away
tripping over my steps, like every one i take
x2

quit actin like u don't know what i mean
quicksand and ur stuck right next to me
sick of lyin to the people close to me
is this really how it's supposed to be

still dunno what ur waitin for
it's not the same as it was before
don't call my phone or knock at my door
i wanted less when she wanted more
i try my best but i know the score
n i can't do this anymore
there's this one thing that i can't ignore
there's this one thing that i can't ignore

i can't even relate to half the shit u say
i'm stuck inside my head, i'm trapped inside my brain
it's always just the same, keep pushin u away
tripping over my steps, like every one i take
x2

hyperfollow.com/sund3r

closure

afterthought

prod. jichu

its been a long time since i have felt okay
i was wondering where you are today
i was wondering if you wanna hang
i was thinking maybe u could stay 
cuz i been lost for quite a while nowwww
and i just wanna get things figured outttt
please wont u tell me how

lost
and
confused 
where am i 
where have i been

where have i been
i been crying from within
will you please tell me again
is it wrong, is it a sin
to be lost and so confused
i i i feel so abused
i can never bring it back
oh i want to bring it back
so baddd
so baddd
i wish
i wiiiiiiish

its been a long time since i have felt okay
i was wondering where you are today
i was wondering if you wanna hang
i was thinking maybe u could stay 
cuz i been lost for quite a while nowwww
and i just wanna get things figured outttt
please wont u tell me how

please
treat them well
they need
someone to love

someone to love 💖 (prod. jichu)

prod by https://soundcloud.com/nickp3tro
featuring https://soundcloud.com/fictous
both are rly awesome and very underrated so make sure to go support them!!
cover art by mee

hope u enjoy!!

lyrics:
[d3mo]
run it up
run it up
if u tryna make shit up
make shit up
u gon haff ta **take a moment** 
stay focused
i cant let it happen again
no way
no waaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy
i mean
run it up
run it up
u gon see us blowing up
blowing up
u wont even take a moment
to see me
i cant let it happen again
no way
no way

[fictous]
think i been in the fridge 
cuz im the coldest
we not the same bitch 
yeah im a motive
keep my family n friends the closest 
im tryin my best to stay focused
you tryin your best to get noticed
but in the end, 
did they notice?
recently i been 
losin track of time
i'd do anything to make you mine

me and my bros 
yeah we stayin on go
we aint doin this for no show
do it ten times in a row
can't hang with us you a foe
send him to the sky
like a fuckin ufo
do this like I wouldn't know

do this with my eyes closed
everything I don't need I just dispose
standin on my tippy toes
why you gettin mad at me
this is what you fuckin chose
i can never go that low
did this all by my own

(back to chorus :3)

















°˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

happen again w/ fictous (prod. p3tro)

(prod me)

Lyrics <3

(Verse one)
*
If ignorance is bliss, then I don’t want to know ,
And my confidence is shattered so I’ll take it slow ,
Watch as you leave me behind ,
And you still are stuck in my mind ,
And now I feel naïve , why couldn’t I leave?
*
(Chorus)
When you lie awake at night, 
do you think about me? ￼X2
And now it’s him I that’s by your side 
do you wish it was me ? X2
Don’t want you to go, but I know you can’t stay ,
Didn’t really need you anyways ,
So when you lie awake at night, do you think about me? 
*
(Verse two)
And I can never be what you want ,
Can’t tell what’s real I’m too far gone ,
And my head is spinning It all seems wrong,
And I feel so lost like a dont belong,
*
(Chorus)
When you lie awake at night, 
do you think about me? X2
And now it’s him I that’s by your side 
do you wish it was me ? X2
Don’t want you to go, but I know you can’t stay ,
Didn’t really need you anyways ,
So when you lie awake at night, do you think about me?

Twilight

the mix is trash but fuck it

(Lyrics)
*verse one*
Blood rush’d into my head, 
girl you make me nauseous,￼
Wont forgot what you said,
girl ur so damn toxic,

and im trapped,
Need to find a way out,
Too bad,
I dont know how,
Rot away with me dont be scared,
Where u wanna be? I’ll take you there,
They all stare at us but we don’t care, 
Going ghost we’ll pull up in their nightmares,

*chorus*
We don’t fit in but we dont need to,
I promise you that i wont leave you,
As long as the star’s light up the sky,
I promise you that we’ll be alright,

*verse two*
Hold up let me flex, 
making money off hyperpop whats next,
Damn i love the money i be married too a check,
Got ur girl on my line and she be asking me for sex
I could have her be mine break up with you over text,

Something doesn’t feel right,
Lie awake all night,
I’ll try too fight,
My state of mind, 

*chorus*
We don’t fit in but we dont need to,
I promise you that i wont leave you,
As long as the star’s light up the sky,
I promise you that we’ll be alright,

trapped (drma)

I’m fucked up babe
I can’t see straight 
Don’t care what you say 
I’m not gonna wait,
 
find someone else 
I’m tired of wasting my time
Your crying for help 
U tell your friends that you’re fine

you tell me 
that you’re sorry, I know 
I don’t care
You’re so full of yourself 

You tell me 
That you’re sorry, I know 
Don’t care
Youre so full of yourself 

You talk so much 
Inside, I’m fucking numb 
I just wanna smoke,
I drank enough 
You’re saying 
Im fine 
I don’t care 
Anymore,
Keep Checkin up
I ain’t even wanna know 
Talking to myself 
Outside,  alone
She just crashed my car  
Its bout to snow 

you tell me 
that you’re sorry, I know 
I don’t care
You’re so full of yourself 

You tell me 
That you’re crazy, I know 
Don’t care
Youre still full of yourself 

[soul leaves body]

you tell me 
that you’re sorry, I know 
I don’t care
You’re so full of yourself 

You tell me 
That you’re sorry, I know 
Don’t care
You’re so full of yourself
You’re so full of yourself

trapped (drma)

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