produced by killedmyself

mixed and mastered by me

completely non profit


lyrics 

Where u going
I tend to fuck off in the moment
All of my tears started rolling
All of my feelings are showing
Not that im tryna be stoic
I dont not like to be open
Not in the moment and they took advantage
So i find it hard to be open
Trusting is hard when u know that
And talking is hard so just talk fast
Straighten her back
Straighten her hair
Take in it all just be glad u were here
Tryna be clear
U kept me sober for almost a year
U kept me locked up in some kinda fear
But now that im numb i just miss all the tears 
So heres toast to the jaded
And maybe one more cause im faded
Raising our cups to the wasted potential
Id say it a was borderline taken
A typical borderline patient 
Cause nobody know what im saying 
My head is not ledgible fuck what im thinking id say im better off braindead
I am not worth conversation
I feel that i am not changing
Stuck on a loop 
All of the same things that i keep replaying
All of the memories that put me in pain
If im feeling fine why i zero the vape
Freezin my brain
Cause down at my core
I do not wanna relate

if i can be clear (killedmyself)

produced by jolst

completely non profit

lyrics

jolst the one that brought me to the scene
so credits due
he just hit me with some beats
he coming thru
this shit is strictly buisiness 
what u gonna do

gonna do
u gon move
u gon move
its time for artistry
im pulling at ya heart strings
im weaving up a tapestry
nylon with the shoe strings
adidas on my flat feet
fuck 'bout who u might be
might be

emphasis on might be
i been sober 2 weeks
i just hit the break t
cause i aint felt this damn weed
flooded up my home street
it just keeps on rainin
fungus on my damp feet
im tryna keep my teeth clean

mental illness is a bitch u know
i'll be borderline until i grow old
fake sad sayin that u wanna die
there aint no glory in it
go from riding high to on the floor
but thats the story aint it

fuck u know bout how my brain works
what u know about the world thru this screen
oh ya brain hurts
how u gonna say that shit when we had proved u wrong
what u said last night was really fuckin dumb
and wrong
it hurt inside
hearing that shit from a friend
and i was right to isolate myself once again

but what u gonna do
gonna do
u gon move
u gon move
its time for artistry
im pulling at ya heart strings
im weaving up a tapestry
nylon with the shoe strings
adidas on my flat feet
fuck 'bout who u might be
might be

tf u gonna do (jolst)

YOOOOOOOOO IM STILL ALIVE MFS
I LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLLLL

LYRICS
<3 - <3 - <3
Think I just need to let this headache pass
Alone again with these shaking hands
I hear the words as they manifest
Killing me through your sharpened breath-
Wait
Just a little longer
Would you please stay
I wish I was stronger during
These days
I’m feeling like enyu how I 
Decay (Decay)

Now she don’t talk to me
Honestly
Probably never had wanted me
Why am I bothering
Bother me?
Why would you think that it bothered me?
I make a mockery
Copying
Everybody that I’m following
I think I’m hollowing
Wallowing
Every word that I’m swallowing

I won’t pry
Every tear has dried
I stand with open eyes
The ones you always lied to
Memories
The way the
Pressure seems
Will you remember me?
At all

Think I just need to let this headache pass
Alone again with these shaking hands
I hear the words as they manifest
Killing me through your sharpened breath-
Wait
Just a little longer
Would you please stay
I wish I was stronger during
These days
I’m feeling like enyu how I 
Decay (Decay)


manifest (tiedforsilver)

Calender, featuring notahero 
Prod. Ryan Kelly & s0ftskelet0ns

Hope you guys enjoy <3 
#vails #notahero #song #guitar #folk #singer #acoustic #chill #autumn #spring #feelgood #music

Calender (feat. notahero)

how u lyin but u getting what u wnt
i got venom in my viens 
i got toxic thoughts
ive been spelling out your name
with the blood splats on the wall
lighting up my face
while im watching u fall
each time that i see you
they say i turn red and thats before i bleed through
shatter to the floor
oh it was so nice to meet you
youre always wanting more
greedy fuck 
ur with someone new
someone else youll just torture with ur feelings
you dont give a fuc as long as u are appealing
burn it off 
im shouting higher now im screaming
distoring every line, mics peaking cant you FEEL IT
from my pov 
u are fucking selfish 
idk how anybody in the world could handle this
ur spending ur time comparing urself to me????
so we are at both war until just one of us cant breathe

these past few years have been a funny mess
stupid games u play
to outplay the rest
choose ur own way
guess u know whats best
can’t u fight the urge..

venom [sens1tive]

{HOOK}
i have a pain in my stomach 
that I could not satisfy 
it’s eating at me and I don’t why
you left me with no one and nowhere to go and it’s cold its like 20 below outside
I march through the rain in spring and the snow in the winter to make sure that you’re alright    


{VERSE}
a knight with no armor 
a sword with no shield 
but I would be stronger right by your side 
 when I look to the sky I see nothing but darkness
but that was until I looked in your eyes 
my stomach is turning and killing me 
ripping the wings off a butterfly 
my life’s like balatro I’m  playing the cards that I’m dealt and hoping they multiply  
 can’t leave my house without stressin bout death I honestly feel like I’m terrified 
like a horror movie
because I stick to my guns like its call of duty
try to rip through my flesh when the muscles chewy  
and I don’t wanna hear what your saying to me
cus i feel like a mess when it’s late im stressed and the thing that love looks like satan to me

{HOOK} x2


Mixed by @ericgodlow
Prod. by @dercept + @jolst

99knights - satisfy

keep on goin (jabarionthebeat x eric godlow) (snippet) 4/4/24

blow it off p. prodbychen

Yeah…
Lights on.
Nobody home.
⸻

I been dreamin’ in grayscale, heart got no tone
Therapist said I’m fine, but I know I’m gone
Mirror cracked—my face, or my faith?
Either way, I can’t tell love from a wraith

Pop three tabs, let the colors bleed
See God’s face on a flat-screen feed
Angels ghosted, demons on speed dial
And that text she sent? I ain’t read in a while

Woke up with a stranger wearin’ her scent
Said “you’re famous,” I said “nah, just spent”
They think the smile means I’m rich and alive
But the Benz ain’t fast enough to outrun why

Swear this room got too much silence
My own voice got a touch of violence
Labels want gold from a soul I sold
But my muse overdosed in a Prada coat

⸻


I died in a verse they never played
Buried my heart in a pink ashtray
She cried at the post but missed the pain
I lit my truth, then watched it fade

I’m not okay—just well-produced
Tears on the beat make better use
Heaven full? I ain’t surprised
I checked the list—no one survived

⸻

I been poppin’ meds like time travel
To get back to me before the battles
Before the clout, before the void
Before I became what I once destroyed

Used to dream of love, now I just rent it
Put her name in a bar, then resent it
She said “heal” — I said “with what glue?”
I’m too cracked for your Sunday truths

Death wear heels in a Balmain fit
Tells me “dance,” so I do that shit
Crowd scream loud, but I hear my grave
Autotune don’t clean blood stains

Told God “I’ll quit if you send a sign”
He sent a blonde with pills and wine
Said “this your last ride, make it divine”
So I lit up pain like it’s Valentine

⸻


I died in a verse they never played
Buried my heart in a pink ashtray
She cried at the post but missed the pain
I lit my truth, then watched it fade

I’m not okay—just well-produced
Tears on the beat make better use
Heaven full? I ain’t surprised
I checked the list—no one survived

⸻

Yeah…
If I OD, don’t press rewind
Just let that synth play out my mind
Tell my mom I tried, tell my ex I lied
Tell the crowd I smiled when I died inside

⸻

I ain’t a hero
I’m a file they’ll stream
They don’t want me
They want the scream.

Dreamin in Grayscale

Years to burn

STILLNESS

💀🪵

finding a worthy hill to die on

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