Just a butch of songs i listen to when im feeling down.

Sad shit

Go follow my man <3
https://soundcloud.com/fuckhamz

Hammy:
I just wanna know
do you still think of me?
when you're all alone
i hope you still remember me
i don't wanna go
my heart is on your driveway
sitting all alone
they never care what i say x2

never care what i say
driving on the highway
driving on the freeway
you can have it your way
i don't really care girl
look at me and stare girl
i just wanna die now
smokin till i die now
diving on the highway
driving on the freeway
i just wanna see you
hope you want me too
i can't ever think straight
tell em that i feel great
even though i'm lyin
always fucking lying
remember what we had
now i can't stop crying
i just popped an oxy
now i think i'm flying
i just hit the ground
now i'm really dying

Yung Van:
I still have your number in my phone
Sometimes I drive by your home
I think of all the good times
I think we had some good times
I miss waking up to texts
I hate calling you my ex
I should have known this would happen
I should have known this would happen 

I've been driving all night
I'm just tryna feel right
When I think of you though
I don't want to die alone
Thinking bout you all the time
Wish that you weren't getting high
I don't think I'm feeling fine x2
Ive been driving all day
I'm just tryna feel okay
I know I can't run away
Girl you meant the world to me
Think of what we used to be
Wish it was just you and me
Guess we just weren't meant to be
I thought we were meant to be
I just wanna die now
I just wanna cry
I thought you were mine babe
I thought we were fine
Called you every night girl
Cause I thought you cared
Called you every night girl
I was always there
I wish I could walk away from all this pain
I feel like I was cut
I thought you were the one

Wish i was enough x4

FOLLOW HAMMY

i'm not depressed, i just miss you w/Hammy (Prod. Tec)

This song was made to reach out to those struggling with self-harm, depression, suicide, and to spread a message of hope and love. 
If you're experiencing any of these, please seek help right now. twloha.com/find-help/local-resources/ 

Credits: 
Photo Credit: Fulgee vsco.co/fulgee 
Beat produced by Kamikaze www.youtube.com/channel/UCy2k2icln9Qk8EAg6GrSiBg 
Piano Sample Credit: Suzuo - Heavenly soundcloud.com/impintheforest

Lyrics: 
I can finally buy a car just with a beat 
Sell exclusive and a couple hundred lease 
I been stacking cash just like I got them cheats, shit be just like GTA with a Ferrari in the streets 

I been grinding hard 
I been on my guard 
I'm climbing to the top with nothing but my bars 
You never seen them but I got a couple scars 
They on my heart and I got plenty on my arm 

I'm not ashamed to explain where I come from 
Yeah, I just wanna be a better man 
I'm not afraid just to say where my mind was 
Yeah I'm lucky I'm still here I got a plan 

Yeah I had a couple friends that I lost bro 
Yeah they meant the world to me I guess they'll never know 
Bet I wanted to go join them but I can't go 
I just gotta stay strong yeah I gotta grow 


All the money in the world it don't mean nothing 
All the fame in the world it don't mean nothing 
You just gotta find yourself and be something 
Yeah before you know it you be up and coming 


Yeah my corny ass is tryna speak some wisdom to these teens 
I just wanna let em know that life has purpose and a dream 
You can overcome this shit if you stay close to all your team 
Just know that you are important it'll help your self esteem 

I just wanna make it clear 
That you have nothing to fear 
Keep your friends and family near 
Gotta hold on to what's dear 

Yeah I know that feeling of loneliness it just tears you up 
Yeah the darkness and the stressing you feeling it's just too much 
But remember that your life is important so don't give up 
You just gotta make it through but then you be coming clutch 

Listen to me please you are not a burden 
You are needed and I love you as a person 
Hope is real and your story is important 
I'm here to listen to your words that paint a portrait 

I wanna stay 
I wanna breath 
I wanna swim 
Instead of sink

stay (Prod. Kamikaze)

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

prod. @notmorgn

all this alcohol does is just dumb my creativity 
but when im sober feel my pain just much more vividly 
and when im with you satisfaction like some symmetry 
u always crossing my mind like i was in the streets
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding 
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
wait what was plan b
cus i forgot that
inspiration yeah u know 
i fuckin lost that
your heart 
oh yeah i fuckin broke that
im so sorry im so sorry
lifes too short 
and everything kills you
u annoy me bitch
dont ask me if i feel you
whats with this petty shit
just hit my phone now
home alone alcohol in my dome now
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
oh fuck im drunk
i dont think she understands me
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b
im too fucked yeah i can't even text you
im too anti social spending days up in my bedroom
four loko reappearing in the rest room
i dont really care cus imma go to bed soon
and all this nature all it does is congest me
now all my music all it does is express me
and all this nature all it does is congest me
thats all it does
im fucking shaking again
she said i get that
woah shit
i love how she's so understanding
its okay ill just shutup and go to plan b

oh fuck im drunk

prod. @notmorgn

im anxious leave me alone
the evidence typos every word on my phone
and when i speak in trembles
my short nails they resemble 
the fucking speed of my heart rate
chest like a speaker 
double text me she said “o”
like an ether
chemistry what i feel when
i see her
chemicals reactions in my brain when
i feel her
repeating what i say
i do the same shit everyday 
wake up hate the fucking world
go to back to sleep love to decay

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

man on a mission
dismissing bitches
that ain’t submissive 
im cuttin my ties to
count up like a math test
that bitch look good in a black dress
sippin on liquor she on my bed like a mattress
i lie two faced like an actress
digi faces in my bank no cash yeah
im not a rapper im stacking cash like a rapper tho
i leave a bitch dead like they layin in the catacombs

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

i can never stop now 
hit the mall and ball out
cashin out on designer boxers just to fit my fuckin balls now
them bitches see the clout and so they call now 
i never pick up always pull out hol up pause now
i never play i hate the spring im in dismay
im never coming back but when im back please gimme face
but go slow shawty this is not a race
unless we talkin bout tay k then beat the case

and you can have my time you can waste it
you can have my coat if its raining
you can have me if you wanna take it
cus im gonna fade away lemme face it

im gonna fade away

prod. by @notmorgn

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide
please show me
you don’t have to

december in this town
coast breeze so i law low
she can have all of me
whenever she say so
make out more like heart attack
i’m a victim to my cardiac
the bass shake the speaker
like its under pressure
i don’t care if i peak
i just hate compressors
im a loverboy
i can never disguise
i can’t really go
i don’t know how to die

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide

im a loverboy
im a loverboy

dark night but im guided by ur halo
dark night but im guided by ur halo
dark night but im guided by your halo
panic alone im fearful of failure

rooftop just
lookin at the stars
hold my hand
we can drive in my car
2AM
and im playin guitar
on the real
don’t wanna see us apart
i love my friends
but some wanna die
im just tryna help
them stay alive

im a loverboy you can
see it in my eyes
you can see it in my eyes
if you really love me
you can show me don’t hide

loverboy

Lyrics: 
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

wipe my tears cause I gotta get the cash now
no more fears but I feel it when the lights out 
world so cold it’s like I’m living in the arctic
so unknown sometimes I feel like I’m arson
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions 
tell me that you hate me tell me that you loathe me
tell me that I ain’t shit tell me that I’m nothing
heart filled with emotions can't share em with no one
yeah that's why I numb the pain with all these drugs and potions

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

all the shit I done and all the things I seen
made me build a wall to block my memories
yeah, these drugs they got me falling like some leaves
need some novocaine but it ain’t for my teeth
I been fighting all these demons in my sleep
yeah, I’m faded yeah, I’m faded off the lean
don't give a fuck if I don't wake up from this dream
pass me a rope so I can leave reality

I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends
I been crying I been crying on my own
I don't need no one don't need no one at all
cause I never ever ever had a friend
loneliness is like the pain that never ends

The Pain That Never Ends

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ALBUM ARTWORK BY DUKS <3 This guy is sooo insanely talented, please support him!
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Sample Credits: Illenium - Needed You
Illenium - Crawl Outta Love

Lyrics:
Staying up late and I'm staring at my Android
Thinking bout you every minute is a bad choice
You been on my mind and I keep hearing that voice
All the cute things that you said have turned to sad noise

In my head girl you know that I miss you
I been dead girl dealing with my issues
Know I said girl wish that I could kiss you
In my bed now wonder if you'll text soon

Told you all my feelings I don't care what you say
Know I loved you for a minute and it's been every day
So I spilled my guts to you and know you don't feel the same
So I guess I'm moving on to find another new way

I still wonder what you thought of me
Though I won the lottery
Yeah I get this money got some custom Shoes Like Pottery
Money in my PayPal
Don't know what to say now
I'm still feeling empty when I take a hit and lay down

Take that UV down from the shelf
Drink it up I know it'll help
Wonder if you feel like myself
Wonder if you know how it felt

So I'm chasing all these shawtys cause I wanna feel fine
On my Tinder I been matching with these hotties divine
But they don't be showing interest on just what's on my mind
I just wanna find the one their heart connecting with mine

I aint looking for a hookup girl, "then why the fuck you here then"
Don't know what I'm looking for, "then get the fuck out my DMs"
I thought that we could talk, "but I thought that you were DTF"
My heart can't take it girl, I been tryna find some peace

Smoking this gas I been looking for something
I can't see straight but it's better than nothing
Fuck what they think I be clutch how I'm coming
Wander through life and I be looking for loving

Android

produced, mixed & mastered by @notmorgn

woke up at 2 PM
forgot to drop my tape
i’m a stupid mess
forgot the day of the week
wouldn’t be surprised
if i forgot to breathe
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
they ask if i’m depressed
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
can’t tell if i’m depressed

stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
they ask if i’m depressed
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
can’t tell if i’m depressed

to keep 100
i’m so slumped bitch
i’m so slumped
made 5 tracks 1 single week
i can barely even speak
that’s how i work
i move fast
see the fakes
see the snakes in the grass
fake laugh when in lookin at my stacks
it don’t make me feel like it did in the past
grew up
now i’m older
ps side note
i should’ve told her
that when i broke her
i turned way colder

woke up at 2 PM
forgot to drop my tape
i’m a stupid mess
forgot the day of the week
wouldn’t be surprised
if i forgot to breathe
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
they ask if i’m depressed
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
can’t tell if i’m depressed

stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
they ask if i’m depressed
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
can’t tell if i’m depressed

stupid mess

i never apologized | Ft. Two:22 (Prod. Misery)

prod. @notmorgn

i hate the pressure i reside on my own
can’t find the feeling that i found when i was home
quiet wolf in the pack now
i don’t feel good bout fading to the background
i shoulda planned it from the start
now everything is fucked
and we all just tore apart

you never should have trusted me
everything breaks when it touches me
you can’t enjoy my company
save yourself yeah you should run from me

you never should have trusted me
everything breaks when it touches me
you can’t enjoy my company
save yourself yeah you should run from me

i love the pain when you
break my heart
i love to spend my days
in the dark
dusting
i’m like nothing now
all because they think
i’m “something” now
still the same
i can never change
and you know that
i’ve gone insane
i have dreams of a toe tag

you never should have trusted me
everything breaks when it touches me
you can’t enjoy my company
save yourself yeah you should run from me

run from me

V1
Its been like
3 months of no talking
Walking by myself
No more eyes to get lost In
Keep on looking back all the time 
Ill be honest
I hate being alone
at least I got my conscience
Since u left me here
locked up in my room
writing all these songs
Wake up evey morning 
and turn my computer on
Because how else do I deal 
With these thoughts of u and me
I was on the clouds
Now im spiralling into sea
I wrote a message for u
But I couldn’t send it
I regret it
Yuh
Im sorry I’m pathetic
Whats this caught a sickness
and won’t be getting better
The sun might be shining
But it feels like rainy weather


Pre chorus
I trynna keep it on the low
I trynna get u off my mind
I trynna keep my feelings inside
But its hard sometimes


Chorus
I thought with u it might work out
But I guess I was wrong again
Im not sure what it is with me
I’ve never been good with friends
I thought with u it might work out
But I guess I was wrong again
it doesnt matter who u are
Soon we’ll come to the end


V2
Its been about a year
Since we last spoke
Trynna stay clean but need more soap
letting out pain with these words I wrote
Dried up tears and a bit of soar throat
feelings that had were beginning to rot
Starts off good then it suddenly stops
Ya but ill leave it in the past
Now the futures all I got


Bridge
All of these girls, they got me picking sides
Falling in love is like my kryptonite
Don’t know what to do 
No I can’t decide 

Am I meant to be alone?

SPOTIFY

i could never be loved (Prod. Seany OWE)

@kingtheta

If we all love uncontrollably then life on earth will be much better <3
Many can enter but few are chosen.

Lyrics

C
U had me going from the day we met
Made so many memories I can’t forget
Always thinking of the times we spent
But I don’t want to
I don’t wanna think about u

V1
I’ve been feeling lost
Talking with your ghost
Scrolling through ur Insta
Looking through ur old posts
Me and u and doggo
Smiling for the camera
Both of u are gone now
I am just the last of us
Wish u never left me
Wish u never met me
So I didn’t have to feel this pain
Thats never ending
While ur up in heaven
Make sure u save me room
The good will die young
So I hope I die soon

V2
I can see you in the
Bright looks, in the eyes of our friends
Still feelin all the good vibes you'd send
Old books, that you left on my shelf
Remind me that you taught me how to love myself
Your light in every star
You vibrate in my guitar
My life's a show and
You play an important part
The notes you wrote me
Burned their words into my heart
I see you everywhere
it makes forgetting hard

days we had | Feat. king theta (Prod. Jayhmez)

feat. @softhert
prod. @softhert & @notmorgn

(guccihighwaters)
i got toxins running through my veins
keeping me alive but also eating at my brain
maybe i’m the one that fucked it up but girl you changed 
and i’m looking down the barrel when you aim

this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

(Ȿoftheart)
you a keepsake
imma keep you safe
imma hold on
till my bones break
i stay by my lonely 
most my homies out of state
i saw one the other day 
gotta say shit aint the same
dont know what you did to me
only hurts more when she tell me 
that she misses me
im just hers to you 
and your just his to me
save me pull me up and out my misery

(guccihighwaters)
we can’t fight forever
one of us is gonna fall
i’ll make sure it’s not you
keep you safe at all cost
i’ll make it all up
i’ll throw up my guts
if it means i’ll get a touch
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)
if it means i’ll get a touch
(touch from you)
i promise that i'd be enough
(be enough for you)

(Ȿoftheart)
dont wanna hide anymore
dont wanna lie anymore
so sick of fighting
i don't wanna try anymore
so two faced
so double sided i swallow my pride every time that we talk
then send me off
you left a void in my life
and this music the only way i can fill up 
all the silence inside of my room
okay i'm gone
get what you want ill play dead
wont stop until ive made it
same shit
inside im screaming for help outside i dont say shit
save it
wish i could erase it
couldn't face it
uncomplacent

(guccihighwaters & Ȿoftheart)
this time ill try for you
last time last time i died for you
but it’s all my fault
and i’ll take that blame
cause i’m too fucked up
I can’t feel my face

(guccihighwaters)
it’s all my fault
(yeah ill take that blame)
it’s all my fault
(i’ll change my ways)
it’s all my fault
it’s all my fault

all my fault (feat. Softheart)

i just reuploaded this for the 3rd time i hate myself

I can't get you out of my mind, no
Said I think about you all of the time, yeah
Been imagining you all in my bed, whoa
Ay cause you been running round in my head, yeah
Ay, I can't get you out of my mind, no
Said I think about you all of the time, yeah
Been imagining you all in my bed, whoa
Ay cause you been running round in my head, yeah

Maybe I'm just stressed
Maybe need some rest
When I get a text
I can feel my heart beat out my chest
I think I'm obsessed
But this shit is not correct, no
I can't seem to get
Why my brain been doing reps
Overthinking what you say
I been going out my way, yeah
You a little blue in a sky that's always gray
And it's come to seem
You been spotted in my dreams
Been decoding what you mean
Every time you talk to me

I can't get you out of my mind, no
Said I think about you all of the time, yeah
Been imagining you all in my bed, whoa
Ay cause you been running round in my head, yeah
Ay, I can't get you out of my mind, no
Said I think about you all of the time, yeah
Been imagining you all in my bed, whoa
Ay cause you been running round in my head, yeah

Rainy Tapes Vol. 1

Out of My Mind

ｆｕｌｌ　ａｌｂｕｍ　ゲく医

www.instagram.com/notemrys
cursed with the halo

ft. @guccihighwaters
www.instagram.com/guccihighwaters
prod. nrmn.btz.

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cursed ft. guccihighwaters (prod. nrmn.btz.)

This song means a lot to me, I really hope you all enjoy it <3
@retrohills
mix and master by: @itshuskai

Lyrics-

I would only die for my day one’s
I would never ride for no fake ones
If you got a problem you can say sum’n
I would give my life for my day one’s
I let you in and then you broke me
I just wanted somebody to hold me 
Don’t hit me up when you are lonely
I got a new number, you can’t phone me
I thought you were the one, and I’d hold you down
I thought you were the one but you let me down
I don’t feel the same when you’re not around
No, I don’t same when you’re not around 

I would only die for my day one’s
I would never ride for no fake ones
If you got a problem you can say sum’n
I would give my life for my day one’s
I let you in and then you broke me
I just wanted somebody to hold me 
Don’t hit me up when you are lonely
I got a new number, you can’t phone me
I thought you were the one, and I’d hold you down
I thought you were the one but you let me down
I don’t feel the same when you’re not around
No, I don’t same when you’re not around 

Ayy, yeah I was never yours
Don’t act like you love me if you aint gonna give more x3

I would only die for my day one’s
I would never ride for no fake ones
If you got a problem you can say sum’n
I would give my life for my day one’s
I let you in and then you broke me
I just wanted somebody to hold me 
Don’t hit me up when you are lonely
I got a new number, you can’t phone me

OTHER PLATFORMS

I Just Wanted Somebody To Hold Me (Prod. RetroHills)

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ohsobrkn ~ why am i so different?

Thanks @undergroundunderdogs for the article: https://undergroundunderdogs.com/articles/unknxwn-is-the-voice-in-your-head-with-i-didnt-care/

Lyrics

dont act like you care cause proboly dont
dont say youll be there cause i know that you wont
repetitive relationships, put my trust into others and i always end up alone
I need a bullet to go thru my dome
You can tell by my tone that somethin' is wrong
I'm tired of lookin' at this fuckin' room
I'm tired of waking up feeling the blues
My hearts black as tar that ive put in my lungs
The songs that i make, when i make are not fun
I shine but I die while i burn like the sun
When faced with a problem my choice is to run

I say that I'd rather die & some people take that shit as a joke
They laugh & they smile so fucking hard
I bet they would laugh if i took a rope
Then tied that bitch into a fuckin noose
Then stood the fuck up on a fuckin' chair
Jump & then struggle fightin' for air
Suicide note reads: "I didn't care."
My life would be perfect if i was dead
Or maybe i havent taken my meds
And all of the thoughts are just rushing back, and i just forgot how to deal with that

Yeah
maybe thats it, thats why im feelin like this, thats why I feel like if i died right now i proboly wouldnt be missed
Positivity on E
no one could clean up the mess that is me
i push away everyone that i meet
why have a purpose you cant even see?

My heads fucked up
Fuck your fake love
Feel sad, take drugs
New place, new plug

spotify.

i didn't care. | Produced by Biv

TRACK #2 FROM "THE TWO OF US ARE DYING".

ARTWORK BY KYLE J THOMPSON.

COMPOSED, ARRANGED, WRITTEN, PERFORMED, RECORDED, PRODUCED, ENGINEERED, MIXED, MASTERED & RELEASED BY KILLSTATION.

PREMONITION (PROD. KILLSTATION)

Just a kid fucking around on Soundcloud

Inquiries:
wrecktanglemusic@gmail.com

Sad shit

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