you could never grow up
but your time will still come
can’t always be young

you can braid your own hair 
but still let knots come undone
can’t fix every one

it’s a curse to not care 
why can’t I cherish the fun
scared i’ll forget all I’ve done

finding new lives to live
neglecting this one
got by but that wasted time

was worth more than gold
when I look back on what’s mine
not sure if I lived it right

you can’t save the days
you wish you could hide

I’m done
I’ll remember this one

you could beat yourself up
until you’ve finally won

and lose just the same

you could write it all down 
but watch your ink drip and run

turn pages and pages

it’s a curse to not care 
why can’t I cherish the fun
will it all be lost when I’m gone

I could throw it away
I could fade with the sun
till then
I’ll remember this one

Victory

Fade With The Sun

We’re going back again
Going back where it started
I’m looking back again
It was fun while it lasted
So unsettling for you to say to me we both lost it
Our home is covered in dust our days there were fun while they lasted

And I don’t know how I wake up and live like this
Just wasting time avoiding the silence

Don’t know where to go
Nowhere feels like home
How can I leave behind all I know
Am I living life, if I’m so terrified
And never happy where I am?

Lately a mess, I’m so obsessive, its too late
Is it in my head, feelings I’m tying to forget, but I cant change
I just want to feel again I don’t want to go another way
Keep running away from my fate

I’ll drive through the city as I wake up
To remind me of the place where we grew up
From the smell of the smoke that killed our lungs
To the parties where nobody wanted to show up
But i never quite expressed the love I felt
Ill drive this car into the water and choke on my seatbelt
Found my guts age 22
I’m gonna do what I wanna do

I wanna be brave
But I’ll fall on my face
I just wish I could take my time
Easy to say but I can’t look away

Don’t know where to go
Nowhere feels like home
How can i leave behind all I know
Am I living life, if I’m so terrified
And never happy where I am?

Kawasaki Boy RE-AMP

hott new track (but instrumental) xoxo

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bai bai~ (Instrumental Version)

widescreen problems 
portrait lives
canvas stretched tight
right on the cover of your
drip feed comfort
paradise
charades brought to life

it’s raining
your paint stained the air I breathe

some die young
while few will thrive
make up your mind
I bet if I said I was
8 feet tall and
never lied
the paint would never dry

you made me
I envy the life you see

I’ll see this through to the end
so I can live again

brain stem fried on
power lines

you made me
I envy the life you see

it’s fading
your paint stained the air I breathe

the race that never ends
bad start, turn two
they wave the checkered flag
what am I supposed to do?
I’ll write my own end
front page and center spread
cover your paint with my pen
so I can live again 

(I so badly
wanted you to see
what I couldn't be

well grab a seat
failure is about to repeat)

you made me
I envy the life you see

It’s fading
your paint stained the air I breathe

Left Handshake

Lyrics:


If I tumble down
Will you stick around?
'Cause I think I'm going out of my mind

Every unheard sound
Every flaw you found
Everything I have will never be mine

If I fake you out
Will you shake my doubt?
Do you think that I'll get better in time?

'Cause every voiceless shout
You forget about
And it's gonna send me over the line
But I'll never be this broken again

So stay awake
I promised you I'd make it through
Pray for me to be someone new
It's not like I wanted to

If I double back
Will you drop your act?
'Cause I'm waiting for the cycle to end

But you still distract
From the point you lack
And you try to drag me under again

Dammit, shut up
Scream until you find a way to tear it from my hands
But you're just too stuck up
Losing every memory of who I really am
(I'll never be this broken again)

So stay awake
I promised you I'd make it through
Pray for me to be someone new
It's not like I wanted to

So stay awake
I promised you I'd make it through
Pray for me to be someone new
It's not like I wanted to

Everything I Have

Last single from my upcoming album Peripheries, which comes out in two weeks, June 20th! So excited to share the complete record.

Never Far

I have a question 
you can’t answer
I won’t tell you,
it’s for the better
the way I learned was nights
regretting my whole life
coyotes call
high desert sunrise
I fly so far
just to kill the time
a silent war
is loudest in my mind
why can’t I just live with the past
and change my life


gods forgive me
I am the reason
I can’t promise
things will be different
my odds are paper thin
this is my penance
to be the keeper 
of all my mistakes
and feelings

There’s a voice outside your window
With the same face that you lied to
The cause of all that isn’t right
Was something beyond the point that you would’ve recognized

A numbness rippled up and down
The shafts of light won’t hide it now
Your hands all stained with shades of red
You weren’t in control and now it weighs upon your head

Gods forgive me I know the reason
I understand that this time will be different
Had tunnel vision for 20 years so
It’s only now that I learned to let go

I wanted to love you but maybe I didn’t
I guess that the distance you made was deliberate
Did I misunderstand when you wanted to be close
Cause if I was wrong tell me how the hell would I know

bai bai~ (Instrumental Version)

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